@hellothisareemily

20 California 

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I’m tired of girls trying to invalidate their own feelings during times of pain, especially to their friends. Your break up meant something. That friendship you lost was a hard blow. I understand why you feel tired this semester. Sometimes this “modern woman” stereotype is patriarchy’s last attempt; patriarchy disguised as feminism. You don’t have to be “wise beyond your years”; your pain and crying does not mean you are not intelligent. If you feel your friends demand justification for your pain and ordeals, they’re not friends. You’re strong but human. Remind yourself emotional space is part of liberation.

[hellothisareemily]

2017

2017 is finally about to be overrrr!! Recap time : ) 

January 2017. This month was just a really chill month. I just had fun, did a lot of things that I couldn’t do in 2016. Celebrated Lunar new year!! Celebrated Celine’s birthday too!! 

February. In February, I didn’t do anything that I could really remember. Took hiking trips, ate a lot, drank a lot. I think this month, I got more and more into makeup!! The obsession began ahaha. Celebrated Denise’s birthday, I bought her some custom donuts then we had dinner : ) 

March. Celebrated Sheila’s birthday !! Hung out with them a lot this month. Brunch dates with bananas, Spontaneous ass SD trip with Cindy after our night shift. Hiked Potato Chip rock, ate some tacos at 3 in the morning, literally a suicide trip. Went to Beyond!! Literally the funniest, yet awkwardest event ever because of Allison and her ravebae LOL. Had a mommy daughter spa date with Denise!! 

April. MY 20th BIRTHDAY. ate so much food, got so fat. so many dinners. went to SD for easter weekend and visited the flower fields!! More disneyland trips. Catch up dinners. 

May. I got a dog this month, Cookie!! Celebrated Lex’s birthday. Ice-cream trips : ) Celebrated Mother’s day !! More dinners, a lot of dinners with bananas. Tommy’s graduation where he had yet another allergic reaction. This month I also went pescatarian!! Went on an adventure for AMy’s 19th birthday. Then finally, LED !! one of the very best and worst events with Anthony, Brandon, and Cindy because of a certain incident. 

June . Nothing too much happened this month. It was summer, it was hot. 

July. 4th of July! A lot of dinners once again, Cindy’s birthday!! Ten Ren’s summer party. Slander !! 

August. The most last minute vegas trip everrrrrr, literally a suicide trip LOL. The very last beach trips, SD trip. Such a fun but hot ass summer. 

September. School is finally back. Tramps with my SF friends again : ). A lot of hustle. 

October. This month was when I got my big & twin. Disneyland trip with Ames to celebrate our 1 year snapchat streak LOL. Pumpkin patches. 

November. Black friday shopping, brunch dates, Disneyland trip with all of Bananas. 

December. Finally, Christmas. LED, last minute buying tickets to events like day 2 of LED and San Holo. SD trips. Dinners with family, ILFD, Inactive, a lot of dinners. 

2017 was a very interesting year to say the least, I kept the friends that I had. Became more closed off to people and kept to myself more which is something that I’m not usually am. Saved and spent a lot of money, laughed a lot, had no tears from pain or anything, stayed happy. I’m excited for 2018 because this year will be memorable and I know it. Whatever that does happen, happens. I’m excited for 2018 and everything that it has to offer, time to FSU. 

[hellothisareemily]

Hello 20s

Peace out teen years, you were good and bad to me. What I learned during my teens was... Not everything bad will end up being the worst thing to happen. That boy that broke your heart isn't even worth the tears. People come and go but protect the ones that actually stay. Love hard and be happy. Cry hard but know that it's not the end of the world. Be happy, you're still so young with so many opportunities waiting. Eat well and have no regrets. There's only 1 of you, take care of it. Run 5 miles but also eat that slice of cake if you wanted to. Work hard but it's ok to have fun too. Not everything is a competition, do your best. Holding grudges is not even worth it, let things go and be free. It's ok to be by yourself, have fun doing it. Lastly, smile and be thankful for what you already have in your life. It was fun, but I'm ready for you 20s.

