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As a person who prefers to suffer alone, it's safe to say that I finally 'realized' that I met a lot of good and kind people, and that I have a person to talk with when I feel overwhelmed, stressed and sad and, of course, when I am happy.

I'm grateful to say that I have a person I can confide in. I don't think I ever felt this gratefulness to the god or universe or to whoever was in charge. Thank you with all my heart.

having a fucking quarter life crisis right now, haven’t been sleeping much lately, and just now after trying to fall asleep for hours i realized that i fucking wasted 6 years no 9 years of my life. if i skipped one year and just started senior year of high school, i would have already graduated and working right now. and ofc right before graduating from university fucking corona ruined it and now im fucking 25 and im starting again from freshmen year in another college

i just can’t….. like why????? why my life is this way?? why i can’t be like any other normal human being??? i don’t want to be a special or whatever fuck people want to be, i just want to be average and fucking normal.

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usually im a good sleeper butin the last few days i just can’t fall asleep. feeling drained and tired, having too many thoughts. and today i suddenly remembered my old tumbr account and thought maybe i can start writing about my feelings there, why not? no one else will see it.

my whole life i always belittled myself and my feelings. whenever i feel down i used to bash myself for doing nothing, being nothing but still feeling sad. i thought i didn’t deserved to feel sad or to be stressed. everytime i questioned myself, what did u do in your life to be stressed right now, you don’t have right, you loser!!!

now i finally realized that i have serious mental health issues. and dissing myself was one of it. and that complimenting yourself sometimes is a must.

2021-01-29

2:06am

#my thoughts #dear diary #mental health

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So I’m hyperventilating a little so if I fall over, pick me up because I’ve got a few things to say.

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be kind. be ridiculously, radically, endlessly kind. be a part of someone’s good day. send nice thoughts, send positive vibes, send support and love and well wishes. be kind. so often we wish for tomorrow to be a good day when we are at our lowest. some sort of sign that it gets better. be a part of that better day for someone. the world does not magically decide that it will be softer on you today, tomorrow, the next day. and sometimes it starts with a message from someone else, maybe a little bit of inner strength to pull yourself up and take a shower, maybe a bit of sunlight makes the day better. but it’s these small things, these soft things that make a day better. so be kind. don’t ever think about being anything other than kind. be a part of someone’s good day because you don’t know how desperate they might be for it.