I always tried not to imagine when he would finally say âone last big hug?â And that thought always made me tear up. But knowing that was the last big hug we got, and not even knowing it, kills me
I reblogged this over a year agoâŚI canât believe so much time has gone by, when it still feels like yesterday you were saying âBig Hugs!â to usâŚ
if you havenât read pt1 & pt2 please go read those first!
Summary:
Youâre just roommatesâbest friends, nothing more. But when you admit no man has ever made you cum, Minho and Jisung take it as a challenge. What starts as teasing turns into denial, control, and desperation as they make you beg for every touchâexcept the one thing you want most.
Content Warning:
Explicit sexual content, oral sex (m and f receiving), fingering, orgasm denial, edging, overstimulation, spanking, light humiliation, power dynamics, dominance/submission themes, possessiveness, psychological play, polyamory (m/m/f), bxb content, emotional manipulation in a sexual context, and intense teasing. All acts are fully consensual but heavily rooted in delayed gratification and power control.
His thumb brushes your lip.
And thenâ
He leans in.
Slow. Careful.
And finally kisses you.
Jisungâs lips brush yours like heâs afraid you might break.
Youâre still so close, tucked under Minhoâs shirt, curled into his side, fingers resting on the faint outline of ink across his ribs.
His hand holds your face now â cradling your cheek with such care it makes your chest ache. His thumb strokes slowly across your skin, grounding you. Silencing everything else.
And then?
He kisses you again.
This time fully.
Soft.
Real.
Thereâs no rush in it. No teeth, no tongue, no hunger.
Just his lips against yours â warm and gentle, like heâs giving you something sacred.
You breathe into it.
Melt into it.
One hand drifts up to his chest, fingers curling into the soft curve of his collarbone.
He tilts his head, deepening it just slightly â his nose brushing yours, his lips parting a little more now, not to devour, but to taste.
And you kiss him back.
Slow.
Long.
Each pass of his mouth over yours feels like the kind of thing people donât talk about out loud. Like something secret. Something quiet. Something⌠safe.
You sigh into him.
He kisses you again.
This one lingers longer.
He lets it drag.
Lets your bottom lip catch between his for just a second before pulling back â only to kiss you again, slower this time, like heâs memorizing you.
You feel his hand slip to your waist.
His thumb rubs soft circles under the hem of the shirt â his shirt now, technically â skin on skin, warm and lazy.
You hum into him, eyes closed, heart fluttering.
Then the kiss shifts.
Just slightly.
A little more pressure.
Your lips part more willingly now, and his tongue just barely flicks between â not enough to start something, but enough to remind you who he is.
Who you are.
Who youâve both been holding back from being.
His hand presses gently at the base of your spine now, pulling you a bit closer.
And you let him.
You kiss him deeper â slower â your fingers curling tighter into the fabric over his chest, your knee nudging between his legs without even realizing it.
He exhales shakily.
Pulls back just enough to whisper, âYou okay?â
You nod, lips brushing his as you speak. âMhm. Just donât stop.â
He smiles against your mouth.
And kisses you again.
Longer.
Softer.
Hotter.
The air between you thickens.
Youâre practically laying over him now, his leg slotted between yours, your hand resting just over his heart as it races against your palm.
Your mouth opens more for him, and he kisses you like heâs wanted to for hoursâlike heâs still afraid heâll have to stop, but canât help himself.
Your hips shift slightly, instinctively grinding down.
You both moan.
Quiet.
Soft.
Barely there.
But thenâ
Click.
The sound of the shower turning off breaks through the silence.
You freeze.
Both of you do.
Jisung blinks at you, lips swollen, cheeks pink.
Your chest rises and falls against his, your mouth still hovering close to his, still tingling from his warmth.
He swallows.
You whisper, âJust one kiss, huh?â
Jisung laughs breathlessly.
But neither of you move.
Not yet.
Because your lips still remember.
And so do his.
The second the water shuts off, itâs like your whole body forgets how to move.
Youâre still pressed against Jisung â your face tucked into his neck, his hand warm under the hem of Minhoâs shirt on your waist, both of you dazed and quiet.
Your lips are swollen.
His are too.
You blink.
Reality crashes back.
Jisung whispers first, voice low and tight, âShitâshitâokayââ
You scramble off of him, rolling onto your side and grabbing the edge of the comforter to pull over yourself like it could somehow hide the guilt.
Jisung shifts too, adjusting his position under the blanket, laying back and throwing an arm over his forehead like heâs always been relaxing.
You both try to breathe normal.
But the air between you still hums.
And thenâ
Footsteps.
Heavy. Confident. Getting closer.
The bedroom door creaks open.
Minho walks in, towel around his hips, damp hair pushed back, a few drops of water still trailing down his chest.
He stops just inside the doorway.
And looks.
At you.
At Jisung.
At the way the blanketâs a little too rumpled.
At your flushed cheeks.
At how Jisung wonât meet his eyes.
At how still you suddenly are.
He doesnât say anything for a second.
Just shuts the door behind him.
And smiles.
Slow. Dangerous. Knowing.
âWellâŚâ
His voice is deep and quiet, and it cuts right through you.
âDid you behave while I was gone?â
You donât answer right away.
Your heartâs pounding.
Jisung lets out a weak little breath that sounds like it wants to be a laugh but fails halfway through.
Minho walks closer.
You shift under the blanket, forcing yourself to sit up as casually as possible.
âI⌠yeah,â you lie softly.
Minho tilts his head. âYeah?â
He stops at the edge of the bed.
Leans down.
Face inches from yours.
âSo if I kiss you right nowâŚâ he murmurs, voice silk-wrapped steel. âI wonât taste anything Iâm not supposed to?â
Your stomach drops.
Jisung turns his face to the wall.
Minho smirks.
âThought so.â
Minhoâs face is so close itâs almost cruel.
His mouth is right there â the mouth youâve been chasing all night â and still, he doesnât give it to you.
Instead, he just looks at you.
âDid you kiss him?â
Your breath catches.
âIââ
Minho tilts his head, eyes narrowing. âYes or no?â
You fidget under his gaze, your fingers curling into the edge of the blanket. âItâit wasnât like thatââ
His brow lifts. âSo you did.â
You shake your head. âIâheânoââ
He lets out a low chuckle.
Itâs not funny.
Itâs dangerous.
Minho stands straight again, dragging one hand through his damp hair, still watching you like a cat watches a mouse trying to lie.
âYou really gonna sit there in my shirt,â he says slowly, âon my bed, after I let you ride my cock like thatâand lie to my face?â
You bite your lip.
âMinhoâŚâ
âSay it.â
His voice drops lower. Firmer. Unmovable.
âDid you kiss him?â
You glance toward Jisung, whoâs still turned slightly away, silent but clearly listening.
You clench the blanket tighter in your fists.
And you whisper, âYes.â
Minho hums. No surprise. No anger.
Just that fucking look.
âGood girl,â he says softly.
You blink.
But then he leans closer againâcloser than beforeâhis breath brushing your lips.
And stillâŚ
He doesnât kiss you.
You whimper. âMinhoâŚâ
He brushes his nose against yours. âWhat?â
Youâre squirming now, voice tight, body hot all over again. âItâs not fair.â
âMm?â
âIâve been so good,â you whisper, breath shaking. âYou said if I worked for itâif I earned itâplease, I just want oneâŚâ
Minho just watches you.
Thenâ
âDo you really think you deserve it?â
You nod frantically. âYes. Pleaseâ*pleaseâ*just oneââ
He leans in so close you feel his lips brush yours.
Then turns his head.
And kisses your cheek instead.
You let out a strangled sob of frustration. âMinhoâ!â
âYou kissed him first,â he murmurs against your skin. âNow you get to wait.â
Minhoâs breath ghosts over your cheek where he just kissed you.
Youâre still frozen, wide-eyed, lips parted like theyâre waitingâlike maybe if you donât move, heâll still change his mind and give it to you.
He doesnât.
You let out a soft, broken sound, somewhere between a whimper and a sob. âMinho⌠please.â
He doesnât pull back.
Just stays there. Inches away. His eyes flick down to your mouthâonce, slowlyâand then back up to your eyes.
âDonât cry,â he murmurs, brushing his thumb gently beneath your eye. âYou brought this on yourself.â
âI was good,â you whisper. âI did everything. I came when you told me to, I begged, Iââ
âYou also kissed someone else.â
You look down, voice crumbling. âBecause you wouldnât.â
Minho lets out a soft humâthoughtful, not angry. He brushes your hair back behind your ear and looks at you like heâs trying to decide what to do with you.
âI know what you want,â he says gently.
âThen give it to me,â you plead.
âI will,â he murmurs, fingers stroking under your jaw. âEventually.â
Your body deflatesâshoulders dropping, lips wobbling, tears still hot behind your eyes.
âYouâre cruel.â
He leans in again.
This time his mouth brushes just below your ear, lips barely grazing your skin.
âNo,â he says quietly. âIâm patient. You? You still need to learn.â
Your throat tightens as he shifts, sitting up straighter. He glances at Jisung, whoâs been silent but wide-eyed through the whole exchange, still laid back against the pillows.
âCome here,â Minho says, voice smooth again.
Jisung blinks. âMe?â
Minho nods. âSheâs been acting like sheâs starving. Let her watch while I remind you what a kiss feels like.â
And just like thatâ
Minho pulls Jisung in.
And kisses him.
Full.
Deep.
Jisung gasps against his mouth before melting into it instantly, their bodies sliding together under the sheets as their hands start to roam again. Itâs slower than before now, more deliberate, hotter, somehow more intimate.
You watch.
Frozen.
Soaked.
Eyes wide and aching.
Because once againâŚ
Itâs not you.
(to be continued maybeâŚ)
A/N: ok but like i kinda ran out of ideas on what to write after this⌠ngl so idk if i should end it on this cliffhanger or do another part. if i get some good ideas on how to continue from here maybe i will continue it đĽ¸
Tags: smut, enemies to lovers, sexting, nudes, public groping, size kink, unprotected sex, oral (f receiving), Dom Changbin, rough sex, breeding kink, soft aftercare
Word count: 4.7k
Summary: A drunk dare. One obscene nude you shouldâve deleted months ago. You send it to the loudmouth classmate you hate mostâChangbin. What you donât expect? His filthy response. Or how fast it spirals into late-night thirst traps, voice notes, and him promising to fuck you so good you wonât be able to walk.
This work contains mature themes, MINORS DO NOT INTERACT!!
It had been one of those weeksâback-to-back deadlines, sleepless nights, and that argument with Changbin during Tuesdayâs group presentation that had left you pacing your room afterward, teeth clenched, cheeks hot.
He was too much.
Too loud. Too confident. Too all over the place.
Every class, every group chat, every hallway you tried to exist inâhe was there. Smirking. Teasing. Rolling his eyes at your notes, talking over you during discussions, always finding ways to get under your skin like it was a personal hobby.
But your girls had insisted. âYou need a break. You need tequila.â
So youâd gone.
Lip gloss, crop top, shots lined up like soldiers.
By midnight, the living room was a haze of heat and laughter. Someone had started a game of truth or dare with twisted rules. Everyone was half-drunk and full of bad ideas.
You shouldâve seen it coming. The moment your turn came and the bottle pointed at you, a few smirks lit up around the circle like a warning.
âOkay,â Layla grinned, âtruth or dare?â
You hesitated. Truth was safe. Predictable. But everyone had been choosing it all night, and youâd mocked them for it. Now it was your turn to be bold.
âDare.â
Layla didnât hesitate.
âSend a nude to Seo Changbin⌠or run a full lap around the football field naked. With a suction dildo stuck to your forehead.â
The room howled.
Someone immediately got up to rummage in a drawer. âI have the dildo!â
Your stomach dropped.
You tried to laugh it off, eyes wide. âAre you fucking insane?â
âYouâve got beef with him, right?â someone snorted.
âThis is perfect.â
âYouâre always bickering, itâll shake him up.â
It wasnât the nudity that scared you. It wasnât even Changbin.
It was what was already in your camera roll.
A photo youâd taken months ago during a particularly filthy night, when you were feeling reckless and painfully needy. The lights had been low, your skin warm, your thoughts wicked. Youâd spread yourself wide open on the sheets, wet and glistening, lips parted, your own fingers pulling at your skin. Your face was in it. Your expression ruined.
You had stared at it afterward, thinking: This is too much. No one can ever see this.
But you hadnât deleted it.
And now⌠your hand hovered over it. Over the send button. The whole room was watching you, waiting.
You felt drunk. Braver than you shouldâve been.
So you said, too calmly, âFine.â
And tapped send.
It only took thirty seconds for regret to sink in like poison.
What had you just done?
He was going to lose his mind. Or worse, not react at all. He could ruin you. Show people. Mock you in class. Bring it up next time you tried to speak during a lecture.
You curled into the couch, face hot, eyes burning from the alcohol and the humiliation chewing through your stomach. Your phone buzzed once.
Then twice.
You turned it over.
Changbin đ˘:
Did you mean to send that?
You stared at your phone like it had grown teeth.
Your thumb hovered over the keyboard.
Every possible answer felt wrong. You almost typed âignore itâ, but deleted it. Then you typed:
âIt was a dare. Just forget it.â
Another ping.
Changbin đ˘:
Thatâs not the kind of photo you send as a dare.
You swallowed.
Your face was burning. All the background noise in the living roomâthe music, the laughter, the clinking glassesâfaded to a soft murmur. The heat of the dare was starting to wear off, replaced by a sick rush of adrenaline and humiliation.
Changbin đ˘:
Jesus fucking Christ.
I⌠I didnât know you looked like that.
Youâve been walking around class with that between your legs?
You tightened your thighs instinctively.
You typed:
âIt was a stupid dare. I didnât mean anything by it.â
But he wasnât letting it go.
Changbin đ˘:
You already had that pic?
That wasnât a selfie. That was planned.
You took that for someone. You were gonna send it eventually.
You bit your lip.
âItâs old. I never sent it to anyone.â
Changbin đ˘:
That makes it worse.
You paused.
âWhy?â
Changbin đ˘:
Because Iâve never wanted to fuck someone I hate more than I do right now.
You looked so good. So fucking wet. Like you needed someone to take care of it.
You blinked.
Your stomach flipped. The burn between your legs sharpened. You werenât sure if it was arousal or pure nervesâprobably both.
âThis is insane.â
âYouâre insane.â
âYouâre still the asshole who makes me want to throw things in class.â
You deleted it all.
Instead:
âYouâve seen it now. Can you just forget it?â
The reply came back instantly.
Changbin đ˘:
No fucking way.
Changbin đ˘:
Youâre seriously gonna act like you didnât send that on purpose? Like you donât want me thinking about it?
Changbin đ˘:
You want me hard for you, donât you?
âNo.â âFuck off.â âStop.â
You didnât send any of those.
âYouâre full of yourself.â
Changbin đ˘:
Nah, princess. Youâre the one dripping in that pic, not me.
You closed your eyes.
He was unraveling you.
The way he talked in person was always irritatingâtoo loud, too smug. But here? In text? At 1:03 a.m.?
He was⌠different. Sharper. Controlled. Bold in a way that went straight to your core.
âYouâre lucky Iâm drunk.â
Changbin đ˘:
You think I need you drunk for this?
Iâd still be hard for you even if we were sober in the library.
You bit back a noise.
Your thighs rubbed together involuntarily.
Changbin đ˘:
You want me to send something back? Would that make it fair? Even the score?
Your fingers twitched.
âYouâre bluffing.â
Changbin đ˘:
Try me.
Your pulse quickened.
âYouâre not actually going toââ
Ping.
The photo loaded slowly.
Dark sweatpants. No shirt. His abs were tight, skin glowing with a warm amber sheen like heâd taken the pic right after a workout. His hand tugged the waistband down low, and the bulge beneath was unmistakableâhuge, thick, pressed to the fabric like it was dying to be freed.
You inhaled, sharp.
The outline of his cock was ridiculous. Heavy. Thick at the base, curving up. The tip clearly outlined. The kind of size that made your body react before your brain caught up.
And his caption?
Changbin đ˘:
Now you can imagine whatâs gonna fill you the next time you talk back in class.
You didnât realize your mouth had gone dry until you swallowed hard.
Someone from the living room called your name. âBabe! Your turn!â
âIâll be right back,â you called, voice strained.
You grabbed your phone, pushed off the couch, and disappeared into the hallway. Somewhere quieter. Somewhere you could breathe.
And think.
And maybeâjust maybeâlook again.
Because for the first time since youâd met him, you werenât sure if you hated him⌠or if you just didnât know what to do with how badly you suddenly wanted him.
â
You thought you could outlast the tension.
After the photo he sentâthe dick print, the way it looked too big to even be real, the caption that made your thighs clenchâyou told yourself it was just late-night chaos. That once the sun came up, you could pretend it hadnât happened.
You left him on read.
Muted the conversation.
Avoided every look in class, kept your expression cold, distant.
But Changbin?
He was different now.
Quieter. Sharper. Dangerous.
He still joked with the guys. Still sat in the same row as always. But whenever your eyes flicked up, he was watching youâreally watching. Like he could still see that photo of you spread open and dripping every time you bit your lip or crossed your legs.
And when your professor assigned a partner project and called out his name alongside yours?
You knew it was over.
Later that afternoon, the library was quiet. Too quiet. The air between you was thick with something unsaid as you stood beside where he sat, laptops open, pretending to focus.
You tried not to look at him.
Tried not to remember the outline of his cock stretching grey fabric. The way heâd said âwhatâs gonna fill you next time you talk back in class.â
Your body hadnât forgotten.
Youâd touched yourself to that image more times than you were ready to admit.
âYouâve been quiet,â he murmured, eyes on the screen.
You didnât look at him. âIâm working.â
âRight.â
âThatâs what you were doing the other night too, huh? Working?â
You stiffened.
âI didnât take you for the type to keep that kind of photo in your phone. Or was it just waiting for someone better to see it?â
You finally turned. âAre you done?â
He leaned back slightly in his chair, smirkingâbut something darker hid behind his eyes. He leaned in towards you, low and quiet.
âNo. Not even close.â
You didnât notice when he stood. But you did feel it when he moved behind you.
At first, it was just his hand brushing your shoulder as he leaned to peek at your screen.
Then he didnât move away.
Instead, you felt the heavy press of his chest behind you. His palm slid slowlyâcasuallyâover your back. Lower. Resting at the curve of your waist.
And then he shiftedâjust slightlyâand you felt it.
The unmistakable weight of him.
Hard. Thick. Pressed right up against your ass.
Your breath hitched.
âMiss me?â he whispered.
Your cheeks burned. âYouâre disgusting.â
âAm I?â
âBecause thisâŚâ his hand flattened against your hip, pulling you subtly back into his body, into his cockââsays otherwise.â
You shouldâve shoved him.
Shouldâve snapped, slapped, screamed.
But your body betrayed you.
Your thighs clenched. Your breathing went shallow.
And when his fingers brushed the hem of your skirt, you didnât move away.
If anythingâyou leaned back.
âYou liked it,â he murmured, lips just behind your ear.
âYou liked knowing I saw you like that. That I wanted to fuck you from the second that photo lit up my screen.â
âYouâre full of shit.â
âYou keep saying that,â he murmured, voice dropping lower, hungrier. âBut your body doesnât agree.â
His hand slid lower, palm resting on your ass nowâreally grabbing, squeezing, like it was his already. He rutted against you once, slow, just enough to let you feel the size of him again.
You gasped, barely holding in the noise.
âPoor thing,â he whispered.
âTrying so hard to act like you donât want this cock stretching you open.â
You closed your eyes. âWeâre in a fucking library.â
âAnd youâre soaked,â he growled. âArenât you?â
You were.
You hated him for it.
But Godâyou wanted more.
âTell me to stop,â he said, voice a low rumble in your ear.
âTell me you donât want me pushing these panties to the side and sliding in right here.â
You didnât say anything.
And neither did your body.
Because for the first time, you werenât sure who was in controlâhim, or the ache between your legs screaming for more.
His grip on your waist didnât loosen. If anything, it tightenedâfingers flexing into the curve of your hips like he wanted to memorize the way you fit under his hands.
You told yourself to move.
To snap out of it.
To shove his cocky ass away and slap the heat off your face.
But instead⌠you shifted.
Barely. Subtly. Almost like a breath.
Your hips arched back just the tiniest bitâand you felt him twitch.
Big. Hot. Hard against you.
And god help you, you did it again.
This time, he chuckled. Low and raspy.
âKeep doing that and Iâm gonna take it personally.â
His voice buzzed against the shell of your ear, warm and wicked.
âI can swear youâre wet.â
âIâm not,â you breathed, barely able to form the words.
âNo?â
One of his hands slid from your hip, slipping lower, slow and deliberate. Your skirt offered no protectionâhis fingers eased beneath the hem with practiced ease, knuckles brushing your thigh.
âThen you wonât mind if I check.â
You gasped. âChangbinââ
But it was too late.
His hand slid up. Under your skirt. Under your panties.
And thenâhis fingers paused.
Right at your slit.
Slick. Dripping. Heat soaked through cotton and flushed onto his fingertips.
He let out a quiet groan, something dark and pleased.
âFuck meâŚâ
You froze.
âYouâre soaked.â
You shouldâve died of embarrassment.
Instead, you whimperedâbarely, breath catching in your throat. Your thighs twitched, instinctively trying to close, but his hand was already there, slipping further, middle finger pressing through the wetness and parting you open.
âLook at that,â he muttered. âFighting me in public, dripping for me in private.â
âYou canâtââ you whispered, but your voice cracked halfway through.
âI can,â he said. âAnd I am.â
His fingertip circled your entrance, not quite pushing in. Just enough to tease. To test how badly your body wanted him.
And it did.
God, it did.
âAll this just from my picture?â he murmured. âYou really are a dirty little thing.â
âChangbin, weâreâsomeone couldââ
âThen stay quiet,â he whispered, lips grazing your ear. âBe a good girl and let me feel what youâve been hiding from me.â
You squirmed against him, helpless. His hard-on grinding into your ass. His hand between your legs. Your body betraying everything your mouth refused to say.
But thenâhe pulled back. Slow. Measured and wicked.
âNot here,â he muttered. âNot yet.â
You let out a shaky exhale, unsure if it was relief or frustration.
âYouâre not ready.â
He said it like a promise. Even more like a plan.
â
That night, your phone lit up before midnight.
Changbin đ˘
You touching yourself right now?
You swallowed, heat curling in your stomach.
âNo.â
A lie.
Youâd been thinking about his finger, barely there, slicking through your folds. The way he pressed against you like he could fuck you through your clothes. The restraint he showedâpulling away just when you were about to lose it.
Changbin đ˘:
Liar. You were dripping earlier. You think that goes away?
Changbin đ˘:
You want help?
Your breath caught.
Then another message.
đˇ An image.
A mirror selfie. Taken low. No shirt. Sweatpants slung low on his hips. But this time⌠no filter, no teasing.
His cock was hard. So obvious. Thick and curving up in those grey sweats, the head visibly straining against the fabric. His hand was wrapped around the base, gripping himself through the material.
Your core clenched.
Changbin đ˘:
You made me like this. Do something about it.
Another ping.
đ§An audio file.
You hesitated⌠then tapped.
His voiceâlow, breathless, filthyâfilled your room.
âWish you were here right now. Iâd be in you already. So deep youâd cry. Want you moaning my name with your thighs wrapped around my waist.â
You bit your knuckle.
âBet youâre wet again just hearing this.â
You were.
And you knew damn well⌠this was only the beginning because it was obvious that you knew you should stop.
Mute the chat. Turn your phone off. Go to sleep.
But instead, you hit play again.
Changbinâs voice filled your room for the second time, low and unsteady.
âWish you were here right now. Iâd be in you already. So deep youâd cry. Want you moaning my name with your thighs wrapped around my waist.â
Your hand had already slipped under the waistband of your shorts. Shame curled hot in your chest, but it wasnât enough to stop you.
Not with his voice saying things like that.
Not when your body was still aching from what heâd done in the library.
You typed, hesitant:
âYouâre a menace.â
Changbin đ˘:
And youâre quiet. You touching yourself again?
âNo.â
Changbin đ˘:
Youâre such a bad liar.
Another ping. Another message.
Changbin đ˘:
Say my name once, and Iâll show you the real thing. But let me hear how down bad you are first.
Your legs squeezed together.
He wasnât letting up.
Not just the teasing â the control. The way he peeled you open without even being in the same room. It was like heâd figured out every weakness you had and was pressing on all of them at once.
You typed:
âYou want me to say your name?â
Changbin đ˘:
Just once. Out loud. Right now.
I know youâre touching yourself, i just want to hear you.
Your heart pounded. You stared at the audio reply button. Your thumb hovered.
Me pulling your legs apart. Spitting on your pussy.
Sliding in nice and slow while you beg me to ruin it.
You let out a shaky breath.
Changbin đ˘:
Câmon, baby.
Be a good girl and let me hear how badly you want it.
The words good girl punched straight through your resolve.
Your finger hovered over the record button.
You didnât overthink it. Didnât script it. But at the back of your mind, you knew shouldnât have done it.
You knew the second you hit recordâyou were crossing a line you couldnât uncross. But the heat in your stomach, the ache between your legs, the way Changbinâs voice still echoed in your ears? It all left you trembling.
So you moaned. You whimpered.
And you said his name.
âChangbinâŚâ
You sounded so fucking needy. So shameless and desperate.
Exactly how you felt.
You hit send with your heart in your throat, thighs clenched tight around your own hand. And then you waitedâseconds dragging, breath caught in your chest.
Then: ping.
đĽA video.
No caption. No warning.
You hesitated, pulse in your ears, then tapped it.
The first thing you saw was skinâhis hand, wrapped tight around the base of his cock. Thick. Hard. Heavy. His head was a darker shade of his skin, glistening with precum, veins running thick along the shaft.
The next thing you heard?
His voice. Ragged. Strained.
âThis what you want, baby?â
He was filming from above, cock in his fist, his abs flexing as he pumped slowly, steadily. Each stroke was loud and wet. His hand moved like he was imagining you were already wrapped around himâtight, dripping, ruined.
âBeen jerking off since you moaned my name,â he growled. âYou sound so fucking pretty when youâre begging.â
You bit your lip so hard it almost bled.
âWanna cum in you so bad,â he panted. âWanna watch it drip out of you. Want you to feel it for days.â
And thenâhe grunted. Shuddered.
And came.
Ropes of it. Thick spurts shooting across his abs, the head of his cock twitching violently in his grip.
âThatâs all for you,â he breathed, voice wrecked.âNext time, Iâm doing that inside.â
The video ended, but you were done for.
You stared at your screen like it had punched you in the stomach. Heat licked down your spine. Your hand had slipped between your legs again before you even realized it.
You replayed the video.
Once.
Twice.
Three times.
You wanted to taste it. Feel it. Be under it.
Then your screen lit up again.
Changbin đ˘:
You still there?
Your fingers trembled. You didnât even overthink it.
You typed:
âI need you.â
[đLocation Shared]
And hit send.
â
You barely had time to think.
One knock. Thatâs all it took.
You opened the door and he was on youâmouth crashing into yours, body pinning you flat against the wall like he was afraid youâd disappear if he let go.
He kissed like a man possessed.
Like your voice note had ruined him. Like your moan had carved something primal into his chest and he couldnât shake it loose.
His tongue slid past your lips, rough and greedy, tasting you like he had to claim you first.
âFuck,â he growled against your mouth. âTook you long enough.â
You barely had time to respondâhis hands were already under your shirt, palming your tits like they were his, thumbs flicking your nipples until you whimpered.
âThis all for me?â he asked, breath hot.
âThis pussy been soaking since the second I sent that video?â
You gasped as he shoved one leg between yours, grinding up against your clothed heatâhis cock already hard, pressing through his sweats like a weapon.
âGod,â he groaned. âYou feel so fucking good.â
âCanât wait anymore.â
He picked you up like you weighed nothing, carried you into your own apartment without breaking the kiss, and dropped youâhardâonto the kitchen counter.
Before you could speak, your shorts were yanked down and off. Your panties, too. Ripped aside with one rough pull.
âFucking knew it,â he muttered as he spread you open. âLook at this wet little pussy. So damn ready for me.â
âYouâre such aââ
âSay it,â he snarled, two fingers sliding through your folds, circling your clit just right.
âSay it while I ruin you.â
You choked on a moan, hips jerking up. His fingers dipped insideâthick, slow, curlingâtesting you.
âTight,â he hissed. âSo fuckinâ tight already.
How the hell you gonna take my cock, baby?â
You looked downâand froze.
Heâd pushed his sweats down just enough, and there it was. All of it.
His cock was thick. Long. Veiny. Angry-red at the tip, already leaking. Youâd seen the outline. Youâd watched him stroke it on video. But up close?
It was fucking terrifying.
And you wanted every inch.
âIâm gonna mess you up real pretty.â he whispered, dragging the head through your slick folds.
âYouâre not walking tomorrow.â
You whimpered, thighs trembling.
âChangbinâfuckââ
âWhatâs that, princess?â he smirked. âYou scared of this cock now?â
âShut the fuck up and give it to me.â
That was all he needed.
He lined up and slammed inâ
The stretch was obscene. Your back arched, a broken cry ripped from your throat. He didnât wait. Didnât tease. He bottomed out in one brutal stroke, hips snapping forward until his balls slapped against you.
âFUCK,â he growled, head dropping to your shoulder. âTight little cuntâs squeezing the shit outta me.â
You clawed at his back, desperate to breathe, but it felt too good. The way he filled youâso deep, so thickâyou felt him in your stomach.
âTook it all, huh?â he rasped, pulling back just to thrust in harder. âGreedy little thing.â
He fucked you like he meant it. Like he was punishing you for every time you rolled your eyes in class. For every time you told him to shut up.
You were moaning like a pornstarâloud, shameless, wreckedâas he pounded into you on the kitchen counter, sweat dripping, his abs flexing with every thrust.
âYou were made for this cock,â he groaned. âFucking built to take it like a good girl.â
He pulled out suddenly, grabbed your wrist, and dragged you into the living room.
âBedâs too far. Couch. Now.â
You stumbled, legs shaking. He bent you over the armrest, slapped your ass onceâhardâand buried himself inside again with a brutal snap of his hips.
âThis assâŚâ he groaned. âYou know how many times Iâve stared at it in class?â
âWanted to fuck you bent over all the damn desks.â
Your moans were broken nowâchoked sobs of pleasure every time his hips slammed into you.
He wrapped his hand around your throat, not too tightâjust enough to own you.
âYou love this, donât you?â he growled. âBig cock splitting you open. My hand on your neck. My cum dripping out of you.â
âYesâfuckâyes, Changbin, pleaseââ
âPlease what?â
âPlease donât stop.â
His grip tightened. His thrusts turned savage.
âIâm gonna cum inside you,â he warned. âI want it leaking down your thighs when you go to class tomorrow. I want everyone to know this pussyâs mine.â
You clenched around himâhardâand he lost it.
âFuckâfuckâbabyââ
He came deep inside you, groaning like he was unraveling from the core. Hot spurts filling you up, cock twitching inside your walls.
You collapsed forward, shaking.
But he wasnât done.
He pulled out, flipped you onto the rug, and dropped to his knees.
âNeed to taste you.â
His tongue went straight to your core, licking up his own mess, spreading it across your folds as he devoured you like heâd starved for days.
âNot leaving till you cum on my face.â
And you did.
Screaming his name. Shaking. Barely able to think.
Your first mistake had been sending that photo.
But your biggest mistake?
Letting him in.
Because now?
Youâd never get him out.
â
You couldnât move.
You were sprawled out on your back on the rug, blinking at the ceiling, your entire body throbbing with the aftershocks of what heâd just done to you. You felt wrecked in the best, most glorious way.
And yetâsomehowâChangbin was the one panting like heâd just gone through hell.
He lay beside you, arm thrown over his face dramatically.
âIâm filing a formal complaint,â he groaned. âYour pussy should come with a fucking warning label.â
You wheezed out a laugh.
âSays the guy who just broke my uterus.â
He turned his head, looked at you.
And melted.
The shift was instantâhis gaze softened, mouth twitching into the tiniest smile. He scooted closer, propped himself on one elbow, and brushed your sweaty hair off your cheek.
âYou okay?â he asked, voice gentle. âLike⌠really okay?â
You nodded. âMore than okay.â
He exhaled like heâd been holding his breath for ten years. Then leaned in and kissed your forehead, your nose, your cheekboneâeverywhere but your lips, like he was saving those for dessert.
âI swear I didnât mean to fuck you like a caveman,â he mumbled. âI blacked out. You made that sound and I was justâgone.â
âYou were terrifying,â you whispered, smiling. âIn the hottest possible way.â
That made him grin.
He reached over for the hoodie heâd left slung on the chair and helped you into itâactually helped, like lifting your arms, guiding it over your head, kissing your shoulder once it was on.
Then he grabbed a warm towel, knelt between your legs, and started cleaning you up with the softest, most careful touch.
âCanât have my girl leaking all over the carpet,â he murmured.
âYour girl?â
He looked up with a cocky smirk.
âYou just let me raw dog you and you screamed my name for the neighbors, baby. Donât play shy now.â
You tried to glare, but he leaned forward and kissed your knee. Then your thigh. Then higher.
âNext time,â he said, âIâm taking you slower. Gonna edge you until youâre crying.â
Your stomach flipped.
âYouâre already thinking about next time?â
He glanced up at you with a boyish little shrug.
âI think about you all the time.â
Your heart stuttered. Because it didnât sound like a line. It sounded real. Raw. Like the truth.
He saw your expression shift and leaned in, his lips brushing your temple.
âNot just the sex,â he murmured.
âI think about you when you fight with the professor. When you tie your hoodie strings in knots. When you roll your eyes at me like you always do.â
âBinnieââ
âI like you,â he whispered.
Simple. Honest.
And it hit you harder than any orgasm.
You buried your face in his chest. He chuckled and wrapped his arms around you, one big palm cupping the back of your head like he could hide you there forever.
âYou hungry?â he murmured.
âStarving.â
âGood. I got us pizza and fried chicken.â
You looked up. âYou really ordered food while I was moaning your name?â
He smirked. âActually did it on my way here but I can multitask baby.â
You laughed into his chest, and he kissed your head again.
When the food arrived, you sat curled in his lap, eating from his chopsticks while he kissed sauce off your lips between bites.
Later, when you were tucked into bed and halfway to sleep, he whispered:
âYou were fucking perfect tonight.â
âIâm gonna be addicted to you now.â
You didnât say anything back. You just pulled his arm tighter around you and pressed a soft kiss to his knuckles.
Because you already were.
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Authors note: Its been a hot minute without a Binnie smut đŞđť How are we liking this cute little enemies to lovers?? đ¤â¤ď¸
Genre: strangers to lovers, doctor-patient, fluffff
Summary: You sprain your ankle, and your best friend Maddie takes you to the ER, where you are bandaged by the hottest doc ever - Han Jisung.
a/n: Han Jisung has me hallucinating hehe
The party wasnât supposed to go like this.
Well, parties weren't your scene, but you were here to support Maddie (your best friend), because this party was thrown by that gorgeous artist Maddie had her eyes on.
Everything was going ok until your friend Changbin dragged you into a game - a drinking game. Maddie obviously pounced in headfirst because artist boy was already on the floor, cross legged.
Unfortunately for you, the bottle pointed at you way too many times, and now you were absolutely hammered.Â
Maddie eyed you as you swayed a little, trying to be brave and wanting to be there for her, but she wasn't going to let you faceplant onto the ugly carpet in front of her crush. That's not how she wanted him to meet you.Â
So then, she shot up from her spot quickly and pulled you up and said a quick goodbye and dragged you out, trying not to laugh.Â
The cool night air hit your face, and it felt so good.Â
âBABE,â you whined dramatically, clutching her arm. âYour boy is so beautiful, I'd be so sad if you didn't marry him.â
âI plan to, hehe,â Maddie snickered, and literally didn't even have a second to react before you miscalculated your step and went straight off the sidewalk, collapsing onto the road like a drunken gazelle.Â
Maddie took one look and started scream-laughing. âYou fell like a whole ass tree.â
âOwwww my ankle!!!â you wailed. âI think I broke it.â
âOh shit,â
Thirty minutes and an x-ray later, at the ER:
You were dramatically sprawled on the hospital gurney, ankle swollen and throbbing furiously. But you couldn't stop giggling.
âBabe, I'm this close to calling an exorcist. Stop it!â Maddie said, swatting your thigh.
That loud slap split through the silence exactly as he walked in, gazing at the x-rays of your foot.Â
Clipboard in hand. Navy blue scrubs that stretched nicely across his chest. And a nice smile. He had such a nice smile.Â
âHi,â he said, voice so sweet and deep, it made you think of caramel dripping from a spoon. âIâm Dr. Han. I'll be taking a look at that ankle for you.â
âOh my God, are you real?â You gasped.
âI hope so.â He chuckled
Maddie SNORTED behind you.
Dr. Han smiled, clearly fighting laughter. âCan I see that ankle now?â
You sighed dreamily. âYou can take a look at anything you want, doctor.â
He examined your ankle, his hands gentle on you.
âOw,â you moaned suddenly. âThat hurts!â
Maddie choked mid sip of her water, and swatted your arm.Â
âShe's not usually like this -â she supplied with a sheepish grin, as Dr. Hanâs ears went pink.
âI⌠Iâm being as gentle as I can,â he said, still smiling. âIt's a mild sprain, you'll be ok. Iâll wrap it up and get you some crutches.â
You nodded, and watched him (with your pupils blown) as he wrapped a bandage around your ankle with skilled fingers.
âYou're so hot! Like sweet hot, like a warm cookie -â
You collapsed into giggles, flopping backwards onto the bed while Maddie narrowed her eyes at you.
âOh she's definitely feeling that drink - or drinks, looks like it.â Dr. Han said, looking at Maddie. âI'll send in some water for her. Make sure she drinks it.â
Maddie nodded like a bobble head doll, biting her lip to not laugh. And he was clearly trying so hard not to laugh as well, and said, âYouâre free to go, wild thing.â
You blinked. âNo.â
âNo?â
You threw your arms around his, like a koala. âI never want to leave you.â
Maddie literally had nothing to say for once.Â
Dr. Han patted your arm with a fond smile and said âDrink that water.â
The next morning, you woke up to the sun on your face. Your mouth was dry. Your head? Pounding. Your ankle? Wrapped and throbbing.Â
But worst of all?
You remembered everything.
Every. Last. Embarrassing. Second.
âOh my God,â you whispered, pulling the blanket over your face. âNo no no no no nooooo.â
âOh look who's up!â Maddieâs evil gremlin voice floated in from the kitchen.Â
You let out a long, dramatic groan.
âIâm never showing my face in a hospital again. If I get hit by a bus, just let me die.â you moaned, Moaning Myrtle style.Â
Maddie strolled into your room, eating a blondie. She looked too smug for someone whoâd watched you throw your dignity out the ER window like confetti.
