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[hakseng04]

Sadly, it's just another kiss for her. As for me, I will cherish that drunken moment. That time I had enough liquid courage to finally kiss her and then pretend it didn't happen the next day. 🤧

#ThailandSaga

[hakseng04]

Nothing. Just posting as a testament that I'm still alive.

[hakseng04]

Wth happened?

I just woke up. I had a very strange dream. I'm not sure if I can tell this to others. Not sure if the entity in my dream will allow it. I remember everything except for his face. And it was long. Even when I slightly awoke and felt my period blood gush out when I moved to my right -- the dream continues.

My stupid brain thought, "this is a good movie plot". But can I? I'm dying to sleep to dream again. I want to ask the entity to allow me but I'm scared at the same time. 😭

[hakseng04]

Had the usual traumatizing nightmare. I knew that I suddenly woke up crying and then went back to sleep. Dad said I had a nightmare but when I asked about what, he lied about the crying.

I know exactly why, I'm not sure why he lied but I kind of appreciate it. 😔

[hakseng04]

Going to HK but I'm sick af 😔

[hakseng04]

Everyday I wake up questioning my own existence 😔

[hakseng04]

It's been a year since I brought my mom to the hospital..... She never came back. 😔

[hakseng04]

I just want a hug to be honest. I can't remember the last time I was hugged. Was it during my mom's funeral? I'm not sure anymore. My heart feels heavy. 😔

[hakseng04]

Had a good cry. I really needed it 😔

[hakseng04]

I feel like my heart is being ripped apart. I opened my mom's phone today to retrieve all of her social media accounts. My heart fucking hurts. I miss you so much mama 😔

[hakseng04]

Here we go again

[hakseng04]

Whenever my anxiety attacks, I always dream of my mom 😔

[hakseng04]

Kahit sa panaginip gusto ko na mamatay

[hakseng04]

I'm at this point in my life where I question my own sanity. I can't even recognize myself. I just know that I'm not it. Not that person that I used to be. Idk what to do. Idk until when my sanity will hold on. 😞

[hakseng04]

My go to whenever I'm sad and down 😔

[hakseng04]

Happy birthday mama

I spent my morning crying. Last year we didn't even get to celebrate. I love you mama. Kahit gusto kong kunin mo na ako, sana alagaan mo pa ako kasi walang kasama si daddy. Mahal na mahal kita ma. Di ko makalimutan yung time na sinabi mong mahal na mahal mo ako. How I wish I can hear those words again even if you said it in anger.

[hakseng04]

2:41am

Went to take a bath coz I fee sleepy but had a sudden breakdown. I miss my mom so much.