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Sadness

I don't know what happened between us. It has been a fulfilling August and start of September yet the end of September feels so draining. Sobrang hirap naman Lord. I don't know anymore what to do. Hindi pa ako ready to let go but should I accept it na ba? Pano ko malalaman if I have to accept it na Lord? I just want to live in peace. Mamamatay na ako dito kakaisip.

Wasn’t able to sleep all night. I dunno- was it the anxiety of a looming workload. I don’t know anymore. I like my current job but the stress and the long hours keep me irrate. HAHA

I ask the traffic lights if it’ll be alright, they say “I don’t know”

Taylor Swift

So I had a job offer this morning. Kinda stressed about it because the commute in ortigas extension is frightening. Ayoko na magcommute!!!

Haha posting this here.

2021

Hi! The end of 2021 is near and here I am again with my yearly posts. HAHAHA

Anyway, I just want to say that this year is kind of tough. Fun by holyshette was it tough by a mile from last year. I lost people and will continue losing some until NY. That, I am sure of~ I need to start anew.

People expect too much from me, to the point that a mistake will cost me their friendship. “Give up on me like I was a bad drug” (Death by a Thousand Cuts) resonates with me more than ever.

I hope in 2022 I will be able to find my constants.

I know, I am not that easy of a person to deal with but I know that I am kind enough and lovable enough to get a long with. I’m pretty sure that I’m one of the kinder person that these people have met but why can they shut their doors easily on me? Or is it the other way around? Because I know for a fact that I can burn bridges in a snap.

I learned from Happy Old Year that it isn’t easy to throw away stuff. That the memories that they hold has an impact on a person in one way or another. I know that~ I am sentimental. I may seem cold and distant but deep down, to my core, that I care a lot. And people don’t recognize that. They look at me as someone who has no feelings, no emotions. And when I try to loosen up and share these soft side of me - they invalidate it. It sucks!

That’s why it’s easier to live alone, with my dogs, in a mountain.

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Anyway, I will be leaving Antipolo soon!

To a new place with better men probably? HAHAHA But seriously... in 2022 I hope I will be able to stabilize everything. I hope that I would get to be in love with someone and will choose him every single day.

Thank you God for letting me experience this pitfall, because in this I will strive to fly and with flying I will appreciate your creations more.

Thanks to all friends who have been true and who have never doubted my sincerity - it means so much to me. And to those who don’t, you don’t deserve me and I wish you a pleasant life post-me.

Yow

So anw, I just bought a new laptop. And in fairness naman, sumipag ako. HAHA

Gosh, I should refrain from posting one-liners like this kasi nagmumukhang twitter yung tumblr hahaha

Yo!

So ayun yung last post ko wala na. WAHAHHA

Anw, I just wanna be happy. Will be working on improving my health, kapogian and finances muna until I finished MSIB. YAY!

Hi! I think I’m in love?

FUCK 2020!

Gahd I did not blog for the entire 2019 so I will catch up!!! I’ll talk about all my travels and happenings here so~~~ A lot of things happened and I blogged about it on my wordpress site: dankindonat So let me enumerate for now: 1. Emman 2. TIP 3. Axelum 4. Bali 5. Boracay 6. Siargao 7. Team MILA 8. Thailand 9. Trips with titos

2019

OMG! How many years have passed since I last posted here? Lemme get back to posting here! I’m also posting some personal contents on my blog: dankindonat.wordpress.com so I envision this blog to be a ‘travel’ one.

Hoping that you see more of me this 2019! I just miss tumblr.

LOWEST.

It’s sad that I can’t attend the christening of my soon-to-be most favorite inaanak for 1 reason - I HAVE NO MONEY.

I used to think that I don’t need money to be happy as long as I have time but NO. It’s definitely not the case especially in this world that we’re living right now where commercialism already took over our lives.

I wanna see Reli. I wanna see Grace. I don’t want people to be disapointed by me anymore. I’ve been waiting for this day since last year since I want to attend a legit christening where I’m on of the Godfathers and specially since Grace is there. WHEW. Lord, I don’t think I deserve this poverty. Please give me a job soon.