Hour of the Wolf

Navigating through this thing called life. Husband, father, jiu jitsu. Follow the journey

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Morning motivation for you ✊🏼🔥

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I Stand on the Shoulders of Giants

It’s 1213 in the morning here in Hawaii, and I can’t get to sleep. I can’t shake the thought of how lucky me and my family are. I mean, we have a roof over our heads, jobs that provide us with income, and our biggest worry at this point is deciding where to eat or cook for dinner eat night. Much of the ease of mind is very much due to my parents who have financially planned and invested well for not only their future, but also for further generations after. 

How did I get so lucky? Don’ t get me wrong, I’m not shy to hard work, and I wasn’t raised in a luxurious manner either. I hardly saw my father growing up, he was always working two jobs or more to provide for my mom and I. My mother worked jobs here and there, but mostly took care of me, and the place we were staying at the time (VERY HARD WORK AS WELL). At the times both my parents were working, I would stay with family friends who took care of me till I could see my parents on the weekend. 

For so many years we bounced place to place, not having a home of our own. Money was still tight, but the faith I had in my parents to provide was never shaken. I truly hope I can do the same for my son. As years went by, I’ve witnessed my parents come from simple beginnings, to financial titans. As I got older, I realized that it wasn’t just the countless hours, and blistered hands that made it possible for my parents to later buy three houses on one street and a condo in the Philippines. It was also with the help of my mother’s parents who provided for them. 

Fast forward, I have my own little family I’m in charge of taking care of now. I worry sometimes if I’m doing a good job, and if the I can live up to the legacy my family has set for me. I sit here, and look at the clock, and I can only wonder what else the future has for me. It’s my turn now to make a trail for my son. All I can say is that I welcome life’s challenges with open arms, because that is the way my parents faced struggle, and how the generations did before them. 

How did I get so lucky?

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TODAY IS THE DAY

Today was an eye opener for me. I realized that I had gotten FAAAAAT. I mean I’ve always been a pretty big guy, but this has definitely been the biggest I’ve ever been. Although life has been extremely great, I can definitely feel the ill effects of my weight. After two months of being sick, I decided to make today, the day I returned to the Jiu Jitsu academy. After squeezing into my gi, I could tell that I needed to start to change something extremely fast. Jiu JItsu holds a special place in my heart, and this extra weight is taking its toll on me physically and mentally. 

On this day, I weighed in at 221 lbs. Today is the day that I start taking initiative, and start to shrink that number. 

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So lucky to wake up next to you everyday

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Work Charm

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Fatherhood

Truly on of the greatest and definitely stressful experiences a man can partake in. Its been a little over a year now since I’ve become a father, and I can truly say that I love everything about it. It’s crazy to think that I’m responsible for bringing up this little guy. Not just to bring him up, but to bring him up right. Life has changed dramatically for me. Of course I miss some things I was able to do before I had a kid, but I would trade those things in a heartbeat for this little guy. The things I held important, seem to be childish and mediocre now that I think about it.

It was always a goal of mine not to just be a dad, but to be a great one. One of those dads that could give their kids everything they never had. I want to be a hero in my son’s eyes. A dad that he could come to for help and guidance. I want to be the perfect dad. As each day passes, I’ve come to realize that perfection is simply unsustainable. I’m starting to notice my faults and shortcomings. I’m coming to the realization that I may never be that perfect dad.

This has been stressing me out now for a couple of months. I don’t know what I would do if my kid ever figured out that his dad had some kinks in his armor. But then again, is it really that bad? I mean even Superman had his weakness right? My Wife always reminds me that I’m doing a great job. That I’m already a perfect dad, and I should stop killing myself over such small things. I guess she’s right. My son is well taken care of, and is loved beyond measure. I guess I just have stop stressing about the things I can’t control. Right now lets leave it at that. Be grateful for the life you have, because there’s someone out there that would switch places with you in a second.