âIâm sorry,â she said, completely not sorry. âBut you were iconic. That man looked like he wanted to marry you and get a restraining order at the same time.â
You flopped onto your pillow, face buried. âI went to that party for you, Maddie. For you.â
âAhh babe, obviously I can't get married when you're still single,â Maddie replied calmly, plopping down on your bed. âThis is absolutely amazing. I have the artist. And you have the doctor. It's perfect!â
You screamed into the pillow.
âOh, and by the wayâŚâ she said, wiggling a prescription in front of you.Â
Your eyes narrowed. âWhat. Did. You. Do.â
âHe said you'd have to go back for a review in two weeks. Also said you could call this number anytime. You know, in case you had doubts.â
âHe said - quote - âif she doesnât want to change her name and flee the country.ââ
âHe did not stay that.â
âOf course he did. Your ankle is totally fine, you don't need a fucking review for that -â
âMADDIE.â
Three weeks later:
It's safe to say that you didn't show up for that review. Your ankle felt better in two weeks like he said it would, and you had kept off it, so you were good now.Â
You were out grocery shopping - standing in the dairy aisle, aggressively arguing with Maddie over two near-identical cups of yogurt like your friendship depended on it.
âIâm just saying,â you huffed, waving your yogurt like a weapon, âthis one is natural, no added sugar, and it has live cultures. Probiotics, Maddie!â
Maddie rolled her eyes and held up her yogurt. âOh my God. This one has vanilla bean specks, okay? Specks. Itâs literally art in a cup.â
âOh my God are you for real?â
âYES. Your yogurt looks like depression.â
You glared. She glared back.
And then out of nowhere -Â
âHonestly?â said a very familiar voice, âI gotta go with hers.â
A head popped between you both, pointing at your yogurt. Time slowed. Your blood went ice cold, and then boiling hot.
Maddie scoffed with an, âOf course you'll say that.â
You turned your head slightly and locked eyes with Dr. Han Jisung, aka Hot Doc, aka the man you drunkenly tried to seduce while crying about your ankle.
He was standing there in a black t-shirt and jeans, a smug little smile playing on his lips.
âNatural yogurt?â he said, raising a brow. âExcellent choice.â
Your soul left your body. You stood frozen, holding the yogurt like it was a grenade, as Maddie went on about her vanilla yogurt.Â
Jisung chuckled. âNice to see you again, Maddie.â
âYeah yeah, doc,â
âAnd you, Y/N,â
Oh he remembered your name. You wanted to climb into the freeze and turn into a popsicle - anything to escape this situation.Â
âI - I didnât mean to -â you started, eyes wide, face on fire. âOh my God.â
He just grinned, stepping closer. âHey, relax. It's no big deal.â
You blinked. âPlease, it was embarrassing.â
âHonored, honestly.â
Maddie was vibrating with excitement. âIâm gonna go⌠look at cheese.â
You gave her death glare for abandoning you, but she was whisper-yelling at you (as if he wasn't standing right there) to talk to him. She only moved two feet away, peeking from behind a display of gouda.
You turned back to Jisung, heart pounding.
âIâm so sorry,â you blurted. âFor not coming in for that review.â
âIt's totally ok,â he said, still smiling. âI figured you either came to your senses, or left the country.â
âI wanted to. Trust me. I mean, I hit on you like a drunk cartoon character.â
âA cute one though,â he teased.Â
You tried to laugh, but obviously it may have come off as a grimace because honestly, you were dying.Â
He leaned in, casually placing a hand on the freezer door and said, âIt was flattering. You were bold. And hot. And you looked at me like youâd die if I didn't -â
Your brain short-circuited. âI did not -â
âYou did.â
You backed up straight into the glass door. The chill was definitely needed at this point.
âI should go,â you mumbled.
âOr I could buy you coffee.â
You stared, your heart rate rising unnaturally fast.Â
âSay yes, say yesâ Maddie whisper-shrieked from behind the cheese.
âIâŚuhâŚâ
He tilted his head. âYou donât want to?â
âNo, I mean yes. I want to, I justâŚoh god, this is so embarrassing.â
âOkay, so we start from the top. Pretend weâve never met. Iâm Jisung. Iâm a doctor. And Iâm extremely attracted to you.â he said, holding out his hand.
You bit your lip, heart thudding.
âIâm⌠Y/N. And I absolutely wanna faint right now.â But you did shake that really warm but firm hand.Â
(Maddie squealed so loud, she totally scared a grandma reaching for some soft cheese.)Â
---
So your plans for watching trashy dating shows with Maddie and eating pizza shifted dramatically because here you were sitting across Jisung (he wanted you to call him that), hands wrapped around a warm coffee cup. And blushing so hard.Â
The cafe was small and cozy, and he sat close on the cushioned bench beside you, hand brushing yours every few minutes like a gentle, âcalculatedâ accident as you shared a slice of cheesecake.Â
You were trying to focus on the story he was telling - something about his med school days - but it was hard when he kept laughing in that perfectly rumbling, husky voice that made you want to climb him like a tree.
And to make things worse? Your menace of a best friend (and traitor who sold you off to the doctor, snatching your yogurt away) wouldn't stop texting you.Â
Your phone. Would. Not. Stop. Vibrating.
Maddie đĽđą: Are you dead or getting railed in a supply closet???
Maddie đĽđą: Donât forget to use protection. Oh he's a doctor, he'd be careful. Yet.Â
Maddie đĽđą: I'M SURE HEâS GOOD AT ANATOMY OMGÂ
You choked on your coffee, turning your phone face-down with a bang.
Jisung raised a brow, amused. âEverything okay?â
âOh, yeah. That was just⌠spam. Spammy spam. Ya know, normal⌠spam.â
âAha, just spam?â he teased.
You groaned, covering your face with your hands.
âMy best friendâs a menace. She thinks weâre having sex in a supply closet right now.â
He smirked, eyes twinkling. âAre we?â
âJisung!â
He laughed, that full-body, boyish laugh that made your stomach do flips. You may have forgotten how to breathe.
He leaned in, and his thigh pressed fully against yours now, warm through your jeans. âYouâre so adorable.â
âIâm just a girl with yogurt and trauma.â
He laughed again - low and intimate - and you felt like melting. Your body was on fire, every cell screaming: KISS HIM. RIGHT NOW.
And then your phone vibrated again.Â
Maddie đĽđą: If you come home without at least a kiss to gush about, Iâm disowning you.
You covered your face. âOh God.â
Jisung drove you home some time later in his stupidly clean car (obviously, he's a doctor) that smelled like vanilla and something woodsy. The kind of scent that made you want to crawl into his hoodie and never leave.
The ride was warm and quiet, that kind of perfect silence where you could feel the air buzzing between you. Your heart was somewhere in your throat the entire time, because honestly, no one has ever made you feel this way.Â
When he pulled up outside your place, you werenât ready for it to end. But you let him walk you up the steps, slow and close, his hand brushing yours. Like heâd been holding back all night.
You reached your door, and he stopped, turning to you. Your porch light casted a soft glow on his face.
You looked up at him - this ridiculously perfect man who saw you at your absolute worst and still looked at you like you were the most beautiful human being on earth.Â
So you stood on tip toes and pressed a soft kiss to his cheek. You felt his breath hitch, just slightly. And when you pulled back, his eyes were dark and amused.
âThatâll do,â he murmured. âFor now.â
And then, without missing a beat, he raised his voice just slightly and said, âBye, Maddie!â
A loud, high-pitched giggle came from the other side of the door.
You gasped. âMaddie!â
âThanks for the moral support,â he added, smirking.
A dramatic thump followed by giggling came through the wood. Maddieâs voice sang back, âYouâre welcome, Doc!â
You groaned but had to smile, because this was perfect. He reached out, gently brushing a loose strand of hair from your face.
âIâll call you tomorrow,â he said.
âOkay.â
You opened your door, stepped halfway inside, turned back one more time.
âGoodnight, Jisung.â
âGoodnight, Y/N.â
---
Youâd just leaned back against the door, face flushed, smile spreading so wide it hurt, when you heard rapid knocks on your door.Â
Your heart jumped straight into your throat. You quickly opened the door and there he was.
Han Jisung. Slightly out of breath. Chest rising, eyes burning, mouth parted just slightly.
âHi,â he said, softly.
âHi,â you breathed.
You didnât hesitate this time, leaping into his arms like an unhinged, horny Disney princess, and he caught you with a low laugh, arms wrapping tight around your waist. And then he kissed you.
Not the soft kind. No.
It was absolutely hot and messy, all breathless against your mouth. His hand slid up your back, the other gripping your hip tight.Â
You melted against him, tugging him closer, kissing him back. You were so wrapped up in him, in everything, you didnât even hear Maddie until -Â
âOhâŚOkay. Iâll just go.â
You both froze. Pulled apart slowly and turned.
There she was. Standing in the hallway with a grin on her face.
âYâall have fun,â she chirped, and tiptoed away, giggling. And then silence.
Jisung looked at you and smirked.
âYou gonna let me kiss you properly this time?â
Tattoo Artist!Lee Minho x Reader | Exes. Ink. Unfinished business. And nowhere left to run.
đsynopsis: Tattoo Artist AU. You go in for a touch-up. Heâs the one holding the machine. Your ex. The one who fucked you like he loved youâand left like he didnât. Now heâs working on your skin again. And youâre both trying not to fall back in. Too late. You never stopped wanting him. He never stopped being yours. This time, heâs not letting go.
đa/n: bro. BRO. i am â¨deceased⨠this fic nearly ate me alive. i was so lazy writing it my brain was just like . . . O.O static noise the ENTIRE time. BUT I DID IT. I DID IT. SHEâS DONE. Minho's demon dick: delivered. Tattoo angst: served. You: ruined. also not me having a dayâ˘ď¸ â my cat knocked over a potted flower like she pays rent in this house?? broke the damn pot. soil everywhere. ON. THE. CARPET. and guess who was sitting in the mess like a chaotic forest gremlin? her. the criminal. not even sorry. anyway enjoy the filth I bled for <3
p.s. reblog for minho's sake. he worked very hard.
p.p.s. if you read this and didnât moan once, you're lying.
p.p.p.s. minho said âmineâ and I folded like a lawn chair in a hurricane.
â ď¸ warnings: 18+ ONLY | MINORS DNI | Exes to lovers with years of tension | Fingering (f. receiving), oral sex (f. receiving), face riding | Protected sex because Minho is a King | Overstimulation, squirting, rough sex | Hair pulling, light choking, possessive behavior | Filthy talk⢠and degrading praise | Clit play so intense you might ascend | Reader is gone. dumb. dripping | Minho lives upstairs. You live upstairs now too. Itâs canon.
đ Please read with caution. Scream into a pillow. Mop your floor. Apologize to your downstairs neighbors.
đcredits: dividers by @cafekitsune
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BACKSTORY
You met Lee Minho back when he was still building himself. Not the man with a waitlist. Not the name clients whispered like prayer. Just a perfectionist with ink-stained fingers, a cigarette habit, and a sketchbook full of obsessions.
He only took blackwork clients. His designs were architectural. Cold. Brutally beautiful. Like cityscapes carved into skin. Like cathedrals swallowed by shadow. You used to tease himââDo you ever draw anything soft?â
He never answered.
But he kissed you like his mouth was a vow.
You were chaos to his control. Bright to his brutalism. A fire escape on legs, always halfway out the windowâbut you stayed for him.
The first tattoo he gave you was on your ribcage. Fine lines. Intricate, dark, permanent. He said, âIâve never done this for someone I care about before.â
You said, âDonât make it perfect. Just make it ours.â
He made it perfect anyway.
But love wasnât enoughânot when his world narrowed to ink and reputation, and yours was spinning with needs he couldnât name, let alone meet. He stopped coming home. You stopped trying to explain.
The last fight was quiet. The kind of silence that ends things.
You left. He let you. Neither of you ever reached out again.
Seoul, South Korea. Wednesday, 4:03 PM
The bell over the door jingles.
Itâs the same goddamn sound. That soft metallic chime, like a warning.
You step into NO SAINT INK and inhale the familiar scentâdisinfectant, ink, citrus cleaner, and something darker beneath it. Nostalgia, maybe. Or just Minhoâs ghost.
âHi! Welcome toââ
Jisungâs voice cuts off the moment he looks up. Eyes widen. Blink. Blink. Jaw slightly drops. Heâs behind the counter in a ripped vintage tee, one glove on, holding a paper cup of iced Americano like itâs mid-scene in a music video.
â...Holy shit.â
âNice to see you too,â you deadpan, stepping up to the reception desk like itâs a confession booth.
From the back, Felix emerges, sliding in with a practiced spin on the rolling stool. His crop top says âNO SAINT, JUST HOTâ and heâs chewing pink bubblegum like itâs personal.
He squints. âWait. Waitwaitwaitâno way.â He turns to Jisung. âThatâs her, right?â
Jisung nods slowly, eyes still on you like you might disappear if he blinks. âMm-hm. Thatâs her. The ribcage girl.â
You sigh, reaching for the clipboard. âStill the same greeting process, I see.â
Felix leans in over the counter, lashes weaponized. âSo. What brings you back to the scene of the crime, gorgeous?â
âTattoo,â you say simply, checking the box marked cover-up on the intake form.
Felix raises a brow. âCover-up? On what?â
You give him a flat look. Then slowly, deliberately, tap your rib.
Jisung immediately chokes on his iced coffee. âOh my god. Youâre covering Minhoâs piece?â he hisses.
âDonât say it like that,â you mutter.
Felix gasps dramatically, grabbing your form. âDoes he know? Does he know youâre here?â
âNo.â
âDoes he know you're gonna cover the sacred rib tattoo of doomed romanceâ˘?â
âStill no.â
Jisung is now whispering to himself in horror. âHeâs gonna combust. Heâs gonna short-circuit like a printer from 2003.â
Felix pats your hand. âYouâre braver than the Marines.â
You slide the completed form back to them. âYou gonna let me through, or you want me to relive the breakup right here?â
âBooth Three,â Jisung says instantly. âHeâs in there right now. Iâll text him that a client is coming in.â
Felix grins like the devil. âWe wonât say who. Surprise trauma!â
You exhale slowly as you make your way to Booth Three and pushing the door open.
Minho is inside, doesn't even look up. Of course he doesn't. He is seated at his workstation, black hoodie sleeves pushed up, long fingers flying over his iPad. The screen glows with precision: a mandala lattice interwoven with brutalist architecture, all angles and absence. Itâs violently elegant. Just like him.
Heâs got one AirPod in. The other rests on the desk, silent. His tattoo gun is prepped and sterilized beside it. Black gloves folded, still untouched.
You stay silent for a beat.
Heâs changed, but not really. Hair darker now. Under-eye shadows deeper. Forearms inked in blackwork he used to say wasnât âfor him.â
You recognize his neck tattooâyou designed that motif. He said heâd never use it. Guess he changed his mind.
You speak, voice even, soft.
âHope you still remember how to do ribs.â
He freezes. Literally freezes mid-stroke, like someone hit pause on a film reel.
His eyes flick up.
And when they meet yoursâhis stylus drops.
â...No fucking way.â
You smile, tight-lipped. âHi.â
Minho blinks. Once. Twice. Then leans back slowly in his chair, as if needing distance just to believe you're real. He doesnât say anything at first. His eyes drag down you like a scanâlips, collarbones, arms. His gaze stops right where it used to rest: the dip beneath your ribs.
âWhat the fuck are you doing here.â
You shrug, like this isnât a slow-burn emotional arson scene. âCover-up.â
He exhales like he got sucker punched.
You donât say it. You donât have to. He knows which one. For a moment, neither of you move. The only sound is the quiet buzz of the fluorescent light, and your pulse hammering against silence.
Minho finally breaks it, voice lower now. Raspier. Rough around the edges.
âSit.â
You walk forward. The vinyl of the chair squeaks as you lower yourself onto it.
Minho adjusts his stool with one foot, pulling closerâclose enough that your knees nearly touch. He reaches for a fresh pair of gloves and pulls them on with a muted snap.
âYou still flinch?â he asks, without looking up.
âOnly when it matters.â
A breath leaves him like a short laugh, disbelieving and hollow. He nods at your ribs.
âShow me.â
You tug your top up slowly. The air is cool against your skin. But his gaze is colder.
The tattooâs still thereâhis lines, his shape, the intimate architecture of a design he once called a cathedral just for you. You watch his eyes trace it like heâs reading a language he forgot he wrote.
He exhales through his nose, once. Then leans in. Not touching. But close.
âStill healed well,â he mutters. âEven after everything.â
He lets out a short soundânot quite a laugh. Not quite not.
Then turns to grab his iPad.
You watch him swipe past old sketches. Lines. Shapes. A few human figures, but mostly⌠structures. Always structures. Stained glass, brutal staircases, the shadows between pillars. And suddenlyâone design with your face sketched into the edge of a crumbling spire flashes past.
You blink.
He quickly flips to a blank layer.
âWhat are you thinking?â he asks, stylus in hand.
You hesitate. Then: âSomething clean. Cold. Geometric. No softness.â
He looks at you. Just looks. Then tilts his head. âSo the opposite of what you used to want.â
You lift a brow. âPeople change.â
âDo they?â He doesnât say it like a question.
Silence. Only the soft tick of the stylus moving. Drawing. Erasing. Redrawing.
You glance over.
The lines are sharp. Intricate. Interlocking shapesâarchitectural, yes, but still haunting. Thereâs depth beneath the harshness, shadows where light should be. Heâs already building something brutal.
âYou always sketch this fast for clients?â you ask.
He doesnât look up. âOnly the ones who know how to bleed for it.â
Your breath stutters. He notices.
After another beat, he holds the iPad out to you, jaw tense. âYou want this? Final answer.â
You study it. And itâs beautiful. Devastatingly so. The kind of piece that erases historyânot by covering it, but by burying it in monument.
âYeah,â you murmur. âItâs perfect.â
He huffs softly. âItâs not.â
âMinhoââ
âItâs not what I wanted to put here.â
The sentence hits like a quiet car crash. No screech, just impact. You say nothing. He turns away to print the stencil. You watch the lines appear on paper, black and cruel.
âThis gonna take long?â you ask lightly, trying to breathe again.
âYeah,â he says, voice low. âItâs big.â
âGood. Iâve got time.â
He turns. Looks at youâreally looks. The gloves are still on. The stencil in hand. âYou sure you can lie here for hours with me that close?â
âYou sure you can touch me for that long and not fall apart?â
For one suspended moment, the room goes still.
Then Minho steps forward. âLetâs find out.â
He sets the stencil aside. Pulls out the prep tray. Itâs methodicalâhis ritual. You remember it. He moves with that same detached precision: antiseptic wipe, alcohol spray, barrier film over his tray, black nitrile gloves pulled snug with that quiet snap that used to make your stomach twist.
The scent of alcohol hits first. Then the click of the spray bottle. Then his voiceâlow, close. âIâm cleaning the area.â
He waits. You nod.
And then his handâgloved, coldâpresses gently at your side, just under your ribs. The contact makes your breath hitch. He feels it. âStill ticklish,â he murmurs, but thereâs no amusement in it. Just memory.
His fingers move across the old tattoo and you close your eyes as he presses the stencil on.
âHold still,â he says softly. Too softly.
You feel the pressure of his palm, the warm slide of his knuckles against your waist, the careful tension as he positions the design.
Then he pulls back. Steps away. And you exhale.
âMirrorâs there,â he says, voice neutral.
You sit up, top still raised, and step to the full-length mirror near the boothâs edge.
The stencil is stark black. Clean. Brutal. It spans from just under your chest down to your hipboneâan interlocking spiral staircase, collapsing inward on itself, surrounded by broken geometry and cathedral archways. Inside the spiral, thereâs a single vacant silhouetteâlike a missing piece in the shape of a person.
âItâsâŚâ you begin. But you canât find the word.
âEmpty?â he offers.
âYeah.â
Minho shrugs slightly, adjusting the height of the chair. âYou wanted cold. Unsweet. Brutal.â
You nod. âI did.â
He doesnât move until you return to the chair and settle in again. He leans down, pulls the stool closerâso close his knee brushes yours. âReady?â
âNo.â
A pause. Then: âGood. Thatâs honest.â
The machine buzzes to life. He dips the needle into the inkâpitch blackâand presses the foot pedal. Then the first contact hits. The sting. The bite. The sound.
Your breath stutters. His hand is firm on your waist, grounding. âStill breathe like that,â he murmurs.
âStill touch like that.â
The buzz of the machine fills the booth like static between stations.
Minho works in silence. You breathe in silence. Time stretches. His gloved hand stays steady on your waistâanchoring, professional, unyielding. But every time his fingers shift to wipe the ink, every time his forearm brushes your side, you feel something buried rattle. Like bones under floorboards.
You focus on the ceiling tiles. Count them. Try not to flinch when he drags the line near your ribcage. Heâs precise. Too precise. You feel every goddamn millimeter.
And stillâhe says nothing. Itâs been maybe an hour. Thenâquietly, like a thread being tugged:
âYou finish school?â
Your eyes blink open. âYeah. A while ago.â
âThought so,â he murmurs. âYou used to study here. In this chair.â
You huff. âI used to do a lot of things in this chair.â
He pauses. Then wipes your skin with slow, deliberate pressure. âStill mouthy.â
âStill quiet.â
âOne of us had to be.â
The machine hums again. You both fall silent. But the air isnât. It hums nowâcharged and heavy. After another few minutes, you speak, voice softer.
âYou still living above the shop?â
Minhoâs hand doesnât pause, but you hear the answer in the way he exhales. âYeah.â
âYou ever fix the leak by the kitchen window?â
âEventually. Felix slipped on the water and broke his assbone, soâŚâ
âJustice.â
A faint smile ghosts across his lips. You catch it. Pretend not to. âWhat about you?â he asks. âWhere are you now?â
You shrug. âSeoul. Still. I work freelanceâmostly visual design, some concept art stuff. Clients suck. Payâs decent.â
âStill draw?â
âAlways.â
He nods, as if that explains something only he understands.
Another beat of quiet. Then: âYou tattoo now too?â
That makes you pause. âA little. Not full-time.â
âAnyone ever ink your ribs like this again?â
You meet his eyes. âNo one ever touched me here again.â
That silence? Not like before. This one cracks. Minho sets the machine down slowly. Wipes the needle. Re-inks. Doesnât speak for a full thirty seconds.
Then: âGood.â
You shift, heart thudding. âWhy?â
He glances up, and for once, doesnât look away. âBecause itâs not theirs to touch.â He says it like he didnât just lay a claim. Like itâs fact. Like itâs law.
You donât reply. You canât. Your ribs acheânot from the needle, but from the breath youâve been holding since he started this goddamn piece.
Minho presses the foot pedal again.
The machine whirs to life, slicing through the silence. The black ink spreads, sharp and deliberate, marking over what was once softness.
His hand settles against your waist again. Firmer now. Less technicianâmore⌠anchor. His fingers brush under the hem of your top again. Not on purpose.
But he doesnât apologize.
âGonna do the lower spiral now,â he murmurs. âI need to adjust your position.â
You nod. Try to keep your voice even. âTell me what you want.â
His gaze flicks up. Something flashes in itâheat, recognition, regret. âLift your arm. Stretch back.â
You obey. Your back arches slightly. The angle shifts. Your shirt slides up higher. And suddenly, his breath catches. Not visibly. Not loudly. But you feel itâin the tiny hesitation between glove and skin. He moves slower now. Drapes the barrier cloth gently over your chest. Focuses on the lower edge of the design.
His hand brushes the curve of your hip. âStill got the scar,â he mutters.
âFrom your old chair. That screw that stuck out.â
âI told you to stop climbing into my lap during sessions.â
âI told you to fix your fucking chair.â
Another small ghost of a smile. Another memory you didnât mean to let through.
The machine buzzes. The lines go deeper now. Bolder. You wince slightlyâless from pain, more from the weight of his closeness. âHurts?â he asks, quiet.
âNot as much as losing you did.â
The machine goes silent. He sets it down. Slowly. His head tilts up, eyes dark, unreadable. âYou think I didnât lose you too?â
Before you can answerâknock knock knock.
The booth door creaks open an inch, and Jisungâs head pops in. âHey, just checkingâOH.â He blinks. Stares. Feels the temperature of the room. âNever mind.â
Another head appears behind himâChan, black tee, clipboard in hand. Owner. OG. Quiet ringleader of this whole tattoo circus.
âMinho, did you review theââ He pauses mid-sentence. Eyes shift from Minho to you. To your lifted shirt. To the way Minhoâs gloved hand is hovering just above your skin.
Chan arches a brow. â...So this is happening again.â
Minho doesnât even flinch. âOut.â
Jisung salutes. âGodspeed, soldier.â
Chan just sighs. âTry not to punch holes in the wall this time.â
The door shuts. The lock clicks. Silence again.
You exhale. âThey always this nosy?â
âYou always this distracting?â His voice is low now. Tight.
You blink. âMinhoââ
âLie back.â
You obey. He pulls the stool closer. Closer than necessary. Then, gloved hands on your hip, he saysâquiet, slow: âIâm finishing this. Every goddamn line.â
You nod. And the machine starts again.
You lose track of time somewhere around the fifth wipe.
The sky outside is darker now. The booth hums with that post-tattoo stillnessâlow light, blood buzz, the deep ache under your skin like something blooming and bruised.
Minhoâs working slower now. Not out of fatigue. Noâheâs dragging it out. You can feel it in the way he traces your skin. The pauses. The glances.
Itâs 7:23 PM.
You know this because your phone buzzes uselessly on the counter and Minho glares at it like itâs an intruder. Then againâhe hasnât looked away from you much at all.
âYouâre almost done?â you ask quietly, voice hoarse from the hours of not speaking.
âFinal shading,â he says, shifting. âThen bandage.â
You nod, letting your head fall back against the chair. You close your eyes.
Untilâclick. The door opens again.
âYou better not be tattooing her feelings back on,â Jisung says, peeking in once more.
âItâs after seven,â Chan adds, stepping in behind him. âWeâre leaving. You can lock up.â
Minho doesnât even glance at them. âBye.â
âDamn,â Jisung mutters. âI missed when you were nice.â
Chan folds his arms. âHe was never nice.â
Minho wipes your side again. âDo you two need something, or are you just doing walk-in commentary now?â
âWeâre giving you the key,â Chan says patiently, tossing it toward the counter. It lands with a clatter. âAnd also warning you: no sex on the chair.â
âEspecially not that chair,â Jisung adds. âThatâs the holy one. Client blood and heartbreak juice only.â
You blink up at them. âYou do know I can hear you, right?â
âSweetheart, youâre like three moans away from a confessional,â Jisung grins.
Minhoâs hand tenses on your hip.
Chan gives Jisung a sharp look. âOkay, thatâs enough. Let the man finish tattooing his ex.â
Minhoâs voice cuts inâlow, flat, and dry: âIâm raising the booth rent if you two donât leave.â
Jisung gasps. âYou canât evict my vibe.â
âWatch me.â
With one final laugh, Chan tips an invisible hat at you. âPleasure seeing you again. Donât break our boy, yeah?â
You donât respond. You just hold Minhoâs gaze.
The door closes. The lock clicks again. Alone. Again.
He exhales. âThey never change.â
You hum. âNeither do you.â
âNot with you.â
His hand brushes your skin again, wiping the last bit of ink away. He doesnât move it. Just leaves it there. Warm and steady.
âIâm done.â
You nod. Slow. Dazed. âYeah,â you whisper. âMe too.â
But neither of you move.
The machine is off. The gloves are still on. His hand is still resting on your bare waist.
You watch his throat move as he swallows.
âI need to bandage it.â
You nod.
Minho finally pulls back. Peels off the gloves, slow. Tosses them into the bin with a soft crack. His hands are bare nowâwarmer, familiar, devastating. He reaches for the tattoo film. The kind that clings like a second skin.
âThis partâll be cold,â he murmurs.
âSo were you.â
His hands pause.
Then, with infinite care, he presses the bandage to your ribs. The plastic clings, sealing the ink beneath. His fingertips ghost over your side. Flattening. Smoothing.
Too gentle.
His hand lingers a second too long on your hipbone. Then again on the edge of your waist, just under your breast. You donât move. You donât breathe.
Neither does he.
âYouâre still warm here,â he murmurs. âStill soft.â
âI never stopped being yours here,â you whisper. âEven after you let me go.â
His hand freezes.
And thenâ
Minho exhales. Slow. Controlled. Devastated. âFuck,â he says. âDonât say shit like that unless you mean it.â
âI do mean it.â
He looks up at you, finally. Face unreadable. But his eyes? Wrecked.
âI didnât stop wanting you,â you say, soft. âI just stopped begging.â
And thatâs when something inside him cracks. Minho drops the rest of the bandage. One hand cups your jaw. The other pulls you forward by the waist. His lips crash into yoursânot neat, not planned, not patient. Just real. Messy. Hot. Familiar. Like all the years you lost were just smoke.
He tastes the same. Regret and hunger.
You kiss him back. Desperate. Needy. Home.
When he pulls away, heâs breathless. âThe shopâs closed,â he says hoarsely.
âI know.â
âYouâre not leaving yet.â
âI know.â
But he can't stop kissing you and his kisses leave you gasping, lips parted, your ribs burning with fresh ink and something even hotter under your skin.
But Minho doesnât move for your mouth again.
He just looks at you. And presses the last edge of the bandage into place. Palms flat on either side of your ribs, holding it there. Holding you there.
âYou need to keep this clean,â he murmurs, voice wrecked. âSaniderm on for at least a day. No sweat. No friction. No heat.â
You smirk. âSo I shouldnât fuck my tattoo artist, huh?â
He closes his eyes like that physically hurts. Then opens them again, and theyâre darker. Gone. âFuck,â he mutters. âCome here.â
He grabs your face and kisses you againâharder this time. His mouth is warm, demanding. He tastes like ink and restraint and the last piece of something you thought youâd never get again.
You whimper into it, fingers fisting into his hoodie, tugging him closer. He moves fast now, pulling you upright, spinning you around so your back hits the wall behind the chair.
Your top rides up, exposing your waist. His hands drag along the un-tattooed side of your ribs, his touch finally hungry.
âMinhoââ
âYou still talk too much.â
His hand finds your thigh, fingers digging in as he lifts you onto the edge of the chair.
âDonât you dare come undone on this chair unless you want your name carved into it,â he growls.
âDo it,â you whisper, breath hot. âLike old times.â
He groans. Hands gripping your hips, pulling you forward against the bulge in his jeans. But even nowâhe's careful. His fingers skirt around the bandage. His mouth trails everywhere but the fresh ink.
âI canât touch there,â he pants. âBut everywhere else? Mine.â
He leans inâbites at your neck. Licks under your jaw. You shudder. âMine.â
You nod, breathless. âYours.â
âSay it again.â
âYours.â
He groans into your skin. One hand slips under your waistbandâslow, deliberate, filthy. âKeep still. You move too much, Iâll stop.â
âMinhoââ
He kisses your collarbone. Soft now. âI never shouldâve stopped touching you.â His voice is low, almost broken against your skin. And then his hand dips furtherâsliding past the waistband of your pants, then beneath your underwear. You flinch at the first brush of his fingers against your bare heat.
âFuck,â he hisses. âAlready soaked?â
You moan, soft and unfiltered. âYou did this.â
âDamn right I did.â
He doesnât dive in right away.
Minhoâs fingers ghost along your folds, barely thereâjust the suggestion of touch. Teasing, cruel, worshipful. Like he wants to remember this. Every slick, desperate twitch.
âStill so fucking warm,â he murmurs. âStill react to me like this.â
âBecause I never stopped needing you.â
That does something to him. His jaw tightens. His free hand grips your thigh harder.
His fingers stroke your clit nowâslow and purposeful. He still hasnât pushed in. Just teasing, rubbing, feeling every tremble in your core.
âYouâre shaking,â he whispers. âAll this time and I still ruin you like this.â
You whimper, hips bucking upâbut he presses you down against the chair again.
âWhat did I say?â he growls. âKeep. Fucking. Still.â
You nod, gasping. âIâm tryingâfuckâMinho, pleaseââ
He slips one finger inside. Just one. It glides in so easily, so wet, he groans low into your neck.
âStill tight,â he pants. âStill perfect.â
You clench around him and he curses, fingers curling just slightly as he begins to move.
âSay it again,â he whispers, lips dragging over your ear.
âSay youâre mine.â
âIâmâfuckâMinho, Iâm yoursââ
His second finger joins the first. Scissoring. Filling. So slow itâs maddening. His thumb circles your clit in rhythm, expertly cruel. Youâre grinding against him now, trying not to cry out.
But itâs no use.
âThatâs it,â he growls. âLet me hear you. You think I forgot what you sound like?â
You moanâloud this timeâand he smiles against your skin.
âThere she is.â
His fingers curl againâdeep, deliberate, cruel. You cry out, thighs trembling, body completely unhinged on his tattoo chair.
âFuck, youâre clenching so hard,â he groans, dragging his fingers out almost entirely before plunging back in with a wet sound that makes you whimper. âYou missed this, didnât you?â
âY-Yes,â you gasp.
âHow much?â
You can barely breathe. âSo muchâMinhoâfuckââ
âThatâs not good enough.â
He pumps harder. Faster. His fingers scissor deep inside you, stretching you wide while his thumb circles your clit with just enough pressure to keep you right on the edge. His forehead presses to yours, breath ragged, jaw clenched like he's holding back a growl.
âFeel how fucking hard I am for you,â he grits, grabbing your free hand and dragging it down between you both.
Your fingers brush the bulge in his jeans andâfuck. Heâs thick. Hard in a way that hurts even through the denim.
âAll that from just your voice,â he rasps. âFrom your pussy sucking my fingers in like it still belongs to me.â
You whimper, hand tightening instinctively over his cock. He twitches under your grip.
âYouâre gonna make me cum just from your fist at this rate,â he breathes, panting into your mouth. âAnd I havenât even fucked you yet.â
Your hips roll against his hand, the wet slap of your cunt obscene now, the squelch of each pump making your eyes roll back.
âM-Minhoâcanâtâtoo muchââ
He leans in, lips brushing your ear. âTake it. You used to take it so well.â
You cry out, grinding shamelessly against his hand, your wrist still caught against the outline of his cock. His fingers are relentless nowâdeep, punishing strokes that angle just right, hitting the spot that makes your back arch.
âThatâs it, baby,â he whispers, voice hot and filthy. âYou gonna cum for me?â
âPleaseâneed toââ
âYou think Iâm letting you go home with anyone elseâs cum in you again?â His hand grips tighter. âNah. Youâll cum on my fingers. Then my tongue. Then my cock. One by one. Until you remember who you belong to.â
You sob into his shoulder, body locking up.
âThen cum,â he growls. âLet me feel you fucking fall apart.â
And you do. You shatter. Right there in his chair, cunt clenching around his fingers so hard he curses, hips bucking involuntarily, thighs shaking. The orgasm crashes through you like a wave that never breaks.
Youâre still gasping, barely coming down, when he kisses you againârough and breathless.
Then he pulls his hand out and brings his digits to his lips, licking his fingers clean with a sinful groan. âStill the sweetest fucking thing Iâve ever tasted.â
Minho leans inâpresses a soft kiss just beneath your jaw. Then another. Then pulls back, his lips swollen and wet with you.
âStay,â he says simply.
âYes.â
âUpstairs.â
You nod again, dazed. He grabs a clean towel, wipes his fingers off, then flicks off the booth lights.
You stumble to your feet. He steadies you with a hand on your lower backâprotective, but firm. The other hand? Already sliding down to cup the curve of your ass.
âDonât test me,â he murmurs, voice rough. âOr Iâll take you right here. Front door be damned.â
You laugh breathlessly. âYou always talk this much now?â
âOnly when Iâm starving.â
He steps out first. Walks to the front.
The shopâs dark nowâjust the glow of the neon sign outside, and the sound of him flipping the lock with a click. Pulling the blinds. Turning the CLOSED sign.
The only other sound is your breath. And the creak of stairs.
Minho turns back to you. Extends his hand. âCome home.â
And you do. You follow him up the stairsâyour fingers tangled in his, your heart in your throat. He pulls you behind him, not once looking back.
The upstairs apartment is dim, clean, and familiar in a way that makes your chest ache.
His hoodie hits the floor first. Your shirt follows. Your bra is gone with one snap of his practiced fingers.
âFuck,â he breathes, stepping in closer. âIâve dreamed about this. Exactly this.â
âThen stop dreaming.â
âIâm not stopping anything tonight.â
He kisses you hard, mouths crashing, tongues tangled. His hands roam over every inch of skin he missedâthe good side of your ribs, your back, your thighs. He lifts you. You wrap your legs around his waist.
Your back hits the hallway wall.
Your pants are yanked down, barely a memory. His belt clinks open, jeans shoved past his hips. Youâre both gasping, biting, pulling, years of silence poured into filthy, reckless touch.
âI missed your body,â he mutters into your mouth. âMissed how you sound. How you taste. How you fucking feel.â
âThen take me.â
âYou think I wonât?â
He kicks the bedroom door open with one foot, lays you down onto his bed, and finallyâfinallyâhe crawls over you like youâre something holy. You are.
Minho kisses you again, slower now, lips dragging down the column of your throat. Over your collarbone. Across the top of your chest. He palms your breastâsqueezes, just enough to make you gaspâand then closes his mouth over your nipple.
You arch.
âStill so responsive,â he murmurs, flicking his tongue over the peak before sucking hard, slow. âStill so good for me.â
Your hands knot in his hair.
He kisses across to the other oneâgiving it the same attention, tongue lazy, mouth open and hot. Every sound you make fuels him.
Then lower.
His mouth trails down the center of your stomachâsoft kisses, open-mouthed and hot, then bites just sharp enough to leave blooming heat behind. He kneels between your legs, hands parting your thighs.
Youâre soaked again. Dripping. Panties long gone.
He growls low, eyes locked to your pussy like itâs fucking divine.
âYou knew this was next,â he says, voice low, hands sliding under your thighs to lift your hips. âI told you.â
âThen shut up andââ
He doesnât let you finish.
Minho licks one long stripe up your slitâslow and filthyâfrom the bottom of your entrance to your clit. And moans. Loud.
âStill taste like a fucking fever dream.â
Your hands shoot into his hair again. âMinhoâfuckââ
He flattens his tongue against your clit, then circles it. Slow, heavy pressure. Just enough to make your thighs jerk around his head. âKeep them open,â he mutters, pulling back only to kiss your inner thigh, your hipbone, your mound. âLet me see all of you.â
And then he devours.
Tongue pressed deep. Lapping. Sucking. Flicking. He eats like he missed meals for years and this is how he survives now. Your moans go from soft to broken, gasps ragged, legs shaking around his head.
