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[heavycoat]

making this post to function as a tag search for myself :)

[heavycoat]

pros of getting out of work at 8: don't get out of work at 9

cons of getting out of work at 8: trying to go to the grocery store afterward when you're used to the aisles and checkout being a ghost town. there's currently only one self checkout corral open zero manned lanes available and like 15 customers lined up behind the filled corral. i got out of line and came back to the paper towels and found an open spot on the bottom shelf so i could sit. i literally have 5 small things that could fit in the top spot in my cart. i just want to go home 😑

[heavycoat]

feeling wonder and awe at the interconnectedness of the world and the way that i am discovering things that are already strongly tethered to the other things i'm currently preoccupied with. desire as a theme has become a major motif of like everything i've been reading lately, probably since i got through that intro to lacan book. in this year alone i went to see an intimate production of the scarlet letter, i'm almost done with andré gide's the counterfeiters, just finished the audiobook version of backpacking with the saints by belden c lane, whose chapter on desire was the best part of the whole experience, i'm having an excellent time working through and taking notes on georges bataille's erotism: death and sensuality, and i just recently bought dennis cooper's closer on recommendation from a random gay man's tumblr and i'm extremely excited to get into it (only holding off because there's enough irons in the fire as it stands but i will be reading soon). i peeked just now though and read the intro and the very first line of the first chapter and i already know i'm going to devour it once i set myself to the task

[cheesefags]

2-YEAR CHEDDAR

from GRAFTON VILLAGE

I usually try to review cheeses virginally - that is, ones that I’ve never had before. In this case, this is a cheddar I’ve had many times before. But I couldn’t leave it off the blog, what with its obvious appeal to leather and rubber fetishists.

As far as cheddars go, Grafton’s 2-year aged isn’t going to shock you. It’s mild, light on the salt, with a slightly sweet and grassy flavour. It’s got a nice texture. It’s dense, more moist than I expected, and smooth.

So what is the deal with the gummi suit on this cheese anyway? Well, cheese has obviously been around a lot longer than fridges. Fresh cheeses like mozzarella are too moist to last very long outside of a cold place (bacteria and fungi do so love damp places), though I don’t think anyone was too mad about eating that stuff quickly. But cheeses that have been aged (and dried) more have some more preservation options, which is where cheese wax comes in. The wax is a physical barrier, stopping fungal spores from landing, and also blocks moisture and air, making the cheese a pretty unfriendly place to grow. Even drier cheeses can be bandaged in cheesecloth and then slathered in lard to preserve them while allowing some ventilation.

I gotta admit: hot wax isn’t really my thing. But cheesecloth bondage and grease… it has potential.

[christianrichardrice]

[makingimages]

[feralrizz-deactivated20230802]

The psychological thriller of figuring out what you want and what you’re going to do about it

[rabbitkinglune777]

cool. another black child died in a hate crime

[rabbitkinglune777]

South Carolina jury finds store owner not guilty of murder in killing of Black teen | CNN

A South Carolina jury on Monday found a store owner not guilty of murder in the 2023 shooting of a Black 14-year-old.

apparently the murder happened in 2023 after doing some research but the murderer has been found not guilty.

black children get murdered and become victims of hate crimes every fucking day. this is ridiculous

[rabbitkinglune777]

im posting this here despite the website being extremely white centered, I want people to understand how in this country it's basically ok to murder and victimize black people, especially women and children in the name of "self defense" and white America will reward you for your antiblackness.

[bigopenspaces]

South Carolina teen falsely accused of shoplifting fatally shot by store owner: Police

A South Carolina gas station owner was charged with murder on Monday after allegedly shooting and killing a 14-year-old boy he believed was

[tyreek2k]

[itsalwaysdark]

you have to be careful reading too many things that are good/smart/well-written bc then you encounter something that isnt and you get confused like ? why didnt they just make this good ? were they stupid

[save-the-child-qais]

I hesitated for a long time before writing this. Not because I had nothing to say, but because I was ashamed my life had become a story of fear, loss, and constant pleading.

[save-the-child-qais]

Yes, I never imagined I would lose so much of my dignity. Yet here I am, asking strangers for help because survival has become harder than anything I ever faced before.

[save-the-child-qais]

I am not asking for miracles or luxury. I am only asking for a chance to protect my children and rebuild our lives. If you can help, please become part of our hope.

Please donate now Gofundme

[heavycoat]

i need to replay disco elysium. there's so much i didn't see in the game for how i built harry (mainly used intellect and psyche, strongest skills were authority suggestion rhetoric logic and conceptualization) and it's funny to watch gameplay with successful physique and motorik checks because it's like wow harry can do stuff in the world not just stand around and think and talk that's crazyyy

the ONLY time i got to see a successful physical check was when i somehow miraculously passed the check to leap off the balcony to go retrieve harrys cop coat with fuckin 17% chance. was a big moment for us

[letterful]

[cinemabun]

La collectionneuse (Eric Rohmer, 1967)

[heavycoat]

coworker said she was excited to go home and finish her book so i was like oh whatcha readin? she goes for whom the bell tolls i'm like oh shit wait have i misjudged this coworker i never paid much mind? this woman likes litfic??? no it's for whom the belle tolls and it's a fucking romantasy trilogy. she called it a remake of the hemingway novel but there's no way there's anything remotely close to hemingway in the book she's reading

[heavycoat]

anyway time to reshave my head and get the nail polish off of my fingers

[heavycoat]

i've never found a partner i can be 100% authentic with. maybe i don't know how to be authentic in the first place. but every time i start into committing myself to someone it only feels like walls closing in on me and i must contort to suit the shape if i want it to work. i'm lonely but i still don't really need anyone and i'm loathe to give myself over when i know i'll be, at worst, misunderstood and, at best, idolized. i don't want to be idolized. i just want to be seen.