If I Had A Heart...

ileen Friedmann at your service. 32 years old and proud to be Swiss. Don't call me anything other than Dr. Friedmann. "Bitterness and resentment only hurt one person, and it's not the person we're resenting-it's us."

[dr-aileen-friedmann]

Why did you roll your dice, show your cards? Jilted lovers and broken hearts You're out on the wind and I'm still waiting to be found. ____ Yeah! Will I ever win? Only time will tell You got to suffer to remember how well That are our ideals never really marched in time That's the bottom line Jilted lovers and broken hearts

[dr-aileen-friedmann]

angel smiles and tattered wings || self para

“Sadness touches everyone, even those who shouldn’t feel sad at all”

Aileen let the letter in her fingers drift to the floor as her back hit the wall. She may be a woman of 32, but her emotions could threaten to drown her ( much like her demons, but those had forgotten that she had learned how to breathe under water long ago ). Her lab back in Switzerland had been burned by religious radicals who claimed that the Virus was God’s retribution for the world’s sins. Allie wasn’t a particularly religious woman, but if there was some higher power above, then He was certainly laughing at the chaos humans created themselves without the work of the devil. She had merely been trying to help families like hers . . . she had lost her dear husband to the disease && as a doctor, it was her life goal to save as many around her as she could. How could she turn a blind eye to the destruction around her?

That particular ability had proven far to easy for a ghost from her past who had showed up unexpectedly, but like all ghosts, he disappeared without a trace after toying with her mind. She had briefly begun to think that there was something there . . . something inside of her that was a remnant of the softness she used to have in abundance . . . but the ghost had tricked her into seeing it. It was an illusion, or she forced herself to believe that as memories of a sweet New Year’s kiss faded in her memory. He had left her waiting under that tree so many years ago && he had left her waiting again, but had she really expected something? No . . . but she had let her heart thaw for but a moment before losing all of it.

Hate tainted her tongue at every turn, even towards those who did not deserve such treatment from her such as the nurses under her. The island was poisoning her mind && suddenly it felt like she couldn’t breathe . . . couldn’t concentrate on anything but leaving. Her position would have been coveted by those who shared similar political views as her, but she couldn’t bring herself to harm the royals around her. Her hate was reserved for the Swiss monarchy . . . though none of them had had the decency to show themselves to her if they were even on the island at all. ( God forgive her for what she would do to the royal children if they had found themselves in the infirmary. The king had robbed her of her husband && child . . . perhaps she could show him what it felt like to be left childless )

The large ink letters on the correspondence seemed to assault her eyes as the words summoned scorched itself onto her brain. She had been summoned back to Switzerland to continue her research work . . . it seemed that she would always be at the mercy of the king && that she was of more use to him in her lab than she was locked away on the island God forgot. Summoned, she huffed as her hand found the scotch bottle beneath her desk. You may call me back home, Your Majesty, but you have merely invited the wolf into the sheep’s den.

She would have her revenge && if she hanged for it? She could care less . . . it would merely mean she would be able to hold her darling child && kiss her sweet husband sooner than she had planned.

[dr-aileen-friedmann]

[jaeausten]

[dr-aileen-friedmann]

( Sonja ) :

“They all seem to have grown fondness towards this island already. Although, I have never really acquainted myself with the island yet. My first destination will be my own room.” 

“ Do you need directions, Your Highness? “

[pixiedustandcoffeelust]

get to know me meme: [2/5] favorite relationships → Mary and Matthew

I would never be happy with anyone else as long as you walked the earth.

[dr-aileen-friedmann]

( Sonja ) :

“I was never fond of the idea of coming here from the very start. But I couldn’t deny the fact that this island is beautiful in so many ways.”

“ I don’t think any of your royal counterparts were, Your Highness. It certainly has it’s charm. “

[romelzacarnes]

Behind the Scenes | Christmas Special 2014

[dr-aileen-friedmann]

( Jean ) :

Jean leaned forward just a bit, touching the back of his neck. Breathing started to become a hassle and he could feel his throat closing up. His eyes widened and looked at the plate, “W-what did they put in those…c-cookies…?”

Aileen noticed the swelling and immediately jumped to the conclusion that the cookies had nuts in them. She had memorized most of the royal files, but his had stuck out in particular because his allergies were life threatening. Dear God was she really going to save the life of a man who represented everything she hated? If she had any sense in her, she’d let him die . . . but she was a doctor and doctors saved people, regardless of who they were. “ Your Majesty, do you have an Epipen with you? “

[dr-aileen-friedmann]

( Sonja ) :

“I, for one, am already starting to despise this place after just one look.” 

“ Has it made that bad of a first impression, Your Majesty? “

[dr-aileen-friedmann]

( Blythe ) :

“Oh no, it’s quite alright.” He pushed the file to the side “ Oh ! Wonderful, Is it Leonard’s file? He mentioned you sent hi towards me.”

“ Actually, yes it is. I do believe he would benefit immensely from your services Dr. Jacobs. “

[blythe-jacobs]

“Oh that was just … A thing I can deal with later.” He got up from his seat “What brings you here?”

[dr-aileen-friedmann]

“Oh I would hate to intrude.” she said before eyeing his paperwork. “I came to drop off a file of a patient I’ve referred to you.”

[jaeausten]

[blythe-jacobs]

Quickly raises his gaze to see who he shushed only to see Dr. Aileen standing in front of him “Oh, sorry. I thought you were someone else. “ 

[dr-aileen-friedmann]

“It is no bother, surely your work is of the upmost importance.”

[jaeausten]

[dr-aileen-friedmann]

( Blythe ) :

“Shh. Quiet.”

[dr-aileen-friedmann]

character aesthetics || aileen corina friedmann

' People say that I am heartless, but I’ve just learned to use my heart less. ’