Ope

My heart is slowly falling back in to place. but my mental health continues to plummet

[tokkeki]

ひろ

[taitetsu]

[bibbity-bobbity-booyouwhore-dea]

[hotboyproblems]

Me, on a date: so how do you feel about using old memes?

Them: I honestly hate people using memes that have expired. It’s not funny anymore

Me, shoving breadsticks into my purse: I came out to have a good time and I’m honestly feeling so attacked right now

[uniqueforeverr]

[kindnotestoself]

[be kind to yourself]

[odonianpoet]

[helpmeiamdrowning2]

Okay so, here's the scoop.

I'm thinking about going to treatment for like the 9 mental illnesses I've been diagnosed with.

[just-shower-thoughts]

Dragons would have problems blowing out birthday candles.

[khangi]

What Native people say about the use of sage: you can use sage, but you cannot smudge as nothing you are doing (waving sage around) is actually smudging. Smudging is a ceremony and you are, we promise, not smudging. Please buy sage from either us, or someone who sources the sage from us. White sage may not be considered endangered by the US government but corperate sourcing is making it difficult for us to source sage for our own religious purposes. Let alone to sell it.

What white people hear: never use sage ever, don’t ever buy it, don’t own it, don’t even look at it.

Look, y’all. There’s a couple of facets to my talk today.

1) Yes! You can buy sage! You really, truly can! Buy it from either native sellers (go to a powwow! Eat our food, buy our stuff, watch some dancing!) Or buy it from a seller who sources the sage from native people. Pick one. And no, buying it from 5 Below doesn’t count.

2) you CANNOT smudge. This isn’t just you “shouldn’t”— this is a YOU ARE INCAPABLE OF SMUDGING. Waving a sage stick around your doorways IS NOT SMUDGING. It is smoke clensing. Smudging, depending on the tradition and tribe, could easily have dancing and drums involved. You, as a white person, do not have the cultural BACKGROUND to even know how it works. At all. Period.

3) please, for FUCKS SAKE, stop making posts here on tumblr where you tell other white people about cultural appropriation and what they can and cannot do. Please stop, your license has been revoked because none of you bother to get the facts right. We native people are FULLY CAPABLE OF DOING IT OURSELVES. Consider instead: a) reblogging our posts where we talk about it! We’re here! We have made posts!! b) Making a post that states what we said and then LINKS BACK TO US. Screenshot with a link if you must. Stop centering your own voices in these conversations. You are already centered in everything, stop centering yourselves in a native space.

I’m tired of this nonsense, y’all.

Thanks for coming to my TedTalk ™

Reblogging because cultural mindfulness is a thing.

[stardrop-skies]

I’m not arguing or anything, I’m just a little confused, but- can you explain to me why white people are incapable of smudging? My family is all white but we’ve used sage for smudging as far back as I can remember- but I always thought that was a pagan thing, so now I’m confused. Again, I’m not trying to argue- I’m just confused because I thought this was a paganism thing, not a culture thing.

[khangi]

Smudging is not the same thing as smoke cleansing.

Smudging is a sacred ritual with far more detail to it, and is a thing done exclusively by native people who often have been trained to do so. Many people I know have been exclusively trained by elders on how to do it. (For reference, I really don’t even know how, and I am a native person who has watched it been done many times.)

Non-native people cannot smudge because they don’t even usually know what smudging IS, let alone how to do it. They don’t have the needed cultural background to know.

[mandalorianreynolds]

It’s like asking if a non-Christian can meaningfully bless a mass with a thurible. (AKA a censer, one of these:)

They’re used in Catholic, Orthodox, Anglican, and some Lutheran services, usually by a priest or minister.

So, could someone who is not Christian lead a mass? Give a blessing? Perhaps most similar to why white people want a smudging, perform an exorcism?

Or would that be just meaningless playacting? If you believe in any of the spiritual backing to these belief systems, yes. It would. And playacting at the rituals of a culture the oppression of whom your (very recent!) ancestors directly benefitted from IS DEEPLY AND OBVIOUSLY DISRESPECTFUL.

So, fellow white people: don’t pretend you can smudge.

[helpmeiamdrowning2]

No.

I'm saying No to my fucked up mind.

I'm saying No to my commitment to die.

I'm saying No to being sorry, I did nothing wrong.

I'm saying yes to being angry, I'll express it through song.

I'm saying No to accepting that this is my defeat.

I'm saying Yes to getting back up on my feet.

I'm saying No to fighting for something that is lost.

I'm saying Yes to finding something that will be worth it all.

[helpmeiamdrowning2]

I see the trees you called "spooky" and I think of you. I see rainbows and I think of you. I see some of my clothes and I think of you. I see Carter and I think of you. I get excited and I think of you. I see hu hot and I think of you. I see bowling alleys and I think of you. I see anything space related and I think of you. I see a nasa shirt and I think of you. I see our fucking cats and I think of you. I see a vanilla shake with no whipped cream and I think of you. I see the memories on snapchat and I think of you. You're all I can think about.

[helpmeiamdrowning2]

I won't reach out anymore. But please reach out to me. I'm not okay.

[helpmeiamdrowning2]

I'm getting close to just saying fuck it.

[helpmeiamdrowning2]

I can't confide in anyone because I trust no one.

[helpmeiamdrowning2]

Anorexia tip. If you don't have an appetite, it's fucking easy to starve.

[helpmeiamdrowning2]

She paints a pretty picture..

[helpmeiamdrowning2]

She will never understand how much I need her.

[helpmeiamdrowning2]

I feel sick constantly. The pit in my stomach doesn't go away