âOh myâfuckâMinhoââ
He groans into you, the vibration making your hips buck. His arms wrap tighter around your thighs, holding you down, keeping you right there as his tongue circles your clit in tight, ruthless rhythm.
He sucks your clitâharder now. Lips wrapped around your clit, tongue swirling in circles so precise it feels like he mapped this out. Every flick is a promise. Every kiss, a punishment.
âMinhoâfuckfuckâpleaseââ
Your thighs tremble against his shoulders, toes curling, head thrown back into his sheets. But heâs relentless. Focused. Cruel in the way only someone who knows your body this well can be.
Thenâsuddenlyâhis tongue dips lower again.
He licks into youâdeepâpressing into your entrance, slow and wet and hot.
Minhoââ
He moans into your cunt, arms flexing around your thighs, nose pressed into your mound like he never wants to come up for air. He tongue-fucks you harder, the slick sounds obscene now, spit and arousal dripping down his chin.
He pulls back just enough to suck your clit again, messy and loudâthen goes back down, tongue fucking you like itâs a competition. Like itâs penance. Like heâs going to draw the second orgasm out of you with his mouth alone.
âYouâre close again,â he pants. âI feel it. You gonna cum for me, baby? Gonna soak my face?â
âYesâyes, pleaseâdonât stopââ
He doesnât. In fact, he doubles downâtongue driving in and out while he rubs tight, fast circles on your clit with his thumb. Your thighs snap around his head. You try to pull away, too sensitive, too muchâ
But Minho just growls, deep and possessive.
âFucking take it.â
Fuck you do. You fucking do take it. How can you not. And you finally break apart on his face, legs locking, body spasming as that second orgasm rips through you harder, wetter, longer. He holds you through it, licking and sucking until your voice is nothing but choked whimpers and your body canât stop twitching.
When he finally pulls away, his mouth is glossy, chin soaked.
He smirksâwild, satisfied, dark before kneeling up, grabbing a condom from the drawer, tearing it open with his teeth.
âNow Iâm gonna ruin this pussy properly.â
Youâre barely conscious of the way he tears the condom wrapper openâjust the sound of it, sharp and needed in the haze of your wrecked body. He rolls it on quick, jaw clenched, hand pumping his cock once, twice, eyes locked on you like youâre prey heâs finally allowed to devour.
âGet on all fours.â
You try to move, limbs shaking, but he grabs your hips and flips you himselfâeffortless, firm, like muscle memory. You barely get your arms under you before heâs behind you, one hand gripping your ass, the other dragging along your spine.
âYou remember how loud you used to get?â he mutters, voice thick. âGonna make you scream into my fucking sheets again.â
He guides his cock to your entranceârubbing the tip through your soaked folds, slow and teasing, soaking himself in your mess.
âFuckâyouâre dripping,â he groans. âYou came so hard for my mouth, and youâre still ready for my cock?â
âPleaseâMinhoâneed itâneed youââ
He sinks in. Deep. One smooth, devastating thrust that punches the air from your lungs.
âOh my fuckââ
âThatâs it,â he growls, bottoming out. âTight as ever. Like your pussy never forgot me.â
You choke on a moan as he pulls out slowâjust to slam back in, harder this time. Your arms buckle, face falling into the mattress as his hips snap against your ass with punishing rhythm.
âMinhoâfuckâyouâre soâdeepââ
âYeah? You missed this cock?â His voice is ragged, filthy. âTell me. Tell me who fucks you like this.â
âOnly youâfuckâonly you, Minhoââ
âDamn right.â
He grips your hair, pulling you up by the back of your neck, arching your body so your back curves into him. His mouth is by your ear now, panting, biting.
âNo one touches you here,â he growls, fucking into you harder, deeper. âNot your mouth. Not your thighs. Not your pussy. All mine. Say it.â
He snarls into your neck and slams into you so deep you see stars. One of his hands slides down to your clit, rubbing fast, relentless circles while his cock drags against your g-spot.
âYou gonna cum again?â he pants. âOn my cock this time?â
âYesâyes, pleaseâdonât stopââ
âLet go for me, baby.â
You donât even need to try.
His thumb circles your clit with such devastating precision, and his cock hits so deep, so right, you come apart againâbody locking up, mouth falling open in a moan that barely sounds like your own.
Your orgasm slams into you like a wave, sharp and overwhelming, your pussy fluttering around him, gripping him, milking him like your body knows heâs supposed to stay there.
âFuuuuckâMinhoâ!â
âThatâs it,â he growls. âCum on my cock like a good girl. So fucking wetâso tightâI can feel you pulsing, fuckââ
Your vision blurs. But he doesnât stop. He keeps thrusting through it, relentless, dragging it out with brutal pace, your pussy so sensitive now you can barely breathe. His handâs still on your clit, rubbing slow nowâjust enough to make you whimper.
âMinhoâpleaseâI canâtââ
âYes you can.â
He leans over your back again, teeth dragging along your shoulder, breath hot and harsh. âYou gonna take it, baby,â he pants. âYouâre gonna be good and take it. All of it. Until I cum too.â
You cry out when he fucks you harder, cock slamming in deep, hips slapping skin, the sound so obscene it makes your whole body flush. You feel your own slick running down your thighs, pooling under youâand still he keeps going.
âYou said you were mine,â he groans. âSo act like it. Let me fuck you how you need.â
âMinhoâf-fuckâitâs tooâtoo muchââ
âItâs never too much,â he hisses. âNot for my good girl.â
His fingers leave your clit, only to grip your throatâlightly, possessively, pulling you up so your back is flush to his chest. His cock drives into you deeper from this angle, the stretch unbearable, perfect.
âYou feel this?â he whispers into your ear. âYou feel how hard I still am inside you? Iâm not even close, baby.â
âOh my godââ
âYouâre gonna take every fucking second of it.â
You moan, broken and needy, as he slams into you again and again. His hips are ruthless now, fucking you straight through your oversensitivity, chasing his own high while demanding you keep up.
âGonna ruin you,â he groans. âGonna fill you up and fuck you until you canât even standâuntil all you know is my name in your throat.â
âPleaseâMinhoâyesâyes, pleaseââ
You feel another orgasm building and he knows it. His hand snakes down again, fingers finding your clit, rubbing quick tight circles just as he starts fucking you even deeper, fucking into your sweet spot with perfect, punishing rhythm.
âCum again,â he growls. âDo it. Show me how good your pussy gets when itâs mine.â
Your legs are trembling now, slick and spent, but Minho doesnât let up.
âCâmon,â he pants, voice wrecked. âGive it to me again. You know you can.â
His fingers never leave your clitâtight, ruthless circles in time with the brutal rhythm of his thrusts. Heâs fucking into you so deep you swear heâs carved out space inside you. Your bodyâs a live wire, too sensitive, too soaked, too close.
And thenâ
You break.
A cry tears out of you as your body convulses, squirting hard around him, wetness gushing as your vision whites out. He curses low and vicious, gripping your hips to ride it out, holding you through the aftershocks.
âFuckâjust like that, baby. Look at this mess. All for me.â
Youâre limp, gasping, goneâand heâs still fucking you, chasing the edge with a growl in his throat. His rhythm stutters, hips snapping faster, deeper, until he finally buries himself to the hilt with a sharp gasp.
âMine,â he groans. âTaking all of meâfuckâmine.â
You feel the shudder of him spilling into the condom, body tight, muscles locked, every filthy, pent-up second poured into you.
And thenâ
Silence.
Only breath. Sweat. Your heartbeat in your ears. He doesnât pull out right away. Just stays there, chest pressed to yours, mouth by your ear and pressing soft kisses.
Then finallyâslowlyâhe pulls out. You both shiver from the loss.
Minho moves carefully now, the storm in him simmered down to something softer, raw-edged but human. He slides off the condom, ties it off, discards it in the bin by the bed. Then he vanishes for a beatâinto the bathroom maybeâbut returns just as fast with a warm cloth, water, tissues.
âEasy,â he murmurs as he wipes between your legs, his touch gentle, reverent. âLet me take care of you.â
You wince slightly when the cloth brushes too close to your clit, overstimulated and twitchy. He notices immediately.
âSorry,â he says quietly. âYou okay?â
You nod. Too gone to speak yet, but he sees itâyour blinking gratitude, the softness returning to your breath. He kisses the inside of your knee before tossing the cloth aside.
And then he climbs back into bed, arms open. You crawl into them without hesitation. He pulls the blanket over both of you, tucks your head beneath his chin. One hand rubs slow circles into your back; the other is tangled in your hair.
For a long time, neither of you say anything. Just breath. The muted thud of his heartbeat under your ear. The faint creak of the studio pipes somewhere above.
Until you finally whisper, âWhyâd we stop talking?â
His fingers still for a moment. Then resume. Slower. âI was angry,â he says. âAnd stupid.â
You hum. âMe too.â
He sighs. âI hated that you left without saying goodbye.â
âI hated that you let me.â
A pause.
âYou came back,â he says quietly.
âI never stopped thinking about you.â
Another beat of silence, heavier now. âI never moved on,â he admits.
You look up at him, eyes glassy. âNeither did I.â
His jaw flexes. His thumb brushes your cheek. And this time, when he kisses youâitâs slow. Deep. No lust. Just longing. A kiss built on what-ifs. On might-have-beens. On maybe-again.
He whispers against your lips, âStay the night.â
You nod, barely breathing. âOkay.â
Itâs been three weeks since that night. Since Minho locked the studio door, fucked you senseless, and told youâwithout wordsâthat he never stopped wanting you.
Now?
Now, your toothbrush is in his bathroom. Your sketchbookâs on his kitchen counter. Your braâs been living on his bedpost for four days and counting.
Youâre upstairs more than notâfirst it was overnight visits, then a drawer, then a closet, then one morning he just grunted, âYour stuffâs already here. Might as well stop pretending.â
So you stayed.
Mornings are quiet. Shared coffee in oversized mugs, his hand on your thigh while he skims client bookings. Nights are louderâsometimes itâs just TV and takeout, sometimes itâs moaning into his mouth while he fucks you over the arm of the couch, one hand tangled in your hair and the other keeping your legs spread.
Rebuilding hasnât been linear. You argue. You remember old fights. You see old wounds still healing. But you talk now. And when you donât have the words, he kisses the silence out of you, palms framing your face like heâs afraid youâll vanish if he blinks too long.
One afternoon, Jisung barges in to drop off a delivery and freezes at the top of the stairs. Youâre half-naked in one of Minhoâs shirts. Heâs behind you, tattoo gun still buzzing.
âAre you seriously tattooing her naked again?â
Minho doesnât even flinch. âMy apartment. My rules.â
Jisung groans. âIâm gonna start charging rent for the trauma.â
Minho just smirks, wiping your skin clean and pressing a kiss to your bare shoulder. âClose the door on your way out.â
You laugh into the sleeve of your shirt. Youâre glowing. A little inked, a lot in love.
Summary: When Chan calls you at 2 am to pick up drunk han because he is asking for you the last thing you expect is for Han to confess his love for you.
warnings: CHAOS! Idiots to lovers, (Both reader and Han(mostly Han) are idiots.) Reader is gender neutral. Cursing to no one's surprise. Kissing. Han being somewhat drunk. Teensy tiny amount of angst. Reader almost having a mental breakdown from all the chaos. Somewhat proofread. let me know if I missed anything
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You know how people put most bizarre things in their resumes? Like stuff they only did once and they wrote it down like they had some kind of PhD in that field? Well next time you if you decided to change jobs or just apply to a new one you would write down that you had an experience and could deal with being friends with Han Fucking Jisung! That is if he survived this day. Because what do you mean you were heading out to get his drunk ass home because this grown ass man was actually crying and asking for you in the damn club at two fucking am! You were so beating his ass once he got sober.
You were seeing such a great dream too. You and Han were actually together and didnât have this weird ass relationship you two had right now where there were no literal boundaries and you didnât have to question every day If he was returning the feelings or if you were delusional and he was just extra friendly and overall simply comfortable with you. He was quite touchy and flirty with boys too after all. So you could imagine how much headache this could bring in.
 Anyway, to stop with your letâs just say unfortunate love life and get to the point you were pissed. You really were looking forward after a shitty week sleeping in and actually resting. Thatâs why you didnât go to the club with the boys in the first place. How much did he actually drink to be actually crying and asking for you? What was he, a toddler asking for his mommy? Or better yet what was up with you being actually in love with this man?
The club was quite crowded for 2 am. The neon lights of reds blues and greens kept flashing rhythmically. The shouts of laughter and the hum of conversation mixed with the music creating a bit of chaos but well it was a normal atmosphere for a club. As soon as you walked in the smell of cocktails mixed with perfume and sweat of the crowd immediately hit you. It was a bit headache inducing but it was tolerable, as long as you left soon. You started searching for your friends with your eyes which was quite hard at first the crowd really kept shifting and mingling with each other. People really looked like they were having time of their life and you, with the, I just woke up and Iâm mad as hell face, surely sticked out like a sore thumb.
Thankfully you found the boys quickly. It wasnât hard giving they were loudest in the whole establishment as always. They were by the entrance and thankfully everyone looking ready to leave.
As for the man child who was the main reason you were here in the first place, he was clinging to Minho yapping about something. He wasnât crying now but his eyes really looked puffy and red. Honestly how much did he drink? Others looked normal. Well tired like they were already hungover but still normal. Minho really looked like he was seconds away from smacking him. Yes smacking him, he even managed to rile Minho up. God, what a lightweight.
Han must have noticed you because one second you were looking at his face light up and him call you baby on top of his lungs and the next second he was basically on top of you. He literally hugged you witch such force it was a miracle you were standing on your feet and didnât fall over.
âHan be careful!â You hear Chan warn him, he sounded tired.
âIâm fine.â You mustered to croak out once Han let go a bit to check if you were fine, he still returned to hugging you but at least you could breathe now. He really must have missed you. God you really wanted to kiss him. All your anger and grumpiness immediately flew out the window. Good for him he was so cute or else you would have smacked his head for bringing you here. âHow are you Hannie? A little birdie told me you were asking for me.â
Han looked at you with his wide boba eyes, his lips jutted out in the cutest pout ever. âBetter now that youâre here. They are literally so mean baby, Iâm glad youâre here. Youâre my favorite.â- Han whined out and hugged you again. You looked at others who looked so done, only Minho looked bemused, he held his phone up and recorded Han whine to you. You looked at him with raised eyebrow as you patted Hanâs back to calm him down.
Minho only shrugged, âIâm showing this to him when he asks me for something. Youâre in charge now since youâre his favorite.â
You couldnât help but roll your eyes. âBabe we both know that your softie ass is immediately going to cave in and do what he wants anyway.â
Minho glared at you, unamused by your comment but you didnât really pay any mind to it, you had your attention to Han who stopped hugging you and went to Felix instead. He looked like he was about to start crying again any second now.
âHannie baby whatâs wrong?â
âYou hate me!â His bold statement was followed by the most dramatic sob and collective sighs of being done from his friends.
âWhy would you think that?â You were genuinely so confused. You had no idea what you did wrong.
Han glared at you for a second and returned to hugging Felix who was barely holding his laughter in. Not much to your surprise he quickly gave in. âYou called Minho babe. Youâre basically replacing me, you really must hate me.â
What now? You couldnât help but blink in confusion because what the fuck was up with that logic. You really looked at him with a deadpan expression before the realization of what he said really dawned on you.
You tried, you really tried to hold your face together and not just burst out laughing, but youâre only just a human after all.
With the most teasing voice and biggest smile ever you used the chance to tease him, because letâs be real, pouty and sulky Han is the cutest Han. âAre you jealous baby?â
Han gasped and let go of Felix, he actually looked at you like he was mad now. Mad and maybe seconds away from crying which harshly puled on your heartstrings.
âI am! Iâve been in love with you for years and youâre calling Minho babe here!â He yelled and stormed off outside the club leaving you there shocked not knowing what to do. The boys also looked like they didnât know what to do, only Minho was laughing his ass off and Hyunjin also looked like he was barely holding in his laughter in.
So he was jealous.
Oh.
Oh.
He said he loved you.
Han Jisung said he loved you.
The Han Jisung loved you.
He returned your feelings.
The boy you had been in love with for ages loved you back.
âHAN JISUNG GET YOUR ASS HERE!â You yelled as you chased after him. All seven of the boys cheering after you and encouraging you to get him. You would get to them later.
Thankfully he hadnât gotten far, it might have taken you a second or two to let everything sink in. Han was closeby sitting on the sidewalk, pretty tears running down his rosy cheeks, what a silly boy, he even forgot to bring his jacket. You sat close to him thinking for a second of what to say to him, while also trying to warm him with your body head. He looked cold.
âIf you want to tease me please go inside. I already feel like shit.â His voice was so raw and he looked so pained. It really hurt to see him like this. He sighed. âI need a minute okay? I will be fine Iâm not that drunk anymore.â He took a pause. âI mean how can I be after the shit I said, God I am stupid!â You watched a tear run down his face. Before you could even realize what you were doing you reached and gently brushed away the tear. Han looked at you with tearful eyes.
âMaybe but who am I to judge? I mean, I didnât even realize that my best friend, the man I had been in love with for god knows how long actually returns my feelings.â
God you said it. You actually admitted your feelings.
A pause.
Oh no, was he regretting it?
Was it something he just said because he was drunk?
You were startled out of your thoughts when Han literally slapped both of his cheeks. His skin immediately flushed angry red.
âWhat the fuck are they putting in these drinks? Actually making me hallucinate and shit.â Was he for real? You couldnât hold yourself back so you smacked his arm.
Ignoring his whining you quickly got up and started to yell. âHan Jisung I did not just say Iâm in love with you for you to think this is some kind of fucking hallucination! Do you know how much courage it takes to actually admit your feelings?â Han looked at you with wide eyes for a second then quickly got up too almost losing his balance for a second.
âWait are you for real? You love me? You mean it?â - He asked with trembling voice.
You couldnât believe your ears. âOf course I mean it? How can I joke about something like that?â
A second passed then two.
âDude are you kidding me? How are you in love with me. Do you have no standards? Youâre like a fucking deity, someone people should fucking worship the fuck you mean you love me? Raise your standards!â
God you needed to be paid for this shit but no amount would be enough. This whole situation made you want to pull your hair out one by one, or maybe scream on top of your lungs, or maybe actually hit him because what the fuck was this?
âARE YOU KIDDING ME?â You actually couldnât help but yell, you didnât give a crap that you were in the middle of street and it was 2 am and maybe some people were actually asleep.
âNO?â
âI WILL ACTUALLY BEAT YOUR ASS!â You took a deep breath. You reminded yourself that he was somewhat drunk. You needed to stay calm for your own sanity at least. âHan when people tell you that they love you back you at least should be grateful that they return your feelings. The last thing you want to do is to tell them to raise their standards. Because frankly all I wanted to kiss you but now all Iâm thinking about is how to hold back and not to beat your ass! Youâre literally perfect what the fuck are you on about?â
You watched as the biggest grin appeared on his face. It was like his whole mood shifted. âYou want to kiss me?â Okay you really wanted to hit your head against a wall now.
You couldnât help but laugh at the absurdity of this whole situation. âDo you only hear what you want to hear?â
Jisung, still grinning got closer to you and wrapped his arms around your waist. âMaybe.â -he mused. âAll I heard is that you want to kiss me. And I have wanted to know what it is like to kiss you since I met you. You donât know how irresistible you are.â His voice was so sweet and tender your heart was going crazy. And it didnât help when he leaned in and put his forehead against yours.
âI could say the same to you dumbass.â You sighed against his lips. When did he even get so close?
âCan I kiss you?â Han asked as his gaze kept shifting from your lips to your eyes.
Feeling impatient to actually answer you grabbed him by his cheeks and finally connected your lips.
Kissing him was so much better than you could have thought. His lips were cold and chapped but they felt so nice as they moved against yours. You couldnât help but sigh in pleasure. You didnât know who deepened the kiss but soon your tongue met his and you almost melted. He tasted so sweet. You could even taste fruity cocktails he must have had earlier on his lips. But there was something more, something purely just Han, which made you fall in love with him even deeper if it was possible. You could already feel yourself getting addicted to kissing him.
Soon you had to lean back for some air, seeing Han whine and actually chase after your lips made you smile, your heart feeling whole. You didnât even remember why you were mad earlier. You just gazed at him lovingly his arms tight around you as your hands were still on his cheeks. His cheeks felt so warm against your cold hands, it mustâve still stung from his slap. You tried to soothe it as you gently caressed his skin. Loving how he leaned into the touch. Shaking your head a bit. Not in a million years could you imagine something like this could happen to you. Life sure is full of mysteries.
You two were brought back to reality by cheers and hollers of your forgotten friends. Oops? You immediately covered your face leaning into the hug more to hide, unable to look any of them in the eyes, feeling beyond embarrassed. Han chuckled and hugged you closer.
âThis had to be one of the most painful confessions I have ever seen.â Seungmin deadpanned as others kept clapping and cheering for you.
âLike you had seen a lot of them.â Minho quipped back quickly.
âAt least they finally got it over with.â Hyunjin chipped in.
âTell me about it, it was painful to watch them.â Now it was Innieâs time to say something. Did they all have to say something?
âOh by the way I recorded all of this, Iâm playing this at your wedding.â Felix waved his phone.
Chan grinned. âOr we can show it to their children in the future.â He teased as Changbin cackled like a possessed witch.
God you were so done with these clowns.
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cw: han jisung is spiderman, a brief attack of an alien in school, both characters are 18+ (legal) but are intended to be in high school, friends to lovers, jisung calling mc baby at any given moment
synopsis: youâre obsessed with spiderman, but after a certain event takes place, you become convinced your best friend and spiderman are the same person.
a/n: after a long wait⌠HEHE smut warnings under the cut and as usual 18+ MDNI!!!!!!!
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sw: brief mention of masturbation (both), oral (fem!rec), slightly switchy both parties, unprotected sex, creampie, dirty talk, loss of virginity (both), cumswapping, relatively tame given that its me
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Youâre intrigued.
Interested seemed like too little of a word to use for how you feel whenever you see the latest news report. In a world full of superhuman serums and bulletproof skin, he is still intriguing. Maths homework could be ignored, as far as youâre concerned - and thatâs bold for you, because you love maths. You wonder if he likes maths, too.
Every night at 6pm sharp, you settle in front of the television and wait for the news. Spiderman, the hero in question, is always up to something. He loves shooting his webs across the tallest skyscrapers in the city, dangling from them precariously without a care before he lets out a loud, earth-shattering giggle and beats the newest bad-guy that your world has attracted. You always wince at the reports, wondering just how he healed from the injuries he must sustain. It had to be down to the spider venom, you supposed.
âHeâs dangerous,â Your dad huffs. Heâs lounging on his normal armchair, peeling leather be damned, munching on a bag of crisps. You grimace at his crisp covered digits motioning towards the television. You love your dad, really, and your mum - you just always differed in opinions when it came to Spiderman. He was so fucking cool, and you seriously feel like a child saying that all of the time, despite your best friend Jisung telling you that we all have our interests. âI mean, heâs putting normal civilians in danger. Friendly neighbourhood Spiderman my ass.â
âHoney,â Your mother admonishes, digging through her own bag of crisps. You briefly consider why you havenât been offered one. They look tasty, when your father isnât rubbing luminous orange dust onto his previously crisp white shirt. âYou know she doesnât like it when you say bad things about him. He- what was the word again, baby?â
âHe intrigues me,â You mumble, pretending to erase equations from your homework. Your cheeks blaze crimson when your mother hums in agreement, nodding triumphantly to your father. You wish you could be as sassy as her sometimes. Youâre more timid, hiding behind oversized hoodies and Jisung. He is a lot more confident than you, more loud and exuberant - you suppose thatâs why he had adopted you as his all those years ago.
Your mother had been best friends with Jisungâs aunt, Sohee. Sheâs just like Jisung, zipping around the place at an insane pace to offer you snacks and drinks at every second. When you and Jisung had first met in preschool, youâd been drawing patterns in the mud with your grubby little fingers, hiding from the bullies. Heâd criticised your drawing. He helped you fix it, though, chubby cheeks puffing out with a grin when it was good enough for his taste. Looking back now, that behaviour was so Jisung, but your mother had been delighted to find out that youâd already met her best friendâs son.
It had been easy becoming friends with him after that. Every day, heâd drag you by your wrist and take you to the yard, insisting on doing your co-operative drawings together. The teachers had a fit everyday on the state of you two by the end of your break, but your mothers had loved it, taking a million and one pictures a second. He stuck up for you both to the teachers, and then he stuck up for you to the bullies and it was like youâd known each other since birth. Inseparable at the hip, youâd been glued together throughout preschool, primary school and now high school - it doesnât look like youâre getting rid of him anytime soon, either. Youâd applied for the same colleges.
You donât particularly want to be rid of him anyway. Heâs alright, really, and you had a bit of a girly, high school crush on him. You would rather jump off of a building like Spiderman sans the webs if anyone found out.
Another thing Jisung is good for is listening to your rants. He waits for your call every night after the news had been on, and you clamber on your bed obediently after the report finishes to press on his contact.
âJisung!â You squeal. Thereâs a lot of feedback on his end, and you hear a low âshit, fuck, oops, oh Godâ, until thereâs a loud thud and he giggles, chiming through your tinny phone speakers. â... Ji? Are you okay?â
âYep, sorry, baby,â He sounds out of breath, but you smile when he speaks anyway. Whenever he calls you baby, his designated nickname for you, it makes your heart flutter and you have to grimace to ignore it. His face pops into the little square designated to him, his cheeks blushing pink and round eyes wide. His hair is slightly damp, from what youâre not sure - but he looks cute. âI just got home. I was- I was running some errands for my aunt.â
âGod, sheâs got you running like crazy lately,â You mumble, still jotting down numbers on your homework. Itâs taken you hours, but you always get distracted on nights like this. âDid you see it?â
Jisung hums, and then you hear him groan. Heâs stretching, slightly toned honey-skinned arms appearing above his head in the plain oversized t-shirt heâs wearing. You try not to stare. âDid I see what?â
âThe- the news, Sungie,â You feel shy mentioning it so outright. It is a weird interest, a weird thing to be obsessed with - Jisung often reassures you that it really isnât, and his anime obsession was a lot worse. It was. You sigh, clearing your throat. âSpiderman. He was- he was super cool tonight.â
âOoh, was he?â Jisung teases, chuckling when you groan in protest. âIâm only playing with you, baby. I saw it. He was super cool, wasnât he?â
âHa-ha, super cool, âcause heâs a superhero. Youâre funny.â
âThatâs why you keep me around,â Jisung chirps. âHey, have you done the maths homework? I havenât had time, because of the errands, yâknow.â
âHmm, yeah, Iâm almost finished,â You arenât. Youâre far from it, really, but he doesnât have to know that. âI can let you copy it tomorrow morning, before class.â
âNo, thatâs alright, baby. We can just cross-check our answers tomorrow,â His voice sounds tired, but you donât comment. Itâs better not to question Jisung when heâs like this.
His aunt has him doing a lot these days. You havenât wanted to ask about it because you know it must be tough for her to look after Jisung since his parents passed, especially when Jisung is always going at full speed and is probably seconds away from giving his aunt a heart attack. He was always clumsy as a child, too, snapping his glasses in half and having a few broken bones to tell long stories about. He always means well, but sometimes you wish that he had something else to get his energy out of his system rather than stressing his aunt out.
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âJisung, surely you know who Spiderman is, like, underneath the mask,â Seungmin quips through a mouthful of dry, government regulated school food. âYou spent all that time with Bang Chan in the internship.â
Seungmin is a lanky boy that just came along one day and decided to be yours and Jisungâs friend. With him, he brought a younger, smiley guy named Jeongin, and Jeongin brought Felix. Felix is just Felix - nothing else can describe him. Before long, youâd found yourself in a de facto group of misfits that you werenât even sure you could call friends. Apart from Jisung, of course.
Jisung simply raises an eyebrow in response to Seungmin. âI mean, sure. I met Mr Bang a few times, but I never met Spiderman. Not out of his suit, anyway.â
You gasp. Jeongin startles from the nap he was taking on the cafeteria table, raising his head to look at you angrily. Felix pushes his head back down from the hood on his jumper and Jeongin immediately falls back to sleep. âYou met him in his suit?â
âWell, yeah,â Jisung shrugs. When he turns to look at you, your mouth is agape, feeling slightly betrayed. Jisung shoves another spoonful of cheese - was it really cheese? - pasta into his mouth, and then heâs sighing. âItâs not a big deal, baby. If I really met him, the real him, youâd be the first to know. I promise.â
âYou still got that fat crush on Spiderman?â Felix chirps. You meet his amused gaze with your own steely glare, pouting over your packed lunch.
âItâs not a crush-â
âItâs an interest,â Jisung clarifies for you, and you smile. Heâs always jumping to your defence like that. You bite into an apple, savouring the crisp, fruity taste on your tongue, and then the bell rings. Sighing, you watch as the boys around you get up - including Jeongin, fox like eyes bleary from sleep - and swing their bags on their shoulders.
âIâll see you later,â You murmur to Jisung, who throws his arm around your waist in a quick hug. âEnjoy English.â
Right. You and Jisung didnât have the same classes. He has English now, and you have chemistry, which is probably your least favourite of all classes. You just werenât a fan of the whole blowing shit up scenario, unlike Jeongin was, and the boy trundles behind you towards your chemistry class.
The class is boring. The teacher drones on and on about some experiment you couldnât care less about, and you pretend to care. Youâre taking notes, sure, ever the diligent student - but you canât get anything other than Spiderman out of your mind. Jisung met him, and didnât tell you, and who even is this guy? Youâd love to know. Youâd love to just see him, even once, just to be able to tell the story.
A massive crash stops the teacherâs speech. He turns to the door, confused, and the students do the same. You do too, furrowed eyebrows staring at the door. Another crash causes people to begin to rise, and the teacher starts ushering everyone out of the class to the closest exit route. Youâre frozen in confusion and fear, pencil halted in your fingers, even as another noise makes the teacher run out behind the class.
Itâs quiet for a moment, and youâre still sitting in your seat, eyes wide and heart racing. Then, you spring up to follow the rest of your cohort, sneakers squeaking against the tiled floor as you run to the door. Swinging it open, you stick your head out the door and look around, trying to see if the coast is clear. With a planet full of interdimensional attacks, you canât be sure, and looking left leads you to see a scaly, large animal type of thing. You squeak, startled, and immediately retreat into the class before it notices you. What the fuck do you do? What are you meant to do?
The whole room begins to shake, and you have a feeling the creatureâs getting closer. Beakers are thrown to the floor from the vibration ringing throughout the room, glass shattering loudly, and you feel like youâre about to scream, or cry, or run, and you canât run.
Doing the only thing you can think of, you cower to the floor, hiding underneath a table donned in smashed beakers. Youâre curled up in a ball, watching students standing outside murmuring and discussing their own safety, and then the shaking stops.
The door swings open. Everything outside the classroom is too intimidating, items being thrown everywhere, and you canât even bring your legs to move with how badly theyâre shaking. Whoâs just walked in? You pray for Jisung. You pray for someone whoâs going to help you hide, someone whoâs going to keep you safe, and then-
A masked face pops underneath the table. Heâs lithe, slender, but the tight red and dark blue suit highlights the hint of abs and sculpted biceps on his body. Holy fucking shit. Your eyes widen. Spiderman is in your school.
âAre you okay?â His voice is deep, but it sounds almost like someone putting on a deeper voice to hide their identity. You nod hesitantly, and then heâs extending a gloved hand towards you, pulling you out from underneath the table. Youâre unable to speak. Once youâre standing in front of him, you notice heâs around a head or so taller than you, but definitely not as tall as you thought heâd be. He sighs, chest heaving with panic. You suppose it must be pretty tough work fighting aliens from outer space. âIâve webbed him up for now, but it wonât hold much longer. Go- please, go and run. Please, anywhere, just- go and hide, or run.â
âI-I-â
âPromise me, b- um, you. I canât let you get hurt.â
You furrow your eyebrows in confusion. âI- Yes, I promise, Iâm going to- Iâll go, thank you, thank you-â
âWait, no!â He shouts, rubbing his temples - or at least, youâd imagine he was but heâs just rubbing the mask in frustration. You watch as he bounds over to the window, kicking it open, and the students outside turn to the classroom in awe. Youâre rooted in place, as if vines are circling your ankles and securing you to the floor, mouth agape. You wait for him to give you further directions, and you gasp when he runs back over to you, picking you up and carrying you over to the window. You feel light as a feather, and all you can think is how heâs even carrying this amount of strength in that small body. âToo risky. Outside.â
âO-Outside?â You stammer, cheeks bright red, and he nods. He leans to place you out of the window, delicately placing you on your feet, and then he speeds off, shouting a quick âsee you later!â.
You blink. You can hear the noises of walls breaking and windows shattering as Spiderman fights, and Felix runs up to you from the crowd outside and slings an arm over your shoulder. Youâre still staring inside the classroom as if you can see through walls and watch the fight. What did see you later mean?
Whatâs the likelihood, honestly? You knew he was the friendly neighbourhood guy, and all that, but why not Bang Chan, in his sleek nanotech suit? This was a big fight. You find yourself getting worried, biting your nails in concern for the man you donât even know. You have to remind yourself of that. He saved you because youâre any other citizen, not for any other specialty - you donât know this guy.
âCâmon, over here,â Felix ushers you over, tone soft. When youâre with him, Seungmin and Jeongin, he sighs, rubbing your back. âCrazy, right? At least you can say you met Spiderman now.â
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Jisung is safe, thank god. You kind of feel guilty for not worrying about him at the moment, but heâd text you shortly after, saying heâd left just before it all kicked off because he felt a little under the weather. He wanted to make sure you were okay, though, so he texted you as soon as he could. Youâd never admit the blush that rose to your cheeks when you read it.
Itâs quiet in your room. Your parents had sprinted to you as soon as youâd come through the door, having seen the situation on the news, and youâd reassured them that Spiderman had saved you. It definitely changed your dadâs perspective of him, and now you lie on your bed feeling more than relieved.
Your fingers tap on your tummy in thought, though. He was making his voice deeper, that much you could tell, but why? How was he there so quickly? Thereâs no fucking way he was a student. Still, that body in the tight suit⌠youâd definitely been looking. Youâre a woman, of course you were going to look. He had a figure enviable to every man. Broad shoulders, abs just slightly visible, strong legs that carried you over to the windowâŚ
In your dreamlike fantasy, youâre considering something you previously never wouldâve thought of. What if Jisung was underneath that suit? Now, that would be perfect. Both of your crushes being one being, Jisung pulling that suit up his lithe thighs and letting it settle over his broad pecs.
Before you know it, your hand is dipping under the hem of your pyjama pants, unable to feel guilty for thinking about your best friend in this way. Besides, it wouldnât be the first time, with many of your nights spent whimpering into your pillow and coming apart on your own fingers wishing they were his. He had such nice hands⌠What if it was him who had grabbed you from underneath that table? Your hand trails down to find your folds, slick and ready for whatever you had in store, but you focus on your clit, swollen and aching between your bottom lips. Would he finger you in the gloves if you asked, let you ride his abs in the suit until completion? Would he kiss you upside down, hanging from the-
A tap on your window makes you jump. The room is dark, save for your bedside lamp, and you turn rapidly to see a faceless figure just about popping in from the corner. You yank your hand out of your bottoms, squeaking, and then you squint to try and see the figure closer.
Holy shit. Spiderman is at your bedroom window.
Your cotton tank top is revealing, so you turn immediately to reach for your dressing gown and tie it around your figure. You pad over to the window in your socks, still wide-eyed and completely baffled, and then you turn the handle to allow him access. What the fuck?
âWhat the fuck?â You blurt, toes curling against your floor. Spiderman swings inside instead of responding, walking around your room like heâs been there a million times before. âNo, seriously, what the fuck?â
He turns to you, shrugging. âI said Iâd see you later, didnât I?â
You blanch. He did say that, yes, but that still doesnât explain the million questions you have right now. âWell, yeah, but- how do you know where I live?â
âI- uh, found it in the school office,â He hops up onto your bed, sitting cross legged. His mask hides his face, but he hums in pleasure at the feeling of the bedsheets on him. âAfter the fight, I went in there. Glad youâre okay, by the way.â
Heâs still making his voice deeper, and you blink, nodding in response. âIâm great. Can I- can I ask why youâre here?â
He shrugs again, fiddling with a loose thread on your duvet. âNo reason. Got bored. I was swinging around and remembered I saw your address on the computer.â
âRight,â You shake your head, still baffled. Instead of questioning him further, you jump onto the bed in front of him and copy his position, cross legged. âDonât you have, like, recovering to do? I heard you got beat pretty bad.â
âNah, no way,â He scoffs, rolling his neck. You suppress a smile. Cocky. âSpider venom, yâknow? It repairs everything super quick.â
You were right. You canât suppress a smile at his response, clicking your fingers at his masked face. âI fucking knew it! I guessed it was the venom.â
He stops fiddling with the duvet, turning to you and tilting his head in question. âYouâre smart, arenât you? Hey, are you the one thatâs friends with that kid?â
You narrow your eyes. Jisungâs a liar. If Spiderman knows who he is, that means theyâve met more than once, and Jisung lied. You reach for your phone, ready to bitch him out via text, but Spiderman knocks your phone out of your hand. You turn to him, confused.
âTalk to me,â He whines. âI told you I was bored!â
You roll your eyes. âOkay, damn. Yes, Iâm friends with Jisung. Why?â
âNo reason,â He wiggles forward on your bed, grabbing your hand. Youâre confused, but then he launches you into an intense thumb war, one that you were never going to win. Everytime you go to move your thumb in response to his, heâs got you pinned, and before he speaks again youâre five rounds down. âHeâs pretty cool, right?â
âWho?â You ask, still focusing on the thumb war.
