swear to me

ELLIE WILLIAMS.    THE LAST OF US. oh, i know your pain. oh, i feel you BABY. you, like i, plagued by the F L I E S inside your brain. oh, i'm CREEPING up your veins, are you s m a r t enough and s m a l l enough to play this GAME? you've GOT those tired eyes all the t i m e. you need someone to bring you to b e d.

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–– gwen stacy !

Gwen was silent as she stared at her, the heat covering her cheeks had completely disappeared now, causing her to cross her arms again to cover herself up as she suddenly felt cold and vulnerable. “Was, Ellie?” The blonde quietly questioned, knowing she’d just further embarrass herself but finding herself more curious than not. “Talk to me, Ellie.” Another mumble came out, Gwen stepped closer, only slightly.

Ellie shut her eyes for a second, the last few scenes of the movie she directed playing out in her mind. The words were jumbled and mixed, like gibberish was being spoken. But, it somehow made sense to her. Opening her eyes, a closer Gwen was now in view, seeing her through the soft blur given by the scalding tears, leaving her eyes, scarring her cheeks. “There’s nothing to talk about. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you,” that my girlfriend is dead, “’nd I’m sorry for teasing you to the point of kissing me,” even if I was the one who wanted the kiss, “’nd I’m sorry for lying to you,” that Riley is alive. “I’m just sorry.”

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–– gwen stacy !

As Gwen heard the other girl’s words, she immediately backed away slightly, wanting a hole to swallow her up completely. “Oh my – ellie! You didn’t think to..Oh, I don’t know, tell me that before you teased me into kissing you?” Gwen’s voiced was raised, something she didn’t necessarily like doing. “You..you teased me about having feelings for you, you called me a chicken for not kissing you more and..you have a girlfriend?”

Ellie suddenly felt like a monster; a clicker maybe. A runner? Watching the blonde back away a step or two made her heart race like maybe Ellie had hurt her. Like she had taken a chunk from her neck and enjoyed the lip stain it’d given her. “I-I ––” Words stopped coming out, her tongue only wanting to speak one thing. A name, “Riley.” It’d come out, her name had come out, it had been said aloud. “Her name was –– i-is Riley.” The confidence and courage that she exuded was hidden deep down inside of her, wanting to curl up and hide. Just long enough until Gwen had completely forgotten about her. Riley was gone, she was dead and gone. It would’ve been easier to just say that. Just tell her. 

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–– gwen stacy !

Just as Gwen went to deepen the kiss, the other pulled away. “W-What?” She stuttered, confusion spread across her face. Had she done something wrong? Standing back, Gwen crossed her arms self consciously and chewed her lower lip. “I-I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to..force you to do that. I just thought –” She mumbled, embarrassment obvious. “Are you okay?”

Ellie began to shake her head; a sign that she was definitely not okay, her words say differently. “I’m fine, a-okay,” she continued rubbing her eyes, “I, uh –– I have a...” she paused, cracking her knuckles, her thumb passing by each finger, “a-a girlfriend.” A lie, of course, but she knew her heart was always going to be somewhere else. Whether this was a fun, silly kiss or there was a possibility of it becoming something more –– she didn’t want someone to change her mind. She wanted Riley.

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–– gwen stacy !

Gwen felt a slight shiver run down her spine as Ellie moved her hair away, causing her to chuckle slightly. Before Gwen could say anything more, they were kissing again and any thoughts Gwen had, had vanished in that moment. Leaning into the kiss, the blonde deepened it slightly and moved her hand softly across the other’s jaw.

Ellie’s tongue outlined the name of the woman she claimed to love, Riley. Over, and over, and over, and over, until she replayed her last words to her. It made her ribs feel like sparklers on the Fourth of July, her heart was a large piece of coal, her stomach was a volcano. Her body felt like it was going to explode at any moment. But, she simply felt her closed eyes blink softly, tears rolling down her cheeks as she suddenly knew she wasn’t kissing Riley. It almost felt like she was cheating. Pulling away, her hands went up to her eyes, rubbing them, trying to hide the fact that she as crying. No one should see her cry, no one. “I-I’m sorry, I can-can’t –– do this.” She wanted to run, hide, avoid everyone forever. But her felt felt nailed to the ground, weighted down by cement block. “I’m s-so sorry.”

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–– gwen stacy !

Gwen rolled her eyes at the other and bit down on her lower lip. “Why don’t you stop being chicken, then. You want another kiss? Come and get it.” she replied playfully, sticking her tongue out to prove her point.

“Why would I have to do it if you’re –– you know what, never mind,” Ellie groaned, deciding this was like taking turns and technically it was her turn. “I-I... okay,” she paused, nibbling on her bottom lip, adding a bit to her height as he stood on her toes. Her hands began to shake slightly, trying her best to steady them as she used her forefinger, middle and ring finger to push a bit of the blonde’s stray hairs behind her ear. “Sorry,” Ellie mumbled, like she’d done something wrong before she felt her nose brush against the others, placing a soft kiss to her lips, she melted softly into the kiss, not daring to pull away. 

