! FLASHBACK ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ –––– [ YOONAH 2019 ! ]
TW :: PANIC ATTACK, VOMITING, INAPPROPRIATE RELATIONSHIPS (?)
"DON'T MAKE ME GO ON," yoonah sobs, whole body shaking as she sits on the floor of the girls bathroom, body awkwardly hunched over the toilet as spit spills from lips. "please don't make me do it. i can't do it. i can't do it, oppa. i can't–"
she ducks her head down into the toilet bowl again, throwing up what remained in her stomach. jinhwa sighs quietly at her vomiting a second time since she rushed in her mere minutes before venus was supposed to go on for their showcase. he still holds her long black hair back with one hand while the other rubs her back gently.
when she's done spilling her guts again, she sobs loudly her body collapsing next to the toilet and into jinhwa's lap, causing the man to grunt softly. he reaches over to rip off a few pieces of toilet paper, dabbing the filth off her mouth. he readjusts her limp body in his lap, hands on her exposed waist.
she's frail now. she's always been tiny but in the past few months she's shrunk at least three sizes. jinhwa feels like her could wrap both his hands around her waist and have his fingers touch. her head rests on his thighs, one of his hands resting in her hair and the other on her stomach as it rose and fell dramatically.
"i feel like i'm dying," yoonah whispers, voice trembling. "i'm gonna die. i'm gonna die."
"you're not gonna die," jinhwa says as his fingers run from her hair to wipe her tears from her cheeks with the back of his fingers. "i won't let you die, yoonah."
"i can't go out there," yoonah sobs, reaching up to take his shirt in her hand, shaking gently. "please, don't make me go out there. i can't do it. i'll die. it'll kill me, jinhwa. i can't do it," her voice trembles and shakes, hot tears running down her cheeks. she looks up at him with the biggest pair of pleading eyes jinhwa has ever seen.
yoonah wraps her arms around his torso, pressing her face into his stomach to try and feel some kind of warmth. jinhwa holds her head to his chest, sighing softly as he looks around the bathroom before lifting his other hand to look at his watch. they have ten minutes until venus is supposed to go on and at this point, it looks like yoonah isn't any closer to getting better.
she's such a wreck, it makes him want to roll his eyes. he doesn't know why she can't just keep it together for an hour long performance then do whatever the hell this is. jinhwa leans down to kiss the top of the girl's head, causing her to look up at him with messed up makeup and a runny nose.
"if you finish this performance," jinhwa watches her face drop as a sob leaves her lips, but he shakes his head as if to silence her. "if you finish this performance, i'll let you take a break. you just have to do this show, okay? just this last one."
"you promise?" yoonah whimpers, knowing jinhwa's word means the world or nothing at all. she looks at him with big wet eyes, tears dripping down her cheeks. jinhwa tilts his head down at the girl, smiling warmly at her, giving her tiny arms a squeeze.
"promise." jinhwa whispers, touching his forehead to her's before guiding her head gently to rest it on his chest. yoonah sighs in relief, shutting her eyes in peace.