âJisung,â He clarifies, clearing his throat. Making his voice that deep must be taking its toll on his vocal chords. âHeâs kinda cool. Super smart, I thought.â
âHe definitely is,â You laugh when he pins your thumb down again, swatting at his wrist to get him off of you. âHeâs smarter than me.â
âAnd, uh,â He clears his throat again, leaning back on your bed. Leaning back like that, you have a full view of his body in his suit, and you have to stare at the posters on your wall to avoid looking at him. He puts his hands behind his head, the full picture of relaxation, and you wished heâd stop throwing you this random curveball behaviour. âIs that all you think of him? Just smart?â
You blush, finally reverting your eyes to him. âWhat do you mean?â
âI just mean⌠Do you have a crush on him, or?â
âWho wants to know?â You bristle, playing with your hands in your lap. You look down at your chipped nail polish, awkwardly shifting on the bed in your pyjamas. âI donât even know who you are.â
âNo one knows who I am,â He responds easily. âI want to know. Tell me. Do you have a crush on him?â
âIâm not telling you that-â
âIâm bored!â He whines again, sitting up. You let him grab your hand again, pulling your pinky finger into a promise. You swear you see the mask smile. âTell me!â
âOkay, damn,â You sigh, exasperated. Was he on molly or something? Are you dreaming? âI guess so. I guess I always have, yeah, I donât know. I donât think heâd ever like me like that.â
He coos at that, taking your hand in his. Itâs strangely comforting. âWhy not?â
âHeâs- well, I donât think Iâm good enough for someone like him,â You admit, scratching the back of your neck. âItâs awkward. Heâs my best friend. It would ruin things, and I guess Iâve never let myself think about it like that.â
âYou should,â He hums. You blink, staring at him. What the hell is he on about? âI just mean you should. Maybe he likes you too, yâknow? I like my best friend. Iâd love to know if she likes me back.â
âYou do?â You wiggle closer, eager to know more. âYou like your best friend? Whatâs she like?â
âWell,â He strokes your hand again before pulling away, leaning his chin on his hand. âSheâs super pretty. Smart, too. Iâve known her since like, forev- for a few years, I think, in total.â
âItâs kind of the same with me and Jisung,â You sigh again, pouting. âIâve known him for my whole life, basically. Iâm just scared itâll ruin things, but I think about him a lot when Iâm on my own.â
He snickers. âReally? Like when youâre doing what you were doing when I got here?â
You swat at his shoulder, blushing bright red. âShut up, oh my god! I thought you- shut up. Just donât.â
âMaybe he thinks about you then too, I donât know,â He shrugs nonchalantly, and then heâs getting up and pacing around. You watch him fiddle with a few photo frames on your desk, humming at ones of you and Jisung when you were younger and even fiddling with a few of your academic medals and prizes. âI wonât tell him, by the way.â
âYou see him often?â You ask, voice soft. âHe said-â
âNah, Iâve only seen him once or twice,â He stretches his arms above his head, still staring at your desk full of trinkets. âHe doesnât know who I am.â
âCan I know?â
He turns to you. âKnow what?â
âI want to know who you are,â Your voice is confident, but you feel anything but, teeth chewing your bottom lip nervously. âYou saved me, and now youâre in my bedroom. I feel that I deserve to know.â
He sighs loudly this time, walking towards the window. âWhen we get to know eachother better, maybe.â
âWait, hang on,â You watch him sling a foot out of the window, exasperated. He canât leave! âWhere are you going? I thought you said you were bored-â
âThings to do, baby,â He replies quickly. You blink. That âbabyâ sounds awfully familiar, and you stand up quickly to walk towards the window, but heâs already webbing away. âBye!â
You stand there, shocked and confused. Heâs swinging from building to building away from you, and youâre just standing there like an idiot. You were interrupted before you could even start touching yourself, forced into a thumb war and coerced into admitting your deepest, darkest secret, and then he just⌠leaves? Just like that?
Your life is proving to be a little more interesting than you thought, but your dreams were filled with familiar round cheeks beneath a red and blue mask.
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âBaby, is there a reason why your eyes are burning holes into the side of my head?â
Youâre convinced your best friend is Spiderman. There, sitting beside you with his glasses sliding down his nose and comfortable in a grey hoodie and pink Hello Kitty pyjama bottoms on, itâs hard to believe. But youâre not stupid.
First of all, since he started that internship with Mr Bang, heâs been weird about letting you inside his room. This is the same person that you had many sleepovers with growing up, and as recently as a few months ago youâd been cuddling in bed together watching Howlâs Moving Castle. He has something to hide, but youâd been let down when youâd arrived at his house earlier and shouldered past him to find literally nothing of suspicion inside his room, other than an anime girl mouse pad with the boobs to rest your wrist on. You knew that existed though, ever since his birthday last year when Felix had gifted it to him, so what gives?
Secondly, Sohee is more stressed out than ever. Youâd caught sight of her flitting around the kitchen when you arrived for your homework friend-date, scrubs on and ready to head to the hospital but still panicking about something. Jisung said multiple times that heâd been helping her out more and thatâs why heâs been so busy lately. She shouldnât still be panicking.
Thirdly, Spiderman wouldnât make his voice deeper to you unless you knew him. He wouldnât need to, or you wouldnât recognise his voice - unless itâs a habit heâs picked up, perhaps. That doesnât change that the way he called you baby last night sounded a little bit too familiar, too comfortable. It came out of his mouth like second nature.
Still, it makes no sense. Surely Jisung would have told you? Youâre his best friend, he said so, so heâd tell you. Or would he? Maybe Felix knows. Youâre also hoping deep down that it isnât true, because if it is, you told your crush last night that you liked him.
You canât even be mad at Jisung for it. Heâs still staring at you, and youâre staring blankly back while shoving snacks into your mouth. Thereâs crumbs all over your homework.
âJisung,â You begin, and he hums in response. âWould you tell me your deepest, most serious secret if I worked it out?â
He chokes on his energy drink, spluttering neon blue liquid all over his bed. You want to giggle, to make fun of him, but youâre sure youâve gotten somewhere here. He wipes his mouth, clears his throat, and turns back to you. His hands are shaky where they clutch his textbook, and his eyes are almost blurry through the glasses. âI tell you everything anyway.â
âI donât think you do,â You respond, quick as a beat. He blinks, lips parting. âNot by that reaction, Jisung. I think youâre hiding something from me.â
He scratches his nose with the end of his pen, looking down at the textbook again. You raise an eyebrow. âIâm not hiding anything.â
âOkay,â You hum. He sighs, scribbling something on the paper. Itâs so quiet in the room that you can hear his pen scribbling, but youâre speaking again before you can even think. âDid I tell you Spiderman came to my room last night?â
He gulps audibly. âNope.â
âYeah, it was kinda weird,â You take a sip from your energy drink, still staring at him vacantly. Jisungâs eyes flit up to you, and then back down to the textbook. Oh, he knows. He knows that you know. He knows that you know that he knows. âHe saved me in school, when that alien thing was there, and then he came to my room and asked me about you.â
âHe, uh- really? Did he?â
âMhm,â Your gaze is steely. âJisung, I know youâre Spiderman.â
Jisung bursts out laughing. It would be believable, but youâve known him since you were four years old and itâs a fake laugh. Heâs cackling, loud as brass, and he lets out a little âoohâ afterwards as if he canât believe you. âBaby, thatâs the craziest theory youâve ever come up with.â
âIs it?â You question, head tilting to the side. Then, in the smartest moment youâve ever had, you pick up Jisungâs energy drink from the floor. Heâs still looking at you, a fake smile on his lips, and you take a sip from it casually. Sharing drinks isnât new for you. You glug back the artificial blue raspberry flavour, and then keeping eye contact with him, you let go.
Before the can is able to fall and spill the rest of its contents over your own textbook, and inevitably Jisungâs One Piece bed sheets, he reaches out and grabs it, hand wrapping around the can, quick as a flash. It all happens in about a second, and you gasp. Jisung gasps. His hand tightens around the can and it crinkles, an impossible show of strength, and then heâs blinking at you. You raise an eyebrow.
âI knew it.â
He puts the can safely on the bedside table, and then heâs slamming his textbook shut. You watch in confusion as he paces back and forth on his bedroom floor, running his hands through his hair over and over.
âOkay!â He points at you, victorious. âThat was a reflex. I knew you were going to do that, Iâm smart, duh! I knew you were going to drop the can to prove something, and-â
âJisung,â You say, voice soft. He stops pacing, sock clad feet rooted on the carpet to stare at you. Youâre going to get him. Youâre going to get him good. âDo you not want me to know? Is that what this is?â
He immediately falls to the floor, head resting on your knee as he looks up at you. You canât even feel sorry for him, because your plan is working perfectly. His eyes are round and vulnerable, and then he clenches them shut in distress. You think heâs probably a second away from crying. âBaby, itâs not that. I wanted to protect you. It would be dangerous if the bad guys knew who you were, knew that you knew, and I know I shouldnât have come to your room, that was wrong of me, and-â
You giggle. Jisung furrows his eyebrows, eyes opening. âI knew I was right.â He gasps, pointing at you again.
âJudas! Youâre a judas!â Heâs shocked, leaning back on his haunches and staring at you. âI canât- I canât believe you, that was so-â
âSneaky? Good? Smart?â You list, leaning back on his twin bed. He stands up, hands on his hips. Youâre ready for him to bitch you out, but you donât care - you knew that you had to know, had to have it confirmed. He taps his foot, and then you see a smile break out on his lips.
âOkay, yeah, that was pretty good,â He hums, returning to the bed. You let him shut your own textbook and sprawl across you, head in your lap. âIâm sorry, baby. I shouldâve told you.â
You sigh, reaching down to run your fingers through his hair. âThatâs okay, Ji. Itâs fine. Iâm just a little embarrassed.â
âEmbarrassed? Why?â Jisung asks, his eyes fluttering shut from the feeling of your nails on his scalp. You want to scoff. Embarrassed for two major reasons - one, because youâve been gushing about how cool Spiderman is for weeks, maybe even months, and two because you told Spiderman last night that you liked Jisung. Spiderman and Jisung are the same person. Sure, it makes things easier. You no longer have a crush on two people, only one, but it doesnât change the fact that Jisung knows and is yet to say anything.
âIâve been talking to you about Spiderman for weeks,â You blush, pushing his hair off of his forehead. He whines, thrashing his feet and shaking his head like a dog to hide his forehead again. Heâs so dramatic. You like him so bad. âAnd- and you- it was you, then. You came to my room last night.â
âYeah, that was risky,â He responds, exasperated. âI just had to, baby. I donât know, you always seemed so interested in Spiderman and not me. I needed to know if you saw me like you saw him.â
You pause your movements on his head, blinking at the wall in front of you. When you turn back to him, heâs blushing, teeth gnawing his bottom lip. His eyes are conveniently staring at the window, away from you.
âJisung,â You start, hesitant. âWhat do you mean?â
He sits up sharply. âWanna go on the roof?â
âT-The roof? Jisung, how are we gonna- oh. Oh.â
Jisung jumps up from the bed, toeing his sliders onto his feet and pushing the window open. It gives you deja vu - that same figure was pushing the window open just like this to place you safely outside in school yesterday, and then he was coming through your window to see you late at night. Itâs hard to believe that theyâre the same person, the man you admired so much and your best friend whoâs standing by the window expectantly waiting for you to join him.
You hesitantly stand up, brushing off imaginary crumbs from your joggers and looking at Jisung. He smiles, a soft, reassuring smile, and then heâs scooping you up from the floor and wrapping your legs around his waist. Itâs slender, the plush flesh of your thighs almost obscuring it, and you squeak in surprise at being in the air.
âI- Jisung?!â
âYou have to hold on tight,â He says. His face is inches away from yours, plush lips looking more than appealing and his glasses making him look so endearing. âI need my hands for this, so hold onto my shoulders.â
You nod, face blushing crimson at the realisation of just how close you are. Would he have you like this if he fucked you? Legs around his waist, hands on his shoulders, his face so close to yours as he pants and whines and moans-
You squeak again when he slides out of the window, and then you see him in action. His hands stick to the outside of the apartment building, feet kicking up against the concrete wall. Your heart is racing so badly it feels as though it could burst out of your chest, but youâre not sure if itâs because of the height or because youâre tightly pressed against Jisung.
When he swings you both over the side ledge on the roof, you notice the sunâs set already. Time always goes by quickly with Jisung, but the stars are already out, and the air is crisp and biting against your limbs despite the layers. Once heâs safely stood on the roof, he places his hands underneath your thighs and detaches you from his firm body, placing you on your feet.
Youâre disorientated, shocked at the sheer height of the building and at the way Jisung seems to be swinging you around like itâs nothing, but heâs simply staring at you. A wide smile stretches from ear to ear, and he blinks when you donât say anything. âItâs cool, right?â
âY-Yeah, super cool,â You admit, chest heaving. âReally high up, but cool. Jisung, why are we on the roof?â
Heâs wrangling you, hands on your arms and pushing you to the floor. It feels firm, but with what you now know about him, you know heâs holding back. He plops down next to you, eyes wide and expectant.
âI wanted to do it properly,â He begins. He pauses for a moment, licks his lips, pushes his glasses up his nose, and then heâs speaking again. âI like you, so thatâs why I asked. Is it romantic up here? It feels romantic, but Iâm not too sure-â
He stands up and begins pacing around the roof before you realise heâs even moved. You raise an eyebrow. âJisung?â
âI wanted to do this right, yâknow?â He pauses, hands on his hips. He looks comical, trying to assert dominance over you like that in those Hello Kitty pyjama trousers. âI- I wanted to swing by and like, grab you, or something? But then you worked it out, and now Iâm just standing here with you on a roofâŚâ
He continues mumbling like a mad scientist, eyes focused on a spot next to your head. You stand up, making your way towards him, and he still refuses to look at you. He likes you back. He likes you back, and heâs still your best friend - heâs still Jisung, but heâs also Spiderman, and youâre okay with that. You donât have to like two people. You only like one, and itâs your goofy best friend.
âIs this even romantic? You know, we could just forget about it and-â
You press your lips to his. He doesnât make any form of surprised noise, only cupping your cheeks with his hands and pulling you close to him. His glasses bump against your face, his lips pouty against yours and plush and maybe a bit too wet for a first kiss, but youâd always figured heâd take it too far. Thatâs what you like about him. Jisung never does anything by halves.
Itâs brief, too brief for your liking, but then heâs pulling away with a satisfied grin on his face. You blink. Wait.
âWait, your stupid- your stupid spidey things. Did you know I was going to kiss you?â You pout, and he giggles. âNo, seriously! Could you like- I donât know, feel it coming?â
âNot until you were like, a few inches from my face,â Jisung admits, and his teeth gleam in the brilliance of the evening. âI had a feeling you might.â
You sigh. âSo why didnât you stop talking?â
âDunno,â He shrugs. âI couldnât stop once I started.â
The statement is so true to Jisung, so in character for your best friend that you can do nothing but accept it.
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Itâs easy to fall into a different routine with Jisung.
He never asked you to be his girlfriend. Youâre pretty sure youâre fine with that, though - things have had a natural manner of progressing, and now your best friend slash boyfriend slash superhero turns up at your window every night after heâs been on his neighbourhood patrol. Sometimes heâs a little bruised, and sometimes heâs just looking for consolation kisses.
Itâs a normal night for you when it happens. Jisungâs halfway out of your bedroom window on his way to perform perfect justice, pulling his mask down over his annoyingly beautiful face. Youâre standing a few feet away grinning like an idiot.
âIâll see you later, my baby,â You can see his grin through the mask. The eyes on his mask form beautiful crescent moons with his happiness. He falters, legs swinging on your windowsill. âWait. I am coming back here, yeah?â
âOf course,â You giggle. He sends you two fingers in a mock salute, and you watch him begin his journey up the wall to your roof. A beat passes and youâre still standing there, smiling, hands on your hips, and then the masked head of your best friend pops back down into your window, upside down, tilting to the side in confusion. You blink, confused. âWhat is it, Sungie?â
âWell, whereâs my goodbye kiss? Damn,â He huffs, and you roll your eyes playfully. You make your way to the window, sock-clad feet padding on your carpet, and you pull his mask down to his eyes with two fingers. It miraculously stays on his head, and his lips form a teasing grin.
Despite him being upside down, you place a chaste kiss to his lips, and you watch in amusement as he swings away afterwards. You can still hear him giggling with glee from a few buildings away.
Itâs a few hours later when he comes back. Youâre flicking through a book for English, scrawling notes and highlighting words on sticky notes. Itâs started to rain, and the city lights only look brighter in the dusk with the pattering of water on your window. You left it open, of course, for your superhero, but the cold air bites at your arms even through the fluffy blanket youâve got wrapped around yourself.
Just as youâre beginning to contemplate closing it, a louder, more prominent tap hits the glass. When you turn to the window, Jisung is slouched against your windowsill, chest heaving beneath red lycra and forehead pressed against the glass. Heâs got his mask between his teeth, and his hair is dishevelled, floppy brown locks obscuring his eyes. You can still catch sight of the bruising on his cheekbones and you gasp, rushing towards the window.
You drop your blanket in shock, but you swing the window open, pulling Jisung inside with one hand. He stumbles through, disoriented and confused, and you lead him to sit on the edge of your bed.
âGot hurt,â He explains, huffing out a breath. The mask drops from his teeth unceremoniously, with a wet plop to your carpeted floor, but you donât care. You rush to sit next to him, fingers gripping his chin to pull him to face you. His eyes are round, sincere, and he gives you a soft smile. âItâll heal before long, baby, donât panic.â
âI am panicking,â You say, resolute, because you really are. Bruising is scattered across his cheekbones, fading into green on the plush of his cheeks and his lip looks like it had been burst, but is already healing. âWill it- will it take long? Do you need me to get the first aid kit, or-â
âBaby,â He shakes his head, grabbing your hands. You watch with parted lips as he leans forward, both of you cross legged on the end of your bed. It reminds you of when Spiderman first visited you, when you werenât quite sure of his identity. Jisung presses his forehead against yours, and you let him look into your eyes. Itâs like heâs demanding everything thatâs ever gone through your head to be vocalised. Youâd tell him if he asked. âIâm really okay. Iâm a little shaken up, but Iâm fine. Most of it is on my ribs from falling, to be honest.â
âYour ribs?!â You shriek. âShow me. Let me see, I need to help you-â
Youâre already trying to wrangle Jisung out of his suit, and he giggles, clearly thinking this is all just some game. He holds his arms up pliantly, though, and you donât have the thought processing ability within you to realise that Jisungâs suit is an all-in-one and youâre currently stripping him down to his boxers.
The suit is wet too when you drop it to the floor, and before long youâre blinking at your best friend in his plain black boxers and heâs grinning at you as if this is any other day. Thereâs no bruising on his ribs. Youâre staring at his abs, regardless, so youâre not sure you wouldâve even noticed.
âYou look fine.â
âI told you it heals quickly, baby,â He grins. You blink when he wriggles on your bed, laying on his back and stretching his arms above his head again, this time to get comfortable. His legs stretch out too, and you avoid looking anywhere below his waist.
His body is a spectacle. You canât stop looking. Broad shoulders taper off into an extremely defined chest and a tight, thin waist adorned with prominent abdominal muscles, before reaching a v-line that leads into his boxers. Youâre wide eyed, wanting nothing more than to reach out and run your fingers down his honey toned skin.
âWhy-â You cough, clearing your throat. Jisung raises an eyebrow. Heâs grinning from ear to ear, teeth gleaming. âWhy did you let me strip you if youâre literally fine?â
The bruising on his cheek is already fading. He shrugs nonchalantly, crossing his arms over his chest. His biceps bulge with the movement and you think you might choke on your own spit. âYou seemed pretty determined, so I just allowed it. You wanted to see me naked, I assumed, so-â
âJisung!â You wail, slapping his shoulder. He groans in pain, catching your hand, and he grits his teeth with a hiss.
âMy shoulder! Fuck, that hurt, ouch, baby! What was that for?!â
You gasp. He clutches his shoulder, letting out little pants of hurt sounding noises. You let your head fall to his chest, engulfing him with a hug. âJisung, Iâm so sorry-â
âHehe,â He giggles. When you look at him, heâs sticking his tongue out, completely fine. You groan, annoyed you fell for it, and then heâs grabbing your forearms and pulling you upwards on top of him.
Your breasts press against his chest like this, due to your lack of bra in your sleep shirt, and his eyes widen when he feels it. Instead of letting you go, his hands move to your back, encompassing you in his strong hold.
You gasp, wiggling in his grip, and he licks his lips. His eyes go to your lips, and then back up to your eyes, as if heâs hesitant.
âI-â He begins, faltering. âAre you my girlfriend?â
You scoff out a laugh. âI donât know, am I?â
âI hope so,â Jisung admits, his facial expression vulnerable. His eyes dart to something behind you, as if heâs not sure, almost shy. Youâre not sure youâve ever seen him shy. âI donât know. I didnât ask, but I want you to be, if you want to be.â
âI want to be,â You nod. He nods in response, and you watch his eyes flicker to your lips again. Itâs silent for a moment, and then he leans in, pressing his lips against yours.
The kiss is more charged than usual. Before now, youâre used to chaste, fleeting kisses from your superhero, but now he lets his tongue tease against the seam of your lips. Your eyes flutter shut, and his eyelashes brush against your skin where he does the same. You let your lips part, and Jisungâs quick to grip your back harder, tongue darting inside your mouth with impatience.
Youâve made out with someone before. Youâd never had sex with someone before, but you had made out with someone. It was only once at a party when you were a little bit younger but it had felt like a good idea at the time. Youâre sure Jisungâs lost his virginity though, but when he whimpers against your lips and his hips squirm a little youâre not too sure.
You pull away from the kiss, lips a little wet, and Jisungâs mouth goes to your neck. You allow him to suck a mark into the expanse of skin just underneath your jaw, his fingers grabbing impatiently at your back. âSungie, are you a virgin?â
Jisung pulls away, licking his lips. You feel something hard pressing against your thigh where you lay on top of him. Youâre thanking every entity ever that your parents are out for a work dinner. âYeah, I am. I would have told you if I wasnât,â He confirms, a little breathless. His hips wiggle again. âIs that- is that okay, baby?â
âYeah, of course,â You smile, comforting. You peck his lips again and he grins back at you. âI am too.â
âI know,â He responds, quick as a flash. You blush. Thatâs embarrassing. âNo, I just mean- you also wouldâve told me, yâknow?â
âThatâs true,â You shrug. Youâre feeling a little overconfident, and you move in his hold, having felt it gone a little lax with your kissing. You let your thighs spread over his hips, his hard shaft pressing against your core through your pyjama bottoms and his boxers. You still feel it, though, and it makes your pussy gush a little. âIs- is this okay?â
Heâs blushing. His lips part, and he nods, perhaps too eagerly because he clutches his neck afterwards like heâs got whiplash. âBaby, youâre- I have a pretty girl in my lap. This is so okay. Like, so okay, I might have a heart attack and die, probably.â
You shift, and he winces. âSorry,â You say. Itâs a fake apology. You want to swallow his cock down your throat until he cries, and you donât even know how to. Youâd try your best though. âIf I lost my virginity, Iâd want it to be with you.â
âDamn,â Jisung whistles, eyebrows raised. âLet me hit?â
You giggle, tilting your head to the side. âIâll let you hit right now, Jisung.â
Jisung shoots upwards into a seated position. His eyes are wide. âRight now?â
âRight now,â You confirm. You go from straddling his lap to laying on your back on your bed in a flash, and Jisung looms over you, all tight, toned muscles and broad shoulders.
âIâll make it so good, baby, I promise,â He says, and then heâs kissing you again. Itâs even messier this time, lips pressing against yours over and over and his tongue adding a collection of spit to the mix. You let your thighs fall apart, his hips quick to fill the space and press his cock against you. His hands go to your waist as he kisses you, sucking and biting on your lips until youâre whining with it, but he doesnât let up. Heâs desperate, messy, and itâs only making your pussy drool even more.
The rain hits the window still, cooling off a little but still providing a calming effect to your room when combined with the orange-pink of your lamp. He inches his palms up your shirt, the softness of his hands surprising you, and then heâs pulling away from your mouth to yank the fabric over your head.
Youâre left in just your pyjama bottoms, lips kiss bitten and nipples pebbled against the cool air of your bedroom. You never had shut your window, after all.
âOh,â Jisung says, exasperated. You finally open your eyes to see him staring at your tits, and you think he might be drooling. âOh, yeah, my baby. They are so fucking good.â
You almost laugh, but youâre cut off by your own strangled moan when his pouty lips engulf your right nipple. He sucks on it, hard, and when your back arches he lets it slip out of his mouth with a wet popping noise. Itâs only a brief moment of reprieve before heâs letting his teeth skim along the bud, and you keen, fingers moving upwards from his shoulders to grip onto the pillow behind your head.
âOh, thatâs so- Sungie, baby, that feels good,â You whine, and he hums against your breast. When he moves to the other one, he tweaks your wet nipple between two fingers. Itâs experimental, but the whole thing is, and you buck your hips up impatiently.
His hands move to your ass, scooping underneath you and making you grind slightly against him. The movement makes him moan, your nipple leaving his mouth. A string of drool attaches to his lips and his tongue lolls out lazily, and before you can process it, heâs grinding his cock into your clothed centre.
âOh- oh, fuck,â He whines, eyes clenching shut. You whimper in response, arms wrapping around his shoulders. âBaby- baby, baby. Baby, Iâve thought about this so much, I- fuck, youâre gonna feel so good around my cock.â
His words are so crude that they make you keen, nodding enthusiastically. âI thought about it too. I- I touched myself thinking about it, Sungie, did you?â
He gasps sharply, and thereâs a fumbling between your legs. He rocks backwards on his haunches, and you see him gripping his cock impatiently underneath his boxers, fingers wrapped tight around the base.
âI will literally cum if I imagine that,â He huffs, breathless. âBut yes. I did, many times, and- and- baby, can I see your pussy?â
Itâs so bold that you canât say no. You never would have dreamed of saying no anyway, and you nod, wiggling your bottoms down your legs. You never wear a bra or panties underneath your pyjamas, and your pussy is revealed to him in all its drooly glory, folds sticking together with your arousal.
Jisungâs jaw goes slack. You watch him jerk his cock, eyes fixated on your wet hole, and you shift impatiently.
âI showed you mine, Sungie,â You huff. âShow me yours.â
He nods, eyes still glued to your pussy. Your clit is swollen with arousal, some wetness stuck onto it, and you reach down to trace your fingertips over it absentmindedly while he pushes his boxers down. His cock slaps up against the bottom of his tummy, cockhead leaking beneath his foreskin, precum slicking the smattering of hair at his base. His balls look heavy, shaft swollen and fat between lithe thighs, and you canât help but go a little googly eyed at the thought of him stretching you out.
He grabs it, pumps his cock a few times while you rub your fingers over your clit. âIs- is it okay, baby?â He gasps, cock leaking steadily in his fist.
âYouâre so sexy, Sungie, âs so big. I- oh,â You whine, spreading your arousal over your folds. You prop your feet up, letting your legs fall wide, and the movement must expose your soppy hole to Jisung because his eyes widen even further. âI want you inside of me so bad. Iâve wanted it for so long, I just- shit, Jisung, what are you-â
Youâre cut off by him diving between your legs. His cock is forgotten, his hands looping around your ass again to spread you wide, and his tongue presses against your core. He moans at the taste, and you whimper out loud, head rolling against your pillow. Itâs messy and you can tell heâs inexperienced, but when he sucks your clit between his lips you canât find it in you to care.
âOh, oh- baby, baby! Youâre good at that, so good at that, baby,â You babble, trying your best not to grind up into his mouth. His mouth is just as wet as your pussy, his lips drooling all over you. Youâre cut short when he flattens his tongue against your core, moaning out loud, and his hands move your ass just a bit. âI- you- Sungie-?â
âGrind on my face, baby, câmon,â He murmurs, muffled by your folds, and you oblige. Your hand goes to his hair, yanking on the dark brown strands, and you hold him in place while you grind your pussy senseless on his tongue. Your boy is good with his mouth, you realise - heâs pliant, letting you make yourself cum on his tongue and lips, and after only a few grinds youâre sure youâre going to fall apart for him.
âAh! Ah, oh, baby, your mouth is- Sungie, Sungie,â You whine, feet kicking on the bed. Your legs go flat, but as the pleasure builds up in your core, your thighs tighten around his ears. He likes this, moaning loud to the point the vibrations make you jolt. Itâs all so wet, your pussy dripping with arousal and his saliva, dripping down to your asshole. It has you wondering if Jisung would eat your ass further down the line, and your eyes flicker to his - would he let you eat his? He probably would, with how submissive heâs being.
His hips buck downwards on the bed and he keens into your pussy, and you realise heâs humping your mattress. Heâs so desperate for you that he just canât help himself, and you moan, loud and unabashed. The sight has you hurtling towards your orgasm.
âIâm gonna fucking cum, baby,â You warn, and he finally lets up, pulling back to suck on your clit. His hand moves over to the top of your pussy, pulling your mound backwards, and the exposure of your clit directly to his lips is your downfall. You wail, bucking your hips into his mouth, and you can hear yourself talking and moaning but youâre not sure what youâre saying, only able to feel your hole gushing into Jisungâs mouth over and over.
Jisung licks over your clit a few times comfortingly, and then heâs on top of you again, face looming over yours. His right hand holds him up steadily and the other stays downwards, hooked on your thigh to keep you open.
âYou taste delicious, baby,â He grins, mouth wet. When he presses his lips to yours heâs desperate, tongue darting into your mouth to let you taste your own cum. You let your hands fall to his chest, fingernails digging into the muscles. The filthiness of it all has you wriggling around impatiently again, and Jisungâs cockhead slips against your clit, making you whine into his mouth. He pulls away, gasping for air with the sensation, and you kiss the beauty spot on his cheek for good measure. âBaby. M-my baby, shit, can- can I fuck you now? Have you got a condom, I- shit, I need to fuck you?â
Heâs breathless, giggling at his own desperation, and you nod eagerly. Youâre on the pill, and realistically youâd want nothing more than him to creampie you, but you have a shred of logic still left in your brain. âNo condom. I- I donât have any, can you pull out? I know itâs not-â
âDonât care,â He huffs, legs moving to prop himself up more securely. His knees dig into your bed, and he pulls your thigh further apart, letting his eyes fall down to your pussy. His face is more than pornographic when he sees the visual of his cockhead sliding through your folds, eyebrows furrowed and lips parted. He lets his eyes flutter shut, a small profanity leaving his mouth. âYouâre sure I can fuck you raw? I- please, p-please, baby. I need to be inside.â
âJisung,â You whine. He lets his tip bump against your clit again, and you grow too desperate, reaching down yourself to grab his cock. The feeling makes him whimper, his fingers ripping into the pillow beside your head with his superhuman strength, but youâre too out of it to care. You position his cock by your hole, soppy and wet with your own cum, and he canât hold himself back - he pushes in, all of it at once, a long, anguished noise leaving his mouth. âOh. Oh- Oh, Jisung, thatâs-â
âIs it okay? Are you okay?â Jisung asks, breathless. âDoes it hurt? I- baby, baby-â
Heâs still completely stationary, but he canât stop talking, chest heaving and flushed pink. You shake your head. It doesnât hurt. Youâre wet enough that he glided in so easy, stretching your pussy in the most pleasurable, delicious way. You didnât think it would ever feel this good, but youâre sure itâs because itâs Jisung.
âGod, is it- does it feel good?â He questions you, and you nod eagerly, hands moving to rest on his biceps. He repositions you both so that your legs are wrapped around his waist, his arms holding himself up over you, and the movement has him sliding deeper, making you whimper. âCan I-â
âFucking hell, Jisung, can you just move?â You huff, annoyed, and he giggles. He shakes his head fondly, and then heâs thrusting into you, slow but steady.
âOh, thatâs good,â He slurs, eyes rolling back into his head. âThat pussyâs good. Jesus, youâre- youâre tight on my cock, baby, like a fuckinâ vice.â
âYour cock is so good,â You whine, trying to fuck yourself back on him. Your pussy is so wet that every thrust makes an audible noise, ringing throughout your room. If anyone walked past now theyâd hear the debauchery, and youâre not sure youâd even care. âFuck, Jisung- Jisung, youâre big. Please, please, more, I need more!â
âOkay, okay,â He moans, and then his hips speed up. His balls slap against your asshole with every thrust, his cock pistoning into you at a pace that has you wailing. The headboard slams against the wall. âOh, fuckinâ- baby, this puusssy.â
âIt feels so good. Your cock is stretching me out so good, baby-â
âFuck, wait,â He whines, pulling out sharply. When you look down between his legs his cock is painfully hard, and his pubic hair is drenched with you. The sight makes you even more eager to get him back inside of you, but Jisung grabs the base of his cock tightly, his chest heaving. âI- Iâll cum if you talk like that. Fuck, this is so embarrassing!â
âI want you to cum,â You insist, leaning up on your elbows. Your pussy is still leaking steadily onto your bedsheets, and you make grabby hands at your boy to try and get him back inside of you. âYou made me cum so good in your mouth, Sungie, câmon. Make yourself cum with my pussy.â
âOh my God,â He moans, eyes half lidded, shaking his head in disbelief. âYouâre dirty. My fucking dream, holy shit.â
He leans over you once more, pushing his cock inside of you. It slides back in easily with another wet noise, and you moan, smiling with delight. âMm, fuck this pussy, baby, câmon.â
âI- fuck, okay,â He keens, nodding. His teeth bite into his lower lip almost painfully, and you kiss his neck while he starts to fuck into you again. With a quick reposition you let your thighs fall apart and further back, and his cock starts to hit your g-spot incessantly. He pulls away from you, head lolling into your neck. His breaths fan over your skin, hot and heavy. âYouâre so wet, why are you- how are you so wet, baby? This pussy, fucking- Iâm gonna cum. Iâm so close, Iâm so close, please-â
The shred of logic has left your brain. His cock feels so good, thick and pressing inside of you. You have to let him do it. âBaby. Baby, do yâwanna- Iâm on the pill, baby,â You say, breathless. His pace stops, hips halting, and he makes a confused noise. âCum inside. Creampie this hole, Sungie, I know you want to.â
âOh my fucking- baby? My baby, can I?â He wails, head pulling up to look at you. You catch sight of tears brewing in his eyes, glassy and unshed. âBaby, please, Iâm gonna cum, please, where-? Baby?â
âInside of me, Sungie,â You wrap your legs around him, pulling him inside of you, deep. You know he could get out of it if he wanted to, but he doesnât, hips starting to pick up inside of you again. Itâs fast, desperate and he keens, nodding. âYou gonna fill me up, yeah?â
âYeah. Y-yeah, yes, oh- Iâm gonna fill you up,â Jisungâs words are slurred, quiet, and you let him fuck into you over and over. With a sharp noise, his hips slow once more, and you feel a rush of additional wetness inside of you. Itâs warm, and you run your fingers through his hair while he fucks his cum inside of you. âFuck. Baby, youâre so good to me, so good. Lettinâ me breed your cunt, and- and- oh. Iâm still-â
Heâs still cumming. It floods out of his cock and into your pussy steadily, and you giggle, feeling sated. Your delighted state of mind only lasts a second, because he pulls out sharply and wiggles down on the bed, attaching his mouth to your cunt. Heâs eating his own cum out of you.
âOh! Oh, Jisung, youâre- youâre dirty, Sungie, ah-â You whine, fingers moving to his hair again. He licks you over and over until youâre wailing with it, your own tears brimming in your eyes from the overstimulation. Your hole feels stretched, a feeling youâre sure you could get used to, and you shake through a second orgasm.
Jisungâs quick to lean over you again, and then his thumb moves to your chin. He opens your mouth firmly, spitting your combined release into your mouth, and you moan, letting him press his tongue between your lips afterwards.
Itâs messy and you let him kiss you for a bit, slow, languid, passionate kisses that have your core almost throbbing for more, if you werenât so satisfied. Jisungâs soft cock presses against your tummy, wet with your combined arousal, and then he flops down next to you with a huff.
âGod, I could go again,â He admits, hand running through his sweat mussed hair. When you turn to him, heâs grinning from ear to ear, and you giggle. He looks at you with a satisfied expression. âYouâre the best. That was literally like, the best thing Iâve ever felt in my life. Even more than when I win some fight against an alien, or something.â
âAlien?â You ask, and then you remember. âOh, yeah. Kinda forgot about that.â
âYou forgot about me saving your life?!â He shrieks, thrashing around on the bed in a tantrum. âSeriously, if I wasnât in love with you I would- ah. Oh.â
You blanch, blinking at him. Itâs easy to ignore that youâre both naked when heâs just dropped a bombshell on you like that, and you let out a giggle. âThat was sweet. Iâm in love with you too, for the record.â
Youâre attacked in a flurry of kisses, and you wouldnât have it any other way. Youâre sure Han Jisung intrigues you just as much as his superhero alterego does, so itâs easy to accept.
Music pulsed low in the background of the dorm, a lazy playlist trailing through the speakers as a few drinks sat half-finished on the coffee table. You were curled up between Han and Hyunjin on the floor, cheeks warm from laughter and something slightly stronger than soda.
Truth or dare had escalated, as it always did when Minho got bored.
âAlright,â Minho said, smirking with his signature mischief. âJisung. Y/N. Since you two are joined at the hip anyway, I dare you to go into the bedroom together.â
You raised a brow. Jisung laughed, a little too quickly. âThatâs it? Just go in?â
Minho leaned forward, eyes glinting. âNot quite. Y/N has to leave three kiss marks on you. Neck, chest, andâŚâ he paused dramatically, ââŚv-line.â
The room erupted in chaosâHyunjin choking on his drink, Seungmin groaning like heâd heard enough, and you?
Frozen.
Your heart tried to climb into your throat. Jisung glanced at you, laughing, but there was a flicker in his eyesânervous, unreadable.
âI mean, only if youâre okay with it,â he said quickly, voice lower than usual.
You swallowed. âYeah. Sure. Itâs just a dare.â
Liar.
You stood up first, legs slightly shaky as you made your way to his room. The moment the door clicked behind him, the air changed. No more background laughter. Just the two of you.
Jisung rubbed the back of his neck, sheepish. âWe donât actually have to if itâs too weird.â
You looked up at him. âDo you want to?â
He hesitated. âI mean⌠yeah. Kind of.â
That surprised you. But you didnât question it.
You stepped forward, gently pushing him to sit on the edge of the bed. He swallowed hard, eyes locked on you, waiting.
âOkay,â you whispered, straddling his lap carefully, your hands resting on his shoulders. âFirst one.â
You leaned in and pressed your lips to his neck, just below his jawline. You sucked softly, just enough for color to bloom against his skin. You felt his breath hitch.
âDamn,â he mumbled under his breath.
You tried not to smirk.
Next, you slipped your fingers beneath the collar of his shirt, letting it fall off one shoulder as you leaned in againâthis time against his chest, just above his heart.
Your lips lingered longer, your breath brushing his skin as you marked him slowly. You heard him exhale, his hands gripping your waist lightly.
And then, the final one.
You looked up, searching his eyes for permission.
He nodded.
You reached for the hem of his shirt and tugged it up. He lifted his arms so you could pull it over his head, and you stared for a second longer than you meant to. His toned stomach, the way his chest rose and fell under your gazeâit made your own breath stutter.
Your lips found the curve of his v-line, just above the waistband of his jeans. The kiss mark there was slower, deeper. You didnât pull away immediately.
âY/NâŚâ
His voice was strained, barely a whisper.
You looked up again, your hands resting against his sides. âToo much?â
âNo,â he said, a little too fast. âI justââ He paused. âIâve wanted this. You. For a while.â
Your heart flipped. âYou have?â
He nodded, eyes searching yours. âBut I didnât want to screw up our friendship. Youâre⌠important to me.â
You smiled, your voice barely audible. âYouâre important to me too. Iâve been trying to ignore it, but I feel the same.â
That was all it took.
