fuck okay a point i meant to add to that last answer but completely forgot cause i got in the weeds with the whole Being Scared thing:
not that i think im doing something particularly special or heroic by littleposting on main and being a weirdo in public, but right now more than ever it's actually imperative to be unlearning shame and actively fighting back against the standards of how much of a freak you're allowed to be while also having a space to exist, share your art, support yourself financially, and a baseline level of respect for your humanity. shit's getting dire and i am genuinely so scared of how much people and corporations who have legitimate power over us are continuously driving full force into puritanism. it feels like in my position i don't know what to do except at bare minimum go out kicking and screaming. i grew up pentacostal in the american south, i've seen and lived a version of life where everyone is deathly afraid of their own flesh to the point of renouncing it daily. i got out of that life on purpose and at my bravest it's easy to say i'd sooner lose everything than let some fucking suits tell me i have to go back.










