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I don’t think enough people talk about RSD (rejection sensitive dysphoria). Like, it’s so embarrassing, especially as an adult.

Sometimes, you need to be told that you were out of line or that you fucked up. And I want to take the reprimand/criticism and work on it.

But instead I have to try not to cry and then go cry when I’m alone and keep thinking about it the whole day while swinging between anger and self hatred.

Like damn. My nervous system does not need to be reacting like that

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No, my trauma didn’t make me “stronger.” It made me more sensitive—and not the beautiful kind of sensitive, but the annoying kind. The kind where I take everything to heart, where I always react and self-sabotage,where I can’t control my emotions and sometimes even resort to physical violence. The kind lwhere I obsess over and chase people who’ve blocked me—either trying to tear them down for abandoning me or begging them to come back. Trauma has made me lose interest in everything except food, alcohol, and dressing pretty. And I hate that it has come to this, because there’s so much I want to do.

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For the little kids whose brains couldn't handle so much pain so they blocked out the memories of their abuse: you are valid. What they did to you was real even if you can't feel it like that. You are a real victim who deserves real justice. I love you so much. My inbox is always open for everyone who needs it.