Choices Part 2
a/n: Hi! Yes I know it has been a long time. VERY SORRY! I had a lot of big life events happen (graduated from college, grad school (apps, interviews, drama etc)). So for that i am very sorry. Because this one leaves on a cliff hanger and given my writing updates, Iâm halfway done with part 3 and locking myself away to finish it. Anyway thank you for being so patient with me!
Warnings: unprotected sex, oral (f receiving), ANGST
part 1
You could feel your eyes drying out as you stared down at salad in front of you. It was bitter and way too vinegary, but Jules had recommended it. âIt is unreal! I swear I argue with myself every time. Like should I get it or try something new!â Nothing had seemed appealing lately to you, so the recommendation was welcomed.
Your eyes wondered around the restaurant as you eyed the tables nearby. You and Jules had a ritual of having lunch together on Fridays as way to decompress from the week. Often the conversation would range from office gossip to the most recent episode of Love Island in the span of an hour. Today Jules was complaining about her going to see her in laws this weekend. âSimonâs mum is so protective and Iâm always the bad guy because I told him to try something new.â She said grabbing her drink to take a sip. âLike I swear you would never know the cord was cut at birth,â she laughed with one hand making scissors motions.
You only cracked a smile which earned a frown from Jules. âOh come on! That was funny. Iâm wasting all my good bits on you.â
You sighed, eyes coming to meet hers. âSorry, it was.â You paused, setting down your fork so your hand could run through your hair. âIâm just in my head. I have a bunch of stuff going on,â You admitted.
âLike a deadline?â She asked, taking another sip.
âNo not that.â You bit into your cheek, trying to find the correct phrasing. It had been a week since Harry stormed out and every moment since it had been gnawing at you. Your mind had been replaying each moment transforming it into a distorted nightmare. Additionally, he wasnât texting beyond reminding you that the electrician was stopping by and telling you he was in LA. There was a deep sense of dread in your stomach preparing for the worst. âMe and H got into a fight last weekend, and I donât know whatâs going to happen.â You felt your eyes watering up as you tried to blink them away. âI said something really mean and heâs not really talking to me and I just donât think he wants to repair it.â You could feel a tear run down as you were quick to dab it away. âLike ugh I was just so mad at him. And I just wanted to hurt him and I did.â The tears became a quick pour down your face.
Julesâ expression softens, sliding her hand across the table for you. âIâm sure itâs gonna be okay, love,â she cooed. âHe just needs time, he obsessed with you! Iâve seen the way he looks at you.â
You slipped your hand into hers, soaking in the comfort. Your other hand grabbed the napkin next to you, wiping away your tears.âYeah but I donât think heâll forgive me,â you replied in a calm down. You took in several deep breathes as an attempt to regain composure.
âI promise he will, he truly loves you.â Her thumb gently rubbed against your knuckles. You nodded, hoping she was right.
~
The door handle felt cold in your hand as you turned it pushing into the house. Instinctly, your hand found the light switch to flick it. However you stopped your movements noticing the lights were already on. Turning the corner, you jumped at the sudden appearance of Harry coming down the stairs. âOh sorry for scaring you, I heard the door and assumed it was you.â He said.
He was wearing what he usually wore when lounging around the house which was gym shorts and some old shirt. Your eyes analyzed his face for any evidence of his mental state. His eyes look tired, and he had bit more scruff than usual but nothing more. It seemed your eyes were permanently bloodshot and the bags under your eyes darken. âHi,â you replied going to set your purse on the kitchen counter. âHow are you?â You asked trying to be polite.
âFine, I just got in this morning.â Harry came to the opposite side of the counter. He was unsure how he should approach you. It felt like you both were the same ends of a magnet. âI um wanted to talk you but wanted to do it in person.â He sunk himself down on the kitchen stool, burying his face in his hands. You took note of his nervous habit.
A seed of panic began to grow inside of you, trying to swallow it all down. âYeah?â
âI had a lot of time to think and Iâm sorry for how I left and how avoidant I have been. I just needed space and I was really angry and hurt by you.â You crossed your arms across your body, feeling the dryness in your throat. âI think I was so hurt because I get comments like that all the time from the world. And to hear that from you,â he sucked in a sharp breath as his face knitted up into a scrunch. âYou who is suppose to be my partner and know me. Really suppose to know me, you know?â He curled his lips into his mouth. âAnd if thatâs how you know me then frankly I think weâre too different.â
âHarry Iâm really sorry. I was just angry and upset and I know there are no excuses but Iâm sorry.â You leaned across the counter, extending yourself to him. âI promise I donât see you like that. You are such an amazing person and nothing like I said.â
His eyes harden again as they stayed fixated on the countertop. He couldnât even look you in your eyes. âI just donât think this is going to work. I think weâre too different.â
Your heart sank to your stomach and you felt a well of tears start to pool in your eyes. âOkay,â you mustered out.
