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This year hasn’t even ended and I just got on a legal age, yet I feel like I lost everything.

And sadly it keeps going on.

I lost trust,

I lost faith,

I lost love,

I lost beliefs,

and that pretty much makes myself above all.

I maybe a little bit emotional or overwhelmed just like when I was younger, but this feels so real, in a way that even small things can easily break or trigger you.

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Where did I go wrong? Where did I mishandled things? Where did I lost them?

Where am I?

Birthday Letter ...

Dear 18 self, I know this is too late, but I still want to congratulate you for making it to this age. It's true that in this life, I'm the only one who knows you the most. I know that you're confused and scared. I know that you're happy and sad at the same time. I know that you're not really enjoying this day. But don't feel bad about it. Don't feel pressured to those people who keeps saying or asking to enjoy your birthday or you are on a legal age. Don't feel sad that after all this years, you're still alone on this day. Remember, it's just your age that change, not you. This day will pass like nothing happen. You aren't cursed just because you're alone. There a lots of people who loves you, who still cares for you. You don't need a certain guy to make you feel special because you have a lot of people that's making you that way everyday. And the most important of all, God loves you so much. You can be happy on your own. Just take your time. There's no deadline or a finish line to achieve. I know that one day, you can love yourself more than ever, you just need to find it. Haha now I'm pressuring you. It's ok. It's ok to cry, it's ok to feel anything you want. Don't mind other people. Be who you truly are, and one day you're gonna be fine. Take care of yourself. From your positive 18 self...

miss my tumblr so matsss <3

#procrastination #ohyeah

Segundo, Minuto, ORAS

Segundo pa lang simula nung mag-online ka

Saya ang naramdaman, Kinabahan, Nataranta

Hindi mawari kung bubuksan ba ang chat box o tititigan na lang ang active mong ngalan

Sa sobrang tuwa, paglog-out mo’y di na namalayan.

Lubhang ikinagulat ang iyong pagkawala

Ang tuwa’y napalitan ng labis na pagkadismaya

Minuto pa lamang ang lumipas ng ika’y mawala

Agad na ikaw ay nais nang makita.

Ang segundo at minuto’y napalitan na ng oras

Ngunit patuloy pa rin nakatitig sa iyong ngalan

Umaasa, naghihintay, bumubulong ng “sana”

“Sana’y bumalik ka na, nais kitang makausap.”

Ang panahon ay sadyang lumipas na nang pagkatagal-tagal

Dumaan na ang mga sandali, pagbalik niya’y wala pa rin

Napapansin mo man, buhay mo’y sinayang mo na,

Lubha ka pa rin nagpapakatanga sa pagtititig sa screen

Mapapaisip ka na lamang, “Tama pa ba na ika’y hintayin?”

Para bang wala naman nangyayari sa aking gawi

“I-chat ko na lang kaya?” iyong nawari,

Ngunit kahit ito’y gawin, wala ka pa rin pake.

Dito pa lamang, akin nang naiisip

Kung segundo ka lamang nagtagal, paano na kaya yung “tayo”?

Kung minuto pa lamang ika’y umalis na, ikaw rin ba ang unang mamamaalam sa atin?

at kung oras pa lamang ang lumipas ng iyong pagkawala, kakayanin ko pa kaya?

Ngunit pawang mga kababawan ko lamang ang mga ito.

Dahil ANG SEGUNDO, MINUTO AT ORAS MO’Y KAILANMAN HINDI PARA SAKIN.

