" 永久 "

once upon a time there was an old lady who fell in love with a short stump of a dork

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So I'm on a pabo streak today.

First I went to my own inbox thinking your letter would be there-- I guess I shoulda figured that it would be on the page.

Secondly, this letter is now basically one hour late since I got distracted by my schedules prior. So...for that, I'm sorry. I really don't want you to think I don't want to do these anymore or anything.

So despite all that, Happy (late) Anniversary, jagiya. 

You know, it honestly makes me really happy that you remembered that old fear of mine that I had when Heechul hyung said he and my twin were starting to get in a rut as far as their marriage was concerned. I'm glad you're so willing to keep that.

My whole point in giving you those tickets to Hawaii on your birthday was so that hopefully we'd have some quality time together, because honestly, I have missed you a lot since your schedules have been hectic. It's one thing to take care of two babies on your own, but not having the one person beside you in bed at night that you've clung to for almost two years now can make one feel very empty as well. 

We'll make up for that time, along with exploring a new place. I'm...assuming you haven't been to Hawaii before, but I get to be the one to show you around-- and maybe show off my awesome surfing skills at that. 

Eh, I feel like I don't say this enough to you, so here is this: 

I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you,I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you,I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you,I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you,I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you,I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you

...times infinity. 

Once again, Happy anniversary-- and I'm sorry if this letter isn't as 'eloquent' as you believe most of my letters always are. 

From the dorky husband, 

HaeHae

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5/24/14; 1 year and 6 months

Happy Anniversary

I know you're probably still asleep but I'm going to be busy today so I thought I'd just write first for ya'. Besides, I'm having some feelings anyway so I might as well just throw all my happy feelings onto you. Here goes nothing?

It's already been one year and six months since we said "I do." Can you believe it? Because I most certainly can't. It doesn't feel like it's been nearly that long but I guess time is supposed to fly by when you're with the right person. 

I know that a lot has changed from the time we were married, even some stuff that we said would never change but I want you to know that none of those changes has made me less happy to be with you. Honestly, if I knew from the very moment I confessed to you that I was going to have to face all the fights we've had, all the unhappy times we had to push ourselves through, all the struggles and disagreements...I would still want to be with you. Because all of it has been worth it. 

You make me happier than anyone could ever make me and I would have a hundred fights with you if it just meant I could stay for one more happy moment. 

I just--want you to know that, because we've really started to fit the stereotype of an "old married couple" and I don't want you to think we're losing each other or anything. I promised you we wouldn't start falling out the way Heechul-oppa felt he was in his marriage back in the day, didn't I? I plan to keep that promise.

I also plan to keep loving you for a very, very long time and I'd hope you feel the same way. Because although this is a big anniversary for us, I know we'll have many more to come after this, who knows, maybe this time next year I'll be able to reference this letter as I tell you "Happy 2 Years and 6 Months Since We Got Married."

Thank you for putting up with me as long as you have, for always being there when I was down, and for simply being yourself. You're wonderful and practically perfect and I know I don't tell you that enough but I really, really mean it. You're my better half, the Eric to my Ariel, my solace, my heaven, my everything. You, Seungyeon, and Nami make up my whole world and I couldn't be more thankful to have been blessed with you all. 

I love you, Donghae, more and more each day and that's something that will never change about us. 

Happy anniversary, here's to many more.

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The long hours of practice had finally ended and she was freshly showered and lounging with her fellow members when her phone notified her of a new post on Instagram. Initially she feels nothing but warmth flood her system when she sees who had made the post. That feeling; however, quickly vanishes when the picture loads completely. 

"...Idiot," the word is hissed through her teeth without her conscious awareness, a feeling of irritation underlying the overwhelming sense of worry that begins nagging in the pit of her stomach. What the hell did he do to himself?

She only stops glaring at the screen of her phone when a small, concerned voice questions, "Unnie...did you say something?"

Shaking her head quickly, Sojin flashes the younger girl a smile and excuses herself from the room to avoid any further questioning. Once she's safely tucked into her dorm room she unlocks her phone again, the corners of her lips turning downward at the reappearance of the image of her husband's arm. The rightfully short lived irritation is gone and worry is the only emotion that lingers in her system. She's just about to message him when her phone buzzes to life with several messages from the man himself.

Rolling her eyes at the sexual comment immersed in his messages, she begins tapping her own fingers against the screen to send a series of replies: 

[✉→ Dunghae ] You're an idiot.

[✉→ Dunghae ] An idiot who overworked himself--

[✉→ Dunghae ] An idiot who is really worrying me right now. Are you alright?? Has the hospital been treating you okay?

