𝑯𝑨𝑵𝑮 𝑻𝑶𝑼𝑮𝑯

ben hanscom.

[hcarved]

every time i log onto this website i genuinely realise how much people don’t give a shit about whether or not i’m here . like people i genuinely thought i was friends with and now realise i wasn’t.  i’m in the process of hopefully being diagnosed with bpd. i’m not doing great.  i’m kinda just over tumblr as a whole, i think.  i am gonna be on my multimuse over on @porcelainbled but  yeah, idk i guess ! 

[porcelainbled-deactivated202605]

𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒎𝒚 𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒊𝒔 𝒓𝒖𝒏𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒅,  𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒉𝒆𝒍𝒑 𝒎𝒆 𝒔𝒍𝒐𝒘 𝒊𝒕 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏?     ft.  muses from  it,  disney,  knives out,  stranger things.

[porcelainbled-deactivated202605]

𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒎𝒚 𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒊𝒔 𝒓𝒖𝒏𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒅,  𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒉𝒆𝒍𝒑 𝒎𝒆 𝒔𝒍𝒐𝒘 𝒊𝒕 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏?     ft.  muses from  it,  disney,  knives out,  stranger things.

[porcelainbled-deactivated202605]

𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒎𝒚 𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒊𝒔 𝒓𝒖𝒏𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒅,  𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒉𝒆𝒍𝒑 𝒎𝒆 𝒔𝒍𝒐𝒘 𝒊𝒕 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏?     ft.  muses from  it,  disney,  knives out,  stranger things.

[hcarved]

so look what i spent my day doing.   i made a mini richie because i love my son and funko won’t fucking give me one smh .  

concept art & more photos on my twitter

[ghostbrak]

if there’s something strange in the neighborhood–

                                                richie,  shut the fuck up! 

[hcarved]

ben has temporarily been moved to my multimuse while i rebuild his muse.  please like this for the url.

[hcarved]

mostly logging on to say that ben is a himbo and i love him with my entire fucking heart 

[hcarved]

this little bear is here to remind you that you’re fantastic! in lieu of a two thumbs up from a little bear with no opposable thumbs but only paws, please accept a snowball.

this is really sweet and really made my day tbh.  thank you so much!!

[ghostbrak]

if there’s something strange in the neighborhood–

                                                richie,  shut the fuck up! 

[darthvaders]

[hcarved]

deleted my discord bc i hate it and i feel like shit 

but i am gonna be around tomorrow and write if endometriosis doesn’t kick my ass the second i wake up again

i miss ben sm so like,,,,   gonna try and get that back

[hcarved]

someone pls send me memes as i have a muse and writing starters sucks

[peaceprose-deactivated20200330]

so my work is closing from tomorrow and i am.... ridiculously stresed? i think i’ll open commissions again as i’m on a zero hour contract aka they don’t have to pay me anything regardless of how long we’re closed and Obviously nowhere else is hiring so i am StressedTM but i may actually be around from tomorrow to start writing lmao

[hcarved]

i’m still gonna ,, stick to my multimuse more i think .

idk i’m just more comfortable there and i’m not comfortable on tumblr at all atm . i’m trying not to allow myself the cycle of getting too attached to people and feeling rejected / second best again , and i think it’s easier said than done so ! i am trying. 2020 has been rough ; i’m potentially still moving out of my house in the next few weeks, i’ve had a lot going on that i won’t go into and just. yeah. it’s been rough and i’m tired a lot so this is just gonna be no stress

i might remake / reboot eddie as i have more muse for him than i do ben , but i feel like people prefer writing with my ben in the it fandom ? so yeah idk . i’m signing off it’s 3am i’ll be on my multi i think until i crash

[hcarved]

home at last. home at last!    HOME AT LAST!

[hcarved]

home at last. home at last!    HOME AT LAST!