“And in that moment, I swear we were infinite.”

[haelenhaagen]

The Universe in your eyes (at Swansea, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-7ttXhAq3m/?igshid=lp35zaxzr359

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I manage to record some footage here and there and I hope it's good enough to show you behind the scenes. 🥰 (at Swansea, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-1kpIYAhxV/?igshid=ds8v3uthvg29

[haelenhaagen]

I found myself enjoying every bit of this unusual silence, and amazed at the little things I have missed all these years of my life. The sound of my steps, My breath, louder than my toughts. Makes me think whose life have I lived? Stripped away of any identities... (at Swansea, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-alRbmA8R5/?igshid=raxrexn1xcen

[haelenhaagen]

"I feel pain from a distance, you bring light to my existence You grow dark from a distance, we lose time in an instant." (at Swansea, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/B9Asx3Rg-Xn/?igshid=k3xmvr8d2lrn

[haelenhaagen]

Can headaches be related to Scoliosis?

Most likely, yes . They're called Cervicogenic headaches , and can mimic migraines . Cervicogenic headaches are rooted in the c...

If you've wondered about your headaches I wrote a short article aiming to bring some clarity

[haelenhaagen]

 I finally got treatment for my scoliosis and wanted to share with you my thoughts. I recorded this after my first day of therapy, woke up in the middle of the night.                                                                                                                                       I tried my best to provide as much information as I could at that hour, so please feel free to ask whatever crosses your mind.                       Please share this to anyone that might benefit from this informational video : ) Let me know if I could help! Join the private group https://www.facebook.com/groups/mycurvedspine/

[haelenhaagen]

Living with scoliosis can be really tiring, both mentally and physically.

But there are solutions :)

I’ve created a Private Group for those who’re looking to explore and find out about 

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I was concerned that I always come across only negative or even too dramatic. And having to read back all my posts I realize that I often focus on mistakes and flaws. Primarily mine. It's inspiring to listen to people who seem that they have their shit together, and you just look forward to be the same. Well I am not one of those. Yet. I aim to express myself at the level I truly am, and try to stay away from being a keyboard warrior. Being only good enough to preach but not to take my own advice it's not something of my interest. so I tend to focus on the negative of one's being and feel that most of the stuff around are just feeding dopamine levels. Only in awareness of one's flaws you can start to change. And, I need to change. #selfportrait #fashion #mood #woman #beautiful #portrait #gratitude #Universe #loss #life #instaart #instartist #lips #hair #clothes #acceptance #anger #beauty #woman #youth #delicate #letgo #creative #art #lifestyle #fuji #beauty #model #hair #today (at Swansea, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/B7ez8WQjXH4/?igshid=13kgfge4pgi5g

[haelenhaagen]

I've witnessed today in the external world, a type of non admirable behaviour of human beings. I can't help it but to identify this especially with the Feminine side, so to speak. I've observed how women so often protect and mate with criminals and are tough girls with the ones that have been kind to them. One's ingratitude and frustration towards kindness and generosity made me swallow dry anger. "I must be failing the same." I told myself. I don't often spend a whole day angry at one unfairness unless I, myself, am guilty of it. "You're disrespectful, spiteful, and ungrateful almost every time of the day, every day. You're focusing on what YOU don't have, and throw the responsibility on someone's else's shoulders,when the only reason you're life is falling apart it is because of your OWN choices. I don't like the way you've been and you continuously wishing for emptiness and solitude, which is fine, unless you're going to be in need. You're not lovely even a bit, and the way you behaved has made it very difficult to relate to you. You've been spitting and throwing fire in the wrong direction and you haven't even begun to understand the damage you've caused. ... All this would be fine, if when you feel good you wouldn't declare your "love & affection"." And yes, I've been guilty of this, myself. (at Swansea, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/B7Wz1ztAIeU/?igshid=3i66e3osicm6

[haelenhaagen]

How long until I regret posting my new work? Pretty much an hour after lol It's odd how we're pumped with dopamine once we exported from PSP and by the time is online, you're asking yourself what on Earth did I see to begin with? Self criticism can go over the top at times. (at Swansea, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/B7Qhwu3Ag-7/?igshid=12w2r9zjfnz45

[haelenhaagen]

Everyone has it difficult. Between anger, self pity and resentfulness, all the way up to empathy, acceptance and letting it go. While we're busy holding onto the unfairness of the world we're missing the hand of the Universe, trying to guide us. And losses aren't bad, nor good. After I've been back & forth trying to dispute the money I lost in December, one friend of mine has generously donated to me one of his cameras. I am over the moon to be able to create again! Thank you so much Kev!!! Until I get my head around on how to use this, I think I didn't do too bad :D (at Swansea, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/B7OugHNAuQc/?igshid=kh9dxhw7ka0j

[haelenhaagen]

