but at least i'm alive

❝    even  as  a  child  ,  she  had  preferred  night  to  day  ,  had  enjoyed  sitting  out  in  the  yard  after  sunset  ,  under  the  star  -  speckled  sky  listening  to  frogs  &  crickets  . darkness  soothed  .   the  night  was  bigger  than  the  day  ,  &  in  its  realm  ,  life  seemed  to  have  more  possibilities  .    ❞

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—          quick  links  to  muses  penned  by  kori  in  copperspringshq     .

✎     →     diana  meade  (  the  secret  circle  )  :  biography  . ✎     →     beverly  marsh  (  stephen  king’s  it  )  :  biography  . ✎     →     jane  ‘  eleven  ’  hopper  (  stranger  things  )  :  biography  . ✎     →     alice  cullen  (  twilight  )  :  biography  .

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→   wheeler  ,  mike

her reaction, the cadence with which she questions him … it’s off-putting. precociousness like this is surely just a front. but for what? mike’s not entirely sure so soon.  even so, he clears his throat as a smirk dances at the edge of his lips. ❝ it’s not entirely an insult, ❞ he offers dryly. he hums curtly with the intention to let the topic fall away, but something keeps him strangely invested. he folds his arms over his chest, frame leaning against the bus stop’s metal fixture. ❝ is that what you’re studying? sounds like a trip. what gotcha’ into it? ❞ master of small talk, this one.

→          her  heart  felt  as  though  it  was  going  to  explode  in  her  chest  .  surely  he  didn’t  forget  her  ,  she  had  to  have  some  impact  on  his  life  up  to  the  moment  they  had  drifted  apart  .  chocolate  hues  search  around  their  surroundings  ,  internally  praying  that  max  would  show  up  to  save  her  from  the  anxiety  that  was  pumping  through  her  veins  ,  her  breath  getting  stuck  in  her  throat  .  tapping  a  ring  on  her  pointer  finger  against  her  textbook  for  some  sort  of  white  noise  ,  jane  swallowed  her  fear  to  finally  answer  the  other  .   ❝  i  -----  want  to  know  how  the  brain  ...  works  .  ❞  she  stuttered  quietly  .

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⟶     tozier  ,  richie

❝ havent got my glasses on, y’see. i would’ve been spot-on otherwise, ❞ richie counters lightly, gesturing vaguely to his own face. oh, they’ve changed. the before and the after had been brutal in their own rights, but this in-between that had been lost to time is a fucking trip! his smile is gone and his laugh lilts upward with beverlys shrew observation of his methods. damned if you do, damned if you don’t, isn’t it? ❝ excuse the hell out of me for trying to wine and dine ya! ❞ he takes the bills in the palm of his hand and, paired with his own bills, slides them across the counter to the expectant cashier. ❝ have your tastes switched up on me, bev? should i just ask for a bag of sugar from the kitchen and call it a day? ❞

→        ❝  ouch  !  you  need  your  glasses  to  realize  that  it’s  the  actual  love  of  your  life  behind  you  ?  ❞  bev  asked  with  a  bright  smile  on  her  lips  ,  looking  towards  the  pastries  once  again  .  she  didn’t  like  to  talk  about  the  amount  of  changes  each  of  them  have  gone  through  ;  she  hadn’t  seen  many  of  the  losers  around  .  she  was  waiting  patiently  for  the  rest  of  their  group  to  show  up  ,  if  they  would  .  ❝  wine  and  dine  ?  i  am  hurt  ,  i  thought  i  meant  more  than  that  .  ❞   she  dramatically  gasped  ,  holding  her  hand  up  to  her  chest  before  turning  back  to  the  cashier  ,  asking  for  a  simple  hot  chocolate  with  a  smirk  on  her  lips  .  ❝  i  like  my  sugar  liquified  ,  richie  .  it’ll  just  taste  like  sand  otherwise  .  ❞

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⟶     cullen  ,  emmett

Emmett was not one for social cues usually, so he was on the other side of the road just watching as someone was chasing papers down.  It wasn’t until she called out to him did he even think about helping.  “Right right!”  Emmett called out as he ran after the piece of paper.  Once he caught up to it, he quickly picked it up and ran it over to her.  “I did it!  And it’s not even dirty it looks like!”  He was clearly proud of himself and wanted her to be proud of him too.

