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suicide candidate of tomorrow

[haise-tan]

will be my last post for a while, socials are tiring me out. i'll eventually die anyway so... i'll just leave this here.

[haise-tan]

i'm just so tired from life and i can't help but think of ending it everyday. one day i will, i just need to endure myself a little bit longer.

[haise-tan]

i just need to hold on a little bit longer then i'll finally be free.

[haise-tan]

i'm just waiting for the right moment to off myself, then i'll finally be free.

[haise-tan]

i'm tired, so tired. i'm sorry.

[haise-tan]

on the verge of killing myself out of my own frustrations — it can wait but not now.

[haise-tan]

"you are not evil, you're hurt"

[haise-tan]

the reasons all have run away but the feeling never did

[haise-tan]

why do i always do things i'll eventually regret?

[haise-tan]

update; already hating myself for it.

[haise-tan]

why do i always do things i'll eventually regret?

[haise-tan]

you never really meant what you said back then did you? that you'll be there for me when i need you. it's fine anyway, i hoped for it to be real but you're just like the rest. all lies.

[haise-tan]

can you all stop doing what you're doing until i figure out what's paralyzing myself?

[haise-tan]

so i guess it's official now, that we're back to being strangers again. did i do something wrong? was i inconsistent? or was it just me dreaming? either way, i'll still keep a part of you in my heart, in life, in death, and beyond the grave.

[haise-tan]

is it possible to not hate yourself that much?

[haise-tan]

i just want to die.

[haise-tan]

living isn't just for me.

[quotemadness]

“I am hopelessly in love with a memory. An echo from another time, another place.”

— Michael Faudet

[haise-tan]

of a life i never lived, of a life forgotten, for a lover left behind, and a future that won't pass.