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I've been throwing up a lot recently. My best friend was just hospitalized for her depression and my stepdad's mum has late stage cancer and my mum just started working a second job- I just really don't want to worry anyone, especially my friend, by not eating. I don't know if I should just stop eating because it's safer than bulimia, or keep throwing up and keep everyone happy? I really can't take the added stress of gaining weight right now.

Sorry, my english is a little bit stuck in an unknown place today so I will try my best to find the words to help you with this ok?...

Look honey, Bulimia is not good and not eating is NOT safer that bulimia.you shouldn't stop eating and you shouldn't keep throwing up. I know you may have heard that a lot but really, it doesn't work...You will feel guilty about everything you do and that will bring you a few other problems and you don't want more problems right?

About this weight thing: There are many ways to feel good with your body!. Try Zumba, it is an awesome activity that will help you to feel better with your body and it's also a great oportunity to meet new people. It can take you away from the stress and all the bad things that are happening right now to the people you love.

You have your own light, you are bright and you shine...you make everyone's life look like a sunny day. If you want to make them happy, if you don't want to make people worry, keep shinning, but remember that you have to light up your own way first ;)

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ily guys<3 this blog is great :)

awh! thanks! c:

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Why suicide is just a thought in my head, not an action. Part 1.

I don't trust many people so I haven't talked about this with anyone.

Last monday I talked to her and she asked about me and my suicidal thoughts, but it was different this time. She didn't ask "have you tried to commit suicide?" like everyone else, she said: "why haven't you commited suicide? what keeps you fighting against your pain?", I think It was the question I was expecting, I didn't answer immediately, I carefully said:

 -"Maybe i don't want to end with my life at all, I want is to start again, to disappear but not to die, there are so many things I want to do, there are so many dreams I used to have before I gave up and in some delicate way they are waiting to appear again in my life, I don't know when but I know there are dreams, not only this nightmare"

So i started to think of all the things  I would like to do before a die (not before "I give up") and I realized I'm not always in a black hole, I'm in the "limbo", between my current life (the one i call nightmare) and the life i used to want (dreams) and It's only in my hands to choose wich side of the story i'm going to start living.

I'm tired of being uncomfortable, sad, alone, lost and full of shitty thoughts, I'm tired of life but I'm grateful because after all i'm still breathing, sometimes I sink but there's always a little bit of oxigen in my lungs.

I know, this positivism may not last too much, It always ends, It is part of my "problems" but I try to enjoy it when it's here.

 Ela 

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I've been really depressed for the past two years and it's been getting a lot worse lately. I find myself crying every night before I go to sleep and feeling so hopeless and worthless. My self esteem is non existent and I can't get motivated to do anything. I've had a tough past and some other crappy things have happened in my life and I believe this is the cause of all this. I know I need help, but I don't know how to talk to my parents about it. Help?

To tell your parents, it might be really hard on you, and them. Its hard for parents to hear their child has depression so I would take it slowly, like sit everybody down together and say I have had some stuff happen to me and i feel sad all the time, I think I should talk to A councellor, or someone. And if your parents ask why your talking about this now don't hold anything back tell them everything it will help get the story clear for them. and they will be able to help you and be supportive. Hope this helps :) Love Maija

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So I recently followed my friend's little sister on tumblr. Today she was posting about how she cuts and posted pictures of the cuts on her arm. I'm pretty sure neither my friend or his parents know that she cuts, and I really don't know what I should do.

You MUST tell your friend so they can help that girl, she must feel alone and she needs someone to talk to…

ALEX's EDIT:

yes that is a really serious thing. you do not want to tell her parents just yet. trust me someone did that to my friend and she went through hell. parents are over protective in most cases and they would freak out about this sort of thing. are you close to her? can you talk to her? if so i would try to help her without getting her family involved. if you cant get in contact with your friends sister or you cant help her or she gets even a tiny bit worse, you have to tell someone. self harm is a very serious thing and it is a VERY touchy subject. you can direct her to us if you want. if you think that you cant handle helping her with this sort of thing then by al means tell your friend. let him know that she need help. she needs help now. I hope ela and I helped! please give us an update on what happens

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I'm 15, and I'm starting at a new school tomorrow (1 day late) and I had my 2nd heart surgery in a month exactly a week ago, I'm terrified to start at a new high school again because I've already done this once, and it left me super depressed, do you think I should just not go tomorrow? I'm super tired and sore. Or should I face my fears? I'm absolutely terrified of starting my sophomore year somewhere I don't even know a single person other than my big brother

OHMy gosh your heart! Are you ok? If you feel like your ready to go to school then go(i know nobody is ever ready to go to school, it sucks) But if you miss the first few days of school, those are some of the most important days you will not know anybody and it will be harder for you to ajust. If you think about it all sophmores are new to the school, so you won't be the only one trying to navigate the halls. Don't be scared I bet you will make friends In at least 1 or 2 classes be brave, and ready to learn! hope this helps, Love Maija :)

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how do I stop self harming. I used to cut. but then I stopped. then I tried not eating and that didn't work well for me. so now I drink all the time. its sorta my self harm. how do I stop needing self harm to get through life?

Buy a lot of magazines, the magazines you hate the most, draw  ugly stuff on people's face and then make a ball of paper and throw it, make as much balls as you want until you feel free from anger or sadness, it sounds stupid but it works sometimes, but the best way, to stop self harming is to speak, tell someone about how you feel, cry, scream, etc, and If you feel like there's no one to talk to, write letters and leave them in the street or in the bus, that way people will find it and read it and they'll think of you and even if it is just for a moment they will love you in some strange way, but they will, believe me.