[✉→ Dunghae ] I really hope you're comfortable and resting well and don't you dare worry about my parents handling the kids, okay? You're not burdening anyone, just take it easy and take care of yourself for now..

[✉→ Dunghae ] Oh and I love you too. And miss you a lot--I won't be home for a while longer but you better be healthy when I do get back!!

[✉→ Dunghae ] If you are, I might just give you a "reward" anyway ;)

[✉→ Dunghae ] Look forward to it, babe xoxo

With the slightest of smiles, she lays back on her bed and locks her phone again. The worry's still there but seeing his lighthearted messages had quelled most of her anxiety, the feeling quickly being substituted with one of anticipation to go home, to see him again, and to ensure that he takes care of himself from here on out. 

Flickering her gaze over to the calendar hanging on the nearby wall, she notes the date with a small smile, just a few more weeks...then I'll be home.

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He ran his fingers through his dark locks, doing the only thing he really could do at the moment, which was wait. His head turned to look at his arm, which now had an IV attached to it, knowing very well that he was not going to be able to keep this one from his wife. Knowing his manager, he had already contacted her, since they were both aware how long it would take an IV drip to serve its purpose.

His eyebrows furrowed as he was simply left there to think. It had been a hectic past couple of weeks as he and his best friend wrapped up their tours in Japan, along with the back and forth traveling to wrap up the filming of the latest drama he was casted in. Then of course, at the top of his list of priorities were his children.  Not only had he wanted to burden his in-laws with constantly taking care of the two, but he always promised himself that he would be there for his own kids as much as he could since his stay with his own parents was rather short due to his early starting career.  

Due to his own boredom, he reached over to grab his phone, swiping his finger over the lock screen. It had been a good twenty four hours or so since he updated his fans on his life, so he hovered the camera over his arm, taking a quick picture of the IV before a nearby nurse could give him a weird look for doing so.

Upon saving it, he went to the browser to find Instagram, uploading the image with the simple caption of a frowning face, considering SM entertainment seemed to be under enough stress now as it is. After posting, he went to text his wife, somewhat surprised that she had not spammed him consistently yet herself.

[✉→ Sojin ] Baby, don’t flip out or anything—

[✉→ Sojin ] though you could also be my personal nurse for me xoxo

[✉→ Sojin ] I love you and I miss you and I’m also sorry this kind of thing had to happen while you were gone ):

[✉→ Sojin ] Come back soonnn

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Just to confirm things for you also-- 

yes, it has been fifteen months now 

[haekey]

（*/∇＼*）

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The Fish and His Guppies;

It had become his daily routine: Wake up, take care of the kids, go to work, come home and take care of the kids again, then repeat after what hours he could rest. Taking care of two children as an idol was already difficult, but doing so alone made it even more hard. When he could, he'd let some of his fellow members hang around his home, helping by either feeding Nami, or keeping Seungyeon entertained with Super Junior dances, or Finding Nemo. The extra helping hand and company was always nice, but it was nothing compared to his wife, and mother of these angels. 

He in fact did miss her, and constantly had her in his thoughts despite his drama filming, line memorization, or singing his youngest to sleep. Laying in a bed that was normally for two made it even more lonesome, so he would usually let his son or daughter accompany him at night, depending on who was awake last. 

Everyday, his son would shout "Umma", as if to ask if she were coming home that day, and would always react with a pout much similar to his own when he said she wouldn't be home just yet. 

On this particular afternoon, he decided to make a small video while his children were still awake. He placed both Seungyeon and Nami on his lap before turning the phone to face them, pressing the 'Record' button, and waving his hand.

"Guys, say hi to Umma~" He hummed, grinning as Seungyeon did just as he said, reaching down to take his daughter's small hand in his to make her wave to the camera as well. "You both miss her very much, ne?" He nodded for emphasis, his son nodding along with him before saying a "Come home" towards the phone, causing him to chuckle. "If Nami could talk, she'd tell you the same thing, jagiya. We all miss you a lot here, and we can't wait for you to come back. But until then, do your best with your work. Umma hwaiting~" he ended with a fist in the air, his son mimicking him, causing him to laugh. 

After finishing the small video message, he attached it to a text for her, pressing the "send" button before going to feed both of his guppies. 

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You are completely beautiful I just can't be without you girl~

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congrats jagiya

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A haiku about Donghae's butt

by: (the acclaimed poet) Lee Sojin

It is so perfect

Wish it was in my hands

Why is it not 

??????????

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4/25/14

AHHHHHHHHHH I WOKE UP WITH AN EPIPHANY IT WAS 15 MONTHS RIGHT?????

Wait. No. I don't know.