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–– gwen stacy !

Gwen paused before looking softly from Ellie’s eyes to her lips and back up. “We’re so dumb.” Gwen let out a small laugh before leaning forward slightly, tipping her chin up slightly and closing the space between them, placing a quick but soft kiss against Ellie’s lips and moving backwards, a blush creeping it’s way back across her face.

Ellie lost her breath for a quick second, looking at the blonde after she’d already kissed her. It was like the kisses she’d place on her best friend’s cheek. Though, a kiss was a kiss. “What was that?” She teased, trying keep her stoic nature in tact. “Chicken.” Ellie mumbled, rolling her eyes, looking away from her.

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–– gwen stacy !

“You realise you gotta look at me so I can kiss you, right?” Gwen mumbled anxiously, looking at the girl in attempt to find her eyes.

“Uh,” she looked around for a second before looking back at her, “yeah. So-Sorry.” Offering the best smile she could muster, she tried her best make it seem like she was focusing on her eyes, instead focusing on the bridge of her nose. 

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–– nathan prescott !

“Exactly. I don’t care. Why are you still talking to me, again?”

“Because I want to show you that being ‘Nathan Prescott’ means nothing to everyone. Nobody wants to be you, you’re nothing. There are more important people in the world, do you get that? Or maybe your skull is too thick to absorb the information I’m feeding you.”

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–– nathan prescott !

“Nathan Prescott–” He interjected. “Now kindly fuck off.”

“Woah, hey, you didn’t even give me a chance! Besides, you didn’t let me ask. Do you know who I am? And don’t be a little bitch and say ‘too bad I don’t care,’ ‘cause I already know you don’t. I’ve been around kids like you, believe me; I’m fuckin’ over it.”

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–– nathan prescott !

“Newsflash, cunt… everyone wants to look at me. Everyone wants to be me. Do you know who the fuck you’re talking to?”

“Okay, first off, you’re gonna run out of those cute lil’ names at some point, I hope you know that. –– I LOVE these kinds of games, do I get to guess now or do you have something else to say to me?”

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–– nathan prescott !

@guncomfort liked for a starter

“Fuck are you lookin’ at, bitch?”

“Alright, bud, why don’t you chill out a little and stop thinking everyone wants to look at you. You’re not that pretty, bucko.”

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–– gwen stacy !

“Ellie…if you want to kiss me, just kiss me.” Gwen mumbled, finally looking at the other. “But if not, just say. Because I think my body is about to shut down from anxiety.”

Eyes narrowed as she blushed, not knowing how to respond, she couldn’t move let alone move a few feet to kiss someone. “Well, may-maybe I want you to kiss me.” She gnawed on the inside of her cheek, clearing her throat as she did so, making sure to move her eyes away from the other.

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“I just kinda..assumed.” Gwen mumbled once more, looking up at Ellie finally as she played with her hair. “Did you want to..kiss me?” The blonde asked, more awkwardly than she intended. “I’m not good at this I’m sorry.”

Ellie kept her eyes off of Gwen, making sure to pretend to look busy, sticking her finger between her lips to nibble at the nail. “Well, I’m not saying I would mind,” she mumbled between closed teeth, letting go of the nail, keeping her eyes down. 

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–– gwen stacy !

“I may have wanted to..but you don’t so now I don’t and we’re just gonna..never speak of this again because I am very embarrassed.” Gwen rambled, staring down at his hands. “I’m sorry, I just thought..maybe you wanted – never mind.”

“I never said I didn’t want to, I don’t know where you got that information,” she teased, a soft grin on her lips. “But, you never want to talk about it, fine, I won’t talk about it.” Ellie shrugged softly, rolling her eyes somewhere other than the blonde.

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–– gwen stacy !

“Uh, yeah…I wanted to.” She paused, feeling embarrassed as her cheeks reddened. “I’m sorry. I messed up didn’t I? Ignore it. How d’you like the pizza?”

The blush on her cheeks began to match Gwen’s; at least she thought it did. It felt like someone had like a match under her skin. “It was, uh, fine. Good,” she mumbled, “Wait, you wanted to?” She knew she should’ve dropped the ‘kiss’ topic, but it just kept coming out of her mouth.

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–– gwen stacy !

“This is so mean and you know it.” Gwen pouted at the other girl, blush extremely visible on her face. “And it’s not fair because even though you’re being mean I still really want to kiss you but I’m not going to now, because you’re…mean. Did I mention you’re mean?”

Ellie’s lip parted for a moment, as if to say something, but nothing came out. “Wait, what?” Pushing a few strands of hair behind her ear, she looked at the blonde, a blush creeping up on her cheeks. “Back up a few steps –– kiss me?” Riley, remember Riley.