He kissed you before you could say another word, pulling you into him like heâd been waiting forever. It was desperate, soft and messy all at once. His hands traced your back, pulling you closer until there was nothing between you but heat and want.
His mouth found yours again and again, like he couldnât get enough. Your shirt was gone before you realized it, and when his hands met bare skin, you gasped into his mouth.
âYou sure?â he whispered, breathing hard against your jaw.
You nodded. âYeah. I want you.â
And like the, it was like something had snapped in him. Han's mouth was back on yours, letting his hands roam all over your skin, not sure where to start.
He fell back against the bed, pulling you with him, wrapping you up until everything elseâthe party, the dare, even the room itselfâfaded out. All you could feel was him, the rise and fall of his chest under your palms, his lips tracing patterns along your collarbone.
You tugged at his jeans, feeling him tense beneath you.
âEager?â he teased, his voice a mix of laughter and breathlessness.
âVery,â you shot back, flicking open the button and sliding them down. He helped kick them off, leaving him in boxers that did nothing to hide how much he wanted this.
His hands moved to your waist, pulling at your own jeans. âFairâs fair,â he said, grinning up at you with that same flicker of vulnerability beneath the confidence.
You shimmied out of them, tossing them aside before leaning over him again. The friction of skin on skin was electric, dizzying; each touch sparked new.
He kissed you slowly, savoring each second like it might end too soon. Your bodies fit together seamlessly, filling every space with heat. He rolled you over, breathless, resting his weight on his elbows as he hovered above you. His hair fell in his eyes, and you pushed it back, tracing his jaw.
âHan,â you whispered, more a plea than a name.
He groaned softly at the sound, sliding down your body with deliberate care. His lips left a trail from your collarbone to the edge of your bra. He paused, letting his breath warm your skin.
You arched into him. âDonât stopâŚ..pleaseâ
Your bra hit the floor fast, and he was on you againâmouth and hands everywhere all at once until you couldnât tell where one started or ended. When his lips closed around your nipple, heat flooded through you so hard you gasped and tangled your fingers in his hair.
It felt like nothing else mattered but this moment with himâeverything raw and real.
You tugged at the waistband of his boxers, unsure if you could wait any longer. He moved back up to meet your mouth, every shift of his body sending sparks along your skin.
When he finally slid them off, you felt him hard against your thigh, and it sent a thrill through you.
His mouth was near your ear, whispering your name like a promise. âIâve got you.â
You let him roll you on top again, straddling his hips, hearts pounding in time. He pulled at the lace of your panties, hesitating just long enough for you to nod before sliding them down.
The sensation of his fingers brushing along your inner thigh made you tremble, and he watched the effect with a mix of awe and victory.
âY/N,â he said softly, like he still couldnât believe it.
You kissed him deep, letting all those years of wanting pour out. His hands cupped your ass, guiding you against him until he couldnât wait any longer.
He reached beside him, fumbling in the nightstand drawer. The crinkle of foil broke through the haze.
âPrepared?â you teased breathlessly.
He laughed. âHoping is more like it.â
You took it from him with shaking fingers, tearing it open and rolling it on slowly. He groaned at your touchâlow, gutturalâand it almost undid you right there.
Then he pulled you down over him, gasping together as he filled you completely. You had to stop for a second to catch your breath, dizzy from the sensation of him finally inside you.
âGod,â Jisung moaned. âYou feelâŚâ
You cut him off with another kiss, moving against him until talking turned into broken words and raw sounds. It was more intense than anything you'd imagined; every new angle sent shockwaves through both of you. His hands guided your hips faster until there was nothing left but pure sensation.
Your breath came ragged and fast as the pressure built higher and hotter between youâuntil all at once it shattered, leaving your whole body shaking with release.
Jisung followed seconds after with a deep groan and an arch of his back that sent warmth flooding into every part of your soul. You collapsed against his chest in disbelief and relief while the world slowly pieced itself back together around you.
He wrapped his arms tight around you like he never wanted to let go. The dare seemed like a distant echo now; everything else faded away except his heartbeat under your cheek.
âHey,â he said after a long moment, still catching his breath but grinning wide. âWe might have to do this dare thing more often.â
You laughed into his neck, brushing sweat-damp hair from his forehead so you could see those bright eyes looking at only you.
âYeah,â you murmured happily as sleepiness crept over both of you in waves. âI think we should.â
warnings: the robe stays on during sex baby!!, doting bf changbinnie, body worship (m rec), thigh riding, unprotected sex, the mirror is involved like super slightly but thatâs not rly a focus lol, overstimulation, reader struggles with multiple orgasms but still wants it real bad!!!
a/n: changbin in that robe should frankly be a warning on its own. anyways, i couldnât stop myself. enjoy! reblogs and comments are always appreciated :)
changbin emerges from the bathroom looking like something out of your wildest, wettest dreams â towel dried hair and dewy pink skin, with a type of relaxed, tasteful confidence that changbin always seems to carry, never failing to make something hot swirl in your belly.
steam follows him out, curls around him like even the smallest of particles canât get enough of the touch of his warm skin. changbin meanders to his suitcase and tosses his worn clothes in a pile beside it to deal with later.
heâs naked but heâs not, clothed only in a white, form fitting robe that you figure wouldnât look nearly as good on anyone other than your dreamboat of a boyfriend. he rounds the couch youâre seated on and heads for the mirror, runs thick fingers through his damp hair and unwraps the tie of the robe to tie it tighter only for it to snag under the toned swell of his ass. your brows raise in appreciation, eyes roaming him up and down until you catch his knowing gaze in the mirror.
you like that smirk of his far too much to act like you werenât ogling every ounce of him, but you do still feel like you were caught with your hand stuck down in the cookie jar. you look back down at your phone and changbin huffs.
âdonât look away!â he whines. âwhat were you looking at? tell me in detail! donât leave anything out.â
what werenât you looking at â that might be an easier question to answer.
you roll your eyes fondly and thump your head back against the couchâs headrest, tossing your phone to the side so your roaming eyes can slip right back where they belong: on changbin. you donât answer him just yet because his broad back takes all of your attention â the thickness of his lats, the deep valley of his spine. changbin flourishes under the attention; he straightens his back, squares his shoulders. his eyes are already on yours when you finally manage to look up towards his face.
âyou look very⌠voluptuous.â
changbin spends the next several moments repeating the word, noting how the syllables feel on his dexterous tongue and how they roll off of it.
âvoluptuous. thatâs fun, i like that one. what else?â
changbinâs grin is ever-growing, almost like the breadth of him that never seems to stop. he stops primping in the mirror to give you his undivided attention instead â changbin turns around and steps around the circular table to get closer to the couch, boxes you in with bulky arms, one hand propped on the headrest and the other on the arm. you can smell him now that heâs come closer, a mix of the hotelâs citrus body wash and his minty toothpaste. with changbinâs frame leaned over you the way it is, you can peek down the loose opening of the robe to see his thick pecs, his firm belly. your mouth waters, and changbinâs too close and perceptive to miss the way your legs squeeze shut.
âeyyy,â he breathes, but he doesnât clutch the collar of the robe like you half expect him to in jest. no, changbin unfastens the tie with one hand and adjusts his stance above you, swinging a leg over your thighs to box you into the cream colored couch even more.
heâs so fucking warm. all that honey-toned skin of his is free real estate for your greedy, greedy hands. he hums deep in his throat when you caress his stomach and dip your fingers under the loose fabric to squeeze his hips. heâs sensitive there, and changbin shivers when your fingers skitter across the light stretch marks that kiss his skin. changbin fusses with the robe again, wriggles his shoulders in an attempt to slip the fabric down to bare himself to you.
your own arms wrap around his neck to pull him down into a kiss before he can, and changbin follows your silent instructions without hesitation. his calloused hand cups the top of your head as his elbow rests on the back of the couch. the thumb on his other hand gently brushes your cheek, skims against the soft press of your lips to memorialize the feeling of your lips melding with his.
âplease donât take it off,â you murmur against his mouth. itâs plump and inviting, sweet just like changbin. you canât bare the thought of parting from them, so you breathe your words into the seam of his willing mouth so he can taste them on his tongue. he nods, nudges you sideways so youâre laying flat on the couch and he can blanket you fully with his body.
he kisses you like that until youâre rocking together, lips smacking wetly and hips rolling slowly. the grind of his bare cock against your panty-clad core is mind numbing. changbin presses just enough of his weight onto you to make you squirm underneath him, trapped, ensnared, yet thereâs no place youâd rather be than under the confines of his beautiful, capable body.
changbin might as well be completely naked with the way youâre clutching at his skin under the unfastened robe. your nails rake up his back, curl into his broad shoulders harsh enough to make him hiss and make his hips stutter. it almost feels like your world is cracking straight down the middle when he leans up and away from you. your lips part with a smack, your fingers loosen their hold on his shoulders because you have no choice until you remember you can follow him. so you do, stars filling your vision with how fast you sit up to chase his warmth. changbin wants you naked â you can tell by the way he tugs on the sleeves of your sleep shirt. itâs so uncoordinated, but that makes everything better, the fierce desperation you feel for each other. changbinâs desperation to see your naked body, yours to press reverent kisses to his chest, his abdomen.
âyâbong,â he breathes, whines. âplease. yeobo, please, itâll only take a moment.â
your shirt finds its way over your head and tossed to the floor the second your mouth leaves his plush skin, and changbinâs fingers map every bit of your body he can reach. your back, the nape of your neck. he holds you to his chest once you start kissing him again â wet, searing kisses sucked between his pecs, above his bellybutton just how he likes. a slow, flat lick to his nipple has him groaning; changbinâs head falls back and he breathes heavily towards the ceiling before tucking his chin to watch you love on him.
changbinâs eyes are as dark as the night sky, endless, and his gaze is almost too intense for you to handle. you suck your tongue back into your mouth to wet it again, licking from his puffy nipple to his neck, his neck to his plump little lips. he meets you with his tongue, wet and warm and soft, and a hand cups the back of your neck to keep you right where he wants you.
that mounting desperation is still there. itâs still simmering, bubbling hot and waiting to boil over at any moment. it crests when changbin lays you back down and drags a muscled thigh between yours.
you rut against it harshly â breath catching raggedly in your throat at how hard your hips are working. his sturdy hands grip your hips to help you move, and you have half a mind to stop your rutting all together to let changbin move you on his own. he could. he would.
âit feels good like that?â changbin asks, and your head bobbles frantically. âi want to hear you tell me.â
as if your eyes arenât rolling closed, as if your mouth isnât hanging open, as if your hips arenât spasming when your clit rubs just right against his leg. he still wants to hear you say it.
âyes! yes, feels- oh, god, changbinnie yeah. you- you feel really good.â your tongue feels too fat for your mouth, but changbin rewards your honesty by tugging fitfully at the elastic of your panties. heâs huffing, he wants them down, wants to feel your sticky sweetness against his thigh with no barrier. it takes both of you to peel them down your trembling legs â changbin kisses your raised ankle and tosses your panties to the side with your shirt when heâs done.
changbin echoes the keen that leaves your lips when your cunt connects with his thigh again. bare this time, nothing between changbinâs thick muscle and your aching clit. youâre buzzing underneath him, hips rocking frantically into the pressure from his leg, and changbin helps by pressing it down, flexing the muscle so you can feel it jump and harden. he kisses you then, open-mouthed and hungry, swallowing your whines and whimpers of his name.
thereâs nothing in the world like changbinâs cock, nothing like the stretch of him carving you out, but thereâs something about this. his thigh, the pressure from it, it warms the entirety of your cunt and makes your clit buzz, keeps you even more sensitive to the touch after you cum and leaves your legs trembling for so long you think theyâll be stuck that way.
your hips burn â a choked whimper claws its way from your throat and slips right onto changbinâs probing tongue, but he always knows what you need. he knows youâre going to cum when your grinding slows down, turns rougher. changbin grips your hips when they snap, using his grasp to pull you harder into him as you thrust forward.
âbin! bin, changbin, i-!â
âpretty baby. is changbinnieâs pretty baby going to cum?â he knows you are, thereâs no doubt about it. and he wants it just as badly as you do. âplease. please do it, please cum. let me feel you, yeobo, please.â
your head thunks back against the arm of the couch when you do cum, hard enough to make your head throb for a moment before changbinâs hand slips underneath it with a worried oh! your legs lock around his thigh as he holds you through it, squeezing your own thighs every couple of seconds to soak up all that pleasure heâs made you feel. itâs changbinâs turn to press heated kisses to your heaving chest, the underside of your tender breasts and your sensitive nipples.
youâre sweetly sated, but you wonât be able to rest until changbin feels the same. heâs so good to you, he takes such good care of you, all you want to do is return the favor. changbin hums in confusion when you push at his shoulders but goes easily as always, following the direction of your prodding hands and waiting dutifully to see what you have in store for him. you could have him on the bed â itâs right there, close enough to touch if you were to just reach behind the couch â but you want him like this. you lift up onto your knees and press your chest against the couchâs backrest, folding your arms so you can lay your head on them. the pretty arch of your back sticks your ass out, and this time changbin is the one who does the ogling, dark eyes roaming up and down your backside as his sturdy hands come up to knead at your cheeks.
the robe rustles when he moves. changbin stands from the couch and props one knee on the other side of yours, keeping one foot braced on the floor.
âlike this?â changbin squeezes your side, slips his hand up your back to massage between your shoulders. heâs so close that you can feel the bump of his cock against the inside of your thigh, so, so unbearably close to where you need it. it jolts there, sways heavily against your skin as changbin steadies himself. âyou want me to fuck you like this?â
âplease. please, yes.â changbin has never been one to make you beg â heâs always just as needy for you as you are for him, and you hear the immediate sound of him spreading precum down his short length, jacking himself in preparation for your cunt.
the stretch makes your knees quiver. youâre so relaxed from your previous orgasm that it doesnât burn like it could, like you like for it to sometimes, but itâs enough to make your eyes squeeze shut in your struggle to keep from clenching on him. despite his girth, you take him easily, a feat thanks to your combined wetness and your many, many years of practice. changbin waits for your nod to start thrusting, and it doesnât take long before youâre seeing stars on the hotel room ceiling.
it feels so good, changbin knows just how to work his hips to hit that special spot inside, but the smack of his heavy sac against your clit sends zings of too-much overstimulation down your spine. a whimper then, a shaky hand traveling down to rest right over your throbbing, sensitive clit to lessen the blow. sometimes itâs too much, that pressure on your clit, especially after cumming the way you did minutes ago. but itâs perfect like this, changbinâs cock carves its way inside like thatâs where itâs meant to be, and youâre moaning so loud youâd be embarrassed if you didnât know theyâd rented out the entire floor of the hotel.
âyes, yes, yes,â changbin grits through his teeth. he reaches up until heâs cupping underneath your chin with both hands, calloused thumbs gently caressing the soft skin of your cheeks despite how rough his thrusts are. âtell me- ah, tell me you love me.â
there it is again; your tongue still feels too fat for your mouth, but you want to give changbin what he wants. you need to.
âbaby, baby, i love you!â your words are muffled, jaw barely able to move where heâs cupping his hands around it. âi love you. love you- changbinnie, love you.â
he grunts at that, puffs his cheeks. if you turn your head just so, you can see his face in the floor-to-ceiling mirror. heâs pink with exertion, cheeks, neck, and chest flushed strawberry red. the sleeves of the robe are slipping down his arms with the force of his movement, leaving more of changbinâs bulky arms and thick chest on display for you. changbin is a dream â temptation on legs.
âyouâre the love of my life,â he rasps, and he cums inside of you with a high-pitched gasp.
his hands slip from your jaw and wrap themselves around your stomach, pulling you back towards his body. heâs curling in on himself as he cums but prefers to curl into you, so you go lax in his arms and close your eyes to focus on the feeling of changbinâs warm cum flooding inside of your clenching pussy.
you⌠want to cum. again. you want to cum again with him inside you, with his cock shooting those pearly ropes into your warmth. itâs almost like changbin reads your mind â he stays wrapped around you but lowers one hand to cup between your legs. the first touch of his middle finger to your clit makes you jolt, it makes you quiver in his grasp and has your legs squirming into the couch below you. he pulls away to lick his fingers â itâs even better then, his touch silky smooth between your legs, gentle enough that the overstimulation simmers into something easier to manage.
âcan you cum again?â
the question is breathed into your ear. his breath is warm, minty, and changbinâs lips chase it with even warmer kisses to the lobe.
âi donât- i dunno, i donât know, i want to,â you whine, and your thighs snap shut around changbinâs hand. it doesnât deter him, you donât want it to anyway, all you want is for him to help guide you to it, through it. you clutch at his arms as changbinâs fingers start to rub circles onto your clit. you still jolt every couple of seconds, but changbinâs hold on you never falters. âplease- please make me cum again, please try.â
your head is angled so that when you speak, you do it against the side of his round little nose. changbin kisses your cheek in response. once, twice, a third. his touch between your thighs is soft, so soft that under any other circumstances you would beg for him to do it harder, but like this⌠itâs perfect. he touches you with two slick fingers, rubs barely-there circles onto your pulsing clit until your hips are nearly vibrating. you canât help but clench down on him, and changbin whimpers into your ear. the feeling of his softening cock plugging you up and his gentle, guiding fingers between your legs sends you into a second orgasm thatâs almost as intense as the first. youâre even more sensitive now and changbin knows it, so he slips his hand from the clutch of your thighs when they start to squeeze hard and rubs your belly instead as you come down from your high, cooing praises into your ear as you shake and shudder in his sturdy arms.
youâd come apart completely if they werenât holding you together, but luckily for you, thatâs not something you ever have to worry about.
It was supposed to be just a photoshoot. Just another concept for the brand Chan was helping promoteâsomething edgy, something bold. And you, his best friend, had somehow ended up roped into being part of it.
The photographerâs vision? Something intimate. Something raw.
Something like kiss marks all over Bang Chanâs chest, neck, and stomach.
Youâd laughed when they explained it, thinking it was a joke. But Chan had agreed almost instantly, flashing his dimple and saying, âYeah, Y/Nâs perfect for it. Sheâs comfortable with me. Weâll make it look natural.â
Comfortable. Right.
Now here you were, backstage in the dimly lit studio, your lips stained red from the makeup artistâs touch-up, and Chan standing in front of you with his shirt already offâtan skin, defined abs, and that confident smirk faltering just a little when your eyes met.
âReady?â he asked, voice lower than usual.
You swallowed hard. âYeah. Totally.â
The first kiss was awkward. You leaned in, pressing your lips to his collarbone, and both of you laughed nervously.
âSorry,â you muttered against his skin. âThis is justâŚâ
âWeird?â he offered, the muscle in his jaw twitching. âYeah.â
But the camera clicked. The photographer gave you encouragement. And you did it again.
And again.
You trailed marks down his chest. Light pressure. Lingering lips. His skin was warm under your mouth, and you could feel every breath he tookâshallow, restrained.
At one point, your hand landed on his waist to steady yourself, and he flinchedâjust barely.
âSorry,â you whispered.
He didnât say anything, but his fingers brushed your arm in response. Gentle. Anchoring.
By the time you got to his stomach, the tension was unbearable. You could feel it humming in the airâunsaid things and stolen glances. Your lips pressed lower, just above his waistband, and his hand gripped the edge of the table behind him.
The photographerâs voice was distant. Something about how good the shots were turning out. You barely heard it.
Finally, someone called a break. You turned away, heart pounding, heading toward the dressing room to wipe the lipstick off.
You didnât expect Chan to follow.
He closed the door behind him, locked it, and stood there, eyes dark and unreadable.
âChanââ
âWhat are we doing?â he asked, voice rough. âBecause that didnât feel like just a shoot.â
Your back hit the counter. He moved closer.
âYou think I didnât notice how your hands were shaking?â he said, his fingers brushing your hip. âHow you hesitated every time your lips got too low?â
You exhaled, trying to stay composed. âWeâre friends. Weâre justââ
âFriends donât look at each other like that,â he growled, cutting you off. âYou think I havenât noticed how you avoid my eyes lately? How you bite your lip when I get too close?â
He pressed a hand to the wall beside your head, caging you in, but not touching you beyond that. Giving you spaceâbarely.
âSay something,â he murmured.
You reached up, thumb brushing one of the kiss marks youâd left earlier. âYou liked it,â you whispered. âDidnât you?â
His control snapped.
He kissed youâhard. Mouth urgent, hands gripping your waist like he couldnât get enough of you. And you kissed him back, all the heat and tension from the day exploding between you in a rush of teeth and tongue and desperate gasps.
When he finally pulled back, both of you breathless, he pressed his forehead to yours.
âThatâs not leaving the studio,â he whispered. âThatâs mine.â
âĄÂ â ó Źó Ź fratboy!bangchan x f!reader dirty talk, masturbation, rough sex, slight choking, use of nicknames, overstimulation among other things I can't even name
⥠synopsis â Bangchan is the campus playboyâcharming, cocky, and infuriatingly irresistible. One reckless, drunken night leads to a secret you swore you'd never have. Now, hating him is harder than keeping him your dirty little secret.
[10k words ]âĄâ once again, I must thank you all for your love and for continuing to enjoy gameboy! this chapter is a bit long, but for me it's interesting to write the development of the characters to get where we want to go! don't forget to listen to the playlist and those who just got here PLEASE READ THE PREVIOUS CHAPTERS!!!! that said, have a good read.
On the corner of my bed
Oh, and maybe on the beach
You could do it on your own
While you're lookin' at me
After absolutely killing your performance of Out Here On My Own, the applause hit you like a tidal wave. A standing ovation. Even Mrs. Baek looked mildly impressed, which, considering her usual stone-cold demeanor, basically meant she was internally sobbing.
And just like that, all the nerves? Gone. Vanished into thin air like they were never even there.
Bangchan had been watchingâbecause of course, he hadâbut before you could revel in that fact for too long, he got a call and had to bounce. Typical.
You should have been freaking out about the whole making out backstage situation. Shouldâve been scanning every corner for witnesses, mentally preparing for a campus-wide scandal. But weirdly? You werenât. That reckless, confident part of youâthe one still floating on cloud nineâdid not care. If anything, you could still feel him. His touch on your waist like a phantom burn, his lips still branded on yours.
But whatever. You had bigger things to stress about. The final list wasnât coming out until Monday, which meant you had the entire weekend to sit in pure, unfiltered agony over it. Luckily, Saturdayâs party was the perfect excuse to get out of your head for a while.
Fast forward through a day of pretending to be studious with Soheeâaka desperately trying to focus while your brain replayed that kissâyou finally took a well-earned shower and decided to go for a solo nighttime stroll.Â
Campus was still alive, students buzzing around in little clusters, laughing and talking like they didnât have impending deadlines. You shoved your headphones in, following the athletics track, which was mostly empty by now.
The night air had that perfect, crisp breezeâthe kind that made you grateful you threw on a cardigan. And just when you thought the moment couldnât get any better, Wonderwall started playing. You smirked to yourself. Damn, you loved this song.
And yet, with every step, your brain kept poking at you like an annoying little sibling. Anxiety, sure. But letâs not forget the other mess currently occupying premium real estate in your mindâHyunjin.
You hadnât talked to him since you drunkenly spilled your guts, quite literally, about your whole Bangchan situation. And if you were being honest, which you werenât, at least not with yourself, you were actively dodging that conversation. Because talking to Hyunjin meant facing your own feelings, and frankly, you were not clocked in for that emotional labor.
Your phone lit up mid-walk.
Mingyu: can I see you today?
You chewed on your lip, staring at the message. It was almost ridiculous how this boyânew, uncomplicated, and seemingly sincereâwanted something real with you. And yet, here you were, hesitating. Because no matter how nice Mingyu was, your brain wasnât stuck on him.
It was stuck on someone else.
On a certain maddening, frustrating, insanely good kisser who had, at some point, tattooed himself onto your skin. If physical touch could be permanent, Bangchanâs hands would be everywhere on you. And, letâs be honest, you wouldnât exactly be filing a complaint about it.
Before you even processed the decision, your feet had already made it for you. You were crossing campus, heading straight for his dorm.
Because you needed to talk. Like adults. No teasing, no sarcastic little jabsâjust honesty.
And, okay, maybe you needed to see him, too. Feel him. More than ever.
Your determination was fuel to the fire already burning inside you. Your heart was pounding, your brain was screaming at you to calm down, but your body wasnât taking any orders tonight. That feverish, all-consuming pull settled deep in your gut, an intoxicating mix of adrenaline, nerves, and something terrifyingly real.
You took the stairs two at a time, like the damn dorm might vanish before you got there.
By the time you reached his door, you were clutching your excitement close, biting back a smile even as your fingers trembled. Deep breath. You knocked, quick and sure.
And instead of a tall, dark-haired boy, you were met with her.
She was pretty. Unfairly, effortlessly prettyâthe kind of girl who belonged on magazine covers and in the daydreams of poets. Medium height, light hair, bright eyes. The kind of face men went to war over.
Your stomach dropped like a stone.
âHi!â she greeted, all warmth and ease, completely oblivious to the way the air had just been sucked out of your lungs.
You swallowed, forcing a polite nod. âUh, hey⌠is Bangchan here?â
She shook her head, smiling like this was just any other casual conversation. And thatâs when you noticed itâhis black t-shirt, draped over her frame.
âOh, no. He went to grab some food.â she tilted her head, something curious in her gaze. âAre you a friend of his? Oh! SorryâIâm Yeojin. His girlfriend. And you areâŚ?â
Her words hit like a gut punch, sucking the warmth right out of your chest.
A bitter laugh bubbled up, but you swallowed it down, masking the sting with a tight-lipped smile. âA classmate,â you said smoothly. âI just had a question, but⌠I think it can wait till Monday.â
And just like that, the fire inside you? Extinguished.
The girl pursed her glossy lips, then nodded politely. âOkay. Iâll let him know you stopped by.â
âNo need.â the words left your mouth before she could even finish. âThanks, Yeojin.â
Her name felt like venom rolling off your tongue, thick and bitter, coating your mouth with something vile.
By the time you hit the stairs, you were moving so fast you were honestly surprised you didnât wipe out. Your pulse was a hammer against your ribs, your breath uneven. Your brain hadnât even caught up yetâstuck on a loop, trying to process the absolute train wreck that had just unfolded.
He had a girlfriend this whole time.
He lied to you.
He did exactly what everyone said he would.
The sharp sting of disappointment curdled into full-blown anger. Your steps turned heavier, each one smacking against the pavement like a silent war drum. You were so locked into getting to your dormâso wound up with the need to disappear into your own spaceâyou probably wouldâve plowed through half a dozen people without a second thought.
But fate had a sick sense of humor. Because halfway across campus, you spotted him.
Bangchan, heading back toward the dorms, a paper bag dangling from his handâfood, obviously, because why wouldnât he be casually picking up dinner while your world imploded?
His eyes lit up the second he saw you, but that moment of warmth flickered out fast when you didnât even look at him. Didnât slow down. Didnât hesitate. Just walked right past him like he was nothingâlike he was airânearly clipping his arm in the process.
He stood there for two seconds, frozen, before spinning around. Your name tore from his lips, sharp and urgent.
âWhat happened?â when you didnât answer, his voice shot up, strained. âWhere are you going?â
You sucked in a deep breath, your whole body practically vibrating with anger. Then, before you could stop yourself, you spun around and marched right back toward him, each step digging into the grass like you were stomping out a fire.
âTo my dorm,â you snapped. âNot that itâs any of your business. Oh, and fun factâI just came back from yours.â sarcasm dripped from your voice like honey laced with poison.
Bangchan blinked, his brain buffering like a slow-loading webpage. The look on his face almost made you laughâalmost. Instead, you just smiled, sharp and humorless. Yeah, process that, asshole.
You turned to leave, but before you could, his hand caught yours. Not your wrist, like some desperate last-ditch grabâyour hand. Like he meant it. And the second your skin met his, it was like touching an open flame.
âLet me explain.â his voice was tight, urgent.
âDonât touch me.â you yanked your hand back like it burned. âI donât give a shit about whatever excuse youâre about to pull out of your ass.â
His jaw clenched. âCan you stop being so damn stubborn and just listen to me for once?â
You let out a sharp, humorless laugh. âOh, you wanna explain?â you licked your lips, tasting nothing but bitterness. âGo ahead. Explain how you had a girlfriend this whole time while you were fucking around with me.â
The words landed like a punch to the gutâon both of you.
Because, deep down, being with you had never been defined. No labels. No promises. No safety net to fall back on. But that didnât make it hurt any less.
Bangchanâs brows snapped together. âWhat? What the fuck are you talking about?â
âOh, donât even try it.â you scoffed, shaking your head. âYouâre really gonna stand there and lie to my face? I saw her.â
His frustration bubbled over, his arms flying up in exasperation. âI genuinely have no idea what the fuck youâre talking about.â his voice cracked with frustration. He looked at you like he was praying for some divine intervention to make sense of this mess. âIf youâre talking aboutââ
âJust go back to your girlfriend and leave me alone, Bangchan.â your voice was steady, but he wasnât stupidâhe saw the fire still burning in your eyes, catching in the moonlight.
And maybe if he had taken half a second to think, he wouldnât have said it. Maybe he wouldâve swallowed his pride and stopped himself from making it worse.
But he didnât.
âWhatever, right?â he scoffed, voice laced with something bitter. âItâs not like we were anything.â
You pressed your lips together, jaw tight, throat burning like youâd swallowed glass. And for the first time in your life, really the first, you felt so humiliatedâso stupidâthat your eyes burned with unshed tears.
Bangchan saw it. Saw the way your waterline glistened, saw the way your breath hitched, but you wouldnât cry. Not in front of him. Not for him.
âIf you really think thatâs the problem, then that says a whole lot more about you than it does about me.â your voice was sharp, but quiet, like a blade sliding back into its sheath.
And just like that, the conversation was over.
You turned on your heel and walked away, each step fueled by a firestorm of anger, hurt, and something else you werenât ready to name. Bangchan watched you go, standing frozen in place, and by the time he even thought about stopping youâ
It was too late.
Outside your dorm, you yanked your phone out of your pocket, fingers flying across the screen like a woman on a mission. Your pulse was still hammering, adrenaline buzzing under your skin as you pulled up Mingyuâs contact and typed without hesitation.
You: Feel like crashing a party on Saturday?
Barely a beat passed before your phone vibrated with his response.
Mingyu: You had me at âparty.â
Bangchan pushed open the door to his dorm with more force than necessary, letting it slam shut behind him. His pulse was still racing, his jaw tight with frustration.
And there she was. Yeojin.
Lying on his bed, scrolling through her phone like she owned the place. His old sweatshirt was hanging off her shoulder, and she barely spared him a glance when he walked in.
âOh, youâre back,â she said, swinging her legs idly. âDidnât take you long.â
Bangchan set his bag of takeout on the desk and exhaled sharply through his nose. âWhat the hell did you say to her?â
Yeojin finally looked up, her expression the perfect blend of innocence and amusement. âSay what exactly?â
His fingers flexed at his sides. âYou know what,â he ground out. âYou told her weâre together. Why?â
She tilted her head, brows lifting. âI never said that.â
Bangchan let out a humorless laugh, running a hand through his hair. âYeojin, donât play games with me.â
âI didnât, Chan.â she sighed dramatically, stretching her arms over her head. âShe asked if you were here, I said no, and I introduced myself. Itâs not my fault if she jumped to conclusions.â
He clenched his jaw, glaring at her. âThatâs bullshit and you know it.â
She just smiled. âSo what if it is?â her voice dropped, teasing, as she sat up. âYou used to like when I messed with people.â
Bangchan took a step back when she reached for him, his whole body recoiling instinctively.
âWeâre not kids anymore, Yeojin,â he muttered. âAnd I donât have time for this.â he grabbed his jacket and headed for the door. âI got Thai food. Help yourself.â
Before she could say anything else, he was gone.
The cool night air did little to calm Bangchanâs nerves as he walked toward the basketball court, fists shoved in his hoodie pockets. His mind was a mess, replaying the way you had looked at himâlike he was exactly what people warned you about.
Before he could spiral further, a familiar voice cut through his thoughts.
âDamn, whatâs with the face?â Changbin asked, appearing from the other side of the path. âYou look like you wanna punch a hole in a wall.â
Bangchan exhaled sharply. âNot a wall.â
Changbin frowned. âWhat the hell happened?â
Bangchan hesitated before tilting his head toward the court. âBasketball first. Talking later.â
Changbin smirked. âI like where this is going.â
Fifteen minutes later, Bangchan sat on the edge of the basketball court, legs stretched out, elbows resting on his knees, looking like life had personally drop-kicked him.
Across from him, Changbin dribbled the ball lazily, waiting. And waiting. Until his patience ran out.
âSo?â Changbin finally asked, passing him the ball. âSpill.â
Bangchan caught it, staring at it for a second before shaking his head. âYeojinâs here.â
Changbin nearly fumbled the rebound. âIâm sorryâwhat?â his face twisted in immediate disgust. âWhat the hell is she doing here?â
Bangchan sighed. âShe came to visit. Said she was in town. Itâs been years, and I figuredâwhatever, right? No harm in catching up.â
Changbin let out a dry laugh. âNo harm? Bro, sheâs a walking red flag. Why would you even entertain that?â
Bangchan pressed his tongue against his cheek. âI donât know, man. Nostalgia? I mean, we didnât exactly end badly, we justââ he sighed. âDidnât work.â
Changbin scoffed. âYeah, well, I never liked her. You know that.âÂ
Bangchan dribbled once, then tossed the ball toward the hoop. It hit the rim, circled, then dropped through the net. âThereâs more.â
Changbin folded his arms. âYeah, no shit. Youâre sitting here like you just found out Santa isnât real. What else happened?â
Bangchan caught the rebound and exhaled. âShe saw.â
Changbin frowned. âSaw what?â
Bangchan gave him a look.
âOh.â Changbin winced. âShit.â he let out a slow whistle. âThatâs⌠bad.â
âNo shit,â Bangchan muttered, dragging a hand through his hair. âShe showed up at my dorm, and instead of me opening the door, Yeojin did.â
Changbin groaned. âDude. No.â
âOh, it gets worse,â Bangchan went on, voice dripping with frustration. âYeojin, being the manipulative little menace she is, basically introduced herself as my girlfriend.â
Changbin stared at him like he just admitted to murder. âAnd she believed that?â
Bangchan laughed bitterly. âWhy wouldnât she? The look she gave me, man⌠like I was exactly what she expected. Some asshole playing games.â
Changbin studied him for a second. âAnd that bothers you.â
Bangchan scoffed. âOf course it fucking bothers me.â he leaned forward, gripping the ball tight. âShe drives me insane, Bin. Likeâshe acts like itâs nothing. Like whatever we had was just this casual, meaningless thing. But then she turns around andââ he exhaled sharply. âHer actions say otherwise. She looks at me like she feels something. She reacts like she cares. But every time I get close, she shuts it down.â
Changbin snorted, rolling the ball between his palms. âSo basically, sheâs bullshitting, youâre bullshitting, and now youâre both miserable?â
Bangchan shot him a glare.
Changbin smirked. âI mean, she wonât admit she likes you, and youâre sitting here trauma-dumping on me instead of doing something about it.â
Bangchan groaned, tilting his head back against the wall. âSheâs pissed, Bin. Like, really pissed.â
âSo fix it.â
Bangchan laughed humorlessly. âYeah. Easier said than done.â
Changbin passed him the ball. âSo what now?â
Bangchan caught it, staring down at the faded lettering on the rubber. That was the question, wasnât it? Because right now, you wanted nothing to do with him.
And honestly? He deserved it.
Saturday morning. Group breakfast. Good vibes. At least, thatâs what you were aiming for.
You were mid-story, telling Felix how the auditions had gone, when the universe decided to test your patience. Again.
Changbin strolled in with Jisung, Bangchan, andâyou had to blink twice just to confirmâYeojin.
Of course. Because it wasnât enough that he lied. He had to parade it around like some kind of grand event.
âI need a fat slice of chocolate cake,â Changbin announced, dropping into his seat. âSomething sweet to cleanse the absolute trash energy in the air.â
Your eyes flicked to Yeojin, who was standing a little too comfortably next to Bangchan.Â
âYeojin, long time no see,â Hyunjin greeted, all polite and civil.
She beamed. âHyunjin! Oh my God, itâs really you!â she gushed, voice dripping with enthusiasm. You wanted to be a girlâs girl, reallyâyou did. But something about her tone made your eye twitch.
âWhoâs that?â Sohee whispered, not even bothering to be discreet.
âOh, nice to meet you,â Yeojin said, flashing a smile that felt way too rehearsed. âYeojin. Chanâs friend.â
She said it like she was accepting a damn award. The table went dead silent. Everyone shared a look.
You, however, remained completely unbothered, taking a slow sip of your strawberry milk like you had all the time in the world.
Bangchan slid into the seat across from you, throwing not-so-subtle glances in your directionâjust in case you maybe wanted to acknowledge his existence.
You didnât. Instead, you busied yourself with literally anything else. The napkins. The straw in your drink. The slow, satisfying process of ignoring him.
If he wanted your attention, heâd have to earn it.
Yeojin was annoyingly easy to get along with. Effortless charm, perfectly timed laughsâlike sheâd studied the art of socializing and graduated top of her class. And maybe that wouldnât have bothered you if you didnât feel an immediate, inexplicable urge to dislike her.
Maybe it was the way she smiled just a little too much. Like she was in on some inside joke that no one else was laughing at. Or how she leaned into Bangchan like he had his own gravitational pull, always conveniently this close to falling into his lap.
For someone who had been so desperate to explain himself last night, he looked awfully comfortable letting her cling to him now.
âSo, everyoneâs going tonight, right?â Jisung asked, drumming his fingers on the table.
Yeojin jumped on the conversation like it was an open invitation. âWhatâs tonight?â
âJisungâs DJing at a party,â Eunji answered, taking a sip of her drink.
Yeojin hummed, tilting her head in that thoughtful but not really way. âI was going to leave after lunch, but⌠I guess I can stay a little longer.â
She glanced at Bangchan like she was waiting for permission.
Too bad he wasnât paying attention. His focus was glued to his phone, fingers tapping out a message.
Your own phone buzzed in your pocket.
Bangchan: can we talk?
Your eyes flicked up, purely on instinct. And there he was. Watching you.
You frowned, pulled out your phone, read the message, and stuffed it right back in your pocket. No response.
The table blurred into background noise. Laughter, conversation, the occasional clatter of silverwareâit all melted into static. Because Bangchan was still looking. That steady, expectant stare that made your skin itch. That made your chest feel a little too tight.
Your phone buzzed again.
Bangchan: you canât ignore me forever.
Bet.
You smirked to yourself. If Bangchan thought he could tell you what to do, he had another thing coming.
