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IM A FUCKING FAILURE

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i need something to lower my heart rate

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no one actually likes me lmao

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i chose coke over a relationship

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and id do it again

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i chose coke over a relationship

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i got raped

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in so much pain

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born alone die alone

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same shit different year

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i want so desperately to not rely on my addiction. i know its more fulfilling to put effort into a relationship than ruining it by drug abuse and instant validation. but i physically cant resist the fucking urge, i hate myself for it. what went so wrong that i crave substances that give me the upmost instant relief against my fucked up thoughts

[stuckinapril]

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no one fucking cares

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im so tired

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pls i don’t wanna fucking wake up

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im so tired

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thank fucking god for benzos

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well heres a positive thought! thank god im here for dopamine

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i have used all my dopamine

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well heres a positive thought! thank god im here for dopamine

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whats the point of being here to make mistakes