[hellothisareemily]

2016

Looking back into 2016 since it’s now February in 2017, I think I had an amazing year but it’s all a blur. 

January 2016. I was on winter break for the longest time but in this month, I was able to take Denise to disneyland as her christmas gift. Although I went to Disneyland a few months prior in 2015, I think it was a really good day since I’ve never been with her. We also celebrated Celine’s birthday in this month. I remember coming to her house with a bunch of balloons which completely threw her off then we went bowling. 

February 2016. This month was Denise’s birthday month. I don't know how i did it, but I got her a gift that she has been wanting for the longest time which took the biggest tow on my wallet. I got her a Kate Spade bag, one that I, myself, have been wanting for the longest time but that’s ok. 

March 2016. I do not remember anything that I did in march. LOL. but this was the month of spring break and way too many beach trips. 

April 2016. My birthday month. I remember clubbing for the first time, being roasted more than ever, spending my birthday with jessie eating and just going on a lot more adventures. 

May 2016. This year I was able to get my mom something that actually was practical for mother’s day. I got her new dishes for the house so we can all use them. I also went to my first LED event this year. It was amazing and all a blur haha. 

June 2016. Graduation season!! I remember going to Six Flags for free with Denise. My cousin’s high school graduation where I got her some pretty nice HK roses. Jessie’s birthday beach celebration then clubbing later on that night with too much alcohol in my system. A LOT of beach trips. Adventures everywhere. Pokemon go hunting when it was still a thing. 

July 2016. Going to see 3lau with the ten ren fan. Protecting Randall so he doesn't get hit on hahaha. Looking for jessie, cindy, & emily at the event. then telling jessie to come to the taco truck so we can take pictures but she responds with “but i’m not hungry” HAHA. museum adventures. random drinking nights. spending a lot of time with family. Drinking some more for Cindy’s birthday. 

August 2016. I finally went paddle boarding this year. I fell in the water and it was the funniest but scariest thing in the world. 

September 2016. I finally got braces this year. It was painful but made me proud that I was able to support myself with something like that. I grew up with people telling me to get braces and I finally got them at the age of 19 hahaha. This year I also decided to pledge again. I met amazing girls that I didn't even know & i got a big sis that I loved. 

October 2016. A lot of hardships this month but also a lot of fun. Late night adventures and a lot of laughter creating endless memories. I also went to my first pumpkin patch!! 

November 2016. More memories being made, a lot of tears, a lot of laughs. I took my big sis to disneyland for her birthday. I spent most of sophomore year makeup free. I went to a club filled with mexicans and it was very interesting. had a whole lot of sleepovers. went delusional way too many times. went on a lot of adventures. spent a lot of time with family. had sleepless nights. 

December 2016. Took a lot of christmas pictures. went up to see snow with my family. Gave gifts that made me so happy, received gifts that made me so happy. Finally went to countdown with the best group. and counted down the new year with cindy. 

Overall, 2016 was amazing. I had so much fun. I drank way too much compared to 2015. I laughed a lot more, I looked forward to a lot. Went on way too many bad dates. Kissed way too many random people. KISSED A GIRL FOR THE FIRST TIME LOL. Made new friends and kept old ones as well. Got rid of the toxic people in my life. Spent a lot more time with family. Worked more than usual, bought so many random things. Finally got braces. I just had a good year and I’m happy. It’s the 2nd month into 2017 right now & I’ve had a lot more opportunities being thrown my way which I couldnt be more grateful of. 

[hellothisareemily]

September 22nd, a date that will forever remind me of us. 

Today would’ve been our 6 year anniversary, we would’ve probably have been going to Disneyland this weekend to celebrate and just be happy together. Sadly, we aren't. 