I think it might've been 15 because I think I'm stupid and counted wrong (how did i major in engineering the world will never know). BUT EITHER WAY I HOPE YOU SPENT OUR ANNIVERSARY WELL, WATCHING MOVIES WITH THE BABIES OR SOMETHING RIGHT???????????? 

I really wish I could've been home but, I will be soon enough--in what? 2 weeks? That's not too long but to be fair I'll miss you every second of every day we're apart, you and our little aquarium.

I have to get back to work but I love you and just wanted to let you know again today since you deserve to hear it every day and I'm not sure Seungyeon has learned to say that yet.

Now I'm off to get back to work and missing you.

xoxo

until i decide to be stupid and make another one of these posts

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4/24/14

Shh. I'm not supposed to be writing this in between schedules but I'm going to anyway because it'd be a real bummer if I couldn't at least tell you "Happy Anniversary" on the day of our...16th month wedding anniversary? Is it 16? Ah, it's hard to keep track now that we've been together so long but that in itself kind of makes me giddy. Is that weird? I guess it's just because I never thought I'd say "thanks for marrying me almost 2 years ago." But here I am, writing you a letter despite my previous thoughts.

It will never cease to amaze me that someone as positively wonderful and perfect as you came to love someone as faulty as me (and don't go trying to disagree with what I said because I'm going from my point of view and you get no say, ha!) From the moment that we were married you never failed to make me smile and I can't tell you how grateful I am for that. I'm so grateful to have you in my life, you're my happiness, my everything and I can't see myself without you. It means the world to me that you continue to stay by my side the way you've done for the past--nearly 2 years.

I hope you'll never forget that. No matter how often or how long I'm gone from you, you will always mean the absolute world to me. Well--you and the kids, of course. Because although I'll never share any romantic love for anyone else, in terms of how my hearts divided, you and the kids are all equal. 

I love you.

I know you haven't heard me say that in days but I love you. I still do and I always will and I just wanted to remind you of that while I'm away because no distance or length of time will change how I feel about you. And I'd hope you're not going around fallin' in love wit' any other pretty lady (kidding--I know you're faithful and perfect).

I'll see you some time later in May? In time for Mother's Day I hope--

I love you always, happy anniversary.

p.s. I love you

p.p.s. I love you more.

p.p.p.s. I love you most.

p.p.p.p.s. I'll love on you soon, alright? Look forward to it.

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4/19/2014

I had some free time so I thought I'd write something here--just for the heck of it really. 

I don't actually know how to start this, hm...with "thank-you" maybe? Because I do have a lot to thank you for. I mean, I feel that my insecurities might've bothered anyone else but you really took what I said and tried to make me feel better immediately and I can't thank you enough for that.

I don't think I've really made my appreciation very apparent with my actions lately and I'm sorry about that. I think there's still a part of me that really believes I don't deserve the effort you're putting in to making me feel better but you have to know that I still really do appreciate what you're doing no matter what. It's really comforting to know that you still do care and just--ah, my words are starting to fail me but I really hope you understand what I'm trying to say.

Because I do still want to take care of your needs and make sure that you know you're appreciated every single second of every day that we spend together (or even apart since y'know--you're still on my mind even when I'm not physically around you). 

I love you, Donghae. I always do and always will. You're someone that I really treasure and can't seem to remember life without and maybe that's why I'm so unreasonably scared to lose you. I just don't know if I could handle myself in the same way without you and your sap, you and your contagious smile, you and all your childish habits, you and your wonderful sense of humor, you and all your perfect traits and habits and--I really don't think I could be the same without you.

Realistically, I know I could keep breathing, I'd still live without you. There's no logic behind the irrational "I'd die without your presence." I'd keep on living but it'd sure as hell feel like part of me was dead. You're my better half and imagining my life without your bright presence is like imagining the world without the sun. You're everything to me and I need you to know that, I need you to know that my insecurities only exist because of how much you mean to me not because you've done something wrong. 

I should stop before I begin to write you another novel, just know that I love you and am so, so, so grateful for the efforts you're putting in to help me feel more secure.

I love you.

-your pabo

p.s. I really hope that wasn't too gay for you--

p.p.s. I can't help my feelings forgive me--

p.p.p.s. You're turning me into a sap, what have you done--

p.p.p.p.s. Have I told you "I love you" yet? Because I do.

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You came and you took this heart, and set it free Every word you write or sing is so warm to me, so warm to me I’m torn, I’m torn to be right where you are

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Okay so that was a lot more lame than I thought it was gonna be but please know I tried so hard I just wanted to be cute for you because you're always so cute and romantic for me okay yes wow, I'm going to go jump off a cliff and drown in my feelings now bye e e ee

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Mostly because it almost killed me.