drowning in a place

where everyone else can swim

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may I ask for your take on something ?

hey!! im sorry for taking so long to respond, but absolutely, if you need my opinion on anything, shoot!

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iamnotyourface replied to your post “if you push everyone who cares about you away and then have the...”

I agree w what you're getting at dude but that's too harsh

i know its harsh and i recognize that im probably being dramatic right now but this specific post is about 

someone i considered a friend, who went around abusing people who cared about me while stringing them along saying that he loved them, and caused one of them to attempt suicide after he decided to kick them out of his life, and even though he knows about this and the pain he was causing people, he continues to whine about how he thinks everyone he loves leaves him, when hes just denying that hes an abuser and a disgusting person

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YOU hurt everyone around you and then you complain about being lonely??? fuck off

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if you push everyone who cares about you away and then have the fucking audacity to say everyone you love leaves you, i hope you die alone ❤

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i’m finally in a healthier mental state and a happy relationship, so why are my thoughts still trying to bring me down?

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I wish you'd come back, I wish you'd be a totally different person towards me. Healthy, apologetic, non-toxic and most importantly, not a liar or a cheater. I know that if we had had a healthy relationship it would've lasted forever. We love each other. I fucking hate you and love you at the same time. I wish you could just get your act together. I'm scared you'll always be the person that I love the most but never have. That'd be a lonely existence. I can't have you now though, it's unhealthy.

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i hate when things are looking up, and everything feels content and safe, because without fail, something always goes wrong and im thrown right back into suicidal zone

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People are so fucking fake all they care about at the end is themselves

sip sip

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i had a dream that my boyfriend was in a coma last night. i really hope it isn't anything prophetic. i told him about this morning and he told me that he had a dream that my dad was buried to his neck in Australian scorpions and i really wish that dream came true.

one can not be true without the other, choose wisely?

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my two biggest fears are my inability to face reality, and that my unreality isnt much better

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hello my name is anxiety man and my special ability is shaking so much that i look like im vibrating

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can't figure out if i want to break up with you or if i just want fuck someone new and feel wanted for a change

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update on how im doing

god fuckinng dammit

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im doing my best. please just let it be good enough.

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Sorry for being inactive lately! Original mod is back.

Feel free to submit posts or send asks! I'm trying to get this blog back to regular posting schedule.

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i used to love you and then i hated you. now im not sure what i feel

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thanks for reminding me what a horrible person I am!! I was starting to forget and you've really snapped me back to reality!!