Happiness is OURS

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Once Upon A Time

Once upon a time, there was a girl who loved a boy. He must be her first love, because she'd trusted for the first time: to gave her thought, to gave her heart, fully. She even imagined him to be her future, beautifully.

Cling on that boy, was her favorite. Cling, cling, cling, on that boy, yes she was extreamly a clingy girl. No, not because she is, it was because of him. She loved him too much. She even never knew that she has love, this much.

She came to him, cheerfully. Walked with big smile on her face. No matter how far, no matter how sick, no matter how she has to woke up earlier in the morning. All she knew was: "I really want to see his face and sweet dimple hang on there." So, she: used lemonade mask in the night, told the lies to her mother stright, and sleep tight, wish tomorrow her face more bright.

But now, she's crying. She knows, this is not the first time her tears falling. Because now, she don't know him; don't want to meet him; anymore.

She lost that boy, her first love. She lost the joy, now just a scary boy. She just don't know him anymore.

I feel like a cat doused with hot water. It's hurt.

Jakarta - October 1, 2015 11.42 PM -AOH

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I Was Lost

At night, I try to sleep early Judge myself harsly I can not get my mind to stop it

Then I hit and slap my face Thousand times I've told myself This is my fault

Who am I with this fragile heart? It was torn into pieces, and I? I am all out of faith Don't even know how to fix it

Streams of tears flow from my eyes All I can do is cry My eyes seems never to be dry

I was lost

Jakarta - September 20, 2015 10.49 PM AOH

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Ini

Ini kabur, Ini hancur, karena ada air mata yang mengucur.

Ini remang, Ini gamang, karena pikiran yang mulai hilang.

Ini pahit, teramat sakit, ada perasaan yang terluka, ditenggelamkan kecewa.

Ini salah, tersesat arah, pada diri sendiri, aku marah.

Ini aku, yang terpaku, larut dalam sendu, entah, sampai waktu tak tentu. Bisakah luka berlalu?

Jakarta - September 18, 2015 10.03 -AOH

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Can't You Feel It All Over?

Like a starfish stranded on the beach Loses its arms one by one Waiting for the life cycle come to finally disappear from the world, calm

So am I Stranded here Crying over again, and again To be in your arms Pleace where you’ll hold me tight And feel your warmth

It's been 7 months and 22 days since the day we met By that time I don't even want to know How sad and how hurt To be a lonesome heart

So please, don't ever go Stay with me forever Because my heart starts to cry It cries a lot Thinking about you

Can't you feel it all over? Hm?

Jakarta - September 7, 2015 9.46 PM -AOH

*Written not with ink, but tears of love

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Kadang sehari terasa sangat lama, namun juga bisa berlalu begitu cepat. Padahal, satu hari tetap, 24 jam, 1440 menit, 86.400 detik. Jadi, semua itu hanya tentang; Apa, bagaimana, siapa: yang membunuh sang waktu. Dan juga, ada saat-saat dimana, kita sangat ingin atau sangat tidak ingin, bagian-bagiannya terulang. Jakarta - June 25, 2105 8.54 PM -AOH

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I strongly believe that God will make everything beautiful in His time.

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Saat cinta mulai berubah menjadi ilusi. Semua hanya seperti rangkaian majas dalam sastra. Ketika itu, cinta tidak terasa, tidak lagi nyata. Jakarta - June 1, 2015 5.10 PM. -AOH

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Dear Lord Jesus;

Every night,  before I go to sleep, I close my eyes, fall on my knees, and I pray like this;

Dear Lord Jesus, I also pray for Joy, who lives away from his family today. I pray for his good health, his study, and also his safety.

Please keep him in Thy sight. On every night, let him sleep tight.

In every single step that he makes, and every breath that he takes. Let him be salt and light.

Dear Lord Jesus, You know that I love him. I really do, sincerely.

If we are destined to be together, Let us love each other, with the pure heart that we have, selflessly, patiently, and gently.

Let us love, with the love that You’ve told. Lead us not into temptation and sins, but fear of God, at all times.

But,  Dear Lord Jesus, If we are not meant to be together, Let Your will be done in our life, Your honor.

In the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, I pray, Amen.

-Joy, you don’t need to ask me to pray for you, because I will always do.-

Jakarta - May 19, 2015. 3.13 A.M -AOH

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Manusia Tinggal

Manusia tinggal, dan menjadi sama dengan dunia. Sampai lupa, setiap jengkal tubuh yang dipunya, setiap nafas yang di hela, itu karena Dia berkuasa.

Lantas, dengan mudah menyerukan kebebasan, mengikuti nafsu dan segala kenikmatan. Sampai lupa, adanya surga dan neraka, setelah kehidupan.

Jakarta - May 28, 2015. 3.33 A.M -AOH

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Joy itu lagu kesukaan ku, yang selalu ku senandungkan dengan sayang dan rindu ku. Joy juga memiliki nadanya sendiri, ritmenya lembut mengaliri hati ini.

Tuhan, terima kasih untuk Joy. Tolong jaga setiap langkahnya agar selalu berjalan dalam terang Mu. Amin.

-AOH

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I just drew my baby bear! I miss you a lot, Joy ♥

Jakarta - May 10, 2015. 4:30 AM -AOH

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Dear mine, Although I feel like I’m being left behind and abandoned this lately, but I thank God I have you. Thank you for brightening up my days, Joy.