Looking forward always for things that will or may happen in the future. "can't wait for Christmas 🎄, can't wait for the summer ☀️, can't wait for Black Friday 💷, can't wait for my birthday 🎂..." and so on... What about now? Today is the day you were looking forward to some months ago... How many times you've had in mind the idea that the future will be better than what you have now? How about when the future becomes a tragic present? and you end up wishing for the past... or for another future... It seems to me, that it's difficult to stay in the present moment. Our mind preoccupies itself with the past or the future, making it easy for us to focus on what we DON'T HAVE, rather on what we do. And I can understand where that comes from... it's meant to make you have things to look up to, to not be content with where you are, almost never. Boredom is another form of making you get out of your comfy feelings. I believe that every feeling, or reaction to the world and the environment has a purpose. From the most pleasing to the most destructive. The problem becomes a problem when we focus too much on one side. I've grasped how thin is the line between chaos and order. with that all being said, I had a nostalgic thought about the warm sunny days, which feel far away right now... and flawed as I am, I have spent almost all my life wandering around in the past, forgetting how is it to feel alive, right NOW (at Swansea, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/B5oSDw4FVJo/?igshid=8ulwgun4axm9

[haelenhaagen]

Thousands of thoughts lost in my mind (at Swansea, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/B5BYfPmAPb6/?igshid=1l41x420i6t92

[haelenhaagen]

I said I should try an write before any social media information hits my brain.⁣ I'm so sleepy that I don' know where I am, basically.⁣ ⁣ Having a woman's body, monthly, it brings hell of a change. It didn't used to, or if it did I've never been aware of it.⁣ ⁣ So here I am, sipping my still warm coffee, trying to not make too much noise on this plasticky keyboard, which annoys me, ⁣ cause I'm sleepy⁣ lol⁣ ⁣ I didn't want to write, because it's like looking in the mirror when you have a bad day.⁣ You just don't want to see or hear yourself.(oddly, you never like to hear yourself.)⁣ ⁣ nyways,⁣ my boobs are exploding, with progesterone, or so.⁣ My brain is foggy with estrogen, or so...⁣ My body retained water from the carbs I had last night.⁣ It's 13:18 and I'm sleepy.⁣ ⁣ "𝘓𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘨𝘪𝘵𝘢𝘭 𝘯𝘰𝘮𝘢𝘥"...⁣ ⁣ Life of a comfortable 26 year old sucker!⁣ (It's nice to write 26,cause I won't be doing it soon :D⁣) ⁣ and if before I used to watch teenage films, now I found myself watching 𝘞𝘰𝘳𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘔𝘰𝘮𝘴 on Netflix.⁣ I was so embarrassed, I didn't let even one episode play, pretending that I don't want to see it⁣ ⁣ ugh, that means I'm getting old.⁣ Can't relate to the high school films, I look at Moms now.⁣ Oh well...⁣ ⁣ Now I understand why old people used to talk 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘧𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘨𝘰𝘦𝘴 and how the youngest version of themselves feels like it happened yesterday...⁣ ⁣ well, not really, but you get the point.⁣ ⁣ I feel it's been a lifetime between me and the 20 year old self.⁣ But at the same time, it feels like yesterday I was only 4!⁣ ⁣ Bodies change, moods change, 𝐲𝐨𝐮, kind of change.⁣ ⁣ Well, I don't buy into the idea, 𝐨𝐥𝐝𝐞𝐫 now thus 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞.⁣ ⁣ You look worse but your 𝐁𝐄𝐈𝐍𝐆 hasn't changed unless you had the 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐚𝐠𝐞 to.⁣ ⁣ I hate when older people gather and are nostalgic for the fact that they'd like to be younger, but they finish it ⁣ ⁣ Good start.⁣ ⁣ Saying you're wiser, actually makes you wiser, you kno?⁣ ⁣ (at Swansea, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/B47a-5ZAk03/?igshid=woiec3dae4t4

[haelenhaagen]

TrEAT your girlfriend right 👅 (at Swansea, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4zikbZAXbq/?igshid=nof6pg8bf2us

[haelenhaagen]

Million of miles away, across the Universe, I found you. The sound of my heart... I was afraid I was falling. you told me not to worry, cause you've got wings. (at Swansea, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4suGQ9gKmn/?igshid=15sfxjg0i9p25

[haelenhaagen]

I often noticed what keeps us from improving our lives is an immense urge to judge everything and everyone. It's easy to form a final opinion in one moment, then, from all the pride in the world, you refuse hearing another opinion. We never know the whole story, but as hypocrites we come up with "solutions" on how people should improve *their* life Choosing to understand people's situations would actually improve the quality of our relationships. We don't listen, we're only keen to talk. Now when everything worth doing is a long process, I, myself I am guilty of every lame aspect of a homo sapiens. And with a LOT of help and guidance, I've learnt to observe oneself in any life circumstance, and even more, finding myself in everyone's mistakes. Realizing that there is no more THEIR mistakes, but MINE. @madalynchristmas (at Swansea, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4VslPXjvMw/?igshid=j7jrnqfzmm58