Grabbing the strap of your bag, you stood up, all casual confidence, and turned to Sohee and Eunji. âIâm heading out with Hyunjin.â no further explanation. Just a statement.
Hyunjin, caught in the crossfire of whatever this was, frowned. âWaitâwhat? Since when?â
You just kept walking, tossing a grin over your shoulder. âSince right now. Just smile and act natural.â
 You made sure to take the long way around the table, passing directly in front of Bangchanânot looking at him. Not even a flicker of acknowledgment. Just air.
Hyunjin, still struggling to keep up, shot a quick glance back before leaning in. âOkay, seriously, what was that? Bangchan looked like he was about to start breathing fire.â
You flicked your hair over your shoulder, your smirk widening.
âRevenge, Hyun. Just a little harmless revenge.â
The house was packed.
Neon lights flickered wildly, splashing the room in chaotic waves of electric blue and fiery red, pulsing in sync with the bass. The air was thickâheat, sweat, cheap cologne, and the sharp sting of alcohol weaving together into something intoxicating. The floor thrummed beneath your boots, bodies moving in effortless rhythm, a silent agreement to just let go.
Jisung was at the DJ booth, throwing in ad-libs between transitions, hyping up the crowd like he was born for this. A remix dropped, shaking the walls, and the entire party roared in approval. Off-campus ragers had a way of making reality blur, like stepping into a fever dream.
Perfect.
Eunji and Sohee spotted you first, their eyes going comically wide, like theyâd just witnessed the second coming of Christ.
âJesus, look at you,â Sohee gasped, gripping your arm for dear life.
Eunji gave a solemn nod. âThis outfit should be illegal.â
You twirled, just enough to let your skirt flare out, a little reminder of why you picked it.
âDrinks first, right?â you pointed at Hyunjin, who gave you an approving nod.
You peeled away from the group, squeezing through the sweaty crowd toward a corner where a massive keg stood like a beacon of bad decisions. There were stronger drinks, but you decided to take it easyâfor now.
Then, in half a second, you felt it. Like your body already knew, like a moth drawn to a flame.
Under the pulsing red lights, he looked dangerous. A predator in slow motion, moving through the crowd with that effortless, lazy confidence that made people either run toward him or clear a path. Flashes of white and blue caught the sharp cut of his jaw, the faint sheen of sweat at his collarbone. A contrastârazor-edged and infuriatingly soft all at once.
And yet. You couldnât focus on any of that.
Because Yeojin was practically clinging to him.
Talkingâlaughing, leaning, performingâbut Bangchan barely seemed to notice. If anything, he looked somewhere else entirely. Somewhere you were. Because the second your eyes met, his focus locked in.
And he started moving. One step. Then another.
But before he could take a third, an arm slid around your waist.
Mingyu.
His touch was warm, firmâa perfectly timed lifeline. His lips brushed against your ear, voice low and deliberate. âHave I mentioned you look insane tonight?â
A slow, satisfied smile curled on your lips. Perfect.
Through the neon haze, you caught Bangchanâs reaction over Mingyuâs shoulder. Electric blue light flickered across his face like something straight out of a movie scene.
Oh, he was pissed. Not just annoyed. Not just irritated. Seething.
Jaw clenched. Shoulders tight. Eyes locked onto you with an intensity that sent a delicious shiver down your spine.
Good.
Mingyu pulled back just enough to meet your gaze. âDance with me?â
You let the question hang, stretching the moment just because you couldâfully aware of your audience. Then, with a casual flick of your fingers, you grabbed Mingyuâs wrist and turned back to your friends.
And thatâs when the remix hit.
The song of the summer. A full-blown club anthem blasted through the house, lights flashing in sync with the bass, and suddenly Eunji and Sohee were dragging you onto the dance floor. You barely had time to toss Mingyu a look before pulling him into the crowd with you.
Sohee was already wrapped around her boyfriendâs neck, hair flying as she danced like she was possessed, while Minho just laughed at her antics. Jisung was losing his mind behind the DJ booth, hyping up the party like a man on a mission.
And Bangchan? He didnât move. He just watched.
Watched as you danced. Watched as Mingyuâs hands found your waist. Watched as you threw your head back, laughing, moving with the beat like you had nothing to prove.
And under the pulsing red lights, with silver glitter catching on your cheekbones, you didnât just look good. You looked untouchable.
And he looked like a man about to start a war.
You spun around, arms draped over Mingyuâs shoulders as his hands trailed down to your waist, pulling you into the rhythm. To anyone watching, you two looked dangerously closeâevery move synced, every touch easy, like this was something more than just a party moment. But in the back of your mind, a small, annoying voice reminded you that this wasnât about Mingyu at all.
Still, too late now.
The strobe lights flashed in bursts, making everything feel like a glitch in timeâjumping, dancing, bodies moving like there was no tomorrow. You lost sight of Bangchan for a while, which was probably for the best. So, you let go. Had fun. Actually enjoyed yourself with your friends.
Until someone slammed into you, knocking the air right out of your lungs.
One second, Mingyu was right there. The next, he was gone, practically launched across the floor. âWhat theââ you barely got the words out before you saw the damage.
Changbin stood there, wide-eyed, drenched in a suspiciously pink drink, looking like he just survived a battlefield. And Mingyu? Equally soaked, equally stunned, like he was still processing what the hell just happened.
âDude, shitâsorry!â Changbin shouted, voice barely cutting through the music.
You blinked, taking in the absolute mess before turning back to him. âAre you good?â
Changbin nodded rapidly, looking between you and Mingyu like he wasnât sure whether to laugh or start running. âYeah, yeah, my bad!â
Then he turned back to Mingyu, hands up like a man pleading for his life.
Mingyu just let out a sigh, lifting the hem of his now ruined white T-shirt like he was mourning a fallen soldier. âAlright. Iâll be right back,â he said, shaking his head before disappearing into the crowd.
Meanwhile, Changbin grabbed your arm, his expression seriousâwell, as serious as someone drenched in a neon-pink drink could look. He gestured for you to follow, weaving through the bodies until you reached the foot of the stairs.
âWhat?â you asked, crossing your arms.
âCan you grab me a shirt? I left one in Jisungâs backpack.â
You took a second to assess the situation. Changbin, slightly tipsy, covered in pink, blinking at you like a lost puppy. He looked ridiculous.
With a dramatic sigh, you caved. âFine.â
âYouâre the best,â he said, clasping his hands like he was praising the heavens. âItâs in the room on the right, upstairs.â
You turned, climbing the stairs while dodging couples making out on the steps like it was some kind of kissing marathon. Once you reached the hallway, you scanned the doorsâlong corridor, a few roomsâuntil you spotted one slightly open on the right.
Alright. In and out. Quick mission.
Stepping inside, you started searching for Jisungâs bagâfirst the floor, then the bed. Nothing.
And thenâ
Movement.
From the corner of your eye, a figure emerged from behind the bed, rising like a shadow from the dark.
Your breath caught. Bangchan. Standing there. Watching you.
A black cable twirled between his fingers, slow and deliberate, his gaze unreadable under the dim glow of the hallway lights.
âWhat?â you were the first to break the silence, arms crossing instinctively. âWhat the hell are you doing here?â
Bangchan gave you a flat look, holding up the black cable like it was evidence in court. âI should be asking you that. I came to get Hanâs charger.â he raised an eyebrow, gaze sharp, like he wasnât entirely convinced.
You opened your mouth, fully prepared to deliver something scathingâbut before you could get a word out, the door swung open again.
âSorry, kids! Not opening this door until you sort yourselves out!â
You barely had time to process Changbinâs smug, drunken grin before the door slammed shut.
For half a second, you froze.
Then you launched at the door, fists pounding like you could open it through sheer rage. âChangbin, open this fucking door right now!â
No answer. Just the distant thrum of music, too muffled for anyone outside to hear you scream bloody murder.
You yanked at the handleâdefinitely locked.
With a sharp inhale, you turned, glaring daggers at Bangchan, who was just⌠standing there. Watching. Amused.
âAre you just gonna stand there? Do something!â
His lips twitched, like he was this close to laughing. âPretty sure this is your problem, not mine.â
You narrowed your eyes. âOh, so now you donât wanna get involved?â
Bangchan sighedâslow, exaggeratedâbefore strolling up to the door, resting a lazy hand on the knob, and giving it a completely useless jiggle. Then he turned back to you with a straight face.
âYeah. Itâs locked.â
You stared at him. Blinked. Then scoffed so hard you nearly choked.
âNo shit, Sherlock. Are you serious?â
Bangchan couldnât help itâhe laughed. Because you were spiraling, and honestly? It was funny as hell.
âIâll call him,â he said, still smirking.
You rolled your eyes so hard they nearly left your skull and made your way over to the double bed in the corner. âYouâve got to be kidding me,â you muttered, collapsing onto the edge like this was some Shakespearean tragedy.
Then a thought clicked, and suddenly, everything made sense.
Your head snapped up. âWaitââ you shot to your feet, eyes narrowing. âHe knows. You told him.â
Bangchan barely looked fazed. âHe kinda figured it out on his own, if that makes you feel any better.â
Which wasnât exactly a lie. Bangchan was so into you, stealing glances constantly, and Changbin wasnât stupid. The man could read a room like it was his job.
You dragged a hand down your face, exhaling sharply. âThis is a nightmare.â
Bangchan tilted his head, amused. âJesus, is it really that bad being stuck in here with me? Last time, you werenât exactly complaining.â
The second those words left his mouth, you hit him with a look so deadly he immediately shut up.
âJust get Changbin to open the damn door, Bangchan,â you said flatly, plopping back down onto the bed, dead center, legs crossed like you were settling in for a long, miserable wait.
You pulled out your phone, thumbs flying across the screen as you sent a message to Hyunjinâthe only person who knew about the whole situation. You could have asked Sohee, Eunji, or even Mingyu, but that would just open a very annoying can of worms.
And you were not in the mood for questions.
This couldnât be real. No way. The second you got out of here, Changbin was getting his ass handed to him. And Mingyu was probably already wondering where the hell youâd disappeared to. Just like Yeojin was probably searching for Bangchan.
Perfect.
âHeâs not answering,â Bangchan announced, completely unfazed. âWhich means heâs ignoring me on purpose. So, we wait.â he sat by the window like it was just another Tuesday, leaning back on his palms.
âThis is your fault.â
That earned you a scoff. âHow the hell is this my fault?â
You shot him a glare. âIf you hadnât spilled everything to him, none of this would be happening.â
Bangchan let out a dry laugh, tilting his head like you were so predictable. âRight. And if you hadnât jumped to conclusions without actually listening to meâlike you always doânone of this would be happening either.â
Oof. Direct hit. You hated when he had a point.
âI have nothing to hear from you,â you muttered, crossing your arms and staring at literally anything else in the room.
Bangchan rested his arms on his knees, watching you like he had all the time in the world. And pretending he wasnât there, yeah, that was a joke. His presence was like gravityâpulling, heavy, impossible to ignore.
Less than ten minutes passed before the anger started simmering down. Because thatâs how it always went with him. Like a fire that burned too hot, too fast.
âYou seriously thought she was my girlfriend?â
You turned, locking eyes with him. âWhat else was I supposed to think? She said it herself.â
Bangchan hummed, tapping his fingers against his knee. âSheâs not. Yeojinâs an exâfrom high school. Ancient history.â he exhaled sharply through his teeth. âSheâs just⌠a little clueless.â
âA little?â you let out a sharp laugh. âShe was wearing your clothes when I showed up at your dorm.â you rolled your eyes, but Bangchan only smiled. Because, yeah, that sounded a whole lot like jealousy.
Then something clicked. âWaitâwhat were you doing there that night?â
âNothing.â you looked away, ignoring the sudden heat crawling up your neck.
His laugh was soft, almost teasing. But the way he was looking at you? Like you were the only thing worth seeing? That was dangerous.
âCâmon. Seriously.â
You groaned, rolling your eyes, because he was so annoyingly persistent. âIt doesnât matter anymore.â
âDoesnât it?â Bangchan tilted his head, lips curving in that cocky little smirk. âI doubt that.â
âWell, I donât care,â you shot back, folding your arms in defiance.
Bangchan pushed himself off the floor, moving to sit on the edge of the bedâclose, but not too close. Still, he was big. Broad. Built like a problem. And despite the space between you, he somehow took up all of it.
Worse? He smelled stupidly good.
âWhat do you want?â you asked, bracing yourself for the answerâbecause Bangchan was stupidly honest, and you werenât sure you were ready for whatever was about to come out of his mouth.
But he didnât say a word. Just kept looking at you, pupils blown wide, gaze slow as it dragged over your face like he was trying to memorize every detail.
Then, finallyâ âWhyâd you come that night?â
You swallowed. âI went because⌠I wanted to talk. And⌠I wanted things to be okay between us.â
For a second, he just stared at you like youâd punched the air out of his lungs. Because you had gone after him. To fix things. To close the distance.
âYou wanted to?â you barely nodded before he let out a breathy laugh, shaking his head. âWell, weâre two idiots, then.â his lips curled slightly, his whole energy shifting. âBecause thatâs all I want.â
Your eyes locked, and something about the way he was looking at you made your chest tighten. He had this insane ability to make you feel completely seen, like he could pick apart every thought in your head just by watching you.
âWhy?â
Bangchan was never one to hold back, never afraid to be himselfâespecially when it came to being honest about what he wanted. And right now, he was this close to just laying it all out. Because the truth? He was ridiculously into you. More and more, every damn day.
âYouâre stubborn, and Iâm an idiot,â he muttered, lips pressing into a thin line before he let out a short laugh. The kind that made you laugh, too, before you even realized it. And honestly it pissed you off a little how easily he could do thatâswing you from one extreme to another like it was nothing.
âLook,â he sighed. âIâm just gonna be straight with you, like I always am. Iâm not playing games. I didnât mean it when I said we were nothing.â
âBut we are,â you mumbled, even though the words tasted like a lie. You werenât anything. No labels, no relationship. Just a mess of late nights and tangled sheetsâuntil things got way too complicated.
âI donât want us to be nothing,â he said, shrugging, like he was just casually throwing his cards on the table. âBecause ever since that first time, I havenât wanted anyone else.â
Your breath caught, and suddenly, the bed felt too small, the room too warm. What the hell? You hadnât expected this conversation to go there.
Bangchan? Not with anyone else? That was news. The guy was basically campus royalty when it came to hookups. Half the girls in your year had probably been in his dorm at some point.
And now he was sitting here, telling you this?
But now he was standing there, saying it out loudâno one else. Just you. And it sent your stomach into a tailspin.
âI shouldnât have given you shit for it,â you muttered, nodding like that would somehow make the awkwardness go away. âI mean, since weâre not⌠you know.â
Bangchan lifted an eyebrow, clearly amused by how flustered you were.
âOh, I know,â he said. âBut you donât get it. I donât want anyone else.â
Your pulse spiked. Too fast. Too loud. What the hell was he trying to say?
âNo, youâre justââ you let out a breathy, nervous laugh, stepping back like that would help. âYou donât know what youâre talking about.â
Bangchan didnât let you go far. His hand caught yours, warm and steady, fingers wrapping around your wrist before he pulled you closerâright between his legs.
And then his hands were on your waist, fitting there like they belonged.
Your breath hitched.
His voice, suddenly lower, smoother, like silk wrapped in heat. âI know exactly what I want.â
Your eyes met his, and damn it, he was beautiful. That kind of beauty that wasnât just about sharp jawlines and perfect featuresâit was something deeper, something that burned. The way his eyes locked onto you, glowing under the dim light. The way his expression was serious, but there was still softness lingering beneath it.
You knew what you wanted too. You just werenât ready to admit it.
Your hands moved before your mind could catch up, tracing the curve of his brow, the sharp edge of his cheekboneâslow, like you were trying to memorize him by touch. Then, without thinking, you cupped his face, thumbs brushing over his skin.
Bangchan didnât pull away. Didnât even flinch. He just leaned into your touch, like this was normal, like you did this all the time. But you didnât. Not like this.
Then he kissed the back of your hand, soft and slow, and damn it, you smiled.
âSay what you want,â he murmured.
âIâŚâ
âI donât care if Iâm your dirty little secret,â he cut in, voice rough, low, burning at the edges. âI donât care about any of it. As long as youâre mine, Iâll take whatever youâre willing to give.â
Something shifted inside youâhot, sharp, irreversible. Like a match hitting gasoline.
Bangchan tilted his head, pushing a strand of hair from your face. âWhat are you so afraid of?â his lips curled into a half-smirk. âYou hate me that much?â
You let out a breath, shaking your head. âI donât hate you.â your fingers tightened against his jaw. âNot even close.â
Bangchan pulled you in, arms locking tight around your waist, pressing you so close you could feel every breath he took against your skin. A shiver shot down your spine, anticipation curling in your stomach. You were teetering on the edge, seconds away from giving inâgiving him everything. And if he was willing to take whatever you had to offer⌠What was stopping you?
With one swift move, his hands traced up the back of your thighs, fingers pressing into the sensitive skin behind your knees, guiding you onto the bed and onto his lap. The air between you shifted, crackling, something unspoken but heavy settling in the space only you two could understand.
It was automaticâthis need, this burn. Like gravity, like the sky being blue, like the way your chemistry was always one spark away from setting the whole place on fire.
You tangled your fingers in his hair, yanking back just enough to force his eyes on you. And God, he looked wreckedâvulnerable in a way that made your stomach flip, pupils blown wide like heâd already lost the battle.
Thatâs when you kissed him.
It wasnât soft. It wasnât sweet. It was desperateâa clash of want, frustration, and every second of tension that had built between you. Like a wave crashing against the shore, wild and uncontrollable. You rocked against him, fingers tightening in his hair, barely biting back a moan when his hands gripped your ass, lifting you further into him.
Your skirt had already ridden up, but Bangchan wasnât complaining.
He knew exactly what he was doingâkissing, nipping at your skin, hitting every spot that made you gasp. But it wasnât enough. You needed more. More contact, more of him.
Your fingers found the hem of his shirt, tugging it up with shaky hands. Bangchan barely hesitated, lifting his arms, muscles flexing as he pulled the fabric over his head. The low, guttural sound that left his lips sent a shiver through youâdeep, raw, almost primal. And God, he looked unreal.
âYou want me to stop?â he murmured against your lips, voice thick with restraint.
You shook your head immediately, body betraying you with the way it trembled against him.
âI can stop,â he teased, but this time, the possibility made your stomach flip. Your eyes snapped to his, filled with something dangerously close to panic.
Stepping back, just for a second, you took him in. And no matter how many times youâd seen him like this, you never quite got used to it. All of him. Broad, sculpted shoulders, solid arms, every inch of him screaming strength. And all of that was yours.
Bangchan smirked, eyes narrowing with smug satisfaction. âYou look like you want something.â
You huffed a laugh, shoving him back. âShut up.â
But before you could move away, his hands gripped your waist, pulling you down with him. You landed against his chest with a startled yelp, his warmth pressing into you.
Then he kissed youâslow and deliberate, like he was savoring every second, every breath, as if the night stretched endless before you, mapping every inch of your lips with his own. Your laughter faded, swallowed by him.
Pinned against him, you could feel the effect you had on him, the heat of him beneath dark denim. And if there was one thing you knew, it was how to push him over the edge.
So you kissed him harder, rolling your hips against his.
His hands flew to your ass, squeezing before delivering a sharp slap that had you moaning into his mouth. That was just how it was with you twoâobscene, messy, utterly shameless. And nothing turned you on more.
Your fingers found the zipper of his jeans, finally breaking away from his lips to look down at him. Bangchan pushed up on his elbows, watching you through half-lidded eyes, his breath ragged as he fought to stay still. His fingers twitched, desperate to put an end to the torturous wait. He was so hard it was unbearableâjust seeing you like this had him on the edge.
He didnât hesitate to help, making quick work of what little fabric still separated you. And fuck, you were drenched. Just the sight of him like thisâwrecked for youâhad your whole body tightening in anticipation.
There were so many ways this could go, and you wanted them all. One night would never be enough.
Your hand wrapped around him, firm, deliberate. A shaky curse tumbled from his lips, his head tipping back as he melted into your touch. He was barely holding it together when you lifted your hips, and for a second, he thought you were going to sink down onto him. Instead, you slid against him, rolling your hips so he could feel everythingâdragging over your entrance, teasing up to your clit before sliding back down.
His hands twitched, reaching for you, aching to do something. But before he could, you leaned in, pinning his wrists down against the mattress.
He was at your mercy now. Completely helpless. And he fucking loved it.
Meanwhile, your hips kept moving, sliding over him, teasing but never giving in. The sheer size of him, the way he dragged against your clit with every slick roll of your hipsâit was maddening. You lost all sense of rhythm, chasing pleasure in short, frantic motions, needing more, always more.
Bangchan was wrecked beneath you. His breath came in ragged bursts, his chest rising and falling as he groaned through clenched teeth, letting you take what you wanted. And the sight of him like this completely undone because of you? It was enough to make your head spin.
Your wetness mixed with his pre-cum, making a mess between you, the heat of it dizzying. Another deep grunt tore from his throat, and fuckâhis orgasm was creeping up way too fast. He wasnât about to let that happen. Not yet.
Your grip on his wrists loosened, your body trembling above him, so damn closeâ
âWant me to fuck you?â the words were a rasp, low and filthy against your skin.
And God, hearing him say it like that, made you feel absolutely ruined.
You were right there, wavering on the edge, but thenâBangchanâs hands gripped your waist, flipping you with ease. Your fingers dug into his shoulders as he pulled away, standing at the edge of the bed.
For a second, frustration flared hot in your chestâheâd just ripped away a mind-numbing orgasmâbut the way he looked at you, eyes dark and full of promise, made it clear.
He wasnât done. Not even close.
With impressive speed, Bangchan yanked your panties down, leaving you in nothing but that tiny skirt. You reached for your blouse, tearing it off without a second thought. Meanwhile, he fished a condom from his pocket, standing at the foot of the bed like he owned the place.
You bit your lip, taking in the sight of himâso big, so stupidly gorgeous.
Bangchan climbed onto the bed, his strong hands wrapping around your thighs, keeping them pressed together. His voice was low, commanding. "Spread your legs."
Your breath hitched, but you obeyed, parting them slowly. The skirt inched higher, higher, until it was bunched up around your waist.
He muttered something under his breath, gaze locked on how wet you wereâfor him. Almost dripping. You bit your lip, the weight of the moment thick in the air. "Please..."
Bangchan leaned in, kissing your stomach, then up to your chest. One arm braced against the bed, the other gripping himself as he brushed his cock against your cunt. The slow drag, the teasing, was cruel, and he knew it. He was watching you unravelâyour body torn between frustration and aching need.
You were this close to grabbing him, to taking what you needed, but before you could, he caught your wrists in one hand, pinning them down.
"I'll let you..." his voice was a husky whisper, dark and full of promise. He kept that agonizing friction going, dragging against you, just enough to drive you insane. "But you have to tell me."
You were burning up, mind hazy, barely able to process his words. "Bangchan," you tried for something firm, but the second the tip of his cock rubbed against your clitâjust the right mix of pleasure and frustrationâa strangled moan slipped out instead.
"Tell me what you want, and it's yours," he murmured against your lips, smug as ever.
Your gaze met his, dark and needy. He picked up the pace, teasing you mercilesslyâonly to stop again. You let out a desperate whimper. This was torture.
"Just say it, love."
Your fingers dug into his shoulders, frustration bubbling over. "Your ego is too big."
Bangchan chuckled against your skin, stealing a quick kiss. "You know what else is big?"
You hooked a leg around his waist, pulling him in close. His breath caught, and for a second, he just looked at youâlips parted, eyes searching yours, ready to dive in.
"Guess you'll have to show me."
And Bangchan never turned down a challenge.
The moment he let you go, he was all actionârolling on the condom with practiced ease before yanking you flush against him. "Gonna fuck you so good you'll take it all back."
Then he slammed into you, deep, all at once, knocking the breath from your lungs. Stars burst behind your eyelids. Fuck, youâd never get used to the stretch. And neither would he, not with how tight you clenched around him, inch by inch.
Bangchan started slow, deliberate, watching every little reaction like he was committing it to memory.
"More," you gasped, nails dragging down his back.
And who was he to deny you?
A low, guttural curse slipped from his lips as he gripped the back of your leg, struggling to keep himself in check. But even he was failing. That dark, insatiable hunger inside him wanted to ruin you, break you apart piece by piece, and devour whatever was left.
"Yeah..." his hand found the back of your neck, and in one brutal motion, he buried himself to the hilt. Your eyes rolled back as a cry of pure pleasure ripped from your throat. "Fuck."
He did it again. And again. Testing you. Seeing just how much you could take. And then restraint snappedâhis rhythm shifted from slow, deliberate thrusts to deep, relentless strokes that had you gasping, moaning, melting beneath him.
Your lungs fought for air, your body wrecked by the force of him. A tangled mess of curses and broken sounds spilled from your lips.
Bangchan leaned down, catching your mouth in a searing kiss, fucking you through every ragged breath. The filthy, desperate moans leaving his lips had you clinging to him, desperate to consume every last one.
"Bangchanâmy God!" your fingers dug into his back like an anchor, but you were weightless, floating, dissolving into nothing.
You tried to pull him closer, but he straightened, still gripping your throat, keeping you right where he wanted.
"Say it." his thrusts were brutal, hitting so deep you thought youâd break apart. Faster. Harder. You cried out, a mess of pleasure and desperation, dizzy on the edge of something devastating."Tell meâ you want me? Wanna cum on my cock?"
Your vision blurred, the sheer intensity forcing a tear to the corner of your eye. It was too much, but not enough, never enough.
"I want you," you choked out, voice ragged, shaking. "Fuckâ" you barely finished the sentence before your body gave in, collapsing into pure, obliterating pleasure.
Bangchan caught your bottom lip between his teeth, sucking on it before murmuring against your mouth, âGood girl.â
Then his hand slipped between your bodies, finding your clit as he thrust into you, his fingers moving in tandem with his strokes. And that was it. The tipping point. Your back arched, but he pressed a firm hand to your stomach, pinning you down as pleasure overtook you. The last few thrusts sent you spiraling, your body clenching tight around him as you came hard, waves crashing over you.
Bangchan cursed under his breath, his grip tightening as his own release hit him like a freight train. "Fuck, fuck, fuckâ" his whole body tensed, abs flexing as he emptied himself, barely managing to keep from collapsing on top of you.
Your chest rose and fell in sync with his, both of you wrecked, tangled, completely undone. He was so close, his forehead pressing against yours, damp hair sticking to his skin. And just like that, you kissed himâslow, deep, something unspoken passing between you. A shift.
Something had changed, and you both felt it.
"We need to stop doing this," you muttered against his lips.
Bangchan pulled back slightly, his brows knitting together. "What...?"
"Having sex in strangersâ rooms," you teased, the corner of your mouth quirking up. "Bad habit."
Relief flickered across his face before it was replaced by something far more dangerous. "Then letâs go to mine," he said smoothly, his voice thick with intent. "Iâm not done with you."
You just laughed, shaking your head as you reached for your clothes. No argument, no teasing comebackâjust that breathless, satisfied chuckle that told him you were just as wrecked as he was. And God, he admired you. The way you moved, the way you carried herself, as if what just happened was the most natural thing in the world. Like you hadnât just left him completely undone.
He leaned back against the bed, watching as you slipped your blouse on, covering up inch by inch what he had just memorized with his hands, his lips, his tongue. A damn shame.
âI could go like this all night,â he murmured, voice thick with lust. His eyes dragged over you, slow and deliberate. âIâd never get tired of you.â
You paused for half a second, then, with a smirk, you glanced at him over your shoulder.
âSweet talk wonât get you another round.â
He grinned, unbothered. âWho said I was asking?â
"Alright, lover boy," you sighed, straightening your skirt. "Call Changbin so we can get out of here before we end up adding âbreaking and enteringâ to our list of bad decisions."
But Bangchan just huffed out a laugh, reaching into his back pocket. You frowned, watching as he pulled out something small, something metallicâ
And then he dangled a tiny key in front of your face.
Your breath caught. "You absoluteâ"
"Had the key the whole time?" he finished for you, grinning like the unapologetic menace he was.
You just stared at him, utterly gagged. "Are you telling me we couldâve left at any timeâand you let me believe we were locked in here?!"
Bangchan had the audacity to laugh, and before you could get a single word of protest out, he grabbed your wrist, yanking you against him and crashing his lips onto yours. You let him. You melted into it, kissed him back like you werenât even a little mad.
When he finally pulled away, his breath ghosted over your lips as he murmured, "Iâm sorry, baby." But he was still laughing. Not sorry at all.
"No, youâre not," you shot back, tryingâand failingâto sound pissed.
"Youâre right," he admitted without shame, pressing another kiss to your mouth, slower this time, smug and indulgent. "But, in my defense⌠I knew you wanted me just as bad as I wanted you."
You narrowed your eyes, heat licking at your spine becauseâdamn itâhe wasnât wrong.
Cocky bastard.
Still, you snatched the key from his fingers and shoved him toward the door. "Move before I leave your ass locked in here and tell everyone you cried for help."
Bangchan just smirked, twisting the doorknob with infuriating ease. "Jokeâs on youâIâd make it sound sexy."
Bangchan slipped out first, leaving you alone in the dimly lit bedroom, the air still thick with everything that just happened. You took a breath, running a hand through your hair and letting out a low, incredulous laugh. Insane. That was the only word for it. Completely, absolutely, batshit insane.
You took your time freshening up before heading downstairs, blending back into the party like nothing happenedâlike your whole world hadnât just been flipped on its head by a cocky bastard with unfairly good hands.
You found the drinks and poured yourself a beer, the cold liquid grounding you, when Hyunjin appeared at your side, eyeing you suspiciously.
âMingyu was looking for you,â he said, tilting his head. âFor a while. Then he gave up and left.â
You took a slow sip of your beer, carefully masking any reaction. âHuh. Tragic.â
Hyunjin squinted. âOkay, where the hell have you been?â
You shot him an easy smirk. âIn the bathroom, Hyunjin. I have bodily functions like every other human being.â
His eyes narrowed further. âFor that long?â
âMaybe I got lost,â you said with a shrug, taking another sip. âOr maybe I was reevaluating all my life choices.â
Hyunjin was still staring at you, unconvinced. âYou were with someone.â
You huffed. âStop being nosy and dance with me.â
Before he could pry any further, you grabbed his wrist and pulled him onto the dance floor. The bass thumped through your veins as you moved to the beat, thankful for the temporary distraction. But Hyunjin was sharpâtoo sharp. His gaze flickered to something over your shoulder, and then his lips parted in realization.
You didnât have to turn around to know. You felt it.
Bangchan was across the room, talking to Changbin and Seungmin like he hadnât just been inside you not too long ago. But the way he looked at youâsteady, knowing, like he was still feeling every second of what just happenedâHyunjin caught it immediately.
âNo way.â he gaped at you. âYou didnât.â
You met his stare, unfazed. âI did.â
Hyunjin groaned, rubbing his face like this was his personal crisis. âYou two are so fucking messy.â
You just laughed, finishing the rest of your beer. âAnd yet, Iâm having a great time.â
A while later, when you finally decided youâd had enough social interaction for one night, you nudged Hyunjin. âIâm heading out.â
He nodded. âCool, Iâll get you an Uber. Iâll go with Lix.â
Before you could even reach for your phone, a familiar voice interrupted. âNo need.â
Bangchan. Standing way too close, hands in his pockets, looking like the devil who got exactly what he wanted.
âIâm driving back,â he said smoothly. âIâll take you.â
Your mouth opened, but Hyunjinâs eyebrow was already rising, looking between the two of you like he had front-row seats to a drama he needed to see play out.
âI can go alone,â you said, keeping your voice level.
Bangchan smirked. âI insist.â
You sighed, side-eyeing Hyunjin. His expression was nothing short of feral with interest.
âFine,â you muttered. âBut no funny business.â
Bangchan only chuckled, walking off first. You lingered behind for a few beats before following, slipping out quietly, only Hyunjin watching your exit with a smug, entertained look.
He was never letting you live this down.
The night air was sharp against your flushed skin, a cruel contrast to the heat still licking at your nerves. Bangchan stood by his carâa sleek, black beauty that suited him too well. Under the dim glow of the streetlights, he looked almost unreal, all sharp lines and confidence as he pulled the passenger door open, his gaze never leaving yours.
You hesitated. Not because you didnât want to get in. But because you knewâthe second you did, thereâd be no turning back from whatever the hell this was becoming.
Bangchan saw right through you. He always did.
His voice dipped low, rough with amusement. âGet in, baby. Or Iâll put you in myself.â
Your stomach flipped. You rolled your eyes, masking the way his words sent a pulse of heat straight through you. âSuch a gentleman,â you muttered, but your lips twitched, betraying you.
Still, you slid into the seat, the cool leather kissing your bare thighs. He followed, reaching overâcloser, closerâuntil his fingers brushed the seatbelt, tugging it across you.
And suddenly, the air inside the car felt thick. Heavy.
His breath ghosted over your collarbone, close enough that his lips couldâve skimmed your skin if you so much as moved. You could feel the warmth of him, the way his fingers lingered just a second too long before clicking the buckle into place.
Your throat went dry.
You cleared it quickly, forcing out somethingâanythingâto cut through the tension threatening to swallow you whole. âIâm exhausted.â
He pulled back just enough to smirk. âSure you are.â
The car hummed to life, but your brain? It was shot to hell.
Because now you had to sit there and endure the sight of him driving one-handed, muscles flexing, veins peeking through his skin like temptation itself. It was obscene, the way he handled the carâlike he did everything else. With control. With ease.
You swallowed, shifting in your seat, pressing your legs together.
Bangchan noticed. Of course, he did.
His smirk deepened, eyes flicking toward you before drifting back to the road. âSomething wrong?â
âNothing,â you lied, voice far too even to be convincing.
He made a sound, low in his throat, clearly unconvinced. Then, like he lived to ruin you, his hand dropped to your thighâwarm, steady, fingers pressing just enough to make you feel it.
Your breath hitched. âBangchan.â
He leaned in slightly, just enough to let you catch the edge of his scentâclean, intoxicating, laced with something that made your pulse stutter. His thumb stroked slow, lazy circles against your skin.
âYouâre always ready for me, arenât you?â his voice was nothing but a taunt, silk-wrapped sin.
A shiver licked down your spine. The worst part? He was right. And he fucking knew it.
His fingers crept higher, brushing against the inside of your thigh, deliberate and slow. âI could fuck you right here,â he murmured, his breath feather-light against your ear. âNo one would see. No one would know.â
Your body responded before your brain did, every nerve alight, screaming at you to let this happen.
But you had to be smart. For once.
With every ounce of restraint you had left, you grabbed his wrist, halting his movements before they ruined you completely. âI have to go.â
For a moment, he just looked at you, eyes dark, unreadable. Then, his lips curledânot in disappointment, but something far more dangerous.
âFine.â
But before you could breathe, before you could move, he reached for you, tilting your chin up with maddening ease. His gaze locked onto yours, deep and knowing, before his tongue swept over your bottom lip, slow, deliberate, claiming.
Then he kissed you. Deep. Slow. Devastating.
By the time he pulled away, you were wrecked. Breathless.
âGoodnight, baby,â he murmured, unlocking the door like he hadnât just unraveled you in a single move.
You barely remembered getting out, legs weaker than they had any right to be. As you walked back to your dorm, dazed and burning, one thought rattled through your skull like a warning youâd never heed:
â i can't parallel park, but i know all the lyrics to 'driver's license' by olivia rodrigo now. â
PAIRING ⸠kwon soonyoung x fem!reader
GENRES ⸠fluff, humor, smut, strangers to lovers au, college au
WARNINGS ⸠profanity, weed consumption, mc has the worst luck imaginable, soonyoung is down horrendous, there is a minor car crash, very minor description of blood, hurt/comfort, almost car sex, unprotected sex (wrap before you tap), grinding, oral (fem. receiving), praise, lots of teasing, overstimulation, pet names (both sexy and unsexy), friend group shenanigans
SUMMARY ⸠you've finally passed your written test and gotten your permit after six failed attempts. eager to get your license while attempting to avoid overpriced driving lessons, you enlist the help of kwon soonyoung, who only requires a STIIZY pod as payment.
PLAYLIST ⸠new romantics by taylor swift ⢠see you again by tyler, the creator, kali uchisÂ
WORD COUNT ⸠16,834 words
AUTHORâS NOTE ⸠this is representation for all the girlies out there who can't drive. not me but
ONE OF THE MOST COMMON STEREOTYPES PERPETUATED AGAINST WOMEN WAS THAT THEY WERE DEEMED TERRIBLE DRIVERS.Â
That, or they just flat-out couldnât drive to save their lives.Â
This sexist notion dated back to when the automobile was created, when driving was physically demanding work and men insisted they handled operating the vehicles themselves. Now, though, plenty of women drove just fine, but misogyny was the only thing keeping the stereotype relevant.Â
After all, the only reason why women were considered âbad driversâ was because a man decided they were.
Screw all the women who revolutionized the automobile industry, right? Despite them being highly discouraged to take on the labor required of men, it was Bertha Benz who drove the furthest in a motorized carriage than anyone else. It was Anne French who was the first woman to receive a driverâs license. It was Marget Wilcox who invented the car heater, Mary Anderson who created windshield wipers, and Hedy Lamar who designed the wireless transmission technology that made the innovation of the GPS possible.
No matter how high that glass ceiling was, even if a woman demolished and obliterated it to pieces, there would always be a man out there who would push her right back down.Â
Unfortunately, you were nowhere near smashing that glass ceiling because you had failed your permit test six times.Â
Yes, it was embarrassing, but you were determined to get your license. At your age, it was getting ridiculous that you had consistently failed your permit test this many times. Plus, you were getting tired of asking all of your friends for rides. You envisioned picking them up in your new car with your shiny new license, grinning smugly at the shocked looks on their faces.
âI donât think God wants you on the road,â Wen Junhui, your best friend since middle school, said as he dropped you off at the DMV. âIf you fail a seventh time, I would personally just use public transportation for the rest of my life.âÂ
âIf a sixteen-year-old can pass it without studying, then I can pass it,â you insisted. âPlus, I read the entire manual last night.â
âYeah, except the sixteen-year-old passed it on their first or second try, and this is your seventh.âÂ
âWell, seventh timeâs the charm, right?âÂ
âRight,â he replied, doubtful. He stopped the car in front of the DMV to let you out. âWell, good luck. Iâm gonna go get gas and Iâll come back for you.â
âThanks, Jun!â you chirped. âI swear Iâll pass it this time.â
âSure.â
âHave some faith in me, please.â
When Junhui drove away, you steeled your nerves to mentally prepare yourselfânot for the test but for interacting with the DMV employees. You werenât a fan of being verbally abused by them, especially after having them roll their eyes at you the last six times you had to tell them you failed.Â
But today would be different.Â
Thankfully, the DMV wasnât too busy today. You only had to wait twenty minutes until they called your number. After handing them the proper paperwork, you were directed to the computers to take the permit test.Â
Since you were an adult, you only needed to get 30 questions correct out of 36. You had learned your lesson by now, so you actually studied the handbook this time. It took a while to admit to yourself that you werenât blessed with common sense.Â
First question. Wrong.Â
Second question. Wrong.Â
Third question. Wrong.Â
What was happening?