→          alice  was  one  of  those  people  that  would  teeter  on  the  separation  line  between  patient  &  impatient  .  on  good  days  ,  she  could  wait  hours  for  a  single  cup  of  tea  in  a  line  that  was  filled  with  rude  people  .  on  a  stressful  day  ,  her  patience  was  almost  non  -  existent  ,  causing  her  voice  to  raise  &  irritation  to  show  from  the  wrinkle  between  her  eyebrows  .  once  the  paper  was  in  her  possession  ,  she  shoved  it  into  the  file  ,  turning  towards  emmett  with  wide  eyes  .  she  hesitated  at  first  ,  mostly  because  she  needed  time  to  process  his  excitement  .  ❝  you  ------  did  .  thank  you  ,  very  much  .  consider  it  your  good  deed  for  the  day  .  ❞

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→     syndulla  ,  hera

hera had found herself in the mall in search of a new hat . in the days of her lekku , she wouldn’t be caught dead without a cap over her head . and now that she had hair that she had no idea how to control , it usually found its way into a hat . hera’s collection was growing , it was the first time she was accumulating multiple of something . her eyes widened a bit and rose to meet the face of the person who was speaking in her direction . she listened intently to the others concerns and let out a small huff . “ i’m the last person you would want to hear fashion advice from . i usually just switch between three simple outfits . ” hera let out a laugh but pursed her lips , accessing the outfit before her . she could tell the girl was actually needing some help , and hera was never one to blow off a serious inquiry . “ i like the way it looks . the coloring is nice , goes well with your skin tone . ” hera stepped closer and nodded . “ i would say that it is , yes , acceptable . though , there should be no rule on what is the right thing to wear . ” 

→          memories  had  been  fading  in  &  out  for  jane  ,  remembering  the  fading  of  hawkins  in  the  back  window  .  seeing  the  byers  family  out  the  in  the  stands  when  she  grabbed  her  high  school  diploma  .  a  normal  family  ,  living  a  normal  life  ,  with  an  adoptive  daughter  that  had  powers  .  at  least  ---  that  was  how  jane  remembered  her  life  ,  the  darkness  still  haunted  her  but  why  couldn’t  she  move  things  anymore  ?  why  did  it  feel  as  though  she  had  never  left  hawkins  ?  snapping  back  to  reality  ,  she  turned  towards  the  other  with  a  small  smile  on  her  lips  .  ❝  not  in  style  anymore  .  ❞  she  commented  ,  nodding  towards  her  favourite  flannel  shirt  that  was  hanging  in  the  change  room  as  her  eyes  casted  to  her  shoes  ,  switching  her  balance  from  her  heels  to  her  toes  .  ❝  thank  you  .  very  kind  .  my  best  friend  was  better  at  this  ,  but  i  can’t  seem  to  find  her  anywhere  .  ❞

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⟶     wiley  ,  maeve

it  was  natural  for  maeve  to  be  guarded.  and  okay,  sometimes  she  could  also  be  a  little…  unceremonious,  to  put  it  bluntly.  but  for  whatever  reason,  diana  meade  just  didn’t  catch  her  fancy.  it  wasn’t  that  maeve  hadn’t  given  her  a  chance.  just  when  you  know,  you  know,  right  ?  ❝  you  have  my  book.  i  need  it.  ❞  well,  not  really.  but  the  mere  thought  of  diana  enjoying  something  that  she  also  happened  to  have  a  deep  appreciation  for,  was  simply  outrageous.

→          diana  had  a  tendency  to  over  worry  about  what  people  thought  about  her  .  back  in  chance  harbor  ,  she  was  resident  good  girl  ,  practically  on  the  welcoming  committee  for  anyone  new  who  came  into  town  .  here  ?  not  only  was  she  in  a  new  decade  ,  but  she  was  in  a  place  that  was  far  from  her  home  .  as  much  as  she  wanted  maeve  to  enjoy  her  company  ,  diana  knew  when  she  had  tried  enough  . looking  down  at  the  book  ,  her  eyebrows  furrowed  together  .  ❝  i  ----  apologize  ?  i  believe  this  is  my  book  ,  i  haven’t  put  it  down  since  i  took  it  from  my  bag  ,  maeve  .  ❞

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⟶     rogers  ,  shaggy

❝  cheating  is  not  my  forte.  ❞  for  those  that  knew  shaggy,  a  majority  would  probably  say  that  the  only  thing  he  was  good  at,  was  eating.  if  you  asked  jane  in  this  scenario,  she  would  arguably  verbalize  that  he  was  good  at  this  game.  which…  wasn’t  necessarily  true.  it  wasn’t  cheating  !  just  plenty  of  ‘practice’  late  at  night  in  the  company  of  scoob.  ❝  you  just  can’t  beat  the  master.  ❞

