Weird Little World

"We get to choose who we let into our weird little worlds" (Will Hunting) It's "half recovery" because I made a depression years ago and since I'm like on the edge, like between sanity et extreme sadness. I am in recovery and I'm tryna make it sweet.

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I know this feeling too well : the music is blasting in my headphones and the battery is dying and I feel like I will die when the music will ends.

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You know I think about death and you are scared I'd jump out a window

I would have told you there are thousands ways to die but this is nor the time neither the moment

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Julien is a boy name here

But I do wish I could name my daughter this way

In honor to you my friend because I wish you’d live longer

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We are not scared of being alone

We are scared of losing each other

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I am still trying to process if what happens yesterday was a dream or not

The loved one coming back and kissing you under falling tree leaves only happens in movies

My life is nothing like a movie

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If I'm good at love but not good at loving myself I am only good to others and what seems to be a strength becomes a weakness

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I have no suicidal tendencies but it would be great if I can be stroke by lightning rn

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My heart was broken twice

The first time was when you said you did not love me anymore

The second was when you start treating me like shit because you were scared of hope

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The third time was this afternoon when you told me you slept with my best friend

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My heart was broken twice

The first time was when you said you did not love me anymore

The second was when you start treating me like shit because you were scared of hope

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I’m looking for pieces of you everywhere but you are nowhere to be found and it is the greatest gift you could have give me

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Remember when we told ourselves we knew each others from other lifes and that in one of them I was a man?

I wonder how we kept it together in those lifes.

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Crying myself to sleep and crying every mornings. I certainly am turning my mattress into a salty pool.

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Laying on the floor

When it all ended with the first and last argument, it felt like I have been spending the last months of my life painting the most beautiful and fragile item and it blew up just before my eyes.

Fragile objects make sharp pieces, it aimed for my heart but was not strong enough to end me.

Since I am still in the same room, picking up the pieces of my master piece.

It cuts whatever it touches and remains the most gorgeous thing I have ever seen which is a complete madness.

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Tear this house down

I handed him all his stuff

It is crazy how we can build a life in just four months

He does not love me anymore

And I do not want to be in love with someone who does not love me

I was petty before I saw him but I wish him all the best he deserves

As I wish me all the best I deserve

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Every night I sleep is driving me away from the last night we spend together and that is why I’m losing sleep

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The missing spark

I am up at 5 in the morning

I can not sleep

The man I love do not sleep as well

If your poor life choices can not let you sleep tight you might consider taking back what you said

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You are scared to get hurt

And I am scared to hurt you

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Eventually you were the one who hurt me