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𝒑𝒓𝒊𝒗𝒂𝒕𝒆 𝒄𝒂𝒏𝒐𝒏 𝒅𝒊𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒈𝒆𝒏𝒕 𝒍𝒐𝒓𝒊 𝒈𝒓𝒊𝒎𝒆𝒔 // 𝑤𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑛 𝑏𝑦 𝑗𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑖

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There is basically no one on here but I need help figuring out which muse I want to write: click this link to vote?

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         ❝     𝐘𝐎𝐔'𝐑𝐄 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐀 𝐊𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐄𝐑  and  I  know  that.     I  know  that,   so  do whatever  you  gotta  do  to  keep  this  group  safe  and  do  it  with  a  clear  conscience.

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i  know  i’m  not  here  anymore  because  of  @benaevolent  and  moving  lori  to  my  lowkey  multi  blog  @literacae  but  if  someone  started  writing  any  characters  from  either  the  throne  of  glass  series  or  acotar  series  i  would  die.

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𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒎𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒅.     /     a  multimuse  written  by  janni

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help  a  lady  out?

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me @ everyone: literally will pay for icons (and a theme/etc.) if you want to write a character from acotar or my original character’s story.

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where  you  can  find  me  right  now:     @benaevolent  &  @defaender

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          I  was  not  a  pet,   not  a  doll,   not  an  animal.     I  was  a  survivor,   and  I  was  strong.     I  would  not  be  weak,   or  helpless  again.     I  would  not,   could  not  be  broken.     𝑻𝑨𝑴𝑬𝑫.       /     penned  by  janni

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          Now  all  the  days  of  begging,     the  days  of  theft;     no  more  gasping  for  a  breath.     The  air  has  filled  me  head  to  toe  and  I  can  see  the  ground  far  below.     I  have  this  breath  and  I  hold  it  tight  and  I  keep  it  in  my  chest  with  all  my  might.     I  pray  to  God  this  breath  will  last  as  it  pushes  past  my  lips  as  I  gasp.

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benaevolent‌:

                  —     𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐖𝐄𝐄𝐍 𝐓𝐖𝐎 𝐋𝐔𝐍𝐆𝐒 𝐈𝐓 𝐖𝐀𝐒 𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐄𝐃     —  𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐃 𝐌𝐄, 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐈𝐆𝐇 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐁𝐋𝐄𝐖 𝐌𝐄 𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐃.

                       independent  /  private  /  original  fantasy  based  character  /  by  janni  /  template

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*     consider  this  a  starter / plotting  call  because  i  need  to  do  something  here.

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I’m  switching  my  main  blog  to  @benaevolent  for  the  time  being  until  I  get  into  the  head  space  I  need  to  write  Lori.   I’ve  been  world  building  and  character  creating  for  the  past  three  days  and  it’s  been  a  freaking  blast  so  if  you  want  to  follow  me  where  I’m  most  active,   that’s  where  I’ll  be.   If  you’re  interested  in  checking  out  what  I’ve  done  so  far  here  are  some  links:     about  &  biography,   codex,   pinterest  boards  and  spotify  playlists.

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A  little  bit  of  an  update  if  you  wanna  take  a  read,   it’s  not  long.

SO.   I’m  needing  to  shake  things  up  a  little  bit  and  give  myself  a  little  diversity.   As  a  mom,   writing  a  mom  that  has  gone  through / dealt  with  a  lot  of  heavy  topics  I’m  struggling  so  I’m  in  the  process  of  revamping  an  oc  I’ve  had  for  literally  over  a  decade  based  off  of  a  novel  I’m  desperately  trying  to  actually finish.   She’s  fantasy  based  so  it’s  super  far  from  twd  and  I  won’t  have  a  crossover  verse  but  if  you  want  her  url  when  it’s  all  done,   just  give  this  a  like  or  something.   

I  am  not  abandoning  Lori’s  blog,   I  like  her  and  all  the  stuff  on  here  too  much.   I’ll  just  be  slowly  going  between  the  two  blogs.   I  have  all  this  week  to  have  me  time  so  that’s  when  I’m  gonna  get  all  caught  up.

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i  have  a  scar                  a  faint  gouge  in  my  knee  from  when  i  fell  down  on  the  sidewalk  as  a  child.   it's  always  seemed  stupid  to  me  that  none  of  the  pain  i've  experienced  has  left  a  visible  mark;   sometimes,   without  a  way  to  prove  it  to  myself,   i  began  to  doubt  that  i  had  lived  through  it  at  all,   with  the  memories  becoming  hazy  over  time.   i  want  to  have  some  kind  of  reminder  that  while  wounds  heal,   they  don't  disappear  forever.                 i  carry  them  everywhere,   always,   and  that  is  the  way  of  things,   the  way  of  scars.

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i’m  diving  into  my  drafts  rn  to  knock  out  some  meme  replies  and  toss  them  into  the  queue  but  i  just  wanted  to  say  that  i  adore  you  all  and  i’ve  missed  you  and  i  hope  you’re  all  doing  well!

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I highly recommend you follow the person I reblogged this from.

