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I miss having friends

I miss writing

happy pride month! it’s a good day to be queer

When I look back I would never think that I would be raising your kids. That i would take them into my heart and love them like they’re mine. That I’d be experiencing their milestones without you. I was playing with your little boy yesterday morning and he smiled so big and I thought I wish you were here to see this. The joy on their faces. He pulled himself up on the step stool, the little stinker and oh he was so proud of himself. I wish you were here for this. I wish you were here to see them grow up.

#grief

On average people grow up with 2 parents. But when you grow up with two moms and two dads; 4 parents and suddenly you lose a mom a lot changes but also everything is still normal. You still have a mom who takes care of you and loves you. You still have a mom you can talk to, someone who will give you advice. You still have a mom you can crawl into bed with when you have a bad dream. In the eyes of a child you still have 3 parents who take care of you. Losing a parent is like losing a limb, you just learn how to live with the parts you still have. Life still goes on and its normal. But theres something missing, you look over and what was once there is gone and you know you cant get it back. You learn how to live without that limb by making the most with what you still have.

Grief looks different on everyone. Children don’t grieve like adults do. I expected angry outbursts or tears. But instead everything is just… normal. She gets a sad look in her eyes when you talk about it. But more often than not she’s still smiling. Shes still making jokes and being a silly goofball. She’s making plans on how she wants her new room to look like. She’s making new friends. Shes happy and doing better in school.

She’s still loved.

#grief

Coming on here to see what people thought about the good omens finale, knowing they’re going to be hateful wenches. And i was correct.

That ending was absolutely beautiful

#good omens #good omens 3 #go3 #good omens finale

For anybody who cares, I dont know when I’ll get back to writing or anything else. Probably not for a long time. An unexpected tragedy occurred in my family 2 weeks ago. My best friend’s ex, the mother of their child, the mother of my son’s sister took their life. It’s hard to even write this. They left behind 3 amazing children that me and my best friend have been helping the father now raise. My household has gotten bigger and its been a time where we have been grieving and holding onto each other.

Melon, wherever you are I promise I will look after your babies, I will love them and give them a life you wanted. You once told me how much you appreciated everything I’ve done for your daughter and you thought of me as her second mom. I will continue to be that for her in this life. I will hold her when the nightmares are rough, I will be there for every milestone, i will make sure she is always happy and healthy. We didnt always see eye to eye but in the end i thought we couldve been friends. I thought we were getting closer. Just a month ago me and your daughter were planning a picnic for all of us to go on in the summer. Our blended family.

I remember the day you invited me and my son to the gym. It was so unexpected and while i was nervous i was also really happy about it. It was the first time you reached out to me. I should’ve reached back. I should’ve reached out to you more. But i didnt and ill never get that back.

During this time ive gotten to know your kids and they already have me wrapped around their little fingers. I can’t replace your love but ill do my damnest to make sure they know they are loved and cared for.

I’m sorry you were hurting, that you felt like you couldn’t ask for help. I’m sorry you felt guilty for hurting in the first place.

Happy Mother’s Day Melon, rest easy

#personal #grief

aziraphalesnightingale

Omens in Wonderland AU: So the Story Goes... Chapter 3

Rating: Mature (M)

Tags: Crossover, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Minor Character Death, Fluff and Angst, Mild Hurt/Comfort, Alternate Universe - Alice in Wonderland Fusion, Inspired by Alice in Wonderland, Crowley Loves Aziraphale (Good Omens), Aziraphale Loves Crowley (Good Omens), Good Omens References, Post-Season/Series 01, He/Him Pronouns For Aziraphale (Good Omens), He/Him Pronouns For Crowley (Good Omens), BAMF Aziraphale (Good Omens), Protective Aziraphale (Good Omens), Mutual Pining, Discorporation (Good Omens), Gabriel is Not Nice (Good Omens), Happy Ending, Holy Water (Good Omens), Hellfire (Good Omens), Heaven is a Bureaucracy (Good Omens), Hell is a Bureaucracy (Good Omens), Aziraphale is "just enough of a bastard to be worth knowing" (Good Omens), Kissing, Aziraphale and Crowley Like Holding Hands (Good Omens), Food as a Metaphor for Sex, Slight Arousal, Crowley Watches Aziraphale Eat (Good Omens), Miracle Blocker (Good Omens), Crowley is a Little Shit (Good Omens)

Summary:

After a rude interruption to one of his reading sessions, Aziraphale finds himself in Wonderland. He gets more than he bargained for and ends up pinned with the responsibility of saving Wonderland from certain destruction. Will he stay and help, or run due to his anxieties? Only time will tell.

This is a WIP that is about 90% written. Updated weekly.

Chapter 3 Excerpt:

“Uh, thank you, I suppose. That was most kind of you,” he replied. Crowley’s eyes shot back towards Aziraphale and he jabbed the angel’s chest with a long boney finger. “Don’t use that word.” Startled, Aziraphale held his hands up in apology. “Of course… quite forgotten you don’t enjoy four letter words.” He then pressed his lips together, turning his attention back to the other angel’s searching. “Might I ask what you’re looking for?” “You may.” Crowley smirked. The angel cleared his throat. “Let me rephrase that. What are you looking for?” “Sunglasses.” Bless it! He’s being difficult on purpose now.

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bl0ndwave

Let me offer you a meme in these trying times

because it's a wild ride

gabe-dasha

"HOW COULD WE HAVE BEEN HAPPY"

No one is ever allowed to tell me that Aziraphale abandoned Crowley because he didn't feel the same way. He knew damn well what Crowley meant and he wanted it too. He wanted "an Us". He knew he would have been happy with Crowley.

It's just that he would have also felt guilty and selfish. And he knows Crowley would too.