gum that looks like a rose

[gumonthepavement]

i sit in the silence you left me in

[gumonthepavement]

i forgave you as quickly as we fell in love. how do i forgive myself for staying?

[gumonthepavement]

forget me as if i never existed. burn the physical evidence i was ever there. pretend we never got around to that first kiss. forget me.

[gumonthepavement]

i met my husband and he’s a beautiful woman

[gumonthepavement]

she has this picture in a red dress that i’m so goddamn mad i wasn’t the one to take

[gumonthepavement]

i missed my flight because you asked me to stay, i slept in airport chairs for 2 days

and in the heat of the moment i forgot to tell you that you’re the love of my life

but i think you know

[gumonthepavement]

i might be in love but i will NOT do the lesbian thing (can’t afford it or id be there next week lol)

[gumonthepavement]

thank god she’s in a different country. keeping her evil lesbian energy away. i love her btw

[gumonthepavement]

you’ll miss me because it was rare,

and weird and unusually deep, and no one else will choose you with the audacity i did, no one else might love you with the tenacity i did

[gumonthepavement]

JUGGLE THE GRIEF I PROMISE IT HELPS!! BE SAD ABOUT MORE THINGS AT THE SAME TIME IT DILUTES THE HURT!!! BUT ALSO IT TAKES TWICE AS LONG TO get over it so idk if this is good advice at all

[gumonthepavement]

there is no greater love than the one i hold for her, little bird lady

[gumonthepavement]

she needed someone to trust her more than she trusted herself, to know what she wanted more than she herself knew, to love her a little bit harder every time she would bite and scratch and kill. and i did, i did, to a point of such self betrayal that i came to resent myself more than she ever resented me

[gumonthepavement]

i made your life about me and then i left

[gumonthepavement]

but u know we would kill each other if we were in the same room again, right?

[gumonthepavement]

constant states of heartbreak cure the loneliness you feel

[gumonthepavement]

i cringed so hard im never doing it again LOL yes it’s on me i know

[gumonthepavement]

if ur following me for relatable sapphic content im very sorry to sometimes disappoint u, im also disappointed in myself.