With love, Yours.

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Rindu Sejak..

Malam ini langit pun terharu, melihat aku yang merindukan mu. Rindu yang ku simpan sejak waktu itu. Sejak hujan mengaburkan tetesan air mata, dan suara jatuhnya menyamarkan isak tangis yang ada.

April 25, 2015. Saat aku mengantar pergi mu.

Hari itu.. Hari dimana kedua tangan ku saling bertemu dibalik bahu mu. Dalam dekap aku berharap, waktu rela berhenti berlalu. Sebab aku ingin lebih lama, memeluk mu begitu. Sebab aku ingin lebih lama, di dalam peluk mu itu.

Hari itu.. Hari dimana aku memberanikan diri tuk pertama kali, Mendaratkan kecup tepat di lesung pipi mu. Lagi-lagi berharap, bisa hentikan waktu. Sebab aku masih ingin, mengecupmu begitu. Sebab aku masih ingin, dikecup pipi ku semanis itu.

Saat ini, waktu mungkin belum berpihak. Aku dan kamu. Kita berdua, masih jadi aktor utama, menjalani cerita yang sebenarnya tak sama. Jadi, kejarlah apa yang ingin di kejar, berlarilah dalam mimpi yang masih berpijar. Hingga waktu menyerah atas kita.

Mari saling melengkapi, dalam waktu saling menunggu. Sampai kita berdua bisa memulai bab yang baru, dan menyatu. Tanpa ada yang berubah. Tanpa ada menyerah.

Aku sayang kamu. Aku sayang kamu dengan perasaan paling tulus yang aku punya, Joy.

Jakarta - Mei 4, 2015. 2.23 AM -AOH

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The difference of ‘being in love’ and ‘loving someone’?

“What is the difference of ‘being in love’ and ‘loving someone?’” 

Tiba-tiba Sendy, seorang teman baik, teman senasib-sepenanggungan, teman yang paling asik diajak ngrobrol seputar perasaan, ngirim pertanyaan seperti itu via line. Kangen banget sama anak yang satu ini, honestly. Sudah lamaaaa ga ngobrol  tentang hati dari hati ke hati. Soalnya lagi pada sibuk bercinta sama makhluk yang namanya skripsi.

Here’s my answer:

“Being in love = Jatuh Cinta. Loving someone = Mencintai Seseorang.

Being in love is  a kind of strong feeling that you have to someone. You may feel your heart is beating so fast everytime you around him or even just by thinking of him. He’s all you think about and all you want.

But

Loving someone is softer, more tender, and gentler than being in love. Because when you are "truly" loving someone, you'll expect nothing. His happiness being yours, even if by letting him go. I think loving someone is the next phase of being in love.”

“At least, we have to being in love first then loving someone ya?” She asked.

“No, not always. There’s a deeper feeling than both: Loving someone at the same time as you fall in love so many times, with the same person.”

:’)

Jakarta - May 3, 2015. 2:30 AM -AOH

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Ya Sang Tuhan

Seperti tiada lagi kata. Kosong. Kosong. Remuk redam oleh hampa berjuta.

Tawa atau tangis, bahagia maupun miris, semuanya terasa beda tipis. Pada akhirnya, bibir hanya tersenyum manis. Menipu diri sendiri dengan cara yang tragis.

Manusia ini begitu nista! Banyak ingin, banyak dosa. Banyak minta, tidak kira-kira. Cih, maunya tiap detik yang sempurna saja. Sampai tak punya lagi kata. Dan mati api yang membakar asa. Manusia ini lelah? Karena luka? Karena duka? Karena apa? Bukan. Bukan. Manusia ini hanya kurang rasa syukur. Terlalu angkuh hingga berkat mulai diukur. Ampuni segala ketidaktahudirian, karena masih mengeluh atas hadiah bernama kehidupan, ya Sang Tuhan.

Jakarta - April 14, 2015. 11.07 PM -AOH

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Akhir-akhir ini sistem limbik otak bekerja lebih keras dalam memproses informasi dan menghasilkan emosi. Termasuk kesedihan, kesedihan, kesedihan, kesedihan, kesedihan, kerinduan, kerinduan, kerinduan, kerinduan kerinduan, serta ketakutan; akan patah hati, akan kehilangan, akan kecemburuan, akan kekhawatiran lainnya, akan akan akan. Sebelumnya, sistem tersebut cukup cerdas dalam mengelola informasi dan selektif dalam memainkan emosi, setidaknya sebelum pencipta rindu itu hadir.

Jakarta, April 11, 2015 1:28 AM AOH

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That Guy

That guy who has dimple on his left cheek, seeing his smile make me feel that life is so real. His smile, His dimple, and every sweetness of him is only mine. Am I too selfish? Can I?

His fingers was created to be mine to fill the space between. His shoulder is only mine to lean on. His arm is only mine to cling on. My cheek is the only place for his warm kisses to landed on. All of him is mine, only mine. Am I too greedy? Can I?

That guy who has simple dimple on his left cheek, dreaming together with him, make the time move more slowly, so I wish it would go by faster than it should be. But, is he really mine? Will he remember the dream we’ve set together?

That guy, I wish, Every love we share today, we’ll never let it fade away. Because having each other in a dream is the most beautiful way.

Jakarta - April 4, 2015 4.41 AM -AOH