âIâm sorry.â He stood up from his seat coming towards you. He held his arms out before engulfing you in them. You sobbed into his chest while he rubbed your back in gentle circles. After a few moments, he softly spoke. âI still you love, y/n. Thatâs the other part that hurts in all of this, but itâs for the best.â
Your insides crumbled as you reached your arms around his neck. You nestled your face into his bare skin, trying to memorize his scent. Pushing more into him, your lips began to faintly kiss him.
His hands moved towards your waist, firmly holding it. The familiar feeling began to erupt an explosion of desire inside of him. All week he had felt little to no interest in sex so your skin on his felt amplified. âI donât know if this is right, y/n,â he sighed. He pushed himself into you as you sucked at his skin.
âJust let me have this,â you pleaded coming up for air. You crashed your lips onto his, âI just want you one final time.â You both melted into each other. You and Harry knew each otherâs spots and how to work them perfectly.
âBelieve me I want you y/n, but I want to make sure this is right.â His tensed his body as you slipped your hand into his shorts, grabbing at his warm skin.
You leaned your mouth against his ear, âI just really want you to fuck me right now,â you said eagerly. You hopped up onto the counter and Harry pushed himself between your legs. He hooked his fingers into the waistband of your pants, tugging them down along with your panties. Your hands lifted your top over your head, exposing your chest to him. He latched his mouth to your collar bone as left a trail of kisses along them. âCan you do that for me? Please make me cum.â
His mouth went downward and his body slumped down to his knees while his hands brought you closer to the edge. He attached his mouth to you making you heave at the sudden feeling. His tongue licked upwards against your clit giving you a growing bud of pleasure. You swung your leg over his shoulder for better access, leaning backwards to rest your weight on your arms. The intense pleasure would at times mix with the pain you felt which made you want him more. You craved him.
The waves of indulgences began to combine with one another and you could feel your release was imminent. âIâm gonna cum,â you moaned. Harry slipped a finger into you as your orgasmed washed over you. He pulled away from you, his mouth shining in the light. He thought to himself how much he would miss the taste of you. The way he could feel you expand around him when you came and how blissfully your face looked afterwards. He already missed you. He tossed his shirt over his body and quickly ridding his short away too, desiring to only feel your skin. âDo you think you can cum for a second time for me?â You nodded standing up from the counter. You turned around, laying your front side against the cool side. Goosebumps puckered up all over you skin when Harry gave a quick smack to your ass. âHmm mine.â He immediately regretted the word as he cringed at himself. He was glad he couldnât see your face.
He slid himself into you, giving himself to you. You moaned at the feeling, your primal needs coming out. Harryâs thumb snaked its way to your sensitive clit, and began to firmly rub in circles. You could start to feel your second orgasm growing.
The kitchen was filled with the sound of your bodies colliding and both of yours grunts. Harry kept a firm grip on you as he felt his own release coming. He wanted to savor the moment but couldnât hold himself back. âFuck, I love this pussy. I love the way it feels. Fuck,â he strummed out. His thumb became sloppy as you came down from your second high. Both of you were catching your breaths, Harry laid his head against your back still inside of you. âI love you.â He spoke in a gentle tone.
His words brought you out of your enlightenment, the emptiness finding its way back. âI love you, too.â You finally said after what felt like hours.
He pulled himself out of you and you could feel his cum drip out of you down your leg. Using his shirt, he wiped it away. The weight of the situation fell onto his shoulders as he put on his shorts. âI guess I should have reached for a condom, sorry for that.â
âYeah I guess so,â you said realizing how awkward it might be to have unprotected sex with someone youâre no longer with. âShould be fine, still not pregnant so.â You felt incredibly stiffed suddenly as you grabbed your clothes. âMaybe one of us is infertile.â You tried to joke to lighten the mood.
He gave a weak laugh which made you feel like another knife had stabbed you in the heart. âYou can erm have the bed, Iâll be in the guest room.â
You started to head upstairs wanting to rid yourself of this situation. âSounds great. We can decide what to do later with all the stuff. Anyway, Iâm gonna head upstairs to shower.â Once your body stood under the hot water, all the emotional toll fell over you. You curled your body into a tight ball, letting the water fall.
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Harry had decided to stay out in LA while you sorted through everything. He felt guilty for staying there and almost gave you the house several times. Actually, he was still debating that idea since it wasnât like he couldnât afford another place. Either way, he couldnât stand to see you since it pained him so deeply. He hoped the sun, beach, and work would let him escape this world he had created.
To be honest, your turmoil had shifted to a newfound panic when you realized you were late. Instead of crying yourself to sleep, you were tossing and turning at idea of you being pregnant with your now ex-boyfriendâs baby. He also dumped you.
You paced the bathroom endlessly, waiting for the timer to go off. The sudden ring jolted practically jolted your bones. Each step towards the plastic test felt like eternity till you were faced with a small âpregnantâ in the window.












