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I finally called to do the intake at ACUTE. I’m due to leave on Friday, aka tomorrow for Paris/Milan for three weeks. I am kicking myself for putting this intake off for so long because I don’t have time to make a rational decision and I feel like I have a gun to my head. My entire team is telling me this is a bad decision to go and that ACUTE is my only option they would recommend at this point. However, I don’t have any kind of formal confirmation that I would get a bed there so I don’t want to sit around in New York and spend these next weeks trying to look at alternatives if I could be working and fulfilling my obligations in Europe. I’m so torn. My boyfriend is in London and going bananas. I love him more than anything and it breaks my heart that I feel this way for him and yet still choose to have my eating disorder in my life in this capacity.

Also, I have my performance review at work tomorrow and have a terrible feeling about how it will go. Like this pit of dread in my stomach.

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Big hugs

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Live into the reality that we’re all dying, we’re all in the process of dying. The question is, what kind of story are we going to live out as we are dying? I want to invite people to live out a beautiful story and make beautiful music, regardless of the brokenness they have to deal with. On our journey toward death, which is inevitable, we have the opportunity to let a beautiful story be told and I think it’s up to us to allow that story to become beautiful.

Ryan Woods (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hEJx6nbDyhA)

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Sometimes, you fall in love so quickly it is absolutely terrifying.

But in the most beautiful way.

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One Day. Just One. It can happen.

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At some point you just have to let go, and move on. Because no matter how painful it is, it’s the only way we grow.

(via broken-and-recovering)

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Be the change you want in your life. Do it now.

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I’m not a big believer in fearlessness. Fear is the thing that will get us to the Doctor, fear has a purpose. Fear is just part of a normal life but how can you use it? How can you go through it? How can you face it?….surf it?…ride it?….and then get to the other side of it?

Anon

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About to say goodbye to a good friend, a great friend, a best friend who is embracing the life that is calling him....unfortunately for us, it’s on the other side of the country. This fact sat with me for over a month but the magnitude hit me tonight like a ton of bricks. Does anyone know what it feels like when your heart literally aches? My flight got in super late and I missed his going away party but I am planning to drop him at the airport tomorrow with another friend. I hope I can find some words by then. He was the one who constantly checked in when I was away in treatment. He cared and he loved even if he had no friggin clue what to say. He showed up and for that I will always be grateful. My heart really does hurt and I didn’t prepare for this.

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