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[heartworm2424]

Always tell the people you love, that you love them. Love moves through time and space. And when you’re no longer here/there/alive - the people who mattered most in your life should not for a second doubt whether they were loved by you. Your love should extend beyond your life, and go on to live inside them.

[aidashakur]

Forever traumatized by realizing that no amount of love can change someone who finds losing you easier than facing their own behavior.

[aidashakur]

I can’t say this enough… people that truly love you will always choose to fix the situation rather than lose you.

[aidashakur]

If it is meant for you, it will cross oceans, distances, and doubts to reach you.

[weltenwellen]

Hanya Yanagihara, A Little Life

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[bakwaaas]

it’s sexy to try and it’s cool to care. death to nonchalance

[aidashakur]

[heartworm2424]

I had a very disturbing dream. It was about my friends who are no longer in my life. Nothing happened, just grew distant. I didn’t really like their morals or align with their innate external selves. I think they hold some resentment towards me for that.

[heartworm2424]

Her & I spoke last night. A rewarding conversation indeed. I thoroughly enjoy talking to her and I wouldn’t put that down to the attachment. We spoke about a fair few things.

Opening the relationship - which we agreed isn’t something we’re interested in. It’s funny because I’ve never had a concrete opinion prior, because the relationships I was in were insignificant enough for me to want to open it. However with her, I know so well what I want and don’t want.

I didn’t care with anyone else. I remember agreeing and then being on the receiving end of “how could you agree to this, you still love your ex, any other girl would’ve been so pissed, you j wanna fuck others” which if I’m being honest was all true back then but like??? Why ask if you’re not going to be able handle the answer?

Where as with her, she didn’t ask me. She told me. She told me she doesn’t ever want to. & normally I would’ve gotten pissed because she’s even thinking about this but along the line, my interpretations have changed and I j smiled when she said that. Because same. I don’t ever want to. Idk is possession or terratorialism or whatever word fits best but I just don’t ever want to. I’m content with her & I, and I don’t care about the unconventional means of the pleasures of life when I’m with her. She’s always been enough and more for me.

We spoke about school, we spoke about marriage, i learnt that pays way more attention than I anticipated and she clearly can catch my lies easily. She asked me if I was comfortable with her. It’s sweet really, and I am. I am comfortable with her but I do have uncomfortable moments which doesn’t cancel out my answer. She’s sweet. me definitely likey.

[heartworm2424]

Preparing for probably one of the most difficult exams in the country. 70k seats nationally and 3 lakh applicants is insane. There’re talks of postponement, I just hope they don’t do it and lengthen my timeline. If they do, it’s obviously beneficial to my preparation.. but I miss her. I’m really looking forward to going back.

I know if I do really well in this exam it will be extremely rewarding. Both a financial relief and a prestigious lifelong recognition within the medical fraternity. Soley to increase my competencies so when I reapply in London, they simply can’t refuse me. My three year career plan is solid, if this works out. Else I’m back to aimlessly looking for any job in the NHS with absolutely zero career progression which will certainly make me resentful and low on self confidence and morale. If I can maintain my consistency and discipline then I know I’ll be unstoppable.

[heartworm2424]

it’s a really simple concept. If your partner doesn’t like it, you don’t. no if, and or buts.

I shouldn’t have to revisit this topic monthly when I’ve already expressed my opinion the first time. Priorities exist. Compromises are to be made. There should always be respect and responsibility in your actions. When you’re with someone it’s not just you living life, you live it with consideration of how your partner feels wrt your actions and decisions.

It’s simple. And anything less, is outright disrespectful.

[heartworm2424]

I have so many drafts. Damn.

[becherdireinen]

[luminote]

Everything is about it. Nothing is about it.