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A Break-Through

I can’t think of the single most precious gift I’ve received lately than from God my father. It started off as a complete devastation to me. I was weeping for days feeling like the scum on the bottom of someone’s shoe. I had no ability to forgive myself even though the people it affected forgave me instantly. I couldn’t understand it. I couldn’t let it go. I couldn’t figure out why even though…

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Ephesians 3:16-17 Ephesians 3:16-17 "I pray that out of His glorious riches the father may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being.

John 10:10

John 10:10 — “The thief comes only to steal, and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.” NIV

I love this verse in John. It tells of a God, Jesus, who doesn’t want us to suffer and live a bad life. How could we believe in a loving God if that God was vengeful, even though he has every right to be? John tells us that those who do not follow him and his…

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Acts 20:24

Acts 20:24 I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to finish the race...

Acts 20:24 — I consider my life worth nothing to me; my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the lord Jesus has given me —the task of testifying to the good news of God’s grace.

Prayer:Father, if I would have read this verse a year ago, I would have thought, it takes a special person to “not care” about their own life…but after these last 8 months, I see how this verse is…

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Comparison Robs Us of Joy

How many times have you caught yourself comparing your life to another’s? I sure have! The grass is greener on the other side, another person just has more talents, better looks, more money, less problems….you name it.

Now of course as children we have very little say in our lives, we live by the rules of our parents. Often if our parents are not great parents we can inherit bad traits,…

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Giving Yourself Permission

I’ve tried to understand why I haven’t been able to jump for joy for the way things have turned out. I expected worse. I expected homelessness. God has taken care of the boys and I through all of this. God has been there. God cares for us and wants us to thrive and do His will. And I believe we need to go through the storms and the turmoil to see His blessings. I have permission to thrive again,…

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Things I Have Learned By Being Set Free

I have come to learn so many things about myself in the last 8 months. God freed me from a toxic co-dependent relationship where I felt like I was nothing and could contribute nothing to this world. I learned that was not a place God wanted me to dwell in. Since I gained my freedom I have learned to have confidence, to set boundaries to foster friendships, to praise Jesus in the good times as…

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Psalm 27:14

Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.

You’ve heard that waiting is the hardest part. Transitions in life are the hardest parts to get through. Moving, new jobs, new school, uncertain times, they all require a little waiting, and most likely, it’s waiting on God to make sure all the things are in order for you. We don’t understand these times, but I’m certain that…

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Psalm 27: 13-14

Psalm 27: 13-14 – Yet I am confident, I will see the Lord’s Goodness while I am here in the land of the living. Wait patiently for the Lord.

It is hard to wait patienly for the Lord. Especially when you feel like you’ve been waiting for a long time, or like you’ve been forgotten in the world’s problems. Like perhaps your significance to God just isn’t as important. From everything I know…

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From Restraining Orders and Arrests to Mediation

Protected: From Restraining Orders and Arrests to Mediation

The last time I got a text message from Steve was the day after Christmas. He was ranting on about “fighting the good fight”…something he probably heard from a movie. Every time Steve sent me a message, I called the police. Steve violated the restraining order 30 times sending 15 text messages, 7 emails, 2 Marco Polo messages and a gift. He actually thought a sweater was going to make me go oh,…

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Meeting Kerry & Bill

Protected: Meeting Kerry & Bill

I stood in line at the courthouse after diligently writing down my statements of fear upon Steve’s release. What he would do when he found out I was leaving him…remembering the conversation we had in February after a heated argument. I think the argument stemmed around Steve taking steps to move away from some crutch, it could have been the alcohol or something else I was trying to get him to…

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Steve Goes To Jail

Protected: Steve Goes To Jail

Today is Thanksgiving Day! I woke up feeling blessed. The boys and I were invited to a friend’s house for Thanksgiving. Last night at 11:30pm I got a call from the officer who came to our house hours earlier telling me that Steve had been arrested. Steve would spend Thanksgiving in Jail and possibly most of Friday too because of limited staff due to the holiday. In fact it was a possibility he…

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Gaslighting

Protected: Gaslighting

Learning What gaslighting is:

I never knew what gaslighting was until a few weeks ago when my counselor first talked about it with me. I had heard the term, but I didn’t fully grasp that had been my life for 13 years…never knowing what the truth really was. Trust is huge in any relationship. Gaslighting has felt like a slow descent into a crazy world I didn’t even realize I was in. It took…

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October 9th Changed My Life

Protected: October 9th Changed My Life

This morning I woke abruptly at 5 am when my husband rushed through the front door. I didn’t need to be up for another hour, but I flew out of bed jarred by the sound of him slamming the front door and opening the door to our garage.

I said, “What’s wrong?” Knowing, there’s always something wrong. There’s always something going wrong at Steve’s work, someone has always wronged, or is out to…

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Don't Go Back

Don’t Go Back

There are times that the person who gave you so much anguish in your life, reappears as a normal human being. It can often make you question the reasons why the relationship didn’t work out. Now counseling is opening my eyes up to things in my childhood that most likely had everything to do with people I unintentionally choose in my life. Through this process, I’ve learned what trauma bonding has…

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Happy Easter

Today is always one of those days where I feel confused about what I should feel. Unlike Christmas where we are celebrating a birth, today we are celebrating a death. And with that death, it should humble us to our core.

Romans 5:8 – God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

It humbles me to know that I undeservingly get saved, not by…

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2 Corinthians 12:9

2 Corinthians 12:9 –My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.

Father I am tired. I need rest in every area of my life. My exhaustion is deep. I know my daily bread comes from you, but I worry about an uncertain future. I worry that I don’t have enough energy to be both mom and full-time employee. I want to pray for the well being of certain people, but I have…

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