The universe has a way of speaking to me when I need to read or hear something the most. I picked up @brenebrown new book, "Braving the wilderness" the other day and I couldn't have done so sooner. To be completely honest, I have been feeling so lost and confused about the direction of my life. Ironically enough right after I decided to teach yoga full time. I have felt numerous times that I don't belong in the yoga world even though it's what truly speaks to my soul. I have felt this because I have been comparing myself to all the other yoga teachers I see in town or on Instagram and all other forms of social media. I am NOT your fancy yoga teacher who can do handstands, or arm balances, or even touch my toes on certain occasions. I can't do the splits. I can't do Bird of Paradise. I can barley even do Downward Dog on some days. I feel like I a phony, a fraud, and not a "real" yoga teacher because I cannot do those things. I don't have thousands of followers on Instagram and on some days I can't even get people to come into my classes. I feel like I failing. I feeling discourage and heart broken that what I wanted so bad to be a reality is so far out of reach that it doesn't even seem like a possibility anymore. I feel like an outsider and that I really don't belong in this community of yoga teachers. I don't know where I fit and there lies the problem. I have NEVER fit in anywhere. I have always stuck out and been different from a vey young age. My mom has told me for as long as I can remember, "Jenny, you have always just marched to your own beat. You always have. You hear music others can't hear" Fucking great. No kid wants to stick out and be different. Or at least I sure as hell didn't. I was a target from the start. I was bullied and at times felt God was punishing me for being so sensitive. I still to this day struggle with being who I am. It is still hard feeling like you don't fit in anywhere and are so misunderstood. And as I sit here reading Brene Browns words and a quote by Mayo Angelo, it finally clicks. Stand in YOUR truth. Stand in your Power. Do not be moved.