Also, since no one told you and it's always annoyed the fuck out of me..
You let a man handle his own people and his own business.
You always let anyone manage their own friends and family if there's ever some kind of bad vibe or anything like that.
I let my man handle his business unless he asks otherwise, it's fucking disrespectful and insulting that you constantly stick your nose in your men's business like you do and try to micromanage their life and personal relationships. Every time you do that, what you're saying is that you don't think your man can handle his own.
That shit is so annoying and cringe, for real.
I know mine can handle his own fucking life.
You bitch all your boyfriends, because you're literally a man in drag.
But if he ever needs somebody to get out of pocket when the situation calls for it, he knows I'm on it.
All he has to do is say the word, but until then I fuck off and respect his business.
Because that's how you give your partner respect.
But he knows anyone he cares about as a friend is always welcome and I'll always treat them with the same level of care and trust he presents toward them, and I'll always match his vibe when it comes to his people and trust his word with them because he knows them better.
Not that you would know anything about allowing your man to take the lead and have control because you respect their autonomy and know they are a fully capable equal as a partner- because you resent your partners for being better at some things than you, or being more educated in some topics, or if they're right about something and you were wrong. You have to constantly feel better than your man, you always have to make the decisions and have all the control, and you want a passive weakling who lets you without ever speaking up if they don't agree.
Nah. I don't want a pussy bitch for a team mate.
I want a man who will tell me when I'm wrong. I want a man who will speak up and tell me if he wants things a different way. I want a man who can teach me things I don't know, and my husband is constantly requesting I try new things like food, or hobbies, or shows and music, and he is so much smarter than me at all things mechanical or technical and I feel like I learn something new with him every single day.
I know mine is capable. He's incredible.
He amazes me every fucking day.
He has it under control, and for once in my life I don't need to constantly worry, and I don't have to do everything.. By myself. I can trust him to carry in the groceries without fearing he would use it as leverage. I can let him help me pay for things without the fear of being treated like a burden. I grew up that way, and all my life I didn't realize just how much I needed this angel of man to show me how to trust someone enough to let them help me, to not need to be the strong one all the time, and I can feel safe crying my eyes out with my head in his lap when I would usually hide and not allow any man or even my family to see me being vulnerable.. To see me being human.
I love that in my long life of hyper independence, I can trust him enough that I can sit back and let him handle things, let him walk in front and lead me, let him decide where we go to run errands first, let him make the call of what route we take when we're out, and I can just turn off my mind and relax because I know he has it under control.
That's how relationships are supposed to be.
There are simply some characteristics in a rare and valuable man like mine you just can't find in your average man. I spend every day trying to make myself better, so I can feel like I deserve him. So I can feel like I'm worth his time, and feel like I can give to him all the incredible gifts he's brought into my life-
And he makes it look so easy.
To be as perfect as he is.
Not me starting to cry at 5am.
I'm such a fucking baby. Ha ha ha.
Can't help but laugh at myself.
I would have never been able to feel any of this, until the day I met him back then. It scared me, the feeling of attachment, and I ran. He changed me, forever. Until I met him, relationships were just exciting and it fun to be infatuated, I didn't even have a concept of how much more it could be. He lead me and he taught me how to love. And I was not an easy student, I was shown my entire life just how hard I was to love, so I just never tried to reach a deeper level. And there he was, and he was the very first person to make me feel like I was easy to love.
But he's always been so certain about me.
He knew immediately. He's so all-in, in love.
I don't know how he ended up this fearless.
Back in the day, he turned me into a coward.
No one really knows how much I love Sam.
Sam doesn't even know how much I love Sam.