→          wasted  childhood  casted  over  jane  like  a  soft  ,  unwelcoming  blanket  .  when  she  began  playing  dungeons  and  dragons  with  the  small  group  of  friends  she  made  in  hawkins  ,  she  found  an  intense  interest  in  one  thing  that  would  be  slightly  shocking  to  those  who  just  met  the  innocent  looking  woman  .  jane  was  incredibly  competitive  .  of  course  ,  she  knew  when  to  take  a  loss  ,  but  that  didn’t  mean  giving  up  was  an  option  ;  playing  until  victory  was  in  her  grasp  .  she’s  simply  too  excited  to  vocalize  normally  ,  hands  slightly  flailing  towards  the  game  to  indicate  she  wanted  to  play  again  .  ❝  teach  me  !  ❞

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→     day  ,  misty

laughter  emitting  from  a  group  of  children  was  usually  somewhat  of  a  joy  to  the  occasional  outsider.  it  meant  that  they  were  having  fun,  something  which  could  only  ever  be  longer  for  now.  however  in  this  case  it  was  quite  the  opposite  -  the  chaos  that  followed,  the  papers  flying  through  the  air,  the  obvious  frustration  from  woman  on  the  other  side  of  the  street.  moving  fast,  jewellery  clad  fingers  subsequently  reaching  for  the  paper  in  question.  ❝  kids,  huh  ?  ❞  exchange  of  the  paper  between  hands,  accompanied  by  a  small  smile.  ❝  they’ll  learn.  eventually.  ❞

→          don’t  let  the  frustration  in  her  brow  or  her  tone  fool  her  ,  alice  cullen  was  a  sucker  for  a  good  laugh  ,  even  if  it  was  at  herself  or  knowing  that  the  children  were  probably  gigging  at  her  hectic  nature  .  she  could  only  imagine  what  her  hair  looked  like  in  the  wind  ----  add  in  the  extra  resistance  from  her  running  in  heels  .  once  the  paper  was  in  her  possession  ,  she  tucked  it  away  in  the  file  that  she  had  been  holding  tightly  to  her  chest  ,  huffing  relief  once  it  was  safely  put  .  ❝  oh  ,  i’m  sure  they  mean  no  harm  ,  they’re  probably  not  understanding  the  nature  of  the  situation  .  i’m  sure  they’re  having  a  good  chuckle  .  ❞

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→     byers  ,  will

things were weird, which shouldn’t be any sort of surprise to will since that sort of thing tended to follow him around. but this was different than hawkins, different than what they went through. and no one would know better about what they went through than jane, who was one of the best things to come out of it all. she had become like a sister to him and someone who could relate to what he was dealing with. not that the others didn’t try, it was just different. “ i’m not quite sure, i mean the neon coloring is starting to become just a bit of an eye sore. but maybe they’ll just come up with new versions of a trend ? ”

→          it  was  nice  with  will  .  safe  .  jane  usually  found  herself  craving  the  presence  of  the  other  in  stressful  times  -  which  seemed  to  be  around  the  clock  lately  .  jane  was  never  the  best  at  expressing  her  feelings  ,  which  resulted  in  her  out  -  bursting  with  power  .  here  ?  no  matter  how  hard  she  stared  at  something  ,  nothing  would  happen  .  any  regular  day  ,  she’d  feel  thankful  that  she  didn’t  have  that  weight  on  her  shoulders  but  with  mike  acting  as  if  she  never  existed  in  his  life  &  ----  she  may  not  be  a  genius  in  math  but  she  was  sure  the  dates  &  her  age  were  not  lining  up  correctly  .  snapping  out  of  her  thoughts  ,  she  allowed  herself  to  chuckle  kindly  .  ❝  i  don’t  hate  the  neon  ,  unless  it’s  yellow  .  too  bright  .  ❞  she  said  in  a  quiet  tone  ,  smile  on  he r lips  .

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⟶          barnes  ,  bucky

it was a very windy day out today. that much was proven when bucky had to hold down not only his sandwich wrapper but his bag of chips as well. but luckily, he had quick reflexes. most of the time, at least. he was midway through throwing away the contents that had made his lunch break far more stressful than it needed to be when he heard the woman. it was just lucky that he his eyes landed on the flying paper, reaching out his food to stop it before picking it up. “ this yours ? ” he asked with a light chuckle as he handed it towards her.

