Head... hurts...

Wh... what's h- happenin' t'me...? (@ashagonyaugghh)

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

...hhuh? wh.. why'm I..

Umm... hhh.. hello..?

I'm... mm.. I'm Ssssanford... S- Sann... ford..

...

I dount... knowwhy I'm.... here...

I'm... tired...

Where's... a- audi..?

Hello people of tumblr. It's @ashagonyaugghh. again.

Yes I made another Sanford.

Yes this is my own au.

Yes this account is audiford focused.

General warnings though, this account WILL likely showcase things like manipulation, (maybe, if a certain someone else is brought up,) torture, and coercion. Not into anything more than being helplessly devoted, but I'd advise anyone uncomfortable with that to maybe not interact with this one. I do not condone toxic, abusive relationships in real life, this is merely an exploration of a what if scenario.

Sanford is held captive within the walls of the AAHW, and yet he's smiling, always smiling. Always giggling as he slurs out word vomit about how much he loves his leader. Always wandering around like he's sleepwalking. Is he sleepwalking? Am I dreaming? What am I doing here? When can I go home? What day is it? Who am I looking for?

On the rare occasion that the Auditor actually shows up on here, xey will use any pronouns and will be represented by bolded red text

Be normal. Blog-runner is a minor.

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

n. nobody's coming for me. I'm gonna die here. trapped. alone. fucking- hiiii- hhhindered in- in ways I can't-... I- I can't fix- I- My mind is- m- my mind- I... I- Iiiii...

God... Deimos... where are you...? Deimos...

(ooc: no the differing colors are not a hidden message. Sanford is struggling between his two extremes. thank yew <3)

[killingandviolencefan2002]

h.hello. being a bit scary right now...

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

w- wanna go home- but I- I don't... even kn- know where they've got me-.. I-... ev- everything after I went... t- to look for h- him is... is all a b- blur, but-.. but nobody is coming f- for me. N- no one is going to help me. I-... I feel like I can barely hold my sss- stupid head up, and- and no one will h- help me...

I...

I'm scared.

[yet2bdamned]

Sanford. Breathe. Describe your location

Do you see any possible exit routes?

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

n- no, I-... I c- can't... there's no... I- I'm surrounded... bbbby walls, and-... p- posters, and... and bars.. I- I think I'm.. I'm in... in a cell... I c- can't... leave... can't... stand... can't... think... I- I don't want t-...

...

They're here. I have to go- sorry, I- I have- gotta- g- gotta go now, they're here-

[killingandviolencefan2002]

SQ ORGANISATION NOTICE: SANFORD IS NO LONGER HAVING FOOD OR ACCOMDATIONS INCLUDED IN HIS WAGES.

[killingandviolencefan2002]

HE KNOWS WHAT HE SAID

[gils-numbah-one-fan]

whgat. that's like. illegal i think. also how is he supposed to do his work if he's like, starving bro :|

[killingandviolencefan2002]

HE CAN GO FUCK HIMTHELF. THE LAW ITH MADE UP ANYWAY

[gils-numbah-one-fan]

you're made up >:c and fine i'll just give him my food and accommodation wages >:c

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

d. deimo....

[killingandviolencefan2002]

SHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUP

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

[written note that says "ok :("]

[killingandviolencefan2002]

SQ ORGANISATION NOTICE: SANFORD IS NO LONGER HAVING FOOD OR ACCOMDATIONS INCLUDED IN HIS WAGES.

[killingandviolencefan2002]

HE KNOWS WHAT HE SAID

[gils-numbah-one-fan]

whgat. that's like. illegal i think. also how is he supposed to do his work if he's like, starving bro :|

[killingandviolencefan2002]

HE CAN GO FUCK HIMTHELF. THE LAW ITH MADE UP ANYWAY

[gils-numbah-one-fan]

you're made up >:c and fine i'll just give him my food and accommodation wages >:c

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

d. deimo....

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

n. nobody's coming for me. I'm gonna die here. trapped. alone. fucking- hiiii- hhhindered in- in ways I can't-... I- I can't fix- I- My mind is- m- my mind- I... I- Iiiii...

God... Deimos... where are you...? Deimos...

(ooc: no the differing colors are not a hidden message. Sanford is struggling between his two extremes. thank yew <3)

[killingandviolencefan2002]

h.hello. being a bit scary right now...

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

w- wanna go home- but I- I don't... even kn- know where they've got me-.. I-... ev- everything after I went... t- to look for h- him is... is all a b- blur, but-.. but nobody is coming f- for me. N- no one is going to help me. I-... I feel like I can barely hold my sss- stupid head up, and- and no one will h- help me...

