Heaven Leigh @helloheavenleigh - Tumblr Blog

Scrolling through my old Tumblr account feels like revisiting my old town that I haven’t been to in a while. Seeing the parts of myself that I forgot without even knowing that I forgot. I’ve been feeling lately that I have lost some of myself—not from marriage or motherhood, but from filling so many spare moments with a screen instead of my thoughts like I used to before social media was in my hand instead of my desktop and instantly refreshable. I used to daydream in bed for hours before I fell asleep. Now I stare at pixels until my eyes close—filling my brain with input from everyone except myself.

My life is wonderful now. I’m not depressed like I used to be—is there even time to be depressed now? But, there’s a part of myself I miss that I want to tap into. My old aesthetic, my old vibe.

On the other hand, I see my old posts happy with where I am. I see all the photos of couples and remember a time when I was daydreaming of a boy to pick me up and sweep me off of my feet—and he has. I see those pictures now and think of him and what I already have and the butterflies I still get 11 years later. I’m a lucky girl.

#love #personal #Boys #thoughts

He is literally the light of my life and everything that keeps me going,

and I am everything that makes him stressed and miserable.

I feel like I've ruined things for him, like I've been a bad influence or something. I should have stayed away.