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Aileen,
You know how we used to dream of seeing the world? Well I didn't actually see the world, but I did go to India at one point. I found this at the Burra Bazzar in the Kolkata, which is in West Bengal. Not that it really matters, I just thought I'd put that in there. Anyways, I saw it and I thought of you. There really isn't a reason for me to hold on to it anymore.
Merry Christmas
-Adrian
"Oh...Um, thank you. Thank you very much."
Send "Can I kiss you?" to see how my muse responds.
I thought we were going to get m a r r i e d
but now
we just hate each other’s guts
"Hmm, guitars and baked goodies huh? Can’t tell that from the sight of you threading water. Come on, lemme give you a hand," Agnes reached out a hand to the man, grin plastered on her face.
"Well you can't tell a lot about a person in a twenty second period, I don't think."
"Well, it’s not that bad. I mean, all I have in mind now is ‘Mr. Obsessed with water so much that walking on land is not an option’.”
"Oh yeah, totally should have been an Olympic swimmer. Id prefer it if it was 'Mr. guitar-obsessed dork with a cookie/brownie addiction, to be honest"
"I could’ve figured something out! I was on scholarship at the best university in Switzerland and you think I couldn’t figure something out? There were other options. Other programs I could’ve been accepted into. Because that boy with the guitar was the one that I chose to spend the rest of my life with. For better or worse, remember?" Her heart felt like it was breaking again. She felt like she wanted to cry her eyes out, but how many tears did she have left to shed? "I never asked you to drop out." But her heart hurt to hear him talk like that. How many times had she seen someone strumming a guitar on the quad and thought of him? How many times had she heard someone singing and imagined his face with the voice? He was everywhere…he had never left her. She had to look away. Because her eyes could probably tell the extent of her pain. "Want to know something? Yes. I married someone else. He’s long gone now. But it never made it hurt less. Because you were everywhere.” Her eyes watered at the mention of her husband…dear god Allie, not now!
"In hindsight, I realize there were other options, but I was 22 and stupid! All I thought about was how everything could go wrong and how much you would hate me if you lost the people you love, or your dream, and I didn't want that. At least if I left, you would only hate me, you wouldn't loose people! It made sense at the time." he ran his fingers through his hair in frustration. "I know you didn't. But I couldn't handle it." he looked away. How pathetic was he? He couldn't even stay in university because he was scared he would run into his ex-fiancee. "At least you loved enough to find someone again. At least you were happy. That's all I wanted for you."
"Certainly not, especially considering your job here." He stretched his arm down and out for the fallen guard. He smiled, controlled but not entirely disheartened. The man just looked too amusing all drenched, honestly.
"I doubt anyone’d like a soaking wet, clumsy big guy maintaining their safety. Y’might wanna work on that." His tone wasn’t malicious, though. Just passive, maybe a little teasing. He’d gotten a notice about a new guard.This guy seemed okay.
Adrian gladly grabbed onto his arm, and hoisted himself onto the dock, The man pushed the sopping wet hair out of his faced and looked up at the person who helped him. "Working on the soaking wet part, though I'll try to avoid being attacked by a seagull next time." he grinned.
"We were happy and that was enough for me!" Her family had been wrong…and she believed they would take her back, maybe it would be a few years…but they loved her too much not to take her back even if she disobeyed their orders. "But you want to know the hole in your logic? While you were concerned about me losing the people I loved, I lost my true love! That’s something you can’t forget!" Yes she had fallen in love again….her husband was a kind and patient man. Their romance had been so vastly different from hers and Adrian’s, but it didn’t mean she loved him less…but when you truly love someone, they never really leave you. God everything hurt so much. Why did it have to be her?
"Yes, we were. But I wasn't about to drag you down with me. It wasn't only your family, though that was a huge part of it. What about your career? You weren't done with school yet, you were giving up the thing that you loved and worked so hard for, because some guy with a guitar asked you to marry him? How selfish could that guy be." he wanted to scream and cry and throw things, but he had to keep his cool around her. For both of their sakes. "You think you're the only one who couldn't forget? You weren't the one who dropped out of university because I didn't want to risk seeing your face because I knew I would cave, you weren't the one who saw you at every corner, every time I saw a whip of brown hair or heard music on the radio, I haven't been able to stop thinking about you for ten years!" he tightened his grip on his soaked shirt. "I wasn't expecting you to forget, I was expecting you to fell in love with someone else, so even though you remembered it wouldn't hurt."