By the time you had gotten five questions wrong in a row, your hands were shaking. The pressure started to set back in, and you were terrified about failing this exam a seventh time. Junhui would be so disappointed if you told him you failed again.Â
You felt the back of your shirt cling to your skin once the sixth question was incorrect. This was ridiculous; you had studied, but these questions were strangely specific. It was like someone at the DMV had it out for you.Â
Maybe Junhui was right. Maybe God didnât want you on the road.Â
You felt like your brain had entered auto-pilot to protect yourself from the discouraging loss of your permit yet again. You clicked through the rest of the questions mindlessly, hardly thinking about anything untilâÂ
You passed!Â
The white screen flashed in your face for about a minute before you could register it properly. All you could do was blink and stare until you pinched your wrist to make sure you werenât seeing things.Â
Had you really gotten the rest of the 30 questions right after your consecutive failed attempts? You were so worked up over the six you missed that the rest felt like a blur. Maybe the problem was that you had been overthinking the test this entire time.Â
âI did it,â you breathed out to the woman at the counter, still in disbelief. âI passed.âÂ
âCongratulations,â she replied with little enthusiasm. She turned to grab papers from her printer, stapled them together, and handed you your brand new permit. âHave a nice day now.âÂ
âThank you so much,â you replied, slightly distracted as you inspected your learnerâs permit with wide eyes.
You had been waiting for this day for so long, and here you were, holding the permit you had spent years trying to obtain. You could only imagine how thrilled your parents and friends would be once they found out.Â
Speaking of friends, when you checked your phone, you saw that Junhui had texted you five minutes ago that he was parked outside. He probably expected you to walk out with a gloomy expression and slumped shoulders, but you had a skip in your step this time. You finally had good news for your best friend.Â
âJun!â you yelled before you even opened the door to the passengerâs seat. âJun, Jun, Jun, Jun!â
âItâs okay, Y/N,â he said sympathetically, but something about his automatic response definitely felt practiced, âyouâll get it next time.â
âNo, Jun, I passed!â
His eyes went wide. âYou did?!âÂ
âI did!â You squealed and practically jumped into the seat. Sinking back, a wide grin stretched across your face. âI finally did it.âÂ
âYo, congrats.â Junhui grinned. âI guess the seventh time really is the charm, huh?â He started his car to pull out of the parking lot. âWell, now you just have to pass the driving test.âÂ
Your face fell.
You had been thinking about the permit test for so long that you forgot there was an actual driving component, too.Â
First of all, you had never driven a vehicle in your life, not even illegally with friends. Second of all, you had terrible depth perception, which was probably not a great flaw to have if you wanted to drive. Thirdly, everything you prepared for the permit test had completely ejected from your brain. Your road sense was back to utterly clueless.Â
âIâm gonna fail,â you said, defeated. âJesus Christ, Jun, I didnât even think about the actual driving test!â
âRelax, drivingâs easy once you get the hang of it,â he replied. âWhat you should really be worrying about is how expensive those lessons are.âÂ
âHow much are they?âÂ
âUh, like, close to a few hundred.âÂ
âTotal?âÂ
âNo, per lesson.âÂ
âPer lesson?!â you cried. âJust for someone to tell me where to turn and brake? I canât afford that!âÂ
âIâm guessing most of it is because theyâre willingly sitting in a car with someone who doesnât know shit about driving,â he explained, âbut, yeah, itâs a crazy price. You do need to get that license before your permit expires, though, and you should probably get it done while youâre still here for college so you donât run over the elementary schoolers back home.âÂ
You buried your face in your hands and let out a loud groan. âHow am I gonna dish out hundreds of dollars? I donât have that kind of money to spend when I have rent to pay off.âÂ
The corner of Junhuiâs mouth lifted, more so exasperated than amused when he said, âI think I might know a guy.âÂ
Kwon Soonyoung.Â
Junhui sent you his number after he dropped you off at your apartment. Apparently, Soonyoung was one of his good friends who also happened to have a side gig where he gave out driving lessons at a discounted price. Of course, the downside was that Soonyoung wasnât exactly certified to teach people how to drive, but he was allegedly a good driver.
His lessons were normally for high schoolers, and he charged their parents around a hundred. For adults over the age of 21, though, he had a special offer that you couldnât resist.Â
You texted him to ask if he had any open spots for you. He took a few days to reply, but you eventually got a two-hour slot for the next week. You werenât sure how effective his lessons would be, but you figured you would give it a shot since he was your age and giving out classes for cheap.Â
When the day of your lessons rolled around, you were slightly anxious while you were waiting for him to arrive. You needed Junhui to reassure you for hours last night, promising that no, Soonyoung was not going to kidnap and murder you. He was a student at your university, actually, and he was a public health major who never had a murderous thought in his life.
soonyoung (driving instructor): iâm outside your houseÂ
Okay, if he wasnât a murderer, then the least he could do was not text you like one. Â
After replying with an omw that autocorrected to On my way! and left you feeling very distressed that your communication sounded overly-enthusiastic, you worked up the courage to walk outside to his Honda Accord.Â
âHi,â you greeted shyly when you opened the door. âYouâre Soonyoung, right?âÂ
Honestly, you didnât care if he was Soonyoung or not. The man sitting in the driverâs seat was probably one of the most attractive people you had ever laid eyes on. Even if he wasnât Kwon Soonyoung, you would happily let him kidnap you. Maybe youâd even blush a little because he picked you of all people to kidnap.Â
He turned to look at you, seeming a little surprised that you opened the door but smiling nevertheless. âYeah, thatâs me. Youâre Y/N?âÂ
When you nodded, he got out of the driverâs seat and motioned for you to take it. You skirted around the car to sit inside while Soonyoung took the passengerâs seat.Â
You also got a glance of his off-brand, beige Fear of God Essentials sweater that read M.I.L.F. Hunter instead. Classy.Â
âSo, you came to me because you didnât wanna give up your semesterâs worth of college tuition for driving lessons,â Soonyoung said with an overwhelming air of confidence.Â
âYeah, pretty much.â You huffed. âHere, I heard this was your payment.â
You handed him a paper bag, not bothering to take out the receipt from the dispensary. Inside was the King Louis XIII STIIZY pod. One gram.Â
âAh, good. You know your stuff.âÂ
Soonyoung hummed as he examined the box, and you were just wondering when he would get to business and start showing you the controls in his car. You were slightly overwhelmed by his impressively relaxed demeanor. Maybe it would have been better if you settled for an uptight woman in her sixties. Pretty boys were always trouble.Â
âYou made the right choice coming to me. Iâm a much better driver than those hags from the driving schools around here,â he continued. It was like he could read your mind; it was almost terrifying. âPlus, way less likely that Iâll get a heart attack in the passengerâs seat.âÂ
He was a total weirdo, but he was hot, so you supposed it canceled out in some obscure, mathematical sense.Â
âThatâs⌠good to hear, I think,â you replied. âSo, are you, like, good at this?â
âAre you kidding? Iâm basically the Lebron of driving.â
After spending about thirty minutes explaining all of the controlsâfrom hand signals, to the dashboard, to the indicatorâSoonyoung decided it was time for you to start driving on your own. You didnât expect to move this quickly; actually, you didnât think youâd even start driving until your second lesson. Thankfully, you gathered most of what Soonyoung had taught you, so you mustered up the courage to press your foot on the brakes and move the gear shift into drive.Â
You looked over at Soonyoung expectantly, waiting for him to give you the green light to start driving. The boy only raised a brow at you, wondering why you hadnât started driving yet.Â
âToday would be nice,â he remarked.
âUh, should I start now?â
âSorry, I donât have a starting pistol for you or anything.â He made a finger gun with his hand and pretended to fire. âOn your mark, get setââ
âOkay, going,â you replied quickly, flushing with embarrassment. You pressed down on the accelerator and gasped as the car lurched forward. âSorry!â
âSlowly!â Soonyoung cried out, holding onto the âoh shitâ handle, which you found highly unnecessary and felt somewhat offended about. âPress down slowlyâgentle.â
The next hour of your lessons was a learning curve, to say the least. In your defense, it was your very first time driving, so you didnât know you were actually supposed to look behind you before you switched lanes. Although Soonyoung kept reminding you, his instructions kept slipping your mind because you were focusing on several things at once.Â
You sucked.
You were probably honked at around eight times and flipped off twice. It was a humbling experience, really. There was only so much a DMV victim could take, so you eventually had to pull over and try not to cry while Soonyoung consoled you.Â
âCâmon, you probably didnât even do anything wrong. Itâs just their road rage,â he said, trying to duck his head to get a better look at you while you had your hands covering your face. âPlus, all those assholes were driving way over the speed limit. You were the responsible one back there.â
You sniffled, sucking in a shuddering breath before you gathered your composure. It wasnât like you to be so vulnerable in front of a stranger like this, but it was probably the nerves of your first time driving coupled with the nerves of driving (and potentially damaging) someone elseâs car.Â
âYouâre right.â You wiped at your damp cheek. âFuck them. They couldnât pass a driving test if they tried.â
âWell, technically, they already have.âÂ
âNot helping.â
He smirked. âAre you good to keep driving? Or do you wanna wrap this session up for today?âÂ
âLetâs keep going.â You set the car in drive again, but you looked over at Soonyoung before you did anything else. âThanks, by the way. Iâm guessing most of your students donât usually pull over to cry during their lesson.âÂ
He shrugged. âWouldnât say itâs happened before, but itâs not a bad thing.â
It was a good thing that you were able to hide your blush from Soonyoung. With the clearly embarrassing impression you were making on him, it would have been mortifying if he found out that he was also making you flustered.Â
For the next thirty minutes, you slowly started to get more comfortable behind the wheel. Soonyoung was thankfully not overbearing as most instructors normally were, so you didnât end up flinching every time he spoke.Â
He made light conversation to make you feel at ease, which you appreciated greatly. At first, you just nodded or hummed in response, as you were too afraid to do anything but stare at the road ahead, but you eventually steeled your nerves and replied with actual words. Soonyoung was a natural conversationalist, so you didnât have to worry about your awkward pauses or stumbling over your words. He led the conversation, sharing random tidbits of his life that you wouldnât expect to hear from someone the first time you met them.Â
Everything seemed to be going perfectly normal until Soonyoung started queuing songs to play.Â
The problem wasnât the music. The problem was that Soonyoung had stopped teaching you to drive, allowing you to fend for your life while he sat back and relaxed. You werenât sure if normal people were able to loosen up so easily while being driven by a complete amateur.Â
Soonyoung mustâve been from a different planet, you decided. Some planet out there that deemed him the Lebron of driving.Â
âUh,â you started, âarenât you gonna tell me where to go?âÂ
Soonyoung opened his mouth, as if he was going to ask what you meant, but then his demeanor completely shifted.Â
âPull over to the curb,â he instructed, ânow.â
âWhat?â Your pulse raced, and you were scared that you had fucked up somehow. You checked your mirrors to make sure you hadnât cut anyone off or anything, but there was no one behind you. Swallowing thickly, you pulled over to the curb as best as you could and parked the car, shooting your driving instructor a nervous glance. âDid I do something wrââ
âWait, wait, wait,â Soonyoung whispered, silencing you with a wave of his hand. âThis is the best part.â
Your jaw clenched as Olivia Rodrigoâs vocals were drowned out by Soonyoungâs off-key singing. This was why he wanted you to pull over?Â
âI knew we werenât perfect but Iâve never felt this way for no one!â he belted out. âCâmon, sing with meâoh, and I just canât imagine how you could be so okay now that Iâm gone!â
You folded your arms across your chest. With a reluctant sigh, you gave in and started singing along with Soonyoung.Â
You werenât exactly ready for your driving test, but after two more lessons with Soonyoung, you felt more confident about being on the road. Sure, you almost ran over a pedestrian once and drove on the wrong side of the road the other day, but at least you were capable of handling a vehicle mostly by yourself.Â
There were times where you wondered if your driving lessons would be more productive with a proper instructor, not Soonyoung. He surely knew how to drive (save for when he went over the speed limit and only slowed down when he saw a cop car), but he was more focused on messing around instead of actually teaching you. You were pretty sure that he saved his proper instruction for high school students with parents, and you were just someone he liked to mess around with.Â
That didnât stop you from scheduling another lesson with him, though. It was going to be another trip to the dispensary for you.
âHowâre the driving lessons going?â Junhui asked, still nose-deep in his anatomy textbook.Â
The two of you were preparing for your upcoming midterms in a study room, but all you could think about was the little notification on your phone screen telling you that Soonyoung requested to follow you on Instagram. How long were you supposed to wait until you accepted his request? Would it be weird if you followed him back right away?
âI canât parallel park, but I know all the lyrics to âDriverâs Licenseâ by Olivia Rodrigo now,â you answered. âIâve also been honked at thirteen times.â
You counted. Mostly because each honk kept you up at night, staring up at your popcorn ceiling, wondering why everyone (a driver who probably didnât even remember your face) hated you.Â
âAh,â Junhui mused, smiling a little to himself, âso itâs going well.âÂ
âI wouldnât say that,â you mumbled. âBut heâs nice. He doesnât make me feel like crying. I think my dad would make me cry.â
Your phone buzzed while Junhui started going off on a tangent about how your dad was, indeed, a scary man. (There was an incident during parentâs weekend in freshman year where your father walked into your dorm room to see Junhui sitting on your bed. Completely misunderstanding the situation, your poor friend got lectured for almost an hour.) Soonyoungâs contact name flashed across your screen, and you were itching to read his text.Â
Once you and Junhui settled back into studying, you turned on your phone to check your messages.
soonyoung (driving instructor): i see you in the first floor study room
soonyoung (driving instructor): come to the second floor study room for a good time
Terrifying. But you were intrigued.Â
After excusing yourself for a moment, making some lame excuse about needing to use the bathroom, you slipped out of your study room to head upstairs. You realized you had never actually seen Soonyoung on campus before, so a strange feeling of excitement consumed you, making your body feel light and your chest feel giddy.Â
Outside one of the study rooms, you heard echoes of laughter and conversation, which made you feel instantly nervous. You were invited, though, so you steeled your nerves and opened the door cautiously.Â
âHi,â you greeted quietly, glancing over at the three strangers before your eyes landed on Soonyoung, who grinned once he saw you.Â
The four of them werenât exactly studying. Two of them were fiddling with the flatscreen fixed to the wall, trying to connect a Nintendo Switch to it; one of them was sliding joy-cons into controllers; and Soonyoung, who had his legs kicked up on the table previously, was standing up to walk over to you.Â
âYou came!â His tone made it seem like he was doubtful that youâd actually show up, so you were glad to prove him wrong. âOh, yeah, this is Seungcheol and Mingyuââhe gestured toward the two who were setting up the TV, and then he pointed at the guy with the joy-consââand this is Seungkwan.â
âHey,â the three of them chorused in broken unison.Â
âWanna play Smash Bros with us?â Soonyoung asked. âPerchance.â
âYou canât just say âperchance,â dude,â one of the guys setting up the TV said.Â
âI think itâs applicable, Mingyu,â the other guy said, whom you now deduced was Seungcheol. âConceivably.â
âThereâs no reason for either of you to use the words âperchanceâ or âconceivablyâ at all,â Seungkwan chimed in.Â
âIgnore them,â Soonyoung said, holding the door open wider for you before you even gave him an answer. âTheyâre just idiots.âÂ
âYouâre the biggest idiot here!â Seungcheol protested. He turned to you and explained, âHeâs, like, the final boss idiot.âÂ
Mingyu snickered. âFinal idiot.â
You found yourself giggling a little, distracted by their banter as you walked inside the room and sat down in one of the empty chairs. Soonyoung slid into the one next to you, even though he was sitting next to Seungkwan earlier. You were glad that none of his friends made you feel like your presence was strange or unwelcome, but you still couldnât help but feel awkward.Â
While Soonyoung was asking Seungcheol if he had finished connecting his Switch to the TV, you pulled out your phone to text Junhui.Â
y/n: iâm playing smash bros??? with soonyoung on the second floor
y/n: wanna join?
jun: my anatomy midterm is in 3 days, 2 hours, and 26 minutes and all i know rn is that tissues are to wipe my tears after i fail this exam, negative feedback is all im getting back from my professor, and brain cells r what im deficient in Â
y/n: ok damn iâll take that as a no
jun: iâll be in here for the next 3 days whenever u decide to come backÂ
y/n: itâll take an hour tops
y/n: pls donât camp here for 3 whole daysÂ
âJunâs not coming,â you announced.Â
You heard a chorus of groans.Â
Great. They were all Wen Junhui fanboys.Â
After Mingyu and Seungcheol finished setting up the Nintendo Switch, you watched Soonyoung and Seungkwan play the first match. Seungkwan chose Villager (which was sort of fitting for him, actually) and Soonyoung chose Donkey Kong. You honestly had no idea how Smash Bros worked, so you were completely lost while you watched their characters fly around and knock each other off the platform.Â
Soonyoung was screaming at one point, threatening Seungkwan with several promises to knock him out, which never happened. Seungkwan, taking a calmer approach, focused on using several commands while Soonyoung was already jumping out of his chair and on the floor. Mingyu and Seungcheol were on the sidelines, yelling out strategies for them at random and laughing occasionally.Â
The match ended with Seungkwan being victorious. Soonyoung had gotten so riled up during the game, but he took his defeat like a champ, congratulating his friend and laughing off his loss.Â
You were just amused at how quickly he switched up.Â
âYou want a turn?â Soonyoung asked you, handing you his controller.Â
You hesitated. âUh, Iâm not really good at these kinds of games.â
âIâll help you.â
You were up against Mingyu. He was a formidable opponent at first glance, but you hoped he wasnât as competitive as the others. Maybe he would show you mercy because it was your first time playing.Â
You held the controller with stiffly-bent arms, holding it up like you were reading a map. Soonyoung didnât laugh at you, to your relief, but he gently pushed your hands down and showed you what all of the controls were.Â
You chose the pink blob named Kirby. You werenât a gamer by any means, so you had no idea what purpose the pink blob served other than being cute. No one judged you for your selection, though, which you assumed was a good sign.Â
âDonât go easy on me,â you mumbled to Mingyu, who grinned in response.Â
âWasnât planning on it.â
Your heart raced when the countdown started. It felt like the longest three seconds of your life, and you were starting to regret choosing Kirby, who looked harmless in comparison to Mingyuâs character: Samus. You kept telling yourself that it was okay if you lost; you knew how to handle failure since you were pretty bad at virtually everything.Â
Soonyoung was cheering for your victory as soon as the match started. He was an absolute angel for doing so, but you were afraid you were going to disappoint him.Â
In Mingyuâs defense, you did tell him not to go easy on you. Unfortunately, the guy really wasnât holding back at all. In the blink of an eye, you were already astral projecting off the screen.Â
âOh,â was all you could say.Â
Maybe you should have swallowed down your pride and asked Mingyu to go easy on you.
Seungcheol playfully punched his friendâs shoulder. âCâmon, dude, itâs her first time.â
âYeah, whyâre you being a dick?â Seungkwan joined in, seeming more excited over having an excuse to target Mingyu than to actually defend you.
âShe told me not to go easy on her!â he exclaimed, but no one allowed the poor boy to stand up for himself. With a pout, he turned to you and said, âIâm sorry.â
âNo, donât apologize.â You laughed. âIâm just bad at this.â
âHere, Iâll help you for the next round.â Soonyoung scooted closer to you until his knee brushed against yours. You couldnât help but feel a little hot all of a sudden, but you made no effort to move away.Â
The next round started with you dropping from the revival platform. You felt like your brain went into autopilot. You just heard Soonyoung talking in your ear while his fingers kept brushing against yours, telling you which controls were best for fighting Samus. Everything was going in one ear and out the other; you were so flustered that you could hardly think straight.Â
You snapped back into reality when you heard three of them screaming, and you looked over with wide eyes to see Mingyu looking shell-shocked himself.Â
You won.Â
Soonyoung smiled. âSee? Youâre a natural.â
âNo, it was all you,â you replied, shaking your head. It really was all thanks to Soonyoung because you had no idea what the hell you did. âIt was probably just beginnerâs luck.â
But, even so, a smile tugged at your lips, and you felt elated from your triumph. You thought back to Soonyoungâs hands brushing against yours, nearly swamping yours in comparison, and your chest felt a little warm.Â
A little too warm.Â
You put a pause on driving for a week and a half, informing Soonyoung that you had to focus on midterms before you could think about your driving lessons. Both caused you extreme distress, so you needed to cut one out temporarily.
Junhui really did camp out in the library for three entire days. You brought him food every day and forced him to go back to his apartment to take a shower. When you watched over his study room for him, Soonyoung would swing by and ask how you were doing.Â
Brief interactions, but they were nice.Â
You managed to get through your midterms without a single cry session in a bathroom stall. It was honestly a bigger success than your first Smash Bros win.Â
Soonyoung and you grew a little closer. Two weeks ago, if someone told you that you would be FaceTiming your driving instructor every night before bed, you wouldnât believe them for a second. Mostly because you assumed you would get a driving instructor who was pushing retirement age, and video calling someone that old at night sounded a little concerning and borderline adulterous.
You learned a lot about him. His go-to breakfast or midnight snack was Frosted Flakes, and he felt a little empty inside if there wasnât a box of the cereal in his cabinet. He was loud most of the time, but he often got shy or quiet in loud settings; it was highly dependent on the crowd he was with. His love language was sending you pictures of cute animals and saying it was you two. (You also didnât like calling this a âlove languageâ because that implied there was something deeper than platonic feelings, which you were too afraid to come to terms with.)
âYou have to start driving again now that your midterms are over,â Soonyoung said over the phone one night. He was sulking while you were doing your skincare routine, keeping your phone propped up on your desk. âYouâre gonna start forgetting what you learned, and then weâre gonna be back to square one.â
He was (slightly) high tonight and you were the first person he called.
You were pretty sure that had to mean something. Unfortunately, you were too guarded to connect the pieces that were laid out perfectly for you.
âYou just miss me, huh?â you joked.Â
âYeah, I guess I do.â
Nothing could have prepared you for that response.Â
You felt your cheeks burn, and you had to physically turn around to hide whatever expression was betraying you. You pretended to examine something behind you, but there was clearly nothing there, so you just looked like an idiot.Â
You didnât know what you were feeling. There was a clear difference in your emotions when you spoke to Soonyoung versus when you spoke to his friends.Â
You didnât want to compare Soonyoung to Junhui, who you knew since middle school, but you knew that you didnât feel anything funny in your chest when you interacted with Seungcheol, Seungkwan, or Mingyu. They were great to be around, of course, but it was only Soonyoung who made you walk with a little skip in your step.
You hadnât had a proper crush in years. Now, you felt like you were overthinking everything and analyzing every little interaction that could possibly be meaningless.Â
It had only been a few weeks, but you supposed there was no exact timeline for these sorts of thingsâwhatever this thing was.Â
Whatever it was, though, you were in danger.
âTomorrow, then,â you said once you regained a sliver of your composure. âPick me up after your classes.â
âSure.â He rested his chin in his palm, staring at you with an amused expression. âIâll bring flowers.â
Possible Ways To Respond:
1. âYouâre too sweet! Thank you.â
2. âFlowers? Whatâs the occasion?â
3. âWow, you really know how to make a girl feel special, huh?âÂ
You went with a secret fourth option.
âPlease donât. Iâm allergic.â
True to his word, Soonyoung picked you up after his classes the next day.Â
You were pretty sure your lessons had gone over the regular quota, so you stopped by at the dispensary earlier to pick up another pod for Soonyoung. He didnât look as though he was expecting anything when you got in the driverâs seat, though. In fact, he was perplexed when you handed him the paper bag.Â
âWhatâs this?â he asked, growing sheepish.Â
âYour payment,â you replied. âAlso, I sort of lied about being allergic to flowers. Iâm not allergic to flowers. I donât know why I said that. Iâm allergic to penicillin, though, but I donât think that sounds remotely close to âflowers.â Maybe I got confused? I donât know.â
If this was an otome game, you had surely picked the bad relationship ending. Soonyoungâs face fell a littleâjust enough for you to noticeâand you immediately felt guilt swallowing you whole. You meant for your words to sound lighthearted, but maybe they didnât come across that way.Â
But, at the same time, you didnât know where you stood. Wouldnât it have been unfair to not repay Soonyoung for the lessons? Was it unreasonable that you werenât actually expecting him to bring you flowers for no reason?
Soonyoung recovered quickly, though, his smiling eyes crinkling at the corners. âSo I can bring you flowers.â
âHypothetically, you could.â
âBut you donât have to pay me anymore.â He looked into the paper bag, examining the STIIZY pod before scoffing. âIf I keep stocking up on these, people are gonna think Iâm a stoner.âÂ
âWell, I have to pay you for the lessons somehow,â you said. âSo, if you donât want the pods anymore, then Iâll have to start sending you money. I mean, what about gas?â
âYou donât have to worry about my gas tank.â He chuckled at your words and sat back to get comfortable. âWhat you should worry about is not hitting the curb.â
You flushed hotly. âRight.â
The first hour went smoothly. Soonyoung was impressed that you were gradually getting more and more comfortable behind the wheel, and he even congratulated you for changing lanes without muttering prayers under your breath. You were beginning to feel less overwhelmed with everything you were supposed to focus on, and you were certain that you were so close to everything clicking at once.Â
That was, until a car crashed right into you on a local road.Â
Thankfully, you and the other driver werenât going too fast, but the force was sure to leave a dent in Soonyoungâs car. The collision wasnât hard, by any means, but the impact jerked your body forward so that your mouth hit the steering wheel. The sting of pain radiated throughout your gums seconds later, and you winced and cradled your jaw.Â
You immediately bubbled with rage as you pulled over to the curb, knowing that you had the right of way and he was supposed to stop and wait for you to pass, but you were still stiff with shock. Soonyoungâs eyes were fierce, looking back at the driver as if he was about to cuss him out, but then he turned his attention to you.
Before you could feel immense, crushing guilt over crashing Soonyoungâs car, you whipped your head around to make sure he wasnât hurt. You wouldnât be surprised if he completely ghosted you after this. You were probably the worst student he had ever come across, which was saying a lot considering most of his students were high school teenagers.Â
âY/N, are you okay? Are you hurt?â he asked, sounding as frantic as his hands were. You felt his palm against your cheek and his other hand atop your head, making sure you werenât hurt anywhere.Â
âAre you okay?â you blurted out. Your breathing was erratic, and you hardly registered the metallic taste of blood in your mouth. âOh god. Your car. Oh god, IââÂ
âItâs okay, Y/N, itâs not your fault,â he said. âYou had the right ofââÂ
When he turned to look at you again, he just stared, eyes wide and jaw hanging openâalmost comically. It almost looked like he was more bewildered by you than the fact that his car was rammed into by another car.Â
He was wordless for far too long that you had to ask, âEverything okay?âÂ
Maybe that was a stupid question. Clearly, everything wasnât okay, and it had everything to do with the fact that you two had gotten into a car crash.
âI think you loth a tooth,â he lispedâa seemingly joking remark, but his expression was dead serious.
For a split second, a laugh bubbled up in your mouth. You thought Soonyoung must have been messing with you, but it was ridiculous that he could joke around in such a situation. It was when you touched your lip and pulled your hand back to see blood, though, that cold reality washed over you.
Your eyes went wide as saucers as you turned to examine your teeth in the rear-view mirror.Â
The worst possible thing that could happen to a woman was happening to you right now.Â
Your front left tooth was gone.Â
âI-itâs not that bad,â Soonyoung tried, although he sounded unconvinced himself. âItâs cute! Itâs like, uh, that dragonâfrom, uh⌠How to Train Your Dragon.âÂ
Your eyes were burning and your throat was closing up, but tonguing the bloodied gap between your teeth sent you over the edge. You had tears streaming down your cheeks and you were gripping the wheel so hard that your knuckles turned pale.
âToothleth?â you cried, which led to a few choked sobs when you realized that you had a lisp now. Then, you were full-on crying into your hands because sure, you could get over being the reason why Soonyoungâs car had a dent in it, but you were pretty sure there was no replacing a missing tooth. The more you cried, though, the worse you felt as you tasted the blood and heard the faint whistles coming from the gap in your teeth. âIâm tho thupid!âÂ
Soonyoung was clearly short-circuiting, but you could tell he was desperate to calm you down by the way he was rubbing your back in soothing circles. âY/N, youâre not stupid. It's okay, we justââ
âThoonyoung!â
Soonyoung slapped his hand over his mouth to suppress his laughter. He was trying to take you seriously, but the little bursts of laughter that bubbled up in his throat were betraying him.Â
You swallowed down your sob and continued, âIth not okay! I loth my tooth!âÂ
âOkay, no more talking,â he ordered. âI know youâre very hurt right now, but youâre gonna feel even worse if I start laughing at your lisp, so donât make this harder for me.âÂ
You scowled at him, but you kept your mouth shut because Soonyoung was right; you were not in the proper headspace to be laughed at right now.Â
âOkay, Iâm gonna go outside and talk to the driver who ran into us,â he explained slowly. âI want you to calm your breathing and find your missing tooth. We can drive to the dentist right after, okay?âÂ
You sniffled and nodded, craning your neck to watch Soonyoung get out of the car to talk to the driver. Then, you sucked in a sharp breath and examined the floor to find your loose tooth. Lo and behold, it was laying next to the gas pedal. You cringed as you picked it up, frowning at how bloody it was in your palm. There were a few napkins in Soonyoungâs glove compartment, so you wrapped your tooth in one and kept it in your pocket.
You heard some yelling from the other driverâsomething about having kids in the back and how you were going way too fastâand it all just made you feel worse. You felt horrible that Soonyoung had to deal with the repercussions, and after they exchanged insurances and the guy drove off, you got out of the car to see the damage.Â
Surely enough, there was a decent-sized dent in the side of his car. It was right where the back door opened, and you burst into tears at the sight of it. Soonyoung wouldnât have to deal with all of this if he wasnât teaching you to drive. Â
Still, he wrapped his arms around your shaking body and pulled you in close. He rested his chin on top of your head and sighed.Â
âItâs okay,â he murmured. âThe insurance will cover the damage. You donât have to worry about anything.â
âWhat about my tooth?â
âOkay, maybe thereâs one thing to worry about.â
You leaned into his touch when you felt his hand carding through your hair. His motions were slow and gentle, as if he was trying hard to make sure you didnât notice the gesture. You did, though, and you appreciated it.Â
You started, âIâmââ
âDonât say youâre sorry,â he interrupted. You thought he was going to say something cheesy about how you had nothing to apologize for, but he continued, âYouâre gonna say thorry, and Iâm not gonna be able to take you seriously.â
With your face buried in his chest, you reached your hand out to punch his shoulder.Â
Still, despite his snarky comment and the emotional distress you were experiencing over your missing tooth, a big smile crossed your face and his embrace left a warm, fluttery feeling in your stomach.Â
Your heart was beating so fast that you almost thought it would stop.Â
âEw,â was Wen Junhuiâs first reaction upon seeing your swollen lip. You could only see the top half of his face over FaceTime, but you were sure he had a look of disgust on. âYou look terrible.â
âThanks,â you replied dryly, holding an ice pack to your cheek.Â
Before Soonyoung drove you to a dentist, he scolded you for leaving your tooth wrapped up in a tissue. Apparently, your tooth was going to be fucked if it dried up, so his solution was to leave it in his half-empty water bottle that was left sitting in his car. You werenât quite sure about this, but the dentist informed you that Soonyoung saved your front tooth.Â
If he was with you in the room, you probably couldâve kissed him then and thereâbloody mouth and all.
Thankfully, since you didnât fracture or break any part of the tooth, the dentists were able to replant it into your gums without any complications. They told you it was a good thing you went straight to the dentist instead of waiting. Your front tooth wouldâve been a lost cause if you waited another hour.Â
It was really all thanks to Soonyoung.Â
The procedure was quick and you were told that your avulsed tooth would be back to normal in about a week. The news filled you with relief because you were so sure you were going to be toothless for the rest of your life.Â
Not that it was a bad thing. While Soonyoung was driving you to the dentist prior to the replantation, you had come to terms with the fact that you would be missing a front tooth for the rest of your life. You would grow old and tell your children the harrowing tale of how you got your driverâs license and sacrificed your front tooth for it.Â
It couldnât be all that horrible. Maybe you would grow an affinity for whistling.
Thankfully, that was all just your overthinking and your tooth was probably fine now. In seven days, everything was supposed to go back to normal, so you had your fingers crossed for a full recovery.Â
âOf course that would happen to you.â Junhui laughed at your misery. âShit like this only happens to you.â
âYeah, I get it. Iâm the pinnacle of terrible luck.â
âSo, what happened after? Did you make out with Soonyoung or something?âÂ
âNo!â you exclaimed. Your cheeks started to burn just at the thought. âHow do you expect me to make out with someone when I look like this? Soonyoung drove me home like a gentleman. Heâs not into me like that.â
âUh-huh.â
âShut up.â You rolled your eyes. âI donât think Iâll be seeing him for a while, anyway. I donât wanna start driving again until my tooth is fine.â
âThen maybe you can go on a different kind of ride with him instead.â
âYou need to stop.â
You didnât see Soonyoung much over the next week. He told you that he had a few papers to finish before his schedule would clear up, so you were only able to text him occasionally and see him in passing, exchanging a greeting before one of you had to go.Â
You saw his friends a lot, though. They were always in the study room next to the one you and Junhui liked to use, so you would stop by their room often to see what they were up to. They were usually either messing around or using the whiteboard for everything but its intended purpose, so you enjoyed taking study breaks with them. Junhui was the type to not take breaks because he was locked in on his work once he got in the zone, so Soonyoungâs friends were a breath of fresh air.Â
Your Current Opinions on Soonyoungâs Friends:
Mingyu: Kind. Approached you whenever he saw you. Pleasant conversations. Swiped up on your Snapchat stories sometimes. Was unfortunately the only person you forgot to block from your story once when you posted a semi-thirst trap just for Soonyoungâs eyes.
Seungcheol: Friendly whenever he talked to you. A little awkward because you once saw him taking selfies at the gym instead of working out.Â
Seungkwan: Not super buddy-buddy but sweet enough. Liked making fun of Soonyoung with you. He brought you McDonaldâs once and you imagined a future with him momentarily.
Word also got around that your front tooth had been knocked out clean. Seungcheol let it slip when he accidentally referred to you as âToothlessâ the other day. You made a mental note to kill Soonyoung later.
The next time you ran into your driving instructor on campus was outside one of your lecture halls. You walked out in the middle of class to fill up your hydroflask. It was especially hot today, and you were seconds away from heat exhaustion. Soonyoungâs brows lifted in pleasant surprise once he saw you, and he missed his elevator to walk up to you.
âWhoa.â You paused for a moment, unblinking. âI keep forgetting you go here.â
âIâm the hall monitor.â
âThis is college. We donât have hall monitors.â
âSelf-elected,â was his response. âSpeaking of, I donât see your bathroom pass.â
âIâm not going to the bathroom. Iâm filling up my water. Anyway, why would Iââ
âJust this once, Iâll let you off with a warning,â he interjected, pulling out a card from the pocket of his jeans. He handed it to you, and you accepted it after a moment of hesitation. âThereâs your bathroom pass. Donât let me catch you loitering around here again.âÂ
With that, Soonyoung walked off, leaving you utterly confused.Â
You flipped the business card around to see his name and number printed neatly in the middle, and you frowned in response. There was some other fine text on the back, but you didnât take the time to read it properly as you were still baffled.Â
âI already have your number!â you called after him, but you just heard your driving instructor laugh to himself in response as he disappeared behind the elevator doors.
Later, after your classes ended, you went back to your study room with Junhui. He had been in the library since morning, deciding to skip his classes to prepare for his second round of midterms that he still had a few weeks for.Â
You told him about your encounter with Soonyoung, noting how strange it was that he casually had business cards on hand. Junhui asked to see the card, so you handed it over to him.Â
Upon closer inspection, Junhui raised his eyebrows, impressed. âHall monitor rizz.â
âHow was that rizz? He told me it was a bathroom pass and left.â
âWell, Iâd consider it rizz since heâs asking you out on a date.â
Heat rose to your cheeks. âYou think heâs asking me out on a date?âÂ
âNo, I know heâs asking you out on a date.â Junhui flipped Soonyoungâs business card around to show you the fine print: Schedule our first date with the number provided on the other side of this card. The corner of his mouth lifted. âSays it right here. Heâs just shy, Y/N.â
âShy? Him? He doesnât look like the shy type.â
âHeâs shy,â he affirmed, âaround you, at least. I mean, youâd get shy around the person you liked, wouldnât you?âÂ
âI guess, butâŚâ you trailed off, shaking your head. âNo, this is normal, right? Dates are normal. Weâre just two normal adults going on a normal date. Nothing weird about that, right? I shouldnât feel so weird about this. Do I sound weird? Am I weird?â
You didnât realize you had gotten up and started pacing until you turned to see Junhui looking at you with concern hanging in his brows. You sucked in a sharp breath and sank back into your seat, burying your face in your hands.Â
âIâm in way over my head,â you mumbled.Â
âYouâre nervous âcause you have a crush on him,â he replied. âNothing weird about that.â
âI have a crush on him,â you echoed, more so to yourself than to Junhui.Â
Although you were partly in denial, still tossing and turning the prospect of crushing on Soonyoung around in your head, Junhui took your words as confirmation. He hummed knowingly and turned back to his textbook, leaving you to ruminate for the next thirty minutes in silence before you excused yourself.Â
You were currently speed walking to your usual bus stop, hoping you would be able to stop thinking about Soonyoung and the business card tucked into your pocket. However, you couldnât stop thinking about the possibility of you developing a tiny crush on him.Â
You hadnât had a proper crush in ages. The last time you had strong feelings for someone was in high school, which promptly ended following your first dateâafter an eight month talking stage. You proposed going to the fair, which seemed fine until you threw up on the ferris wheel and received an âI donât think this is going to work outâ text later that night.Â
And why were you so flustered over this, anyway? After all, you had been anticipating the day Soonyoung would make the first move. Plus, you were an adult; overthinking your feelings like this was so high school.Â
Whatever. You had nothing to lose.
