. . . STONED IN PARADISE. princess eleanor henstridge of the royals. by nosta.
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. . . STONED IN PARADISE. princess eleanor henstridge of the royals. by nosta.
❥ glass animals , an aesthetic meme .
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eyes killer cold and black and bare. i wanna go back, i wanna go back. i wanna take to my guns and break you. i’m so so cold in the marrow of my bones. i was in full bloom until i met you. dance with me and shake your bones. paperback dreams in my deep doze. take your throne, pump your veins with gushing gold. shake my little soul for you now. i’m a fool of many tricks and tools and joy, with a battery of guilt on which to poise. mind my wicked words and tipsy topsy slurs. i can’t take this place, i just wanna go where i can get some space. i take your gloom, i curl it up and puff it into plumes. how can i believe you, how can i be nice, tripping around the tree stumps in your summer smile? face so lost, petrified, timid twitch in your wide eyes. you’re so juiced, you said you’d kick the booze. don’t you cry, don’t you drain those big blue eyes. i fake my breaking smile. i’m a twisted fool, my hands are twisted too. don’t spin me a lie, i’m crooked but upright. all i ever want, is just a little love. all i ever want, is breaking me apart. makes my nerves clench close and my bones go cold when i see that room. your smile so super quiet. you won’t make it back this time. you know, you know the way that i hide. why don’t you dance like you’re sick in your mind? you know the way that i hide for you. can’t you feel your dirty face? don’t it leave that filthy taste? you can’t breathe without me.
daddy was dumb, said that i’d be something special. brought up tough but i was a gentle human. said that he loved each of my two million freckles. i sit in the car and i listen to static. you were clearly meant for more than a life lost in the war. i know you’ll feel the ghost of the memory so warm. my body’s in tatters, in an ordinary fashion. maybe, i wish i could remold you to vertical and golden. it hurts to say it’s hopeless and we ain’t gonna make it. sometimes it makes me laugh, sometimes it makes me sad. why can’t we laugh now like we did then? how come i see you and ache instead? how come you only look pleased in bed? i want you for the world, i want you all the time. i won’t forget how you looked at me then. why don’t i say it then? i want you all the time. my heart strings broke and it was me, i pull they stretch infinitely. in the summer silence i was getting violent. i’ll be dreaming in my paper pale skin. burn through my love just like your drugs. everything you didn’t know you were looking for. i wish you could see the wicked truth, caught up in a rush it’s killing you. i settle for a ghost i never knew. i miss him, don’t you blame me. i feel so fucking numb. gonna fuck my way through college. i’m gonna sleep ‘cos you live in my daydreams. i am a true romantic, free falling love addict. pulled me through the door and stuck her teeth in deep. all your days are gone, sitting on the floor in your underwear, begging me for more. why don’t you light that cigarette and calm down, now stop and breathe a second. go back to the very beginning. can’t you see what was different then? your head is so numb. that nervous breath you try to hide, between the motions that trembling tender little sigh. i want to hold you like you’re mine. you’re gone but you’re on my mind. i’m lost but i don’t know why.
. . . STONED IN PARADISE. princess eleanor henstridge of the royals. by nosta.
yo everybody who has a rich, fucked up, emotionally drained muse with nasty vices: hmu let’s make a club
𝐆𝐀𝐘𝐋𝐄 ♡ 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒
change gendered language to your needs. ♡
“ the results were disappointing. i was devastated. ” “ i’m not gonna deal with that shit. ” “ so, i put the panini in a balloon & swallowed it whole. ” “ you watch your mouth in my house. ” “ try not to let anyone see you, i hate the way you move in public. ” “ if you haven’t made your bed, throw it away. it’s too late to make it now. ” “ so i swiffer-vaulted out of there & broke my fucking mandible on some nutri-grain bars. ” “ you callin’ me a liar? ” “ WELL TUESDAYS. AREN’T. GOOD FOR ME. ” “ so i black out from the rage, and come to covered head-to-toe in hollandaise sauce. ” “ it gives me a panic attack when i look at your legs. ” “ i think i left the blow-dryer on. ” “ you got no lips. you have skin that turns into a mouth. ” “ nothin’ gets me goin’ like a juke box musical. ” “ why should i even get out of bed? ” “ i got your grape juice, you pansy. ” “ i’m gonna go put myself on craigslist. ” “ i’m gonna punish you with my leg. ” “ could you excuse me for one second? ” *screams* “ so i stole a pig. ” “ menopause is only gonna make me stronger. ” “ i’m angry, i’m aroused … ” “ what would you have done? ” “ was that you doing zumba on my front lawn? ” “ it’s my birthday so that means you have to watch me do crunches. ” “ LOOK AT ME. ” “ why do we have a sink if you’re not gonna wash the blueberries? ” “ let’s face it. this town needs a change. ” “ the anthropologists are gonna see this & they’re gonna want to study you. ” “ i’m gonna sleep in the chimney tonight. ” “ YEEHAW MOTHERFUCKERS. ” “ could i have a word with you under the table, real quick? ” “ okay, was anyone planning on telling me that a walrus can suck the skin off of a seal or was i just supposed to read that in national geographic myself? ” “ you’re a walking lisa frank notebook. ” “ i was already in hell, but now it’s like i’m going to hell grad school. ” “ i don’t know which apostle i swirlied in a past lifetime, but i’m really paying the price now. ” “ this is a dish towel. we need a hand towel. what are we, barbarians? ”
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Like any unloved thing, I don’t know if I’m real when I’m not being touched.