→          wind  &  snow  were  two  different  things  ;  snow  was  forever  on  the  list  of  things  that  alice  would  fall  in  love  with  ,  but  wind  always  seemed  to  be  on  her  wrong  side  .  the  scene  was  still  unfolding  in  front  of  her  ,  panic  settling  itself  on  her  facial  features  as  she  watches  the  dinner  options  flying  down  the  street  .  that  had  taken  hours  ,  so  you  could  imagine  the  bright  smile  of  relief  that  took  over  the  panic  when  bucky  began  making  his  way  over  with  the  paper  .  ❝  you  are  a  ----  lifesaver  .  you  don’t  understand  ,  this  menu  took  me  all  night  .  ❞  she  huffed  as  she  took  the  paper  back  into  her  possession  ,  shoving  her  papers  ,  carefully  ,  into  her  bag  for  safe  keeping  .

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→          benson  ,  zoe

closed starter featuring 𝒛𝒐𝒆 𝒃𝒆𝒏𝒔𝒐𝒏  & 𝚍𝚒𝚊𝚗𝚊 𝚖𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎  !! / @hcartlessx​

  zoe  let’s  out  a  defeated  huff,  hands  on  her  hips  as  she  motions  for  the  other  to  stop.  ❝  tell  me  again  why  we  decided  to  take  up  jogging  ??  ❞  there’s  a  playful  grin  that  appears  on  the  witch’s  lips  to  let  the  other  know  she’s  joking  around  but  it’s  soon  followed  by  an  exhausted  expression.  ❝  want  to  take  a  break  ??  ❞

→          stopping  ,  although  having  to  back  track  a  bit  since  her  speed  caused  her  to  run  past  her  friend  .  pushing  some  loose  hairs  away  from  her  face  ,  diana  let  out  a  breathless  chuckle  .  ❝  because  it’s  freeing  .  once  you  give  yourself  to  the  action  ,  you’ll  understand  ,  zoe  .  ❞  she  said  as  she  wiped  her  forehead  with  the  back  of  her  hand  ,  slowly  letting  herself  nod  .   ❝  well  ,  i  mean  we’ve  only  been  running  for  twenty  minutes  ,  but  i  feel  as  though  if  i  say  no  ,  you’re  going  to  fall  over  .  ❞

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→          tozier  ,  richie

recognition sets in, easing the perpetual line of tension in richie’s shoulders as he throws another look back - this one fonder, joined by a blossoming grin as he quips back ❝ i’m pulling out all the stops for ya, babydoll. ❞ a side-step to peer into the display case of pastries, but richie angles toward beverly still. small world, small … whatever this is. it’d be beautifully fateful if impending dread didn’t insist on creeping up in the minute silences richie allows to fall around him. he points to a muffin and waggles his brows in invitation toward beverly, adding on ❝ i’m hoping karma’s got a nice, sloppy french kiss for me, you see. pitch in two more bucks to my worthy cause and i’ll even get you a latte. ❞

→          eyebrows  raise  to  show  her  impressed  state  ,  not  only  was  richie  agreeing  to  buy  her  what  she  wanted  ,  but  he  was  using  a  nickname  like  babydoll  .  ❝  i’d  believe  that  if  you  had  known  who  i  was  before  you  offered  to  pay  .  ❞  she  teased  with  a  smirk  on  her  lips  ,  taking  a  step  forward  without  another  hint  ,  eyes  scanning  the  endless  pastries  that  were  in  her  field  of  view  .  sweets  would  always  be  the  one  downfall  that  beverly  had  -  well  &  cigarettes  ,  but  she  was  trying  to  quit  .  ❝  you  want  me  to  pitch  you  money  to  pay  for  my  coffee  ?  you  do  understand  how  backwards  your  logic  is  ,  right  ,  rich  ?  ❞  she  chuckled  ,  pulling  out  two  bills  to  shove  towards  him  .