how to be a beginner ninja ft. Luffy XD

Bagay na Pasensya na lang

Pasensya ka na. Oh eto na,ikaw pa pala ang naabala ng lagay na yan. Pwes pasensya ka na kung naabala ka.Naabala ka sa bagay na matagal ko ng gustong ibigay. Ewan ko nga ba, kung bakit sa lahat ng bagay na pwedeng mapunta sakin, eh ikaw pa. Ay, oo nga pala. Tao ka nga pala. Kaya nga isinasauli ko na sayo ang bagay na kailanman hindi magiging tayo. Siguro kung nagkaroon lang ako ng pagkakataon na piliin ang bagay para sakin, hinding-hindi na kita isasali sa pipiliin ko. Pasensya ka na, kasalanan ko pa pala.Ako na nga itong nagpaparaya, ako pa rin pala ang puno't dulo ng lahat. Sana, tinanong mo muna ang sarili mo kung may nagawa ka ba. Ay, oo nga pala, wala ka naman maitatanong dahil wala kang ginawa. Pasensya ka na kung binitawan ko agad ang bagay na pwedeng mabuo. Pasensya ka na kung ako ang bumitaw sa bagay na ang posibilidad ay hanggang "pwede" lang. Sa dami ng responsibilidad natin, yung "tayo" pa lang eh hindi mo na magampanan. Kaya pasensya ka na kung binitawan ko na ang bagay na kailanman ay hindi ko na dapat pinanghawakan. Kaya nga ito na, sayo na lang. Sayo na lang ang mga bagay na sa atin ay nasayang, sayo na lang ang bagay na hindi mo kayang panindigan. Sayo na lang ang bagay na pasensya na lang.

I have a changed of heart. And I hope ypu don't expect yourself as my reason.

LESS more, MORE LESS

Why do we always want to be EXTRAORDINARY , when at the end of the day , we’re just ORDINARY?

Today, our world got a lot of EXTRAS.

Money,

Technology,

Everything that would make our lives easier and satisfying.

In order for us to have this all, we’re striving hard by having a proper education.Going to school or learning center at a very young age, forcing your brain to be shaped already. Good grades will depend on your improvement , and as long as you were studying, you will depend your life to your improvements that depends on your grade. And the bad thing is if you’re not positive to almost everything, it’s obvious that you will develop fear and pressure. If you think you surpassed all this, you will live happily…. you bet….

You will got a job,

do your lifelong goals like,

paid your parents or someone’s hardwork when you’re still a student,

be independent at the right age,

meet the right one and get married,

Bought a house with your own family,

work and work and work for your family,

until you received your pension and became a senior,

bought your space at the cemetery and a coffin,

and you know the end.

You got everything and anything you wanted. You will be satisfied now, but let me say this before any of this happen, are you happy living with more and more until you die with less?

#writerfeels #realization #daydreamerthoughts

Crush or Love Confession Test

So I did this out of curiosity or maybe from craziness and boredom . I asked a few guys a life changing question (I think it’s only me though XD)

The question is this , “Kapag sinabi ko na may crush ako sayo,anong sasabihin mo?” (If I say that I have a crush on you, what would you say?)

#123015 #ConfessionPaMore #WalangMagawa

UNCERTAINTY, SINGULARITY, ANTI-ROMANCE, TRUTH AND LIES BEHIND THE CAMERA

#SanaDati

Tama nga ba ang Mali? O Mali ang Tama?

Pipikit na nga lamang ba? Magpapadala sa alon ng nararamdaman? O susundin ang nararapat?

Iisipin ko pa ba ang tama, kung hindi naman ako masaya? O gagawin ang bagay na sa aki'y nagpapaligaya, Ngunit mayroong tao na nasasaktan?

Saan nga ba ako nagkamali? Ang bagay na tanging hindi ko mawari… Saan din naman ako naging tama? Ang bagay na tanging hindi ko alam…

Ano nga ba ang dapat kong gawin?

Ang bagay na sa aki'y may dalang tuwa, ngunit may taong natatapakan? O ang bagay na sa karamihan ay alamna nararapat, Ngunit sa aki'y may dalamahating maiiwan?

Paiiralin nga ba ang sariling kapakanan? O susundin ang alam mong ikapapanatag ng iba? Masama na nga bang tunay ang maging masaya? Ganito na lang ba lagi ang aking kapalaran?

Masasagot pa nga ba ang marami ngunit pare-parehong katanungan? kung ang iyong isipan ay mas magulo pa sa sagot na iyong kailangan?

#midnightthoughts #nothing #writer feels

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