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Cold, I felt. Cold as a garden in winter, gone deep to ground.
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. . . STONED IN PARADISE. princess eleanor henstridge of the royals. by nosta.
“ do you ever feel like you’re just a fucking walking disaster? ” heavy exhale, pouting lips of smudged lipstick part slightly when she brings the cigarette back to them ( sharing misfortunes with a man isn’t something she’s used to do – men are just distractions to her, meanings to an end. like mother, like daughter ), “ ... ugh, no, forget I said that. it’s lame – do you have anything strong in here? I need a drink. ” ( @vikteres )
“ it’s okay, I don’t like talking about my family either, ” sardonic snort echoes past her lips, before she brings the cigarette back to her parted mouth, and for a moment, she remains silent, as if the joke were obvious ( you can’t ever hide from the world that you’re a Henstridge ) before finally adding, “ you should see the interviews I have with the bbc. they’re a fucking blast. ” ( @countsfear )
“ you chose the wrong person to mess with. ” ( @vikteres )
“ hm, oddly enough, that doesn’t really make not wanna do this. ”
voice is a mocking tut, both hands perch on the armrests of the sofa where the man sits, and she leans forward with her back arched, and their eyes connect ( there’s something otherworldly eerie about this guy, and maybe she should listen to her gut instinct ). however, Eleanor’s self destruction has reached its peak tonight ( it’s masked as a desire to do something her parents won’t approve of, used to conceal the true need to sink deeper and deeper into her own misery ). what she knows right now is that this man looks dangerous, and yet, he is absolutely charming. that is the deadliest of combinations – and that is the one she’s been searching for tonight.
“ who says i’m planning to mess with you in a bad way? ” she snorts, head shifts forward to loom closer to his mouth ( her hair is in the way, in stringy black waves that partially conceal the slight smudges of her thick eyeliner ). there’s a coppery smell around him, she can’t decipher if it’s just bad cologne or something else, “ i’m not asking you to call me tomorrow. fuck, you don’t even have to have breakfast with me – ” there it is, the tinge of desperation concealed behind cockiness ( just let me fuck this up, as always ), “ let me stay the night. bet I know a few tricks you haven’t seen yet. ”
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“ i tried my best. ” ( @countsfear )
“ and it wasn’t enough – boo hoo. join the club, hotshot. ”
there’s not bitterness in her voice as much as there is a nonchalant acceptance of her own words ( perhaps she’s just half too drunk to properly display any signs of being upset ). they don’t know each other, barely two strangers sharing troubles at a pub – the most pathetic of pictures to display on a Saturday night. Truth of the matter is, this is the only place left in London the paparazzi haven’t found her at, and thus, Eleanor takes advantage of the anonymity that the drunken, poorly lit atmosphere of the place offers her. However, misery loves company, and soon, the few exchanged courtesies between her and the man sitting beside her on the bar becomes a full conversation – as much as it can be called one, at least.
“ y’know, my mum used to say that if you can’t do your best and actually succeed, then it doesn’t even matter. you still failed. ” Helena is a brutal teacher ( most of the things she’s taught her children have done nothing but fuel their addictions and their low sense of self worth ), but Eleanor cannot say she didn’t use to take those teachings to heart – hence, perhaps, the reason why they still get to her. Hence, perhaps, the reason why she’s drinking tonight. And she offers a sardonic curve of her lips, a cynical smirk ( they come off naturally to her by now ), twirls her glass of scotch and downs its contents in one go.
The burnt sensation down her throat is numbed by the amount of alcohol she’s consumed already – it’s an endless, vicious cycle.