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misc sentences

“ who do you think you are? “

“ wait , did you just say you love me? “

“ please just … leave me alone. “

“ i’m so happy! “

“ is this a gift for me? “

“ hey! i’ve got something for you! wait right here! “

“ i love you. “

“ shut up! shut the fuck up! “

“ who told you that?! i didn’t say that! “

“ w — what? “

“ … i’m sorry. “

“ what? ME have a crush on YOU? whaaaaaat?! haha! what? pfft … shut up! “

“ bitch , guess what? “

“ oh my god … “

“ fuck you to fucking hell! “

“ man … go to hell. “

“ what did you just send me? “

“ what did you just say? “

“ they’re totally checking you out right now. “

“ jealous?! i’m not jealous! “

“ are you jealous? “

“ wow … you’re hot when you’re angry. “

“ wow … your smile is breathtaking. “

“ you’re so stupid. “

“ okay! that’s it! put your dukes up! “

“ you don’t want me. “

“ question , you’re not dating anyone , are you? “

“ let me take you out on a date. “

“ i swear to god i’m going to scream at the top of my lungs. “

“ no! don’t tickle me! “

“ i’m not good for you , trust me. “

“ no offense but i’m out of your league. “

“ so , how does it feel to know me? a blessing , isn’t it? “

“ … why does this card say ‘ happy 3rd birthday ‘? “

“ so what will it be tonight? “

“ please , let me listen to celine dion in the dark in peace. “

“ i don’t love you. “

“ you don’t love me. “

“ … is there something you want? “

“ you know , you’re really cute. “

“ god , just let me fucking love you , you idiot! “

“ shh … don’t cry. “

“ i just feel like everything is falling apart. “

“ DON’T YOU DARE! DON’T YOU FUCKING DARE! “

“ hello darkness my old friend … “

“ so … do i get a goodnight kiss? “

“  i wish i knew how to talk about it.  ”  

“  you don’t have to talk, we can just sit together.  ” 

“  i don’t want to be alone anymore.  ”  

“  i wish i could hate you. ” 

“  take a seat, we’re gonna be here a while. ”

“  i need you to trust me.  ”  

“ i missed/miss you. ”  

“  she/he won’t listen to me. ”

“  let me do this for you. please.  ” 

“  is there anything else you want to say to me?  ”

“  tell me something happy. ” 

“  promise me.  ”

“  i just want/wanted to help.  ”  

“  let me explain.  ”

“ i didn’t/don’t need you to understand, i just wanted/want you to support me. ”  

“ i’m on your side. ”

“ i’ve got your back, okay? ”

“  please, tell me you have a plan. ”

“  stay with me tonight. ”

“  don’t go. please.  ” 

“  i’ve been alone for so long i’m afraid i don’t know what it’s like not to be. ” 

“ talk to me.  ”  

“ i did what i had to do.  ”

“  we can’t keep going on like this. ”

“ i’m just tired.  ”

“ i’m scared.  ”

“ it’s okay to be afraid. fear can be good. use it.  ”

“ it’s better to expect disappointment. ”

“ hope is dangerous.  ”

“  i like seeing you smile. ”  

“ you look beautiful.  ”  

“ be patient with her/him. they’re trying. ”  

“ i’m trying my best and it’s not good enough. it’s never good enough. ”

“  i’m starting to think i’m just fucked up.  ”  

“  have a drink with me.  ”

“ she/he is better off without me. but i guess that’s their choice. ”

“  you can’t dictate what’s best for someone else. ”

“ can i help you?  ” “ i thought you’d like this. ”

“  do you wanna get out of here?  ”

“  walk with me?  ”

“  well, shit.  ”

“ change isn’t easy.  ”

“  i just wanted to say i’m sorry.  ”

“  i guess being angry was/is just easier than being sad.  ” 

“  what did you want to tell me? ”

“ it was supposed to be simple.  ”

“  you’ve got blood on your shirt. ”

“  you can stay with me.  ”

“ what did you want to show me?  ”

“ i miss ____ more than i thought i would.  ”

“  i don’t like to talk about it, but i wanted you to know.  ”

“ shut up. please. ”

“ fuck off.  ”

“ hush, i’m trying to kiss you.  ”

“  you’re lucky you’re cute. ”

“ i fucked up. ”

“  i just want to take it all back.  ”

“  i can’t sleep.  ”

 “ can’t sleep?  ”

“  we should get a pet. ”

“  if you have something to say, spit it out. ”

“ i’m allowed to be angry.  ”

“  she/he aint even that cute.  ”

“ just hold me. ”

“  do you want me to go?  ”  

“  i just need time.  ”

“  i already made my decision, you’re not going to change that.  ”  

“  nothing you can say will surprise me. ”

“  everyone leaves, eventually. either they move on or they die. they leave and i’m left behind.  ”

“ death is a part of life. i accepted that a long time ago. ”

“  i don’t fear death. i fear anonymity. ”

“  listen to me, please.  ”

“  i’m not even sure what to say to that. ”

“  that should probably shock me, but honestly it doesn’t.  ”

“ am i supposed to care?  ”

“  i do care. ”  

“  you make me happy. ”

“ you look beautiful like this.  ”  

“  if this is your idea of fun, i don’t know what to say to you.  ”

“ it terrifies me. ” 

“ just let me show you how i feel.  ”