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I’ve been mentally ill for so long now that sometimes I don’t even realise how bad it is anymore

Like I sit here with my anxiety bubbling away for no reason and I’m like ‘this is fine’

And I’m considering suicide like ‘this is normal’

I isolate myself constantly like ‘how am I going to avoid everyone today’

And I walk around in a dissociated state, not remember what I’ve done each day thinking ‘it must be Halloween soon’ even though its April

This is my ‘norm’ and that’s why I feel like I’m never going to recover

“You’re not a bad person for the ways you tried to kill your sadness.”

— (via perrfectly)

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Text: Not all wounds are visible

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Depression post:

Ever since i was little, i had this ‘bubble’ and it wasn’t until years and years later i realised it was severe depression caused by suicidal thoughts. But now I know what it is, i know why i only get this bubble when im extremely low.

When i was in my bubble, i used to run my hand along a brick wall and i couldn’t feel it, a bush and i couldn’t feel it. I couldn’t feel holding a pencil in school or even the steps i would take. It wasn’t until i was 9 years old that i finally mentioned it to my mum and she just shrugged it off.

And now here i am again, 5th time in my life ive had this bubble hit me HARD. Im laying in bed, staring at the ceiling unable to sleep yet again because my skin is not comfy, i cant feel my bed or the duvet.

It’s not the same feeling as when people say their feeling numb, because i’ve felt that many times. And it’s not the same as when people say they feel everything and yet nothing all at the same time, because that’s how i feel often. I think this bubble… it’s my mind making me feel like im already dead, because that’s what i want the most.

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i want so bad for him to notice im struggling, but the second he asks, I’ll deny it.

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No one messages me, no one asks how I feel, no one wants to do anything with me, no one tries to stay in contact with me, no one cares about me. No wonder I am God damn worthless, I’m sitting home 24/7 not doing anything, not being invited to anything, not even getting written to. I always have to come up and message everyone, I always have to reach out to try and get something done, I always try my best. But sure, I like to hear that no I can’t, sorry or that no I’m too busy or it isn’t the best time for that. Sure thing man, I don’t have feelings anyway, let me just be depressed the whole day again, sounds like a fun time. Fuck this shit. JUST TELL ME THAT I AM WORTHLESS, THAT I AM SHIT AND THAT NOT EVEN A SINGLE ONE OF YOU WANTS TO DO SHIT WITH ME. FUCK LIFE AND FUCK HUMANS AND FUCK FRIENDS LITERALLY.

FUCK - 12.12.18 21:13