Sometimes I wonder how you’re doing, if life is treating you well, if you have your academics held together, if you still hang out with the same friends or drive the same car. I wonder if your family is still the same or if you still have that hole in your wall from when we got into an argument. I wonder so many things and sometimes for such a long time that I tell myself to stop. Clearly the two of us have moved on from each other but you will always remain in my heart as a what if. What if we could’ve solved our problems and remained happy. What if certain things hadn't occurred and our timing wasn’t off. I miss the thought of you and all of the memories that we shared. How we even managed to get through 5 years is incredible to me, too bad we couldn’t get to 6. No matter, you taught me such valuable lessons throughout the time that I knew you and taught me how to love myself or see the beauty within myself. 

I hope you’re doing well and maybe one day we’ll cross roads again but for now, I wish you the best and I hope that someone could bring you the utter happiness that I never truly fulfilled for you. 

[hellothisareemily]

7/12/16-7/16/16

couI am back !! 

July 12th, Tuesday

So on Tuesday, I had a full shift of work so I dealt with that. After work, I went over to Cindy’s because she wanted to go snack shopping. Had tacos for dinner then we went for a walk around her neighborhood. After that, I think we just chilled for awhile then watched the Purge for free !! yay !! We went to edwards. We were so scared of the previous but the overall movie was really good. I really liked the storyline. Got home at like 1 :) 

July 13th, Wednesday 

So on Wednesday, I woke up and then got dragged out to run errands. Had breakfast with mama then washed her car and shit. Afterwards, I went home and got ready and went to Cindy’s. We couldn’t decide on what to eat or do but then we got Paperpot Shabu and Chelo. Afterwards, we went to ulta and then I went home after awhile. Decided not to go to work 

July 14th, Thursday. 

So I woke up early for the gym and then went home. Was supposed to go to the beach with Cindy but i fell asleep. After awhile, I got up and got ready then we went to museums in LA. Went to MOCA, and the Broad. It was whatever, pretty standard museum stuff. Went to pershing square and I caught pokemon. LOL. after that, we went back into the area. picked up hard tickets, and then got oh my pan !! After that, we decided to get popeyes. Headed back to cindys. Denise came over and we all went to almansor to catch pokemon. there was so many people there, it was hilarious. Went home at like 11

July 15th, Friday 

Got up and went to the beach with Cindy and Janelle. Went to Sunset and it was so nice and quiet. Chilled there for a good...2-3 hours. Went to get nitrolado ice-cream and it was amazing. I got durian avocado and it was so goooooood. After that, we headed back into the area. Changed at Cindys and off I was again. Picked up the boys and then had dinner at Monzo in Little Tokyo. I got the Udon Gratin. It was soon yummy. caught up and talked. caught pokemon LOL. then we went to a viewpoint where we could see the LA buildings. It was nice. hehe. Headed back into the area and dropped them off. Went home really quick to pick up cups and beer then headed back to Cindy’s. All the girls were there and I was the last one to arrive. Drank and played games. it was funny. Jessie died. Denise and joely left first. then Celine. and then I took jessie and Emily to go get tacos at king taco. dropped them all off and got home at like 4. I died. 

July 16, Saturday. 

So I got home really late and I woke up at like 12. Haven't done anything since since this was my only day off from anything and I just wanted to chill. I have a full shift of work tomorrow and it will be super busy. 

[hellothisareemily]

I could fuck with you for eternity, infinity. 

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I want to be so skinny that nothing can make me look fat.

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I hope you find someone who doesn’t make you sad at night and someone who reminds you how much they love you every day and who laughs at your jokes and wants to listen to your music and who genuinely what’s to be with you and doesn’t make you second guess their love for you. I really hope you find that. Because you deserve that.

May 4th, 2015 - don’t settle for less

7 months later I can hardly still follow my own advice

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[holdaseccarla]

It was worth it, you know?  Being loved, and loving you. I’ll never regret it.

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[written-on-polaroids]

I deserve someone who actually gives a fuck about me because I’ve spent my entire life making other people happy when all they did was leave.

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Human relationships are strange. I mean, you are with one person a while, eating and sleeping and living with them, loving them, talking to them, going places together, and then it stops

Charles Bukowski

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I hope you find someone who knows how to love you when you’re sad.

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You know you really love someone, when you don’t hate them for breaking your heart.

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