I still don’t know nor do I understand why I continue to fall for your bullshit every damn time. I hate you but I like you and I don’t believe those feelings will ever go away and I hate myself for that. I don’t know who this said girl you’re supposedly talking to is or if she’s real or not or if you’re just making up some shit story for me to become jealous of but it sucks, it truly and honestly sucks. I’ve liked you for so long and you know how I feel about you yet you continue to fuck with my feelings and yet I can’t stop you from doing so cause I’m literally afraid to tell you no. I’m afraid that if I do that you’ll drop whatever friendship you have with me and disappear out of my life forever and I can’t have that happen again.














