Living? Or Just Existing?

Sometimes my thoughts get loud.

[chibird]

Sometimes the sadness just pours out of you endlessly, and I wonder how there could be so much stored in there. If you’re feeling down, I hope that the sadness ends soon. 🙏

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[happyrice27]

To love you was to hand you a gun,

And have you aim it at my heart,

And pray you never pull the trigger.

Except,

You did.

And you left me to bleed out.

As I cried.

FOR YOU.

But you turned your back,

And walked away.

[thepersonalquotes]

[happyrice27]

And so I opened the door once more for you.

I invited you in again.

It felt nice in the beginning as it usually does.

But then reality hit once again.

I conversed about things you didn’t like.

And you ran out on me.

Just like you did at coffee.

Things were never the same since that day.

But I always thought it was just an off day for you.

I didn’t realize that was who you had become.

I kept inviting you in not realizing you were a stranger.

Maybe it’s for the better you always run off.

So I don’t correlate you with this version of someone so unkind.

But that’s the problem.

It is still you.

Just not the version I remember.

A familiar face but nothing more.

It’s a strange phenomenon.

[happyrice27]

They said if you love them let them go.

So I did.

And you came back.

So.

Many.

Times.

And every time,

You were never mine.

So now what?

[happyrice27]

Because no matter what page I start on, the ending never changes.

[michaeldaaboul]

Sometimes the bravest thing you can do is continue your life while your heart is still heavy.

[happyrice27]

Because how can my heart still ache over you after all these years?

[happyrice27]

I’m not mad, I’m disappointed.

I’m not sad, I’m tired.

I’m not happy, I’m hurt.

I don’t regret you, but sometimes,

I wish I did.

[happyrice27]

I’m scared I’ll forget the sound of your voice.

But then I remember all the times I called you

And you sent me to voicemail.

I’m scared I won’t recognize you if our paths ever cross again.

But then I remember all the times I asked to FaceTime

And you told me you couldn’t.

I’m scared that maybe you don’t love me anymore.

But then I remember I used to know a life without you

And I will learn to live that way again.

[happyrice27]

“please stop hurting me”

[happyrice27]

And somehow you became a stranger who knows everything about me.

[thepersonalquotes]

[thepersonalquotes]

[michaeldaaboul]

Some days you don’t need answers. You just need the weight to lift enough to breathe again.

[thepersonalquotes]

[thepersonalquotes]