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Think I may need my meds again..

You know what sucks? Distance. Whether it's someone acting distant or someone being miles away. Regardless. It's a bitch.

And so it's that time of year again.. The time of year my ptsd and depression spike the worst. The time of year that my sleep is filled with the sounds of their laughter and your sobbing. Their pleasure and your sorrow. How I am reminded of how powerless I was to protect you. Sure it happened to me to but you got it worse. It's this time of year that I get my suicidal thoughts back, I wish you had lived and I had died. I wish I had atleast tried to stop it, what's a little pain when that's happening to your friend? Man, I'm rambling now but I hate life right now.