FunnyIsn’tIt

TW: ED // Depression // idk //23

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logging back into this account and reading my past postes

Maybe it wasn't that deep

bye bye ✨

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I really want to make art, I can’t see myself as something different then an artist. But I can’t bring myself up to paint.

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The last week I slept 15-18 hours per day. The rest of the day I was laying in my bed. Today I wanted to change something by trying to clean my room. So I stood up, put some things from one corner into another, stardet crying after 10 min( it was to exhausting, how can this be to exhausting, I don’t get it???) and now I’m back in my bed, good night.

I wish everything would just end.

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Startet crying in a grocery store because I dropped glass

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I didn’t wanted to talk to anyone today, I just wanted to be left alone, so I gave only short answers to a friend. I just couldn’t talk.

Their response “don’t get depressed as well now”

I hated that respond.

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For anyone wondering how the rest of the day went.

I was a mess. As soon as I came home I cried and didn’t stoped and then went to sleep and woke up crying.

Now I’m gonna bake some muffins.

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It’s my birthday and the first time in years I didn’t stardet it alone. Had some fun hours playing valorant with a friend loved everything (:

[c0ffinbunnii]

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A kid told me to unalive myself in Valorant right now

Even if he of course didn’t meant it like it I’m crying

Thank you

Edit

Next round I got the sweetest girl ingame valo god is real

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Tbf i didnt even thought I would ever turn 22

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My 23 birthday is coming up, I need to decide if I want to continue or just give up

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I wish to be dead but I’m scared that I would miss something beautiful in my future but then again is there something waiting for me at all?

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Yesterday was pretty bad. Had a lot of suicide thoughts and couldn’t stop crying for moste of the day but I decided to play valorant because it’s the only thing that makes me happy currently.

Two nights ago my teammates where toxic and overall not nice, in all games for like 8 hours.

Yesterday valorant decided to give me the kindest an funniest teammates I could ask for. Thank you

It helped a lot, they made me laugh and they will never even know.

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I just don’t understand why I am so sad

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What is messing with my head right now?

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Ii don’t want to see 2023

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I stardet a cult in my university and I have already 13 follower let’s go

My plan is to overthrow my uni because she is trash

(For legal reasons I would never it’s just funny)