Hannah's Happenings

Nothing in particular. Unorganized, unfiltered thoughts. My life through music.

[hannahshappenings]

Song of the day

“Chasing love that can never be mine

Maybe one day you’ll realize”

I can’t wait for the day that songs stop reminding me of you

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Tired

I’m tired of living my life as a lie

I’m tired of living my life not alive

I’m tired of living like I wanna die

I’m tired of living and I know exactly why.

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Song of the day

“I'm your chain

And I'm your lock

There's no escape

Just as long as I say

Love”

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Song of the day

“Oh I, I can see the light

Stay with me

Away from the darkest of nights

Stay with me”

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Song of the day

“Now it seems I'm fading

All my dreams are not worth saving

I've done my share of waiting

And I've still got nowhere left to go”

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Song of the day

“I can fight this to the end,

But maybe I don't wanna win”

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Duality

I hate you

When I look at you it reminds me of my failures

When I hear your voice I register just how pathetic you really are

Your eyes are empty

You’re angry all the time about things you can’t control

But you can control somethings

You can control your reactions to life

So whether it’s in the halls

Or in the mirror

I can see we’re haunted by similar monsters now.

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Song of the day

“I'll be the first to say

That now I'm okay”

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Song of the day

“I put my head down keep running away from it

Anywhere I'm going can't be worse than this

I need to get away before it pulls me here

And I'm never ever getting close to anyone again”

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Song of the day

“I don’t belong here

Not in this atmosphere”

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Song of the day

“Forever is our today”

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Panic Attack

I don’t like to be alone

Silence in my home

Shutting off my phone

Completely alone.

My body locks up only

My head gets crazy, lonely

My thoughts, they condone me

To a prison I can’t escape.

Those demons cry

Restless

Standing on my chest

Pressing

Flooding with the stresses

Only I can create.

They won’t stop screaming

Save me

I fear for my own safety

It’s only on these pages that I can let it out.

The devil, inside me

Comes out from, it’s hiding

I think I need an exorcist so it doesn’t get the best of this.

Screaming, crying, lying, dying

Laughing like a maniac

This is my panic attack.

[etoile-filantes]

“Please be careful with me. My heart is tired and sometimes I get sad without knowing why.”

— etoile-filantes

[mymidnightthoughtsblog]

You will always be the feeling i felt too much.

Unknown

[etoile-filantes]

“And she’s scared of her heart. Oh, the things it can make her do.”

— etoile-filantes

[hannahshappenings]

How

How can I feel not hated

Less understated

More saturated with a will to fight

To better my life

To better myself

To speak what I think

Say what I feel

Let someone know that this is all real

I need a way out

To live with less doubt

I want to be seen

For people to understand what I mean

But how?