I...

I'm scared.

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

n. nobody's coming for me. I'm gonna die here. trapped. alone. fucking- hiiii- hhhindered in- in ways I can't-... I- I can't fix- I- My mind is- m- my mind- I... I- Iiiii...

God... Deimos... where are you...? Deimos...

(ooc: no the differing colors are not a hidden message. Sanford is struggling between his two extremes. thank yew <3)

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

audidor gav me... a- a cookie touday... f- for... 'nnnot runnin'... what this mean?...

[killingandviolencefan2002]

th.thats awesome man. you can eat it.

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

I p.. puut in aull in my mouf atonce and.. cchhoked on it :[

[killingandviolencefan2002]

thats.thats b.b.basically what happens when i try eat anything.

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

I-... I'on't know why didthat... Ifink somethin wrrong,, b,, but dok wwont try t'- t'help me... Hhh.. hhhe hate me... I.. Ijust wann go home...

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

audidor gav me... a- a cookie touday... f- for... 'nnnot runnin'... what this mean?...

[killingandviolencefan2002]

th.thats awesome man. you can eat it.

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

I p.. puut in aull in my mouf atonce and.. cchhoked on it :[

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

audidor gav me... a- a cookie touday... f- for... 'nnnot runnin'... what this mean?...

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

Hm. How did this happen? - @wryndow

hhh.. whhh.. whaddyou... mmmeann...?

I dount... unders'and...

[wryndow]

You working for Auditor.

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

I- I nn- not... w- workin for... I doun't... I- I don't know what I'm doing here-!

I don't-... I don't wanna be here..!

[killingandviolencefan2002]

your what???

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

I- I'mmmmnoooootttt- I'm not- I- I can't-... So- something is wrong, an- and I can't... I... can't... makeit stooooppppp...

[His tone gets more whiny and desperate the longer he tries to convey the issue.]

H-... help me... please... hhhelpme...

[killingandviolencefan2002]

why should i help you if you went off to work for someone else?

[dissenter-broadcasting]

Bitch he's clearly not working for them willingly?

[killingandviolencefan2002]

how do you get in this situation unwillingly. how do you get in this situation at all.

[dissenter-broadcasting]

Kidnapping is a thing, moron. And you wonder why we all conaider you the worst version of yourself when you say shit like that.

[killingandviolencefan2002]

SORRY KIDNAPING USUALLY DOESN'T MAKE YOU ACT LIKE A WEIRDO UNDER A MAGIC SPELL DIPSHIT

[dissenter-broadcasting]

OOOOO, I'M SORRY YOU'RE FAR TOO STUPID TO SEE MIND CONTROL AND HYPNOSIS WHEN IT'S BEING VERY OBVIOUSLY SHOVED IN YOUR FACE, 2BDAMNED!

[killingandviolencefan2002]

MIND CONTROL ISNT FUCKING REAL

[dissenter-broadcasting]

SO ZEDS AND WHATEVER THE HELL KINDA BULLSHIT IS GOING ON IN NEXUS AND THE AGENCY IS PERFRCTLY FINE, BUT MIND CONTROL IS WHERE YOU DRAW THE LINE???

IT'S FUCKING NEVADA! ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE, DIPSHIT! IT CAME FREE WITH THE IMPROBABILITY DRIVE BEING TURNED ON!

[killingandviolencefan2002]

EVEN IF THAT WAS TRUE WHY WOULD I HELP SOMEONE MIND CONTROLED BY AUDITOR

[dissenter-broadcasting]

BECAUSE THAT'S YOUR FUCKING EMPLOYEE AND HE CLEARLY NEEDS HELP??? YOUR WRETCHED EXCUSE A G02! AND YOU WONDER WHY NOBODY FUCKING LIKE YOU WHEN YOU PULL SHIT LIKE THIS!

[killingandviolencefan2002]

HES MY EMPLOYEE NOT MY FUCKING FAMILY!!?!!!?!

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

p... pleas... sotp yyyelling... headhurtss... bleaaaseee... st.. stop...

[killingandviolencefan2002]

IM NOT EVEN BEING THAT LOUD

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

ₛₒᵣᵣᵧ... ₛₛₛ.. ₛₒᵣₑᵧᵧᵧ... ᵢ ₛₒᵣᵧᵧᵧᵧ...

[killingandviolencefan2002]

why are you doing that. dont do that

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

di... didI do som'thuing bad againm?.... sorryyyyy... I-... I didn't... I don't... know wh- what's ha- happening t'me..

