WIP of Nevan's ref (placeholder ref here with info) Pls excuse all the errors and lack of detail, the full body sketch isn't even the clean sketch 😭 but I'm excited to introduce Nevan Walsh to you all so I couldn't help myself to share the WIP. 😭 Especially since @scarfaxia already released Aiden O'Leary officially, character reference sheet here...... And Aiden is Nevan's (canon) boyfriend. (Yes, another LGBTQ couple in The Hellcrew, shocking, I know 😭)
In regards of the Trump government scraping all trans inclusion in its queer information portion of its websites I have made this thing. Spread the word. Don't let them pretend we never existed.
TW: Verbal and Physical Abuse, Suicide, Self-Harm, Eating Disorder, Sexual Harrassment, Mental Health, Animal Abuse
For anyone who's reading this, I just want to say thank you, and even if I'm desperately seeking for help. I'm not tagging anyone. You may know me as Violet or CxndiedVi0lets on Tumblr, and I've been blogging a lot in a while.
I've had severe episodes in the past where I may have been acting too extremely or even at this rate suicide. I've already had the mindset at the age of 5, and honestly, I'm really tired of pulling this act.
I honestly just don't want to be in this household anymore.
Over the years, my mental health has become progressively worse, and I've tried to seek help from a psychiatrist and a psychologist and have been diagnosed with severe depression along with psychotic episodes which well knownly for my anxiety and impulsive nature of BPD which of course, my impulse is no excuse but I'm not saying its not hard to control.
I stopped seeing a clinic because of my brilliant and intelligent father, who simply seemed to know everything. Then, continues to mock me for my condition.
So, I stopped on medications and everything else even if I was progressively getting worse, not only mentally but as well as physically.
I begin to fail a lot of my subjects and further have been neglecting my health but, Its not what im going through details.
The part where I've really finally snapped is when he threatened to kill my cats, and I've stopped telling them everything because they always use my past against me or remind it as a "safety precaution." I was sexually assaulted at the age of 7, which lasted until I was 12 before my grandfather was kicked out. To say the least things weren't going smoothly, I thought to myself it never affected me but didn't realized it had affected me in ways of self-destruction thinking it was just a normal cycle of a hormonal teenager which I won't elaborate my acts on which you can decide on.
I've had a lot going on in school. I've been sexually assaulted by a classmate recently, but I never elaborated on it, and his acts on me because I didn't wanna make a biggee deal of what I'm going through, even if it is over. I still see his face every day in school, passing by, he was just changed courses and I tried my best to make myself unrecognisable by changing how I dress and my looks which also kind of resulted me getting bullied lol and having my name written on those ridiculous smash or pass books degrading me and objectifying me. It didn't bother me... or at least I think it didn't. I've had a lot of rumours spread around me, and I have been oversexualising myself and making up stories to sound like im a whore. Stereotypical american netflix high school stuff huh?
And yet, I go back home to be used as my father's punching bag (literally) even when it's my mom's fault. It's always the case, and he always justifies it that me being beaten up despised getting bruised was for lecturing me or whatever, lol.
I also hate the fact that they'd even keep more pets like dogs just to have as a toy then neglect them once they begin to have health conditions and continue to get more than complain about them. They don't even have any remorse if they're dying or sick.
Same way of how my father used to lock me up and forced me not to eat cause I dropped a plate accidentally once lol.
I rarely eat, especially when they're around, and they like to complain about why I don't eat with them. I just like to say im not hungry, and now I dont actually feel any hunger at all, and some point that stress led me to gaining weight and overeating which of course led into other health complications. Like bleeding. Anyways skipping on that.
I honestly don't know what to do trying to hide a façade like this anymore, I just want to die or run away im never happy with literally anything. I can't feel anything, I've gotten used to so much pain, I just don't even react to it even when they start swearing at me or calling me names or anything. I don't feel human at all.
I just wish someone could help me maybe leave me advise or maybe send me something on my paypal just so I can earn to get out of this place. I honestly don't care if they think im selfish, I've had enough of this life.
Julius the Dressmaker: reference art and character information
Artist comments: I've finally been doing more detailed backgrounds though this is not nearly as detaile the way I did them in the past... Lemme cook though, I'll get there again with the hyper detailed backgrounds again. 😅 Anyway, this is a scene from The Dressmaker from Hell, “you shouldn't have trusted me...” and inspired by & named after the song A Work Of Art by Ice Nine Kills.
Working on trying to get used to drawing again so just been sketching. Here's a very messy draft sketch of Octavian (Vivi) Doherty and Devlin (Dev) Doherty
Artist comments: Inspired by GTA artwork, specifically the promo art for GTA VI. Im slowly working the GTA style into my art style lol. I finished this Jan 28 2025 but was too lazy to post until now... Sorry.
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