Down the rabbit hole we go

[haleyshorizon]

I feel like I’m losing everyone…

I’m struggling not to push further away to avoid this pain.

If I’m not wanted… if I’m not needed… then I don’t need to be involved or here. I’ll just leave… simple. Doing just fine without me.

[haleyshorizon]

I don’t belong anywhere. I was not meant for this life. No matter who I meet. No matter where I go. I don’t fucking feel like I belong. I don’t feel at home anywhere. I’d like to just skip this reincarnation and go to the next please. This has nothing for me but pain. I need to keep thinking that this is what was meant for me. I have SOMETHING to learn? This can’t be for nothing. This is too painful and miserable to be for nothing. There has to be a lesson here that I’m too blind to see just yet. Something meaningful HAS to come from this.

[76seven]

[04k96]

[haleyshorizon]

How do you tell everyone who loves you they aren’t enough to ease the pain of the world. I wanna leave so bad.

I am so so sorry.

[gods-filth]

[apocalypseswhore]

let's give it up for sex and violence

[haleyshorizon]

Feels like I can’t breathe tonight.

Wondering what my life is supposed to look like.

I am so confused, nothing feels right.

11/18/25

[rebelculture]

[haleyshorizon]

Imagine the f u c k i n g sadness when you realize you’re no different.

Just another f u c k i n g junkie.

You don’t smoke crack. You don’t smoke meth. You may not pop 9 or more pills.

But oh god. The call of the bottle. A little line. A bar here and there.

I don’t wanna f u c k i n g live this shit ass life either.

Did you even think of me when you brought me into this hell hole?

Didn’t think so.

[rebelculture]

[haleyshorizon]

The diseased brain I have.

I do not want a normal life. Maybe I need someone as insane as me. I am not doing well in a domestic situation.

[haleyshorizon]

I feel the one person who would have loved every dirty blood speckled filthy fucking crevice of me was someone who was unattainable.

Fucking psychopath. God I miss him.

[haleyshorizon]

I need a little piece of me to just stay hidden. This is the deepest hole of my heart.

The blackest little crevice. The make or break.

The racing thoughts. They go here. The thoughts that make no sense. They go here. The thoughts that fly by. They go here.

My need to be abused. My need to relive every bad thing that has ever happened to me. The Fear and the Need from these.

The euphoric feelings of some of those bad things. The memories I need.

These thoughts I can’t describe.

I….

[god-0f-filth]

[haleyshorizon]

I once again want to leave my life. Sometimes I really think I’d be less of a problem if I was just dead. I don’t contribute to…….

Anything.

[rebelculture]