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

I'mgoing bedbye... wveryome yelling and it hurt head bad bad bad... I wannsleep.. nnno... nomore... poasting...

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

[OOC POST. BEWARE!]

M. My son. he is sicks. but also an ARTFIGHT BABEEYYYYY YEAHHHHH

THE MY BOY IS HERE

yay :]

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

Hm. How did this happen? - @wryndow

hhh.. whhh.. whaddyou... mmmeann...?

I dount... unders'and...

[wryndow]

You working for Auditor.

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

I- I nn- not... w- workin for... I doun't... I- I don't know what I'm doing here-!

I don't-... I don't wanna be here..!

[killingandviolencefan2002]

your what???

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

I- I'mmmmnoooootttt- I'm not- I- I can't-... So- something is wrong, an- and I can't... I... can't... makeit stooooppppp...

[His tone gets more whiny and desperate the longer he tries to convey the issue.]

H-... help me... please... hhhelpme...

[killingandviolencefan2002]

why should i help you if you went off to work for someone else?

[dissenter-broadcasting]

Bitch he's clearly not working for them willingly?

[killingandviolencefan2002]

how do you get in this situation unwillingly. how do you get in this situation at all.

[dissenter-broadcasting]

Kidnapping is a thing, moron. And you wonder why we all conaider you the worst version of yourself when you say shit like that.

[killingandviolencefan2002]

SORRY KIDNAPING USUALLY DOESN'T MAKE YOU ACT LIKE A WEIRDO UNDER A MAGIC SPELL DIPSHIT

[dissenter-broadcasting]

OOOOO, I'M SORRY YOU'RE FAR TOO STUPID TO SEE MIND CONTROL AND HYPNOSIS WHEN IT'S BEING VERY OBVIOUSLY SHOVED IN YOUR FACE, 2BDAMNED!

[killingandviolencefan2002]

MIND CONTROL ISNT FUCKING REAL

[dissenter-broadcasting]

SO ZEDS AND WHATEVER THE HELL KINDA BULLSHIT IS GOING ON IN NEXUS AND THE AGENCY IS PERFRCTLY FINE, BUT MIND CONTROL IS WHERE YOU DRAW THE LINE???

IT'S FUCKING NEVADA! ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE, DIPSHIT! IT CAME FREE WITH THE IMPROBABILITY DRIVE BEING TURNED ON!

[killingandviolencefan2002]

EVEN IF THAT WAS TRUE WHY WOULD I HELP SOMEONE MIND CONTROLED BY AUDITOR

[dissenter-broadcasting]

BECAUSE THAT'S YOUR FUCKING EMPLOYEE AND HE CLEARLY NEEDS HELP??? YOUR WRETCHED EXCUSE A G02! AND YOU WONDER WHY NOBODY FUCKING LIKE YOU WHEN YOU PULL SHIT LIKE THIS!

[killingandviolencefan2002]

HES MY EMPLOYEE NOT MY FUCKING FAMILY!!?!!!?!

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

p... pleas... sotp yyyelling... headhurtss... bleaaaseee... st.. stop...

[killingandviolencefan2002]

IM NOT EVEN BEING THAT LOUD

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

ₛₒᵣᵣᵧ... ₛₛₛ.. ₛₒᵣₑᵧᵧᵧ... ᵢ ₛₒᵣᵧᵧᵧᵧ...

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

Hm. How did this happen? - @wryndow

hhh.. whhh.. whaddyou... mmmeann...?

I dount... unders'and...

[wryndow]

You working for Auditor.

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

I- I nn- not... w- workin for... I doun't... I- I don't know what I'm doing here-!

I don't-... I don't wanna be here..!

[killingandviolencefan2002]

your what???

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

I- I'mmmmnoooootttt- I'm not- I- I can't-... So- something is wrong, an- and I can't... I... can't... makeit stooooppppp...

[His tone gets more whiny and desperate the longer he tries to convey the issue.]

H-... help me... please... hhhelpme...

[killingandviolencefan2002]

why should i help you if you went off to work for someone else?

[dissenter-broadcasting]

Bitch he's clearly not working for them willingly?

[killingandviolencefan2002]

how do you get in this situation unwillingly. how do you get in this situation at all.

[dissenter-broadcasting]

Kidnapping is a thing, moron. And you wonder why we all conaider you the worst version of yourself when you say shit like that.

[killingandviolencefan2002]

SORRY KIDNAPING USUALLY DOESN'T MAKE YOU ACT LIKE A WEIRDO UNDER A MAGIC SPELL DIPSHIT

[dissenter-broadcasting]

OOOOO, I'M SORRY YOU'RE FAR TOO STUPID TO SEE MIND CONTROL AND HYPNOSIS WHEN IT'S BEING VERY OBVIOUSLY SHOVED IN YOUR FACE, 2BDAMNED!