You pulled out your phone to text Soonyoung, a small smile crossing your face once you caught sight of his profile picture again. It was a picture of him with all his hair flying every which way in the wind and his mouth open to yell some profanity.Â
y/n: date.
y/n: this week any dayÂ
soonyoung (driving instructor): WHOA!!!!!!
y/n: what day what day what day what day what day what day what day what day what day what day what day what day what day
soonyoung (driving instructor): iâll be even more ready
Your heart didnât stop pounding for the rest of the day.
To be a woman was to perform.Â
You were currently performing an illegal U-turn.Â
Soonyoung held onto the âoh shitâ handle fixed to the ceiling, his face contorted in absolute fear as he repeated, âWrong lane, wrong lane, wrong lane, wrong lane, wrong laneââ
âSorry!â you exclaimed, swerving back into your correct lane after checking your mirrors. You swallowed thickly before saying, âIâve got it under control now, I think.â
Of course, you had been nervous the entire day and a half leading up to your date with Soonyoung, but how you felt right now had completely reigned over every emotion you were feeling before.Â
Throughout the day, you had butterflies in your stomach and a little skip to your step, but now you were terrified of things you had never even worried about before. The reason you took a U-turn in the first place was because Soonyoung told you that you missed the parking lot entrance, causing you to panic in the middle of the road (which, on your part, was not very smart.)Â
In short, Soonyoung should not have let you take the wheel, and you should not have gotten this worked up over him planning to take you to the local fair.Â
What were the odds that you were back in the place where you had an awful last date? You could almost feel the bile rising up your throat.
Soonyoungâs voice was unnaturally high-pitched when he asked, âA-are you sure youâre ready to schedule that driving test?âÂ
âYes! Iâm ready,â you said, âbut, to make things clear, my driving today is not representative of my driving any other day.â
Somehow, you and Soonyoung wound up making it to the fairgroundsâ parking lot in one piece. You deflated upon hearing the sigh of relief escape Soonyoungâs lips once the car was in park, but it was well deserved. You were surprised he even let you drive in the first place.Â
The fairgrounds were packed with peopleâmostly studentsâso there were several couples going around with their fingers interlocked. You were now hyper-aware of your fingertips, wondering if youâd get the chance to brush them against Soonyoungâs and slowly slide your hand into his.Â
He ended up paying for your ticket, and you didnât have much room to argue about it because the employee was already taking his card before you even noticed. You told Soonyoung you would pay for something elseâfood, rides, raffle ticketsâbut he ended up covering everything for you. Of course, you were sure Junhui would have scolded you because turning down a guy paying for you was apparently equivalent to turning down the guy himself. So, you swallowed your pride and let Soonyoung take the lead.Â
You went on a few rides with Soonyoung, shared a churro, and you took a picture in front of the ferris wheel. You were having a great time, actually, and almost all of your nerves had all but melted away. All that was left to deem this a perfect date was to actually ride the ferris wheel, which was exactly what you were absolutely terrified of.Â
âNot good with heights?â Soonyoung asked as you two were getting into the seat, pulling down the lap bar for you two.Â
You wondered if you looked as ghastly as you felt. âNot so much.â
You werenât good with a lot of things, to be fair.
Smooth talker Soonyoung took that as his opportunity to slip his hand into yours, lacing your fingers together with a shy smile on his face. âYou can close your eyes if it gets scary, or just keep looking at me.â
Honestly, that sounded scarier than the possibility of plummeting to your death from the top of the ferris wheel. You werenât sure your heart could handle staring at Soonyoung, especially with how flustered his gaze made you feel.Â
âHey, could I ask you something?â you asked, nearly shying away when Soonyoung fixed his gaze on you. âWhen did you start liking me? I mean, I had no idea.â
âUhâŚâ The ride started moving backward as Soonyoung hummed in thought. âProbably that first time you were in my car?â
Your eyes went wide. âYou mean our very first lesson?â
âYeah, I thought you were cuteâa little weird, but cute.â He grinned. âI think it was when you fell asleep over FaceTime that one night when I started catching feelings.â
Your cheeks burned. You werenât sure if you could pinpoint a specific moment like he did; you just remembered your heart started beating faster when you saw him one day, and the rest was history. It was almost incredible how blindsided you were by his feelings, even though he had integrated himself into your daily life so naturally.
âAnd then you posted that one picture on your story once,â he continued, voice growing shy once he realized what he admitted out loud, âand that was when I knew I was really in too deep.â
You blanched with embarrassment. He must have been talking about the thirst trap because that was the only time you ever posted yourself so confidently. How were you going to explain that you blocked everyone else from your Snapchat story just for him to see that?
A nervous laugh bubbled from your lips. âAbout thatââ
Before you could get any other words out, though, you became painfully aware of your surroundings. Your seat started swinging with the strong winds, and you realized that you were at the very top. If you leaned over enough, you were pretty sure your seat would tip over and drop you and Soonyoung right out. The very thought paralyzed you to the core.Â
Just as Soonyoung was in the middle of asking if you were okay, the ferris wheel started moving faster, and you yelped and clung onto him as you two went down. You were fine with the slow pace with breaks in between, but now that you were moving at full speed in one go, it was downright terrifying.Â
Soonyoung seemed to find it hilarious, though. He laughed and wrapped an arm around you while you were the very picture of fear. You buried your face into his chest and dug your nails in so hard that you were afraid he would feel them through his sweater.Â
Finally, it came to a stop. The ride operator started letting people out one seat at a time, but you and Soonyoung had ended up at the very top again. You raised your head to sit upright again, letting out an exasperated breath, but Soonyoung drew you closer. He was still laughing, and it made you blush uncontrollably.Â
âJust so you know, Iâm good with any other ride!â you tried to defend yourself. âWell, actually, save for roller coasters and drop towers⌠oh, andââ
âY/N,â Soonyoung cut you off with a smile, his voice hardly a murmur. Before, you could barely hear him over the excited cries and shouts in the fair, but now your attention had zeroed in on him. You felt disoriented as he placed his warm hand on your cheek, tilting his head and leaning in. âCâmere.â
You were too shy to admit it, but you had fantasized about making out with Soonyoung before. Of course, you never knew what type of kisser he was, so you just settled for whatever fantasy played out in your head.
Now, though, with his lips pressed against yours, you felt something hot and needy stir up inside you as he tugged you impossibly close to his body. Your stomach fluttered when you let slip a whimper, which Soonyoung didnât let go unnoticed. He pulled back for a moment, his gaze darkening, promising to return to that later, and he returned to kissing you.Â
When you were almost near the ground, you and Soonyoung pulled away. There were definitely far too many children and parents around for you two to be kissing like that, but now you were anticipating how things would be once you two were alone.Â
âYou two have fun?â the ride operator, who appeared to be an older teenager, asked with a teasing lilt to his voice.Â
All you could do was nod and duck your head in embarrassment while Soonyoung beamed brighter than the flashing lights.Â
You spent some more time with Soonyoung on a few more (tamer) rides before you two decided to call it a day. Your feet were getting sore, so he courteously offered to drive the both of you home. However, you had an itching feeling that he just didnât want you behind the wheel again.Â
âWanna get something to eat?â he asked once you both were inside the car, and he turned his head around as he reversed. âThereâs a good froyo place down the street.â
âYeah, letâs do that,â you agreed quickly. Deep down, you were hoping this date wouldnât end just yet.
Soonyoung played Olivia Rodrigoâs new album as he drove, rolling the window down so that the wind tousled his hair. You thought he looked cute that way, and you had to keep your hand under your thigh to keep it from reaching over and running it through his locks.Â
When he parked in front of the froyo place, it appeared completely dark inside. It was also evidently clear that the only cars parked in the lot were the overflow crowd of people from the fair who couldnât get a parking spot at the fairgrounds.Â
âDid we miss it?â He frowned, pausing to look up the store hours on his iPhone. âMan. I didnât want our date to end like this.â
âI donât want it to end, either.â
Soonyoung looked over at you, studying your expression carefully before asking, âDo you wanna chill in the back for a while, then?â
You knew what that meant. And you had specifically worn your matching lingerie set just for this moment.Â
You unlatched your seatbelt, and Soonyoung followed suit right after. âYeah, Iâm down.âÂ
âWait, thereâs something I need to do first,â Soonyoung said in a soft voice, looking down at you with gentle eyes.Â
For a moment, your heart jumped to your throat. The way he was looking at you sent butterflies to your stomach, and you couldnât even imagine what he was going to do next. Something about his tone was so sincere that you were sure he was going to kiss you, especially when he started leaning down.Â
You let your eyes flutter shut, waiting for his soft lips to meet yours. Your heartbeat felt like a drum in your ears.Â
But nothing happened. No kiss. Nothing.Â
You opened your eyes to see what Soonyoung was doing. When you saw him hunched over, fiddling with something near his ankles, your face deadpannedânot a flicker of amusement.Â
Soonyoung had put his Crocs in sports mode.Â
First of all, wearing Crocs on the first date was absurd.
Second of all, putting your Crocs in sports mode on the first date was absolutely preposterous.Â
Yet, it was the perfect thing Soonyoung had done to put your nerves completely at ease. You ended up bursting into laughter at the very sight, making his head shoot up while his eyebrows were drawn together, perplexed. However, he happened to hit his head on the steering wheel as he did so, which only made you laugh even harder.Â
Your sudden surge of confidence spurred you to crawl over the gear stick and straddle his lap. Shocked, Soonyoung gripped your thighs and straightened up. Before his lip could curl up in amusement, you wrapped your arms around his neck and slotted your lips with his.Â
He broke for air for a moment, breathing out, âWell, hi.â
âHi.â Your nose gently bumped against his. âHaving second thoughts?âÂ
âNo!â he exclaimed, rubbing his hands up and down your sides. âI just didnât wanna start anything because I wasnât sure if you were ready.â He threw a glance over his shoulder before looking out the window. âPlus, this place isnât exactly private.âÂ
You looked out the window while Soonyoungâs warm hands returned to your thighs. It was true that there were empty cars around, but there werenât any people in sight. It was still early in the night, so you were sure people would stay at the fairgrounds until midnight.Â
âHey,â Soonyoung started again, âwhat was that you were gonna say on the ferris wheel? Before we, uh, made out.âÂ
âOh.â Shame bubbled in your chest when you realized what he was talking about. âNothing important.â
âTell me.â
Moonlight shone in from the window, illuminating the side of Soonyoungâs face and his neck, showing off his prominent collarbones. His low voice reached your core in a way you had never experienced before. You flushed with embarrassment because you were certain Soonyoung could feel how you clenched.Â
You looked out the window, as if you could mentally escape through it. Find a way to get out of the situation you were in.Â
âFine.â He huffed lightly before placing a hand behind your neck and drawing you closer. âIâll just get it out of you, then.â
Notably flustered, you gasped when Soonyoungâs lips latched onto the side of your neck, biting and sucking the tender skin. You croaked out some lame lie about forgetting what you were trying to say, but Soonyoung persisted. He ravaged the column of your neck like it was the only thing keeping him grounded.Â
You scooted up on his lap, sitting right on top of his growing bulge, which roused a throaty groan from him. You could feel Soonyoung twitch under you, and it was all that was needed for you to start grinding your hips slowly on his lap. And then he started guiding your hips down onto him. Your breath hitched when you felt his fingers dig into the grooves of your hips to take control of your motions.Â
âTell me,â he beseeched, and you shivered when you could feel his smile against your jawline.
You let out a whine. âItâs embarrassing.âÂ
âYouâre so beautiful,â he whispered, distracted as he looked up at you like you were the most precious thing in the world. His hands never left your hips as he watched you grind down on his lap. Soonyoungâs eyes were unfocused for a moment before clarity bled back into him. âIt was about the Snapchat story, right? That one picture you posted.âÂ
âI donât remember what that was,â you attempted to lie smoothly, but you were pretty sure your expression betrayed you once Soonyoung slid a hand under your shirt to cup your chest.Â
âYeah, you do. The one where you were wearing those thigh-high stockings.â You saw a flash of darkness in his eyes. âCanât believe everyone got to see you like that.â
âI wouldnât say everyone,â you muttered.Â
âHm?â
His thumb, after his hand managed to creep under your bra, found purchase on your nipple, rolling and circling around the supple flesh as he pleased. You only managed to let out a cry before Soonyoung was pressing you further, ordering you to answer him before he made you fall apart.Â
You were so caught up in your own pleasure, practically chest-to-chest with Soonyoung, that you hardly noticed the knock on the window until Soonyoung jolted upright and straightened his back.Â
âFuck,â he cursed under his breath, voice still thick with lust that was ebbing away. Thankfully, you both were still mostly clothed, but Soonyoung had his pants nearly down and you had your shirt riding up past your waist.
The officer stopped knocking to give Soonyoung the opportunity to roll the window down after he was decent. It was evidently an uncomfortable situation for both parties. You turned your head to the side, screwing your eyes shut and hoping you would blink out of existence if you tried hard enough. You never thought you would have a cop at your window before even getting your license.Â
âHi,â he greeted sheepishly once the window was down. âSorry, weâll get going now.â
âYeah, uhâŚâ The officer trailed off, rubbing the back of his neck with a long-winded sigh. âIâll let you off with a warning this time, but keep it in the bedroom, please.â
âThanksâŚâ Soonyoung trailed off, looking for some sort of identification tag.Â
âOfficer Hong,â he answered flatly.Â
âThanks, Officer Hong.â
âDonât let me catch you two again.â
âOh, probably not me, but once she gets her license then itâs over forâow!â Soonyoung yelped when you pinched him in the side, effectively shutting him up. He immediately apologized, âSorry, Officer Hong, it wonât happen again.â
The encounter with the police officer was awkward, yes, but somehow, Soonyoung was unfazed once you two had gotten off with the warning. He coolly looked up at you and asked if he could come over to your place tonight. You agreed, of course.
The drive home was perfectly fine. Soonyoung made sure you werenât too startled by the officer and asked how you liked the fair. You thought it was all pleasant conversation that would continue once you were in your living room, but Soonyoung pinned you up against your front door as soon as you were inside.Â
His strong arms caged you in his hold, and you could only helplessly look up at him and warble out some pathetic question, asking if he wanted water or snacks. He turned the offer down, obviously.Â
Since you two had already gotten this far, you figured you might as well let Soonyoung in on your little secret. Although it was slightly humiliating to admit, you realized tonight that far more embarrassing things had happened to you.Â
âYou really wanna know, donât you?â When he nodded in response, you sighed and explained, âWhat I posted on my story⌠I blocked everyone else so that only youâd see it.â
Well, him and Mingyu, but the latter was purely accidental.Â
Hearing your words flipped a switch in Soonyoung and he completely froze up, as if he had stopped functioning altogether.
âWell, technically, you and Mingyu,â you rambled on, âbut thatâs only because I forgot to block him from my story. You know, I have, like, two hundred people on Snapchat, so I figured Iâd accidentally skip over someone, anyway. But I donât think he even paid any attention to it. I feel like heâdââ
He cut you off by sealing his lips over yours, and all the noise in your head simmered down. All the fluff filling up your brain billowed and sank back down. You remembered when you were a middle schooler, giggling and replaying the scenes in movies that were exactly like this. Now that you were actually living in it, though, you couldnât get enough of Soonyoung.Â
He broke away for a breather, lips hanging barely an inch from yours and your foreheads touching. His heavily-lidded eyes found yours, gazing at you longingly through his lashes.Â
âNo offense,â he started with a smirk, âbut I donât really care about Mingyu right now.â
You opened your mouth to respond, but you shut it as soon as you realized that you had nothing intelligent to contribute. You recognized that most of your mindless ramblings probably killed the moodâfor you, at least.
He pressed a kiss to your cheek, then your jaw, then the side of your neck. As he moved down to your chest, Soonyoungâs kisses grew sloppier and open-mouthed. He tugged at your shirt, and you helped him remove it with ease, snapping your bra off in the process and letting it fall to the floor. His hungry gaze upon seeing you bare before him made you ache for more. Soonyoung let out a groan and let his tongue drag over your nipple, circling and flicking around the sensitive skin until you were moaning shamelessly.
With his head ducked so that his lips could ravage your chest, Soonyoung bent down just a little bit more to wrap his arms around your thighs. He scooped you up in his arms swiftly, making you yelp, and he walked you to your bedroom after you whispered where your room was. He was so strong that you hardly had to hold onto him, but his strength was a double-edged sword because he had you pinned down on your bed in seconds.Â
A grin crossed Soonyoungâs face as his lips returned to your chest. This time, his lips made their way down your body, to your stomach. You curled your hand in his hair, tugged hard because you wanted more, but Soonyoung was relentless with his teasing. He pressed hot, open-mouthed kisses that made you squirm under him and ache for more. They were slow and torturous, and you only grew more needy as he made his way down.Â
âCan I take these off?â he asked, fingers slipping into the waistband of your pants.Â
âOnly if you take your clothes off, too.â
You heard him chuckle before you felt cold air starting to hit your bare skin. Soonyoung unzipped your pants and tugged them down your legs until they were bunched up at your ankles, which you struggled to kick off until he bent down to move the fabric off your heel. You shuddered when he snapped the band of your underwear, hooking his fingers at the sides and twisting the fabric. He sure was enjoying toying with you, and you werenât sure you could handle any more teasing. After what felt like forever, Soonyoung pulled the last of your undergarments down and marveled at your bare body.
âYouâre unbelievable,â he all but growled, running his hands down your sides, to your hips, and past your thighs. âI canât believe I get to have you like this.â
You sat up, looking up at him with a pout, which only seemed to drive Soonyoung to the brink of madness.Â
âYouâre still clothed,â you observed.
âYes.â
âTake it off.â You folded your arms across your chest. âI canât be the only one naked.â
âWhatever you say, princess,â he replied with a laugh. You supposed he could see your expression falter, nearly letting some pathetic sound fall from your lips, so Soonyoung cooed at you and ran his thumb over your lower lip. âOh, you like that? Like it when I call you princess?â
You did like it. You liked it too much for your own good, and it was almost humiliating.
Soonyoung towered over you as he peeled off his shirt, grabbing it from the nape of his neck and slipping it off in seconds. Your eyes ran over his beautiful expanse of skin, from every defined muscle in his abdomen to the little goosebumps that pricked his arms. You reached out to run your fingers down his abs, letting them trace each groove and dip in muscle. Soonyoung shivered at your very touch, but he allowed you to make your way down to undo his belt and pants.Â
Your fingers were fumbling, but you managed to remove the latch after several failed attempts. He guided you with his steadier hands, but you were determined to do it yourself. Finally, you pulled his belt free and pushed his pants down his legs.Â
He seemed to be slightly embarrassed, but Soonyoung was already rock hard. His cock sprang up so that the tip pushed past the waistband of his boxers.Â
âDonât worry about that,â he grumbled, sinking to his knees and placing his hands on your thighs. âIâll take care of you first.â
He grabbed your knees and pushed them apart, staring at your soaked cunt like it was everything he ever wanted. Soft kisses peppered the inside of your thighs, working up to the apex of your legs. You felt the cold air hit your core and shivered, but then it was hot all over again once Soonyoung licked one long, slow stripe that made you writhe and cry out in bliss. He had to press your hips down to keep you from moving too much.Â
But his movements were so slow and torturous. You were going insane by how much Soonyoung was teasing you with his kitten licks and lazy drags of tongue. Tears welled up in your eyes by the time you had been edged away from another impending orgasm, with him letting his dissolve as soon as the heat bloomed under your skin.Â
Kissing your cunt. Plunging his tongue into your core. Licking at your walls until they trembled and shook with the warning of release. You were agonized by how good Soonyoung was making you feel.
âPlease,â you begged, your voice breathless as your body felt lightweight, âlet me cum, please.â
âHm.â He seemed to consider it for a moment before saying, âTell me three things you like about me, and Iâll let you cum.â
You laughed, but it died on your tongue as soon as you realized there was no amusement on his face.
âYouâre kidding, right?â You swallowed hard, knowing you had your answer already. âOh, youâre not kidding.â
He was making you work for your orgasm. This was mortifying; you never expected Soonyoung to be so cruel, and you never expected it to be so hot.
âThree things, baby,â he said. âStart with number one.â
âOne,â you started, your voice shaky as Soonyoung returned to snaking his tongue past your folds, âI like how you treat me so well and look after me, likeâoh, right thereâyeah, like that.â
âTwo,â you continued, more so in a whimper because Soonyoung was skillfully using his tongue to reach places you never thought to stimulate before. âI, ahâI like the way you look at me and when you tell me Iâm beautiful.â You sucked in your teeth when you felt him press his tongue flat against your clit. âSoonyoung, please.â
âOne more,â he murmured.
âT-three,â you breathed out, and by this point, your legs were already shaking. Your brain was turning to mush and you couldnât help but clench at Soonyoung lapping at your soaked cunt. The tremor in your voice was unmistakable when you admitted, âI love how youâre so much better at this than I ever couldâve imagined.â
He breathed out a laugh against your cunt. âAm I really?â He tightened his grip on your hips to suck on your clit, making your back arch and your chest feel light. âYou think about me that often, princess?â
âMmhm,â you confirmed with your eyes screwed shut. âThought about you whenever I wasââ
âDonât finish that,â he warned, though it almost sounded like he was pleading with you, âor Iâll go crazy.â
Your nerves felt like they had tangled themselves into several knots that kept tightening in your stomach. You shuddered and moaned with each motion of Soonyoungâs tongue that brought you closer to your release. He was merciless with the way he dipped his tongue in your core, rubbing your clit with his thumb in slow circles.
Your walls tightened one last time before you were finally blinded by your white-hot orgasm, and you hardly even realized that hot tears were streaming down your cheeks. Soonyoung was eating you out unabated, not even giving you a break between each wave of pleasure that hit you. After your climax subsided and coherency gradually bled back into you, Soonyoung finally pulled back and pressed a kiss to your forehead.Â
You grabbed his arm before he could say anything. Soonyoung looked you in the eyes for a moment, alarmed, but the worry knitting his brows together melted away once you pulled him down for a proper kiss.
With your arms wrapped around his neck and his knee between your legs, Soonyoung eventually found himself lowering his body until your chests were pressed together. He kept himself up by his elbows and pulled away to look at you. He brushed your hair out of your face and leaned in for another kiss.
As you two became a tangled mess of limbs, wrapped up in each other and far too occupied to care about anything but making out, you moved your hand down Soonyoungâs abs to wrap your hand around his cock. He groaned against your lips and rocked his hips against your touch.Â
âYouâre so fucking hot,â he murmured, his voice low and thick with lust. After reaching back to tug his boxers down, freeing his cock from the restricting fabric, Soonyoung looked down at you with desire glazing over his eyes. âMay I?â
âPlease do,â you answered.
You cried out when he started rubbing the head of his cock against your cunt, teasing your folds like he did before. You were aching already despite your previous orgasm, and you thought you were going to die on the spot from how needy you were.
âTurn onto your stomach,â he ordered. You were confused for a moment, but you ended up being manhandled by Soonyoung, anyway. He flipped you over and positioned himself at your entrance, keeping one hand on the back of your neck. âGood girl.â
The side of your face was pressed into the sheets, and your hands were desperately reaching for anything that gave you proper leverage. You ended up grabbing onto the pillows just as Soonyoung started pushing his cock inside you. You swallowed down the gasp that dared threaten to escape, and Soonyoung pressed kisses to your face and made sure you werenât crying from how big he was.
With more filth and praises whispered into your ear, you were clenching and unclenching around him, making Soonyoung groan whenever he felt you tighten. It took a while for him to ease his way into you, but once Soonyoung had finally nestled inside of you, it was as if a switch flipped in him.
He was thrusting as soon as you gave him the green light. You were blindsided by how intense he was, hardly having any control over your own body as you held onto the sheets for dear life. Soonyoung held your hips with a bruising grip as he fucked into you.
Hot.
Everything felt hot and sticky. Your sweat-matted hair clung to the back of your neck, and you felt like your sheets were uncomfortably damp. Despite it all, though, you couldnât get enough. You needed more, wanted more. Soonyoung was relentless, even when your box springs creaked and the frame rattled against the wall.Â
You felt his cock twitch inside of you. âFuck. Youâre taking me so well.â
Still overly-sensitive from your previous orgasm, it didnât take long for you to reach your limit a second time. Soonyoung pounded into you with fervor, and even he was quickly falling apart.Â
âThatâs it,â he got out, teeth gritted. âThatâs my girl.â
You pulled him down for a deep kiss, muffling both of your moans once you were clenching uncontrollably around him. You were falling from your peak and Soonyoung fucked you through your orgasm, even though he was on the verge of one himself.Â
He pulled out right before he was about to cum, and you could only hear his groans before you realized he had gotten off, too. For a moment, you thought Soonyoung abandoned you on the bed. His voice sounded distant all of a sudden, and you were too tuckered out to move.Â
Then, he returned with a towel and several tissues for you. You turned onto your back again to make out his silhouette entering the room and taking a seat next to you. Your eyes were shut as Soonyoung cleaned you up, and you only opened them once he pushed your hair back and kissed your cheek.Â
âWanna go again?â he asked with a grin. You were impressed by how quickly he was able to recover. You, on the other hand, needed a few minutes to recuperate. âThe nightâs still young.â
âYeah, sure, if you use a condom this time,â you breathed out, turning over onto your side. âJust give me five.â
You closed your eyes for a moment, letting your chest rise and fall until its rhythm steadied. Your breathing was even again, but when you opened your eyes, you saw neon green glowing in the middle of the room.Â
âSoonyoung.â You pinched the bridge of your nose and sighed. You were not getting dicked down by manga censorship. âWhy is your dick glowing?âÂ
âI prefer glow-in-the-dark condoms.âÂ
Typically, when two individuals had feelings for each other, it would often bloom into a relationship.
It was quite clear that you had feelings for Soonyoung and he had feelings for you, so, naturally, one would expect the two of you to start dating. However, it felt like you both were testing the waters around each other insteadâdipping your toes into the dating pool. You two were exclusive, but not exactly together.Â
You were perfectly content with taking things slow, but that didnât necessarily mean Soonyoung didnât end up over you almost every other night. The sex was great, of course. Mind-blowing, even.Â
Seungcheol, Mingyu, and Seungkwan seemed to catch on quickly. There was no mistaking what was going on after you went over to their apartment to play Catan, and then you and Soonyoung disappeared into his room afterward. The next morning, when you walked downstairs in Soonyoungâs shirt to eat breakfast with everyone, you could pick up on their unspoken realization that you were hooking up with their roommate.Â
Seungkwan even made an offhand comment about you and Soonyoung being a thingâwhatever that was supposed to mean.Â
You debriefed Junhui on the entire situation, of course. He seemed less surprised about you sleeping with Soonyoung, though, and more interested in the outcome of your driving test (which, you had to admit, you were terribly worried about).Â
The night before your dreaded behind-the-wheel exam, you received a call from Soonyoung.
You werenât sure what to expect when you picked up the call. You knew that heâd been planning on getting high with his housemates today, so you werenât exactly sure if this phone call was going to be private or not. You were half-expecting Seungcheol to answer for him instead.Â
âHey,â Soonyoung greeted, voice slightly muffled. With the way the audio sounded, you suspected that he wasnât holding onto his phone at the moment.
âAre you busy?â you asked.Â
âNo, just trying to get the pod you gave me out of its packaging.â You heard a few strained grunts from him before he exclaimed, âI got it!â
âIâm proud of you.â
âThatâs what Iâll be telling you after you ace that driving test,â he said. He paused for a moment (which you guessed was him taking a hit). âYou ready for it, by the way?â
âNot really.â You sucked in a sharp breath. âThe good news is that taking years to pass the permit test has helped me memorize all the rules of the road; the bad news is that I have severe anxiety and probably wonât be able to utilize anything Iâve learned.â
âYouâll be fine, Y/N. You drove just fine with me, didnât you?â
âBut thatâs you! How am I gonna drive properly with some scary old guy who probably hasn't ever smiled in his life?â
âJust relax. Remember to slow down on your turns and check your blind spots when youâre changing lanes.â
Your voice grew shy when you admitted, âThis is gonna sound weird, but I kind of miss our driving lessons.â
âEven when you lost your tooth?â
You grimaced. âEven then.âÂ
Soonyoung laughed along with you for a moment before he simmered. The silence on the other side of the line didnât feel uncomfortable, but you felt like each nerve end of yours was on fire.Â
âI didnât want it to end either, Y/N,â Soonyoung said after a while, his voice dropping an octave.Â
âReally?â
âI donât wanna be in a world where we arenât in a car together, whether Iâm telling you to stop driving under the speed limit or weâre crashing into that Honda Civic that knocked your front tooth out,â he started, and you scratched the back of your head. Yeah, he was definitely high. âAnd, maybe⌠maybe the missing front tooth was really the catalyst for all the memories we made along the way. Maybe, in another universe, that tooth never fell outâor existed. Maybe the concept of that occurrence manifested into this universe as aââ
âOkay, it was cute at first,â you interrupted, âbut youâre definitely in that other universe right now.â
You had never been this much of a nervous wreck.
Actually, scratch that. You were probably this much of a nervous wreck at least thrice a week. You functioned on being anxious several times a day, so this was honestly not a new feeling. The only problem was that you had never driven with anyone other than Soonyoung, so you were slightly on edge as you turned into the DMV.
âPlease return my car in one piece,â Soonyoung said, holding onto the âoh shitâ handle as you went over a speed bump, which you found highly unnecessary. He pointed to the starting point for the driving test. âIâll wait for you outside the building over there.â
âSounds good.â
âAnd remember: if youâre gonna fail the test, make sure you fail it big time. Donât fail it by going ten over the speed limit, or something boring like that.â
âThatâs terrible advice, Soonyoung.â
âIâm playing. Youâre gonna be just fine.â
âThanks, Iâm just soâoh my god!âÂ
You stepped on the breaks immediately, gripping the wheel tight as the car lurched forward. The man who was crossing in front of you doubled over onto the hood of the car before standing upright again. You rolled your window down to yell an apology, but the man paid you no attention and kept walking with a scowl on his face.Â
âI almost killed him!â you cried, slapping a hand over your mouth.Â
âWellâŚâ Soonyoung didnât seem to know how to reassure you as he was still immobilized with fear himself. He managed a shaky grin. âOn the bright side, heâs alive and youâre not facing a lawsuit.â
You swallowed hard. There was no way this exam was going to go well.Â
After handing in the necessary paperwork inside the DMV, they approved you to go outside for your driving test. Since Soonyoung was letting you use his car while he waited outside, he sat with you until your examiner came by. He did everything he could to calm you down, but, ultimately, it was up to you to pass.Â
While Soonyoung was giving his seat up for your examiner, you closed your eyes and tried to take deep breaths to mentally prepare.Â
âMaâam, can you turn on your left turn signal?â the examiner asked from your window.Â
When you turned to look at him, you felt something inside you shrivel up and die.Â
The man you almost ran over was your examiner.Â
In your daze, you managed to follow his instructions as he asked you to point out various things, such as the windshield wipers, defroster, and foot brake. All the while you were already preparing yourself for failure because there was absolutely no way this man was going to let you pass after almost becoming your victim.Â
Once the pre-drive safety check was over, he circled around the car to sit in the passengerâs seat, looking down at his clipboard for a moment. You held your tongue, hands clasped together in your lap. Were you supposed to apologize? Would he even care about your apology? It wouldnât hurt to say sorry, right?
You started in a meek voice, âOh, about what happened earlier, Iâm soââ
âIâm Jeonghan, and Iâm gonna be scoring your behind-the-wheel test today,â he cut you off with an air of indifference, looking back down at his clipboard. âWhenever you start the car is when the test begins.â
âRightâyes, okay.â You swallowed thickly and gripped the wheel, looking behind you to make sure no one was coming. Since there were a few cars driving by, you decided to wait for a moment. âA-are you having a good day?â
âI was.â
You wanted to crawl in a hole and drop dead.Â
After the road was clear, you turned out of the DMV and started driving down the road, checking your speed and mirrors every so often. You had always been comfortably driving with Soonyoung, who would just help you reroute if you missed a turn. Now, though, if you missed anything Jeonghan said, you were going to fail (and probably die).Â
âTake the right coming up here,â he instructed.
You remembered your turn signal and to look back over your shoulder. Soonyoung had taught you well, but you were afraid that his gentle instructions would only take you so far. Jeonghan was the most intimidating person you had come across (mostly because you almost killed him), and you should not have been trusted to drive someone you were terribly scared of.Â
After you made the turn, you sighed in relief at the long stretch of road ahead. You attempted to cover it up by clearing your throat and making small talk with Jeonghan.Â
âItâs pretty cold today, isnât it?â you asked. Stupid question. You had no idea how cold it was. Soonyoungâs car felt like a sauna because you cranked up the heater, or maybe the heat was from how nervous you were.Â
Jeonghan promptly ignored you. âChange lanes and take the next left.âÂ
Albeit your state of disarray, you followed what he said. You decided to give up on small talk altogether, coming to the conclusion that Jeonghan just hated you and didnât want to converse with the person who almost murdered him in cold blood.Â
You were pretty confident that the rest of your driving test went horribly. You almost went ten under the speed limit to make sure you didnât run over anyone else in the school zone, you shrieked when the railroad lights turned on and you had to wait for the train to pass by, and you looked both ways about five times when you were at a stop sign.Â
Jeonghan told you to park the car once you reached the DMV, so you pulled into an empty parking space. You were praying that he wasnât still grading you because you were most definitely occupying two parking spaces right now.Â
âOkay, so,â he started, looking at his clipboard before turning to you with a deadpan stare, âyou drive too slow.â
Oh. That was intentional because you didnât want to deal with another hit and run, but you stayed quiet and nodded.Â
âAnd,â he continued, âyou overthink too much when youâre behind the wheel. Donât hesitate before you stop or make turns, or youâre just gonna run into trouble that way. You canât be paranoid about driving, otherwise itâs gonna be hard for you to be on the road.â
You pressed your lips together in a tight line. This was it. He was going to fail you. There was no way you were going to pass when you were being criticized for your entire performance. You didnât blame Jeonghan, though; you probably wouldnât pass the person who almost ran you over, either.Â
âWell, you were cutting it really close,â he said, circling some parts of your examination sheet, âbut you passed.â
Your eyes grew wide.
You passed.
You passed.
You turned to Jeonghan and cried out, âI passed?!â
âYou know your car, you know the rules of the road, and you did all your maneuvers just fine,â he continued. âYou slowed down in the school zone to make sure you didnât hit any kids, and you were careful about your turns and stops. Just remember not to be too careful, though, or you might run into someone.â
For the first time, you heard a small snicker of amusement come from him.Â
âIâIâm so sorry about that,â you blurted out. âI thought you were gonna fail me for hitting you with the car.â
âLike I said, the test begins when you start the car.â He handed you your papers and got out of your car. Before closing the door, he turned to you with his clipboard tucked under his arm. âYou should go tell the DMV you passed and get your temporary license before I mark you down for this parking job.â
You gulped, unbuckling your seatbelt in a rush. âWill do.â
Jeonghan stalked off to grade another new driver, you supposed. When you got out of the car, your eyes immediately scanned the perimeter to search for Soonyoung, and there he was, waving you over from the sidewalk with a bright grin on his face.Â
Before you could even make your way over and break the news to him, he yelled out with his hands cupped around his mouth, âThatâs my girl!â
You blushed, stopping in your tracks and staring at him for so long that it took a car honking at you to propel you back into motion. You scrambled over to Soonyoung, eyes wide as saucers and still frazzled from the emotional turmoil you went through with Jeonghan.
He wrapped an arm around you. âYou know, no matter the result, Iâm proud of you for trying. Thereâs always next time, you know?â
âSoonyoungââ
âDid everything else go well, though? Other than you almost killing him, obviously.â
âSoonyoung, Iââ
âIt was probably just bad luck, honestly. I mean, it was a recoverable bump, not even a full-on crash! You were going so slow that anyone could walk that off.â
âSoonyoung!â you yelled, thrusting your score sheet into his hands. âI passed!â
His eyes widened. âYou passed?!â
âI passed!â you squealed. âI have to tell Junhui! I mean, he totally thought I was gonna fail my first two or six tries!â
Soonyoung crushed you into a hug, which wouldâve been more endearing if your ribs werenât being squeezed so hard. âHoly shit, Y/N, Iâm so proud of you.â
You giggled, wrapping your arms around his neck and drawing him closer. âI couldnât have done it without you.â
âBe my girlfriend,â he spoke against your neck, his hot breath tickling your skin, and you immediately froze.
Kwon Soonyoung wanted to be your boyfriend. Even with everything that had happenedâfrom the STIIZY pods, to the car crash, to the glow-in-the-dark condomâyou still felt relief flooding your veins at the thought of Soonyoung liking you as much as you liked him. It almost felt like you were in a dream.
After what felt like an eternity, you finally remembered how to breathe.
You pulled back to look at him, and even though it was the middle of the day, it felt like all the stars were out to make Soonyoung shine brighter than usual.
âBe my girlfriend,â he repeated, softer this time, and his eyes were gentle as his hands reached for yours. Your lips immediately tugged down and your eyes were welling up with tears. âNo, no, no, Y/N, donât start crying at the DMV.â
You wiped at the corner of your eye. âI canât help it. I always cry at the DMV.â He smiled down at you fondly, waiting for you to gather your composure. You mustered up the strength to lift your head and nod eagerly. âI accept.â
He was your boyfriend now. The word felt strange on your tongue, but it also filled you with inexplicable happiness. And when you saw how Soonyoungâs eyes crinkled at the corners, you thought you could definitely get used to this.Â
âYouâre so cute.â He laughed, pulling you into his embrace once again. âHow about we go get something to eat after you tell them your score?â
You grinned. âYeah, Iâd like that.â
While Soonyoung was waiting in the car for you (and probably readjusting your terrible parking job before he got yelled at), you walked into the DMV and stood in the same line you were in months ago for your permit test. You remembered the anxious feeling of possibly failing your written test a seventh time, but now you felt a huge weight being lifted off your shoulders.Â
âI did it,â you gushed to the woman at the counter, handing her your score sheet. âI passed.âÂ
âCongratulations!â she chirped, examining the papers before turning to type something on her computer. She turned to grab your temporary license from the printer and handed it to you. âHere you go. Your real one should come in the mail in a few weeks.â
âThank you so much,â you replied, inspecting your new license with bright eyes.Â
You failed your permit test six times, only passing on your seventh attempt. While other children were getting their licenses at the age of sixteen, you were still trying to pass the written test in your twenties. And, yes, you had severe driving anxiety, but you crossed that hurdle yourself and finally passed your driving test on your first try.Â
So, that glass ceiling? Consider it smashed.
AUTHORâS NOTE ⸠thank you so so much for reading if you've made it this far !! :') i've been wanting to write for hoshi for so long and this was just so fun <3 also BIG shoutout to everyone who asked to be on the tag list because although i couldn't respond to everyone (mostly because i figured i would end up tagging everyone twice đ§ââď¸ ), i mega appreciate your interest ⥠hope everyone's having a wonderful day/night !!