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Name: Gui Fen Date of Birth: 22/12/1991 Educational Institution: University of Adelaide Studying: Architecture Loves: Family Friends Tennis Kpop Holidays Beaches Laughing Tiffany Shoes Handbags Fashion Shopping Sun Relaxing Food Traveling Music Chocolate Surprises AND THE LIST GOES ON AND ON

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I feel selfish for saying that I'm unhappy, because I'm blessed with so many amazing things in my life. I guess I'm not exactly unhappy, i just don't know what makes me happy anymore 0.0 if that makes sense. I think a lot of it has to do with friends. I used to try quite hard in making friendships work, doing things for people, calling people out, and I really liked going out with groups of people. I don't know why or how I stopped doing that :( I guess I felt like if people wanted to be friends with me they would do what I would do for them. In a way I feel like everyone's moving on, and I'm not just staying in the same spot, I'm going backwards. I see everyone making more friends, becoming happier but it's like the total opposite for me. I feel like a nobody :( I used to feel like I was somebody people would remember, but I can truly say that as of now, I feel like that person who's only in the background, a wallflower. I used to care a lot about quite a few people, then realized it was quite painful to care so much. I think that's probably when I decided to care less and somehow I ended up quite empty because I didn't really feel anything, I didn't really get angry or sad or, happy :( I tried adapting to this lifestyle, where I would go to places by myself and spend time thinking about stuff. I discovered I liked having alone time and not having to follow someone else's schedule. But I think it's safe to say I still love having my friends with me :( I don't know how I am going to start making friends again, or rekindling old friendships but I think that is the solution to me being actually happy again ^^ I can say what I am truly grateful for now, and it's definitely my family. My mum is the best person ever (minus her short temper) and she really really only wants the best for me. Some of the little things she's done recently were stuff like offering me to wear her comfy shoes because my feet hurt (in hongkong) and she would wear mine, and offering to switch bags because her bag was lighter than mine. These are the smallest details but I was so touched :') and my brother has been so nice to me. He's been opening up to me about his friends and college and some secrets only between us, and I just feel like we've never been closer :) my dads just the same, always very caring xD It's a first for me, but relatives from my mums side are going to celebrate my bday with me this year! Even my Aunt from Canada ^^ quite exciting really. And I'll be starting my internship next week. I'm quite scared :(( but hopefully it'll turn out well and I won't look like an idiot T____T

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