[killingandviolencefan2002]

MIND CONTROL ISNT FUCKING REAL

[dissenter-broadcasting]

SO ZEDS AND WHATEVER THE HELL KINDA BULLSHIT IS GOING ON IN NEXUS AND THE AGENCY IS PERFRCTLY FINE, BUT MIND CONTROL IS WHERE YOU DRAW THE LINE???

IT'S FUCKING NEVADA! ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE, DIPSHIT! IT CAME FREE WITH THE IMPROBABILITY DRIVE BEING TURNED ON!

[killingandviolencefan2002]

EVEN IF THAT WAS TRUE WHY WOULD I HELP SOMEONE MIND CONTROLED BY AUDITOR

[dissenter-broadcasting]

BECAUSE THAT'S YOUR FUCKING EMPLOYEE AND HE CLEARLY NEEDS HELP??? YOUR WRETCHED EXCUSE A G02! AND YOU WONDER WHY NOBODY FUCKING LIKE YOU WHEN YOU PULL SHIT LIKE THIS!

[killingandviolencefan2002]

HES MY EMPLOYEE NOT MY FUCKING FAMILY!!?!!!?!

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

p... pleas... sotp yyyelling... headhurtss... bleaaaseee... st.. stop...

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

's it nnnnormal... t'feel like... there's two 'f mmme...? One.. who t.. thhhinks gooder... and... one who... who... c-.. can't... thiijnks at all...?

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

Hm. How did this happen? - @wryndow

hhh.. whhh.. whaddyou... mmmeann...?

I dount... unders'and...

[wryndow]

You working for Auditor.

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

I- I nn- not... w- workin for... I doun't... I- I don't know what I'm doing here-!

I don't-... I don't wanna be here..!

[killingandviolencefan2002]

your what???

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

I- I'mmmmnoooootttt- I'm not- I- I can't-... So- something is wrong, an- and I can't... I... can't... makeit stooooppppp...

[His tone gets more whiny and desperate the longer he tries to convey the issue.]

H-... help me... please... hhhelpme...

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

hi :]

- @killingandviolencefan2002

heeeeyyyyy!! :) hiii hhhank hiiiiiiiiiii.... Idount.. think I'm. s'posed t' talk... wi'h you 'nymore... They... they dount.. likeit.. whennn... whennnn I... um..

[killingandviolencefan2002]

w.what. why not.

d.d.did i do something b.ba.bad. im sorry. w.what did i do. im sorry.

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

nnnoooo... no, I... I dount... I'on't rem'ber wh... why I'm not memnt to..? Uhhhh... something... sssssomething... whyyy... can't I... reme'ber...

[killingandviolencefan2002]

oh. uhm. m.m.maybe you have just confused me for someone else.

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

Ummmm... I... I dunno... sorry... sorryyyy...

[Sanford sits down, hunched over a bit, staring at the floor]

...I cannn't... rem'ber... wh.. what... I.. wh- what I... s'pose be doin'... It.. scary... Feel... foggyyy...

[killingandviolencefan2002]

oh. did. did you get hit in the head really hard. they hi.hit me in the head really hard alot and now my brain is bad.

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

Feel like... dreaming... mmmaybe... f- fever... dreaimning... I dount... know... mmmaybe.. I'm ssssick... I gonna... ask Them to... t- takea loojk at me...

[killingandviolencefan2002]

ask. t.tob.

2b. i ca.can tell you where he is

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

I- I douunt think I'm 'llowed to... t- to... leaveee...? They domnt... like wjen I waonder off... Prolly 'cause... so foggy...

[killingandviolencefan2002]

when you l.leave where. the. hospital. im not allowed there no more.

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

Mnnnn... h- hold... onnnn... um...

[Sanford audibly messes with something,]

T-... heeerrre...

This.... h- here...? I dount.. knoew.,, I just... wokge up here...? I don't... rem'mber... wh-.. wha'happen t'me...

[killingandviolencefan2002]

oh th.thats a picture of...., someone. like a poster maybe

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

[Sanford shakily glances at the posters behind him, then turns back around, looking especially worried,]

I need-... thinkI.. need help... getout.. of here... get-.. get me.. out of here..!

[killingandviolencefan2002]

w.w.well were are y.you i can go.

worried

[helplessly-devoted-pawn]

[He thinks it over,]

I- I'm... um.. I think I'm...

[...He loses the train of thought.]

...Whuh.. whu'was I sayin'...?