“ god, that actually sounded worse said out loud – fucking sad. ” she chuckles ( it’s full – blown bitter now, no attempt at concealing it any longer ), “ i’m usually way more fun than this when i’m drunk. usually, i’m half naked and dancing on tables too. ”
𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐊, 𝐒𝐐𝐔𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐔𝐏 ♡ 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒
some lyrics slightly modified. change gendered language to your needs. ♡
“ i could die in this moment. ” “ my face is kind, but not my attitude. ” “ you chose the wrong person to mess with. ” “ don’t go. just stay. ” “ if i want it, i’ll take it from you. ” “ stop keeping them around & just cut them out of your life. ” “ would have, could have, should have, didn’t. ” “ i don’t play nice like everyone else. ” “ everything about you makes my skin crawl. ” “ i’m smiling for myself. ” “ i gotta know that you’re for real. ” “ kiss me like it’s our last. ” “ got a feeling you’re feeling me. ” “ you light a fire in my heart. ” “ say life’s a bitch, but mine’s a movie. ” “ those other girls around you are nobodies. ” “ i tried my best. ” “ you’ll end up coming to me, anyway. ” “ what’s the deal? ” “ keep it real with me. ” “ if you kiss me once, i’ll kiss you twice. ” “ there’s nothing to regret. ” “ you ain’t shit. ” “ i don’t want you no more! ” “ you messed up. again. ” “ see you later, maybe never. ” “ i’m not angry anymore. ” “ everything about you is so lame. ” “ have you forgotten who i am? ” “ i’m a boss bitch. ” “ i erased your number. ” “ you should have been good to me. ”
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❥ 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐋𝐘 𝐑𝐀𝐄 𝐉𝐄𝐏𝐒𝐄𝐍 [ 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒 ] .
sentence starters of lyrics from songs by carly rae jepsen . some lyrics slightly modified to be more usable . change gendered language & add context to your needs . ♡
“ tell me how you feel about it . ” “ we just met . ” “ i wish we could be holding hands . ” “ you’re the one i want , you’re the one i know . ” “ everywhere you are is a place i want to go . ” “ do you ever think about us ?? ” “ anything to capture your attention . ” “ i always know where you are . ” “ you always know where i am . ” “ we’re taking it way too far . ” “ your lips are undeniable . ” “ your heart is unreliable . ” “ i wish it didn’t feel like this . ” “ you know you’re just my type . ” “ your eyes are lock & key to my heart . ” “ i threw a wish in a well . ” “ don’t ask me , i’ll never tell . ” “ you’re in my way . ” “ i’d trade my soul for a wish . ” “ where do you think you’re going ?? ” “ it’s hard to look right at you . ” “ all the other boys try to chase me . ” “ you gave me nothing at all . ” “ before you came into my life , i missed you so bad . ” “ you should know that . ” “ you break my heart just to watch it bleed . ” “ i’m sick with love like it’s a disease . ” “ don’t call me up just so i can please you . ” “ stupid girl , i really tried to warn her . ” “ i walked the streets all night until you came around . ” “ i need your love . ” “ i left a scar on you that no one else can see . ” “ do you know that night , i almost said ‘ i love you ?? ’ ” “ you almost said it back . ” “ are we gonna be more than a memory ?? ” “ are you gonna just stand in front of me , pretending i’m not your destiny ?? ” “ i’m not over you … are you over me ?? ” “ say my name , ’cause no one else can say it quite the same . ” “ i’ve missed you way too much . ” “ is there a way to make it up to you ?? ” “ i wanna change so much , you know i do . ” “ if words can’t speak , lay your body next to me . ” “ i don’t know what i’m after . ” “ you were talking so sweet , i had to taste . ” “ don’t you share your smile with anyone else but me . ” “ we’re not lovers , but more than friends . ” “ tonight , i’m getting over you . ” “ i should be in your arms , but i’m begging at your feet . ” “ try for me just a little longer . ” “ i’d run away with you . ” “ you gotta say all that you’re feeling . ” “ i’ll be your sinner in secret . ” “ run away with me . ” “ i wanna stay here with you . ” “ hold onto me , i never wanna let you go . ” “ over the weekend , we could turn the world to gold . ” “ you like making me wait for it . ” “ how’d we get in this position ?? ” “ i know this isn’t love . ” “ i really , really , really , really , really , really like you . ” “ did i say too much ?? ” “ all i wanna do is get into your head . ” “ who gave you eyes like that ?? said you could keep them ?? ” “ i like the feeling , how you make me shy . ” “ i should’ve asked you to stay . ” “ just let me in your arms . ” “ i wanna be the best you’ve ever known . ” “ show me if you want me . ” “ if you’re gonna go , then go . ” “ so tired of hearing all your boy problems . ” “ i think i broke up with my boyfriend today , and i don’t really care . ” “ i’ve got worse problems . ” “ what’s worse ; losing a lover , or losing your best friend ?? ” “ i used to be in love with you . ” “ i love you , i’m sorry , i’m sorry , i love you . ” “ you ain’t tried no drug like me . ” “ nothing’s impossible , now that i found you . ” “ i keep a window for you , it’s always open . ” “ i just wanna get a little bit closer … ” “ the night’s not over . ” “ i wanna do bad things to you . ” “ baby , don’t you want me too ?? ” “ i don’t have the energy to risk a broken heart . ” “ am i bad for you ?? ” “ my heart needed a holiday . ” “ one more night with you always turns to two . ” “ i need to find a love to love me with no hesitation . ” “ don’t you tell me now you’re ready for me . ” “ you always got the right words at the wrong time . ” “ you only want me when i’m leaving you . ” “ it feels like i just don’t know who to trust , sometimes . ”