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please help a disabled lesbian afford the bare minimum to survive
for a month or so, it really felt like i might get out of here; now i feel more stuck than ever. everything feels so hopeless all the time and my situation is getting worse by the day. i never know if or when i’m going to get kicked out, i have no sense of stability and my nerves are constantly shot. i don’t have the energy to put together every single thing that’s gone wrong recently, but here’s a few lowlights:
- my cat somehow got outside and she hasn’t been back home in over a week, i have a feeling it wasn’t accidental and i’m worried sick about her because it’s getting very cold at night. i’ve tried leaving food out and i’ve walked around the neighborhood looking for her but i don’t know what else to do
- they sold my car to my uncle without asking me. it’s been scrapped for parts and there’s no way of getting it back because there’s no car to retrieve, even though i have the title and it’s still in my name. my mother told me to stop freaking out because he was supposed to send us some money for it apparently, but if he did, my parents stole it, and i’m not going to ever see any of it. i’ve been stuck driving the old car that’s been running on a spare for way too long and i barely leave the house now because i’m scared to death that the wheel is going to blow out any moment
- my father has been getting physical with all of us again – not outright hitting us like before, but getting up close and personal and screaming while spit is flying in our faces, backing us into corners or against the wall, shoving us, pushing us around; just yesterday he yanked me up off the sofa by my wrist and it still hurts today, and last week he threw a baking pan at the wall next to me and made me clean up the cinnamon rolls that got all over the place
- verbal abuse all around but that’s nothing new. constant threats of being kicked out because i didn’t do something perfect; a recent example is that while cleaning up THEIR dinner dishes (i don’t eat their food so they can’t hold that against me like everything else), i accidentally left one bowl on the table and my dad was on the warpath about it, calling me fat and lazy and a disappointment and that i need to get the fuck out of his house. but then he felt bad a few hours later and tried to talk to me like nothing happened, no acknowledging what happened, no apology, just brushing it under the rug and moving on like always. rinse wash repeat
- my youngest brother (the one who took a hammer to my insulin) got in trouble the other night for cheating on a test at school. he dumped ashtrays full of cigarette butts all over the house, and you’ll never guess who was made to clean it up. i do most of the cleaning, i run errands all the time, i do whatever they want and it still isn’t enough. i don’t think i’m ever going to be enough for them. i’m tired of trying.
i'm not going to sugarcoat it – my situation really fucking sucks right now. please consider sending a few bucks my way. because of the new bill that was passed, i’ve used up my three months of SNAP and i’m now ineligible for thirty six months, and i’m diabetic so i need to keep my blood sugar in check. my grocery list is literally chicken breast, lettuce, croutons, and brown rice if i’m out of the bulk bag that i normally get. that’s all i’m asking for, so any and all help really does go a long way. i've already gone through what little money i was able to save up on the side while SNAP was covering my groceries, and i'm relying solely on the generosity of others to keep myself alive. please consider spreading this post + my commission post around, every little bit helps more than you know. thank you for reading
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