She saw the change in his eyes and she tried to keep control of her own emotions. Once she fell down that rabbit hole, there would be no return. “Stop saying that you did it for me! If you ever felt anything for me, you would have known that I made my choice! I chose you and you didn’t care! Logic. Logic? Oh how coldhearted you look at our past.” she practically spat out. She meant nothing to him. That was what he was getting at. At least, that’s what she believed. “I only brought it up, because I never thought I would have to lay eyes on you again.” She didn’t stop him when he said that, but she kept her back rigid and her face expressionless. Her job had just gotten a whole lot more painful…not only was there a pregnant duchess and dozens of royals that she hated…her heart was now on the line again. She didn’t think she could take it anymore.
"You wouldn't have been able to live without your family and you know it Aileen! Sure, we were happy and in love, but how long until you missed them? They said they would never take you back if you went with me. I wasn't worth it. I thought you would fall in love, marry someone else, be able to talk to your parents for gods sake, and you would be happy because you didn't have to loose the people you cared about! I wanted you to be happy! I wanted you to forget me, I wanted you to move on so you could be happy." He didn't want to have this conversation. It hurt too much, to be honest. Couldn't he just dig himself a hole and bury himself inside? That would be more pleasurable than this.
"Did what had to be done? You left me under that tree…waiting! You didn’t even have the decency to tell me you weren’t coming! You couldn’t be a man and end it yourself! No…you left me there for hours!" Bitter…oh god she was so bitter. But she needed to keep control of herself. What was done was done. There was nothing they could do now. And as her eyes seemed to be filled with ice, she refused to let any warmth fill them or her tone. There it was…wanted to spend the rest of my life with. How dare he. “Since we are to act professional, you will not bring up our past. Ever. Unfortunately, I am the only doctor on call and I believe there are only a handful of guards, so the chances of us running into each other are quite high. But though things may not be fine, we are to pretend for the royals’ sake.” Another thing that left a bitter taste in her mouth…doing something for those damned royals.
At this point, Adrian snapped. She had every right to be upset with him, but he had done it for her. Because he didn't want her to live her life without her family. So she could marry someone who was worthy of her, not some loser with a guitar. "I did it for you. I didn't come and tell you myself because I knew I wouldn't be able to do it. But it was the most logical thing I could think of doing so you could be happy." He half yelled. His face hardened. He couldn't open up this door again, he couldn't. "I'm not the one who brought it up." he pointed out, "Alright, Doctor. Then I suppose I'll take my leave." he spoke stiffly. For the royals. For the kids he wanted to protect because he couldn't protect Kenzie. For their sake, not because she said so. At least that's what he tried to tell himself.
She crossed her arms and kept the mask on her face. She would never show him how much he had destroyed her. Ever! His face…the one that no matter how hard she tried, she could never forget. “Anything but that! You can’t just pretend like it didn’t happen! You can’t pretend that everything is fine!”
Adrian ran his fingers through sopping wet hair, turning around, "I don't know what you want me to tell you Aileen! I did what had to be done." he spoke, never breaking eye contact with her. It took so much restraint to prevent himself from... he didn't know what. Something stupid, probably. He put his hands on his hips and looked back up at her, "I'm not pretending everything is fine. The world is ending and I'm arguing with the woman I wanted to spend the rest of my life with for the longest time. Everything is not fine, quite the opposite, actually."
Aileen saw his face…the pure shock written all over it! And her heart stopped…that feeling that she had thought had been gone seemed to come back with a passion, but she hardened her face as she regarded him. He had left her there. And she owed him nothing. “Obviously not.” she said coldly and then he spun around and walked away. Something inside of her snapped and she got so angry! It had been building for years now she supposed and she yelled after him. “The first time you’ve seen me in nearly ten years and that’s all you can say to me?! Sorry if I got you wet?! No explanation or anything? I get it. Run from your problems like you always have!” Coward. she mumbled in her head.
Adrian winced, but kept going. He had to leave, he couldn't do this. He couldn't fight with her, he couldn't break her heart all over again. He did what he did for her, couldn't she see that? The man stopped and turned behind him, facing the woman who'se face had haunted him for the past ten years, "What do you want me to say, Aileen?"
