Confusion and surprise flickered across his face before Lucian settled on complete and utter disbelief. In any other situation, he was sure it would have been comical how he looked from one part of the room and back to Hudson and then back again. His gaze settled on where the coffee table had once stood. Wood replaced with stone, normal living room shit replaced with objects practically giving off an aura of dark energy. It was almost like black magic had completely engulfed the place. It felt more than a little off and he went from being comfortably sat on the couch to feeling like he wanted to be miles away from the place.
“Are you fuckin’ serious?”
What the fuck did this mean? Multiple scenarios ran through his head at once. None of them good. Hudson was obviously into some shit. Had been into it? Was still into it? He was afraid to ask. But this, the bookshelf, the grimoires on the ‘coffee table’, this was a cumulation of work not just done in a week or two. Opening his mouth to speak again, he abruptly closed it and sat forward. His hands smoothed over his face, slid up into his hair and rested at the back of his neck, eyes stuck on the carpet.
And then he let out a short bark of laughter before shaking his head.
“All this time, huh?” Leaning back, he finally looked to Hudson. Hudson the golden boy. Hudson the perfect son. So out of place among all of this darkness. But he didn’t look uncomfortable, in fact, he almost seemed at ease. To say he was shocked was an understatement, but ultimately, he couldn’t help but feel guilty. He’d spent years wrongfully resenting his eldest brother to begin with. He’d spent time on many a mental tirade about how supposedly perfect he was but suddenly things seemed to make a bit more sense. Because at some point, Hudson had deviated from that ‘perfect’ image. Over the last year, Lucian had settled on that Hudson had perhaps been too pressured by the family and had grown to resent the coven a little. But now there was probably more to that.
“Go…Ahead and explain?” It was meant to be a statement, but it came out as a hesitant question. He’d burnt through too many emotions and thoughts in such a short span of time that he was just left looking at his brother at a loss.
Coming full circle to face his younger brother, Hudson couldn’t have truly expected anything less than the mild panic that seemed to blossom on Luc’s features. Contorted and mottle with a breed of anxious confusion that should have met any such Tallis in the face of the darkness that Hudson quite literally lived in. It didn’t take much for him to feel the waves of uncertainty wash over the other, the very shift in the air around him just enough for him to cave so willingly to being okay with what he was surrounded by, though he knew that it wasn’t truly possible for any other to feel such a way without finding some sense of familiarity within it. The rough of his hand pulled slowly across the expanse of his mouth and jaw. There was no real way to explain it, truly, showing any single one of his family was something that he knew would be the only way to get his point across.
The Tallis coven were renowned for their striking sense of power, all of which was used for the very opposite of everything that lay within the confines of Hudson’s home. He’d held such little care and now that he’d quite literally exposed such a harrowing piece of himself, he didn’t exactly know how to back it up with some sense of explanation that might have stuck well enough. Telling any single one of them that he happened to enjoy the feeling of drawing the powers of another witch right out of their life source, nor could he claim his affinity for the stark premise of death that clung to such an art form. Those, he intended to remain as ominous as possible where his craft was concerned. “Freshman year.” He nodded slowly, offering some pinpoint within a timeline. “Screwed around with some things that.. very clearly I shouldn’t have and it just kind of....” Blossomed from there, an addiction that he knew there was such little cure for. He paused, eyeing his brother carefully, trying to gauge some sense of thought or reaction from him, but finding little more than the same uncertainty and confusion, he pressed on. “When I left a few years back I was.. out of control.” By anyone else standards at least, by his own? He had more power than any Tallis trip might have given him. “At first I had every intention of just.. doing my job, finding something dark that could point me in the direction of something useful.” At least until he’d found something much sweeter. “Didn’t really go to plan, but.. what I did find wasn’t exactly discouraging either.”
The lowly steps he’d taken were without destination it intention, something to occupy the silence that fell between Hudson’s voice. Rubbing the back of his neck as if it might have sparked something else he could say, he knew that there was little else than the truth that mattered now. “I told you once before that it wasn’t my choice to come back, and if I’d had any say in the matter, I’d still be gone.” Teeth caught the inside of his cheek, nodding slowly in some attempt to steel himself for what came next. “I uh.-- hurt a lot of people, stole a lot of things that were never meant to be taken. By the time someone was there to stop me, I’d almost killed myself by using too much and the coven dragged me back here to..-- detox.”