Welcome to my brain.

18. This is where I go when I want to be alone in my own head.

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I need to feel loved.

I need to feel loved. It's that simple. I'm not saying you need to cling to every single thing I say and tell me I take your breath away every five minute but I do need someone who makes me feel like what I'm saying is important and I matter. Lately I haven't had that in the one person I need it from the most. I  understand it's not his fault and he has a lot going on but I can't live like this anymore. I find myself walking down the street and having to make an effort not to jump in front of cars and buses. I can't help thinking it'd be easier to just do that than to live every day feeling like I'm not enough. I consciously have to tell myself that no matter how much I feel like it'll make it easier it won't. I don't share this with him because I don't feel like he'll care and I don't want to face that reality. I don't want to face that I'm not enough for him. I don't even feel like he'd take me seriously to be honest. I'm sick of feeling like this isn't real. Just because it isn't year-round doesn't make it less dangerous.

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[anxiousblackho]

I hope u sent that shit

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need to remember this

[yoursixwordstory]

He took more than her virginity.

(via the-psycho-cutie)

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It's so helpful having a master to tell me what i can and can't do.

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He drives me so crazy. One day I'm gonna snap.

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I hate poop. Like for real. It’s the ickiest bodily function. I would rather throw up. Ew.

[restfulraccoon]

chilled ✌️💀

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So when I was little I thought that everybody had “thoughts” about the same sex. I knew I liked boys but I thought everybody thought about the same sex too.  When I realized I wasn’t like most of the other people in my grade and realized I was bisexual it was a weird time for me. I don’t like to label myself bisexual because I feel that people are gonna tease me. They’ll say things like “just make up your mind” or “that’s not a real thing”. Bisexual is a thing. Everyone needs to stop treating us like we’re confused middle school boys and girls. No it doesn’t make me a lesbian. No it doesn’t mean I want attention. It means that I am attracted to males and females. I am bisexual and proud. I will no longer avoid answering when people ask me if I identify as bisexual, HELL YEAH I DO.

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[rebeccadanaehere]

I’m so completely and utterly in love with this.

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tattooooo

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this grounding is the worse thing that has ever happened to our relationship. I can feel us drifting farther apart every day and I feel like we won't get a chance to talk about if before it's too late. I have no idea what I'm supposed to do.  The worst part is its not even the grounding. It's the timing of the grounding. We have had no time to Just sit down and talk. Every time we get even a little bit of alone time we're too focused on sex to talk. I'm going to try and find time cause we need to talk if we want a fighting chance. But so far it's not looking good. 

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I'm unbelievable.

I was just laying here trying to get sleepy and I started freaking out thinking about planning a wedding with Phillip. It's going to be the hardest thing to do ever. Like I can't imagine out two families ever coming together and agreeing on anything. Like at all. I can just see it now. His mom telling me I'm a spoiled brat that likes wasting money and me telling her she just doesn't understand putting happiness before bills. And then I cry. I cry a lot. And then my mom decides to come to my rescue and then I yell at her and then everyone is just really upset. The worst part is that is just deciding on whether we should have two chocolate fountains or just one. How are we ever going to decide on the big decisions? I can't just kick both of our parents out of the decisions but I don't know how they'd agree on anything. This is so stupid to be thinking about right now but it's bothering me.

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It's so stupid

But every time I watch tangled I cry when the lanterns go up. It's the dumbest thing ever but everything about the scene is so beautiful. The way that Flynn is looking at rapunzel, the lights, how happy she is to finally be getting her dream, the music. Ugh I'm so lame.

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I just need to cry sometimes. Like a lot.