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→          wheeler  ,  mike

his only acknowledgement of his name falling off her lips is a short grunt, undignified but more than enough in mike’s humble opinion. admittedly, the sound makes something fizzle in the back of his mind - then again, it’s colder than a motherfucker out here, so it may just be a draft. he plucks the cigarette from his lips and busies his hands with popping it back into the carton, deterred for the time being. ❝ you don’t look like you do. stupid question, ❞ he offers, a fleeting once-over before his eyes zero in on the stack of books tucked in her arms. mike nods toward them with a raised brow. ❝ whatcha’ reading? ❞

→          okay  ,  so  maybe  he  wasn’t  over  their  relationship  ending  .  she had  read  about  this  social  tactic  --  acting  as  though  you  have  forgotten  .  it’s  supposed  to  make  the  other  jealous  ,  something  that  jane  never  really  experienced  .  growing  up  without  the  knowledge  of  having  a  possessive  attitude  towards  people  secured  her  in  the  jealousy  department  ,  but  the  feeing  of  sadness  began  to  cover  her  like  a  blanket  ,  weighing  her  down  that  she  almost  missed  the  comments  that  were  flowing  from  his  lips  .  ❝  what  ----  is  that  supposed  to  mean  ?  it  sounds  like  a  compliment  ,  although  your  tone  is  not  complimentary  .  ❞  she  mused  ,  fingers  itching  to  find  the  chapter  in  her  textbook  for  back  -  up  .  ❝  psychology  -  i  have  a  test  tomorrow  .  ❞

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→           wheeler  ,  nancy

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  nancy  sets  down  on  one  of  the  benches,  placing  her  skates  on  her  feet.  she’s  almost  done  lacing  them  up  when  she  catches  someone  who  looked  fimilar  out  of  the  corner  of  her  eye.  her  gaze  rises,  a  shocked  expression  on  her  face.  ❝  eleven  ??  ❞  nancy  calls  out,  attempting  to  get  the  other’s  girls  attention  as  she  stands,  trying  her  best  not  to  fall  as  she  does  so.

→          with  her  shift  ending  early  ,  jane  was  ecstatic  to  get  back  home  to  read  more  of  the  books  she  had  bought  from  the  local  bookstore  .  they  had  been  helping  her  immensely  with  her  understanding  of  social  norms  &  what  was  acceptable  to  say  in  conversations  .  it  was  her  nickname  ,  a  nickname  she  hadn’t  heard  in  years ,  that  caused  her  to  freeze  ,  turning  her  head  quickly  towards  nancy  with  a  sense  of  familiarity  behind  her  gaze  .  ❝  i  ----  go  by  jane  now  .  ❞  she  whispered  ,  arms  wrapping  around  herself  .

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     closed  starter  featuring  bella  swan  (  @dicmondhecrt​​  )      location  :  bar  that  bev  works  .

→          it  wasn’t  much  but  the  goal  of  becoming  the  bar  manager  still  was  hovering  over  bev’s  mind  every  time  she  stepped  into  her  work  place  .  she  knew  that  she  had  the  ability  to  manage  the  bar  ,  most  people  listened  to  her  as  it  was  ,  the  title  was  just  within  her  reach  ,  teasing  her  each  day  .  it  was  a  quick  situation  ,  getting  called  in  to  fix  a  few  of  the  beer  taps  due  to  the  lack  of  carbon  dioxide  that  was  going  into  the  tubes  .  once  she  is  back  on  the  other  side  of  the  bar  ,  she  orders  herself  a  bottle  of  budweiser  before  looking  at  the  lonesome  other  .  ❝  unless  you  want  to  be  victim  of  endless  cheesy  pick  up  lines  within  the  next  five  minutes  by  dick  boy  dan  ,  you  might  wanna  come  join  me  for  a  drink  ,  babe  .  ❞

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    closed  starter  featuring  mike  hanlon  (  @dicmondhecrt​​  )     location  :  the  arcade  .

→          finding  mike  was  a  godsend  ,  although  the  pair  had  never  been  the  closest  when  they  were  younger  ,  it  was  always  refreshing  to  witness  a  known  face  in  a  place  she  felt  as  though  she  didn’t  belong  .  resting  at  one  of  the  tables  ,  wanting  to  catch  somewhat  of  a  breath  after  her  dedication  to  beating  the  best  score  on  pacman  after  some  child  had  managed  to  surpass  her  last  accomplishment  .  looking  over  at  her  friend  ,  bev  is  hesitant  to  ask  the  question  that  is  lingering  in  the  back  of  her  mind  .  ❝  do  you  ever  miss  it  ?  i  mean  ---  derry  made  our  lives  hell  ,  but  don’t  you  miss  the  barrens  ?  we  made  history  there  with  that  rock  fight  .  ❞  she  whispered  .