[hellomurrr]

waddup which one of my friends still use this?

[rubyetc]

[borderline--feline]

what i say: im sensitive

what i mean: my mental illness throws everything out of proportion and my emotions are extremely unpredictable and even the slightest thing going wrong literally makes me want to die

[jatunyana]

Yes, I am an immigrant. Yes, I was illegal. No, not by choice, by circumstances. My parents are not to blame, they’ve worked their asses off for years trying to provide me with a better future, but all we’ve gotten back is a big kick in the ass. All three of us have worked for americans who mistreated us and underpaid us for years without complaining, dealing with their bullshit for so long and still managing to do what we had to do better than so many others.

Guess what. My DACA application was approved back in February but I still cannot go to school. Why? Because it is fucking expensive and I cannot get financial aid and it is required for me to pay out of state fees in college ($350-$400 per credit) and now republicans are trying to shut down the DREAM act?

Fuck everyone! I am so sick and tired of being told I cannot study just because I do not own a green card. I am a 21 year frustrated young woman who really wants to study and become someone in this world and is willing to work her ass off to get where she wants, but I keep being shut down and pushed and walked on by everyone else. I cannot take it anymore.

[hellomurrr]

Whoa, time flies.

Damn, I haven’t been on Tumblr in forever. Every now and then I check my feed but I haven’t posted anything in a while. Do any of my friends even use this still? 

Life has been pretty crazy for me lately. I’d say I’ve grown up a lot since last year. Fall is usually when I start noticing all the changes in my life. I always reflect on where I was this time last year. The year is almost over, I believe that big changes happen at any point in the year but man 2017 is actually going to be a huge year for me. Everything I am about to do is so different and out of my comfort zone. 

For starters I won’t be attending school in the spring. I will be taking online classes instead. It’s scary because I’ve always loved school and enjoyed being at school. Most people take a year off after high school but when I was 17, I was impatient. I had a plan. 2 years of community college and then transfer to a 4 year. I am now 21, and I’m still in community college. A lot of it is my fault. I hate math and that’s what’s putting me behind. Also trying so hard to get my career started and taking internships while taking many units at school was also not a good idea. I am now learning to be patient and take things slow. 

If it all goes well I will be joining my best friend in North Carolina and hopefully Cambodia from March-August. I have finally decided to take a break and work on my mental health. I also knew I should but I am stubborn and just wanted to get things out of the way. Doing this now feels like a right time. 

I’ve never liked who I was, because I know I could be someone amazing but the lack of confidence and the amount of anxiety keeps me from being someone I know I can be. During the next 3 months I’m still in town I do want to focus on my art and try all sorts of new things that I’ve always wanted to do. I want to find myself. As silly as that sounds, I’ve lost myself these past two years. Not that I really knew who I was but I’ve discovered so much about myself that I started questioning myself. 

As of now, those who really know me just think I am some shy quirky girl who makes jokes at the wrong time and messes everything up at work, is either very depressing or way to jumpy. I just noticed that I am different around every group and I don’t like that. 

Over the summer I thought that I would be relaxing and taking it slow but instead I realized how sick and unhealthy I really am. Again, something I always knew but didn’t realize how bad it truly was until I was binge drinking like crazy and making impulsive decisions that I know wasn’t me. 

So I am scared for 2017, but I look forward to learning and figuring things out. I am excited to finally blossom. I don’t want to be that awkward shy quirky girl with a bitch face who always looks sad. I just want to be myself without worrying about a thing. Let’s see where I am this time next year. 

[satrialespork]

[cuddlecafe]

me as a lawyer: kk that was rude . 

[kosmokhaos]

When people ask me why I care about cultural appropriation:

Because Kardashians will take cornrows 

And turn it into this.

Or take what is a racist caricature of a Black Bodies,

And turn it into this while be praised for it.

Or when Black women get mocked for their lips and Skin:

But Kylie Jenner can be praised for doing this:

Or when White people and celebrities can do this:

But women like this are seen as ugly (even in their own communities) or a called terrorists by others:

Things like that causes things like this:

Ok tell me how it doesn’t matter again?

[sugarmacaron]

…I didn’t even know about that caricature

[bando--grand-scamyon]

neither did I ^

[animalsnaps]

[alienbby]

THAT LAST ONE WOW

[oomshi]

[lukerhemmings-]

i dont wanna be the person that drinks vodka straight from the bottle and ruins christmas but i feel like thats where my life is headed

[hellomurrr]

Hmu if you’re a drama free girl who likes drinking and/or weed and is super chill with literally everything and needs a best friend.

[blunder]

3 things that makes me stress:

hot days

annoying people

stand close to annoying people in hot days

[richterbelmont-deactivated20250]

If we are mutuals we are friends and i love you

[dubblebubble]

those people who sit with you and help you rationalize all your negative thoughts and never yell or get tired and just stay with you until you feel less sad are the real angels of this world omg

[fuckoffloverboy-deactivated2019]

[skygrl]

dancing on the highway (2001)